Evening~~~
So last night I went to the arcades at a bowling allay
We went for dinner first I was in a bit of a huff about it all
as im not always a fan of eating out
we went to Frankie and Bennies and I had chicken with pasta with chips
odd combo and i wanted to see what it was like
wasnt expecting to see it on the menu but anyway
adam had fish and chips
his fish was over done
my chips were stone cold my pasta verging cold and chicken luke warm
but for how long it took to get any service i couldnt be arsed to send it back
i kinda just wanted to get out the joint
adam paid
We went over to the bowling allay
we started on pool, adam completely thrashed me on the first game
i thought "let him get it out his system"
second game came and he went about it all the same
so i waved jumping up and down on the other end of the table saying
"hey I do exist!!"
he didnt get me so I told him "this isnt life and death you know, have fun, its not a competition i just want to enjoy it" after that he did loosen up a little bit
we played a few more games, none i won, he went to try and let me win but i told him off for pulling that kinda crap on me, no one pussy foots round me
we went onto the air hockey table
and during the game the puck fell off the table a few times (hitting it too hard)
and one time i hit it, it flew off the table and smashed into something
i mean smashed
it hit something on the air hockey table next to us, at first glance i thought id smashed a light on the machine but on closer inspection it was just a drinking glass someone had left on the floor
someone came to sweep it up i said "sorry about that" she blanked me, screw her i carried on playing air hockey. Oh and I also lost at that too. My hands were beginning to shake at this point my energy leaving me, we went to hoops which is basically basketball
we played against one another and after round one adam had 38 points i had 114
smashed him
and i think because i kept doing so well i kept getting more rounds to play whereas adam had finished after round 1 i had 4 rounds in total! i was exhausted!
i used to play for my primary school and secondary school basketball team
good to see i havent lost it ;)
adam could see i was exhausted
this is just how i used to be damn it and i HATE IT
my hands looked like i was an alcoholic on withdrawal
he brought me a bottle of water and we sat for a lil bit then i said i think i should drive us back before i over did stuff. So i drove us to his house and he made me a brew
i sat with his parents and we talked about our night then i had 10 minutes of cuddle time on adams bed X3 then i left for the night at 10pm
I was up til 2am couldnt sleep and aching which is how its been since sunday night
mum woke me at 7am like i said to as i wanted to join her on a run
so i reluctantly got ready, i cant go back to sleep once i wake in the mornings anyway so might as well do a run. She drove us to a park down the road and i went off but did a longer route than usual and i managed it as well
upon coming to a small children's park to cut through to get home i was greeted by a German Shepard barking its head off at the fence at me to the park. Its owner, a rather large stupid cow was pushing her daughter on a swing in the children's park. She was saying the dogs name and the dog took no notice and continued to bark and growl at me. I went to park gate and the dog followed me all the time going mental. Why the hell it wasnt on its lead in public and on a children's park i have no idea god forbid any other person was around. I looked at the dog shook my head at the woman and ran the long way home. It wasnt the fact i was scared it was more i didnt want to be disfigured by that dog for life. ive seen dog bites and they never heal well
i cleaned my girls out and then showered, had breakfast, cut fabric and now i can actually start making a start with the sewing, i know i will need to cut more fabric out at a later stage but i want to see some progress
i went on my laptop just to watch a dance id got in my head
it's Fairies Beat Generation
damn good dance looks hard but i like the challenge and ive been struggling to find any dances that i REALLY want to learn so i might give it a go
then I had lunch and went to see adam
weird how my mood instantly changes sometimes when i see him sometimes im happy sometimes im so distant and cant do enough to push him away yet half hour earlier i could be really wanting to see him, i do not understand this messed up mind of mine
i drove us to a park and we walked round i let him play pokemon go cus i was in too much of a bubble and couldnt snap out of it. then we went to my house for a brew and stayed there for a lil while and then i went adams and we didnt have a lot of time there so we didnt do anything and i came home for foodage
since then i havent done anything other than watch beat generation a few more times and do my diary i always struggle with the evenings on what i want to do, im so tired and my mind so busy its hard to focus on anything really.
god i hope i sleep tonight
i cant keep this up man
tomorrow gonna sew then maybe see adam and we have yoga were the lovely karen is back! im looking forward to seeing her! i hope she doesnt work us to death, ive been doing yoga in my spare time but nothing like what she puts us through
