Evening
Think I actually slept from like 10:15pm til my alarm. Thats 2 pretty good nights on the trot!
It was nice to wake up and not feel like utter death
I was however stupidly anxious. I felt sick and everything!!! WHY!?
I wasnt even going to work today!!! It was very annoying
I told Jack that some of my anxiety was worrying if I was allowed to stay off school, would I get into trouble, would I be able to get enough work done?
He said it was all totally fine, I wouldnt get into trouble and to do just do what I could. The idea for me to NOT get stressed. Hes right. But anxiety can be so irrational at times.....
I dropped him off at school anyway
I came home and went to bed for an hour and when I woke up my anxiety had gone
I then I got on with my drawing. I managed to get 2 topics done
The Earth
Metals and acids
I started 'forces' but only done the rough outline. So I might finish that or tonight I shall see
I had mum over at lunch time, finally able to see her ^^ We talked about Karen, we found out yesterday that Karen is not going to see christmas....shes in a hospice where its one way ticket. my granny ended up there too. Mum said she burst into tears when she found out. I think it brought it all back about granny and stuff and obviously karen being poorly. Life is short. Life is crap. I cant bare to think about it too much as I just want to cry and cry and cry. I cant imagine what her family is going through....
mum left and I continued drawing
did some chores that Jack normally does so it would help him when he got home
then I started doing a grow with Jo workout and Jack came home. I suggested doing all our chores and having a bath then eating dinner then going to bed which is what we did. Dinner was good tho ^^
I am doing my diary and might do some drawing then I will watch anime, play pokemon and hopefully sleep!
Tomorrow is school
I hope it goes ok
