Evening
I went over to Jack's around 8pm last night
we didnt do a great deal cus I was dead and it was getting late
we did have a hot chocolate and biscuits and talked with Theo
I sat with him on his bed and asked him why he told me he was in a mood on thursday
he brushed it off telling me he was fine now
i said "nope youre not getting out of it that easily, you always get me to tell you my troubles so lets have it"
and you know when you can tell someone has tears in their eyes but hasnt started crying
yup that was Jack
all over the fact he had spent too long over thinking (once again) about the forms we had to do next. Which is basically if the relationship goes tits up - -who gets what
and he was scared he would lose me and then we have to do Will's at some point (yes actually death wills) and he cant bare the thought of not having me anymore
now i know its nice feeling so loved and wanted
but my god he over thinks
so i reassured him we would be fine and im not going anywhere for quite some time
but yeah nether of us were looking forward to the form
i couldnt sleep
i was in too much pain and had forgotten my tens machine....
so we got up at 12:30 and had a brew and biscuits and another pain killer for me
and after that i did sleep but woke up a few times to get comfy again
as i was sleeping on top of my covers
we got up at 8am
and had breakfast then had a bath and then we sat doing the form
i say "we" it more jack XD it involved a lot of maths and that is something i do not specialise in
Jack can just do numbers so i was in good hands ^^
he got it done and i was there to make tea and answer any questions he had on my money
we got it done but i had a massive knot in my stomach
we went to have lunch but i couldnt eat much
after lunch we had the good bit - collecting my ring :D
So here we have my 10th anniversary ring~
'celebrating' how far i have come in the 10 years since i have had my illnesses
i love it and my family like it and so did jack actually
the heat has made my fingers swell so the photo looks like i have chubby fingers X3
its white gold with little diamonds
its so petite i love it and its goes well next to granny's sapphire ring~
well pleased with it
mum gave me some money towards it too, she didnt have to but she chose too
we had a rest then i had to come home for a pointless house viewing
one of dad's customers who is selling their house
but for like £40,000 more than i can actually afford
so it was pointless
but upon looking at it i felt a swell of pride at our future bungalow
cus my god it was a dump and totally ditched
too big as well, but yeah was nice tidy, clean or well kept
so it would have meant a lot of work for a big space we wouldnt have use for
and no grass for Oz it was all stone
i came back and sat with Oz and mum in the garden
then i sorted out a bit more of my lolita bow
i hadnt done any exercise but mum said to have a night off
i was really tired
so i had a hot shower and im gonna do my nails and have a hot chocolate
i will catch up with exercise tomorrow
im just exhausted and i ache anyway, exercises probably wont help much
so no point in pushing myself
tomorrow
probably finish lolita bow and exercise~
and send todays forms over to jack
