Evening
could I sleep last night? could I bob
been sleeping great, and I go back to school and sleep flies right out the window
I just couldnt switch off. In the end I had to get up with Jack cus I was just aching, I had been there too long. So we got up at 11pm for half hour. But even then it was gone midnight when I got off to sleep T^T Life is cruel. I got up at 5am for a wee then slept til my alarm.
I felt ok about going school tho. I mean of course I didnt want to attend, but I wasnt anxious in the slightest. Really weird. All my anxiety must have gone to my brother who was starting his new job today. I hope he got on ok, I wished him the best!
School was boring first thing as it was a whole staff meeting but on teams, I was just txting
Then around 9am we went to do our own work
however, Julia rang down to us. She said
"there was blood outside the freezer so I opened it up and the smell....the freezer has tripped out"
so the freezer which houses 10 frozen Ox hearts and 10 rats, had tripped out at some point over the holidays....meaning the meat was left to go bad. It had defrosted and leaked out pints of blood everywhere. I did not want to be in the room. The smell was overwhelming. Especially first thing in the morning.
Lizzie came across, her art room faces Julia's room. She said her fridge had tripped out and shes been cleaning mould out her fridge it stinks. I showed her our own hell
She offered to help but we got to do it and just somehow got on with it
I hadnt got any gloves up there to wear and was in a very nice outfit - jack's sisters skirt with matching leg warmers, my new beige trainers, and a gothic shirt. I was no prepared to be cleaning up ox blood. So I grabbed a mop and was constantly mopping the floor so the blood wouldnt spread or make their shoes gross. Jack was handling the meat and putting in the bin, Julia was washing down the drawers. It was horrendous
after that task I told the teachers to not ask for anything til we had had a cup of tea
SOD OFF!!!
the day was just hard, just everything was effort
I was quite down, as it was only 2pm and I was THIS tired. Already, this early into term and the week and I was this tired. so it starts again. The burn out starts. Its so depressing. I literally live to work. Work a stressful, poorly paid, thankless job. We did contemplate job hunting on the way home....
Jack went to the shops and brought potatoes as i need them for practicals
but one in the packet had an arse crack! honestly had a huge crack and two cheeks!!!
so i grabbed it and showed one biologist and she sniggered
then I burst in Luke's room, blurted "look Luke this potato has an arse crack!"
he was trying to keep a straight face, I did not realise he was in an online meeting.....
I legged it outta there XD
I went to show another biologist the potato and she laughed, then I told her about what I did with Luke and she burst out laughing ><; I like making people laugh
My immaturity had gotten the better of me there tho XD
I came back and Jack was like "you still showing people that potato?! leave that and go and do some work!" XD
we came home and saw mummy for tea. well me and her had tea
jack had whisky...jack was stressed and even had tension headache....poor jack
he had been stressed by the many teachers today ><
mum helped me do Oz's claws, Jack watched as he will be helping next time!
Mum left and I did the dinner but also prepped stew for the morning
we had dinner with Oz, and then I tried doing 2 10min Choly Ting videos. Well Oz was all over me!! I cant work with him grooming me like that XD
After my work out I popped him home and had a bath then did my diary
tomorrow is stew morning, and work
going to watch anime and go bed.
I am done.
