I have been awake since 4am
yup 4am
im so damn tired!
I woke up and had a whole hour of dying of hay fever
then just couldnt get back off to sleep
these early morning starts have been happening since saturday morning
so thats almost a whole sodding week!
I've felt pretty sick today think its new medication
cus i dont usually feel this sick
This morning I went for a run at 7:30am
best doing it that time of day as its a lot easier
and more enjoyable too
I came back showered and then at 10:30am I went to see Mia
I told her that I was on anti-psychotic drugs and she didnt seem phased by it
she doesnt know why im on them tho
and we talked about stuff some deep stuff some fun stuff
I told her how im not affectionate towards adam and she said something that
made me interested
"what would be the difference between you and a friend?"
"how can you make him feel that you are the only one he will experience certain things with"
i kinda didnt think of stuff like that
i push him away a lot and i know it must not be nice for him but i never thought
how other aspects must impact on him
especially as he is quite an affectionate person
i must suck as a girlfriend
but he knows me and he can deal with me XD
i came home and had lunch not that i wanted it but with mum
there, there was no getting away with not having lunch
just didnt want it
then we went to tk maxx i got 7 pairs of pants and 6 pairs of socks
just stuff i needed oh and i new bra as well~
then we came home it was very hot
I sat drawing my brother's picture which I have finished now
and that took a lot of my afternoon
think i drifted off for half hour as i was so damn tired and it was hot and humid
humidity is awful lately
tomorrow im not doing park run as ive got a hair cut at 10:30am
whether i run in the morning i will see what time i wake up at
hopefully not the crack of dawn
then im not sure what im doing with my day after that really
not got any plans
i got these in the post this week!!!!!
They feel amazing so smooth and varnished and the
handle is longer than the red ones i have
these ones were only £1.70 as well, such a bargain i love them
and these were used in a real Yosakoi festival!!
theyre not as noisy as they only have the clappers one side
I took my red ones to show mia today and she was impressed with them and wanted to dance with me using them, so who knows it might happen and it might not but she liked them
