Tuesday, 20 October 2020

10 hours left

 Evening


So last night I decided to do 30mins of dance practice, learning Tsubaki Factory's Ima nanji

it went well, I got up to the 1 minute mark

then I went to sit with my Ozwald

and went to bed but didnt sleep well, was waking up every 2 hours so I dont feel I had much of a deep sleep then woke up at 6am for work but didnt need to actually get up til 7am so I just laid there trying to get some sleep but didnt achieve any


I got to school at 9am

Julia txted to say she went in yesterday and wouldnt be in today, so it would me and jack

I was looking forward to seeing Jack

but the way he walked in, he looked tired so I made him a coffee

but all day he was grouchy, stressy and just hard to make conversation with

we had house paper work to sign and when it came to bit he needed to google, just to confirm what we needed to write, i sat next to him as I have been doing when doing house stuff - for moral support - i was gorming out to be honest and he turned to me "can you not sit there! i feel like youre breathing down my neck" 0.0 i mean i was quite taken back by that considering i wasnt even looking at him.

I responded "god Jack, I wasnt even doing anything"

he asked me to sign something and i made sure to take the paper away from him and do it else where so i wasnt  'breathing down his neck' 

i couldnt wait to finish to be honest cus it was hard work and i felt all he could talk about was him moaning about living at home. 

I announced i was leaving at 2:30pm he gave me a hug and told me he loved me and apologised for being stressy i kinda just left. i'd had enough but didnt hold it against him as we all get off days. I feel his are more noticeable as he has far less off days than me XD

I have exactly 10 hours left to complete before June


I came home and had a brew with mum then fussed Oz as I felt i needed my spirit calming

but it wasnt enough, i was hurting and very tired so i started to drift off on the sofa but mum woke me!! rightly so, but it still felt unfair. But it would stop me from sleeping tonight

so i forced myself to do an hours walk, i felt pretty good whilst walking 

i came home, had dinner, showered and got into pyjamas

might do some drawing then i am sitting with Oz then I will paint my nails, im having plain nails all 10 will be a different colour tho. but i never have plain nails.


Oh Jack brought me pumpkin earrings and a little bat plush that matches some other plushies i have X3 I will photograph them


tomorrow

I am going post office to post the piggie

then i think me and mum are going to a home store if she feels like it as she has a flu jab in the morning and sometimes you can feel a bit off from it. so we shall see~ I have stuff i can get on with tho