Evening
So last night me and jack went over to the bungalow for almost 2 hours and returned just before 9pm, we had applied the first coat to the bedroom. I was so shattered
showered and sat with Oz
I tried to sleep but jack soon went to sleep and was heavy breathing, my dad was snoring in the other room and my brother was on his ipad but sounded as if they were all next to me.
I tried to get comfy and felt my back twisting so decided to get up as my back is only just getting better really so i didnt want to twist it again.
i slept downstairs but couldnt get comfy to be honest and so my sleep quality wasnt great but at least I didnt get a twisted back
I got up at 7:45am and got my breakfast all sorted to eat outside when Jack came downstairs he hugged me and apologised as he felt awful knowing i had slept downstairs and offered to sleep downstairs tonight. I said it was fine and just didnt want a twisted back. I still ate outside in the garden it was chilly but i felt i needed the air. Oz was well happy about me being outside, he came running and kept showing off in front of me X3
I cleaned him out and he came to investigate what I was doing.
By 9:20am we were round the bungalow painting, applying the second coat. Which about did me in and then dad came round and did some jobs and we had finished he went B&Q with jack for some new locks for the house, I had come home and crawled to bed. Whilst I had been in bed Jack and dad had been fitting other things round the house such as new lights and things i had ordered online. I thought they were coming home for lunch! so mum took them lunch round, i ate lunch at home then came over to do all the white wood work in the bedroom which truly killed me off. I had had enough T^T
so much has been done to that house its unreal.
whilst i was painting in the bedroom, jack was outside the door in the hall putting up the new lamp shades which were paper lanterns. I chose one bright pink one bright red. Thinking they would add a tinge of colour to the plain light grey walls. nooooo. it made the place look like a brothel i mean we found it funny. but i has got to change it looks awful. the colour and lighting was much much stronger than i thought it would be but we liked the concept. So since then I have ordered a pale purple and pale pink. when they arrive we will put them up. I chose them cus i they would hide the hideous old wire holding the lightbulb up and add a touch of colour. they hide the wire perfectly but yeah need a lighter colour!
but dad goes at 100mph just one thing after a sodding nother. had enough. i keep leaving him with jack as i cant cope hes making my heart beat erratically. Jack copes with him better than me but then dad aso treats jack better than he does me so yeah :/
i came home and showered at 4:30pm
done in
so much for "take it easy this weekend Jo" as numerous people have said to me
how can i take it easy when people want things from me all the time!? whether thats doing stuff, fetching stuff, making decisions, talking about whats next all the damn time! Leave me alone!!!
ive been slopping off to be by myself when ever i can i just need quiet time. i dont even want Jack. i just want peace and quiet. and he keeps finding me, keeps giving me affection. i just want alone time.
tomorrow i hope i dont have to do a damn thing for that house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sick of it
think theyre aiming to get jack able to sleep there tomorrow. so i can have my bed back to myself
i have plenty of stuff to order online anyway. so that will eat a lot of my time no doubt
just had enough.
not enjoyed any aspect of moving out so far
i hope i sleep tonight
i can see myself being on the sofa, despite jack offering to take the sofa i feel bad him doing that.
i must take photos of the house tomorrow!
