going to work tomorrow

 Evening

I picked jack up yesterday around 10:45am

we went round a town and picked a few things up and did a walk

then we got back and made a soup from scratch

then went round the city centre cus we needed a few bits

came back and rested with a brew cus my god my mood went haywire

i felt angry, aggressive and like i could enjoy a good fight

god knows where it came from, jack asked "have you had your medication today?" XD

i told him i had and that i wasnt angry with him or anything

but by time he made me a brew and brought over some biscuits

i chilled out to my usual self

we made dinner and talked with theo then jack desired something salty so we popped to the shops for a bag of crisps XD

we played pokemon together on his bed which was nice

that night tho i couldnt sleep

jack had decided to put ear phones in to go to sleep with

so when he said "wake me if you cant sleep" it did make things hard

i didnt want to make him jump as he was clearly sleeping

i stroked his arm, his back, his side. nothing worked over a few minutes

i moved on the bed and got off the bed and he still didnt stir so i left him

i played pokemon upstairs by myself til 1am

i did manage to sleep after that but didnt want to wake up this morning

i got up at 7:30am

jack said he had a strange dream of going to his mum's but didnt know why he had gone there so came back and there was a different USB on his desk when he got back....

....

my god his dreams are boring

i said my dream was 'sitting on a double decker bus and watching people's gardens go by who all designed them to a tribute of the dead. I went down to see the driver - which was granny i asked her "how come youre driving a bus!?" and a thin pale man came up to me and said "this bus is for the dead only...but we can soon change that" he had a scalpel as his weapon, it was what he had used to end his own life. so he was cutting me everywhere and i couldnt hurt him as he was a ghost. I decided the only way i could stop him was to become a vengeful spirit so i somehow took my own life and became a ghost and chased after him by going through buildings etc'

jack said "....yeah your dreams are weird"

i said "are they weird or are yours just incredibly boring?"  

 I got up and ran a bath

enjoyed that, and we were out for 8:50am

to meet theo (who had been to the gym) and Pudding Pantry

an amazing pudding place!

my jaw was and still is very painful

so i needed something easy to eat. jack wouldnt let me have ice cream for breakfast tho XD

i had pancakes but ate 3 out of 4 and gave one to theo

as jack had ordered a massive breakfast that he finished but felt incredibly full afterwards

we went back to his flat and crashed on his bed

he needed to digest and i needed sleep

i didnt bother eating lunch just had a cup of tea then i came home

saw my Ozwald who decided to snore on the sofa X3

did 30mins of yoga and 30 mins of dance and actually felt better for it all

i dont  mind working out if i feel better for it

its just annoying when i try so hard and dont get anything from it

showered and sat with Oz again

i will sit with him one more time then go jacks

i sorted out some crap as well, as its got to be done at some point

when i move out i have it all to sort after all :/ 

ordered a few vitamins online to take, started taking them a while ago and i do think they have helped actually so im keen to keep with them

tonight i am going over to jack's

he has got harvey over and theyre gonna play pokemon and order takeaway

so hopefully i will see harvey

then tomorrow ugh tomorrow im going to work >.> 

suppose i had to go sooner than later 

we are going to get stuff out for PAT testing and just tidy up a bit 

to be honest im not even 100% sure i will be doing tomorrow but i have 37 hours to do out of my normal hours and i gotta start them at some point ><

i will go back to jacks for a brew then i can come home and see Ozwald

about it really~