I slept like crap I really did
I went to bed early cus I'd had enough
to only wake up at 12pm and I was up til 2am then
just waking up regularly from there on -_______-
I was tired this morning and had missed calls on my phones
agencies
when will they ever learn to not ring me in the morning
So my morning I just painted mainly really
Overall today I got the crane finished and I added a moon
which is also finished
I could probably start the fox fire or sakura next
but I think it's starting to come together
The weather has been over cast and humid all day
meaning going outside is hell for my hay fever
it kicked off again last night as the damp night rolled in
hate it hate it
I had lunch and got a phone call from another agency
did I want to work at the usual school down the road tomorrow?
its a bit dull working one to one but work is work
and i want the money so i said Id do it
that meant that i had to cancel the look round visit i had booked in
with a school i have applied for
i rang the school up and told them id need to reschedule but they said
that tomorrow was the last day...typical. So i opted to go earn £50 rather than go for what would probably have been a pointless 20min look round a school that probably would have nothing more to do with me.
then I went to karen's for a massage
i came out more crippled than what i went in with!
I told her, not that i was planning on, about my diagnosis
she being an ex-NHS nurse couldnt understand why I was so opposed to the idea
of being on medication for my condition
i told her that im fed up of medication and the 1000 side effects they bring
she understood that but said that if she was me she'd try it
and i got where she was coming from
cus as of this moment right now i cant continue like this
and the psychologist is a waste of air
I got home and I talked to mum about what karen said about medication
mum couldnt agree more -_____- everyone wants me medicated it would seem
so I rang up the mental health team and asked if I could see the psychologist again
turns out he is off this week so I would have to wait for a phone call next week
to book in an appointment
guess it gives me more time to think about drugging myself up
I finished the painting for the day and went for a shower
i havent done any exercise today
and as much as i know it calms my busy head
i just cant face doing any
im on the go all damn day i decided to take a day off
easier said than done for me but my body hurts from massage and i dont want to make those
aches any worse
see how i go tonight
so i have school in the morning for the whole school day
always feels like a long day there
but im grateful of the work
then hopefully in the evening i can see mia so we can book the manchester trip for next month
