Evening
So last night, I could not sleep
I mean I had slept for a while during the day but I did push myself to work out, took extra pain killers before bed. Couldnt sleep as I ached, I was also having 'fat' thoughts. And also.....Jack.....wished for his death during the night. He was just tossing over like every 10mins and snoring, chewing on his teeth and just generally breathing. I was getting so annoyed by it all. I tried coming to bed twice but just wanted to murder him or overdose. 3rd time I went to bed at 2:45am and slept
I had had a biscuit, 2 slices of fruit loaf. I was hungry man. But felt greedy for eating but it had been 7 hours since I last ate anything
Woke up at 8:45am and got up as I knew mum wanted to drop off her heart monitor thing. Did not want to get up and was shocked to see Jack STILL asleep! I left him before I smothered him with a pillow XD
I went with mum around 10am to drop off her heart monitor we were so fast~
came home and had a brew with mummy and Jack I also ate a biscuit as today I have just consumed biscuits and fruit loaf XD doesnt do the fat thoughts any good tho T^T but I gotta have some treats!
the 3 of went outside to do some gardening for a good hour. Man did I ACHE after that
we were just literally weeding. Nothing we can do to the garden or the drive til the sheer amount of weeds have gone. We are getting there. 4 bags have been filled. Like 100 litre bags. A lot of weeds...
the best thing was that mum found a caterpillar I mean I assume it was a caterpillar it was the size and width of my little finger....IT WAS HUGE and stuck to my gardening gloves like velcro, it had some sticky feet! it was black with a white tummy. Maybe it could have been a dragonfly in the making? not sure
Mum went home for lunch and we had hours then I practically ran to bed to sleep. I was shattered and aching. So had an hour in bed then got up and didnt do too much, mainly looked at art on my phone and then had a brew and fruit loaf by myself as Jack was gaming with Theo.
Then at 4pm I decided to do my work out, did an hour of grow with Jo. Sweated so damn much! it was good tho but by 40mins I had had enough just wanted it to end. I could keep going I just didnt want to. But did it. However before I started Jack came downstairs and announced he was gonna do some more weeding....I said "where's theo gone?" he said "still online" I said "wait, youve left gaming to garden?....." he said "well you're working hard I felt like I should do something"
I about fell over is shock. This never happens. He normally games til dinner. I can workout all I want and he wont do anything. So I did find this very odd Jack behaviour to say the least. He was out there the whole hour I worked out. Then I had a bath and he had it after me. We did dinner and then he went to go play dungeons and dragons. I made a start on next week's meal plans and shopping list.
now I should be digitally drawing >< I know I should. Even if I just do a bit its better than nothing I guess.
God I hope I sleep tonight tho T^T I will just launch Jack through a small window, at speed, if he keeps me awake. He says "you should wake me!" Im like "I try! and sometimes you speak so I dont know if youre actually awake or not!!"
tomorrow~
saturday~ not got anything planned
Jack is going out drinking as it is Harvey's 29th Birthday tomorrow, a fellow 92' baby~
So I will be home alone all night but thats fine
we will probably do some gardening in the day I imagine. I said I would see mum when Jack goes out. I will take him over to Harveys
this is how far I am with my first drawing for Mia....not far at all T^T
