Evening
I picked jack up yesterday around 10:45am
we went round a town and picked a few things up and did a walk
then we got back and made a soup from scratch
then went round the city centre cus we needed a few bits
came back and rested with a brew cus my god my mood went haywire
i felt angry, aggressive and like i could enjoy a good fight
god knows where it came from, jack asked "have you had your medication today?" XD
i told him i had and that i wasnt angry with him or anything
but by time he made me a brew and brought over some biscuits
i chilled out to my usual self
we made dinner and talked with theo then jack desired something salty so we popped to the shops for a bag of crisps XD
we played pokemon together on his bed which was nice
that night tho i couldnt sleep
jack had decided to put ear phones in to go to sleep with
so when he said "wake me if you cant sleep" it did make things hard
i didnt want to make him jump as he was clearly sleeping
i stroked his arm, his back, his side. nothing worked over a few minutes
i moved on the bed and got off the bed and he still didnt stir so i left him
i played pokemon upstairs by myself til 1am
i did manage to sleep after that but didnt want to wake up this morning
i got up at 7:30am
jack said he had a strange dream of going to his mum's but didnt know why he had gone there so came back and there was a different USB on his desk when he got back....
....
my god his dreams are boring
i said my dream was 'sitting on a double decker bus and watching people's gardens go by who all designed them to a tribute of the dead. I went down to see the driver - which was granny i asked her "how come youre driving a bus!?" and a thin pale man came up to me and said "this bus is for the dead only...but we can soon change that" he had a scalpel as his weapon, it was what he had used to end his own life. so he was cutting me everywhere and i couldnt hurt him as he was a ghost. I decided the only way i could stop him was to become a vengeful spirit so i somehow took my own life and became a ghost and chased after him by going through buildings etc'
jack said "....yeah your dreams are weird"
i said "are they weird or are yours just incredibly boring?"
I got up and ran a bath
enjoyed that, and we were out for 8:50am
to meet theo (who had been to the gym) and Pudding Pantry
an amazing pudding place!
my jaw was and still is very painful
so i needed something easy to eat. jack wouldnt let me have ice cream for breakfast tho XD
i had pancakes but ate 3 out of 4 and gave one to theo
as jack had ordered a massive breakfast that he finished but felt incredibly full afterwards
we went back to his flat and crashed on his bed
he needed to digest and i needed sleep
i didnt bother eating lunch just had a cup of tea then i came home
saw my Ozwald who decided to snore on the sofa X3
did 30mins of yoga and 30 mins of dance and actually felt better for it all
i dont mind working out if i feel better for it
its just annoying when i try so hard and dont get anything from it
showered and sat with Oz again
i will sit with him one more time then go jacks
i sorted out some crap as well, as its got to be done at some point
when i move out i have it all to sort after all :/
ordered a few vitamins online to take, started taking them a while ago and i do think they have helped actually so im keen to keep with them
tonight i am going over to jack's
he has got harvey over and theyre gonna play pokemon and order takeaway
so hopefully i will see harvey
then tomorrow ugh tomorrow im going to work >.>
suppose i had to go sooner than later
we are going to get stuff out for PAT testing and just tidy up a bit
to be honest im not even 100% sure i will be doing tomorrow but i have 37 hours to do out of my normal hours and i gotta start them at some point ><
i will go back to jacks for a brew then i can come home and see Ozwald
about it really~
