Evening~~
I slept well thank god
i was shattered tho
woke up to my alarm
I went to have a shower at 6:10am - so its still dark like pitch black
the bathroom light decides not to work...course it does
so i was like 'what to do' as my family were still in bed asleep
and i knew for a fact we didnt have any of those bulbs going spare
so i used my initiative and put the torch on my ipod on in the bathroom
and thats how i showered
by the light of an ipod
i charged it last night and thank bloody god i did! would have been screwed
i went to watch stuff on the tablet but it was dead
was not a good start to the day -___-
but what was nice today was waking up and not looking like a full on zombie
and my skin felt a bit better not sore or taut
whether thats fluke or healing i dont know
i met jack off the tram he smiled the moment he saw me
i could tell he was happy to have me there
i didnt feel too bad, a little sicky and dizzy and tired but been worse
i got into the prep room and the teachers soon realised Jo was back XD
they all say how quiet it is without me
and that its nice to have me back
its nice to be wanted and feel you have a presence
i felt like an excited puppy tho, so many smells and stimulation and i felt a bit hyper like if i had a tail it would be wagging it was just nice to be out the house and have social interaction
but i could i feel the energy i waas literally burning up
i couldnt concentrate at school
i found the morning a bit stressful cus the prep room was a tip and there was biology practicals going off, typically ones i wasnt familiar with
i had help from julia and jack
i tried to take it easy as i was just wearing out
it got to 11:30am and i really didnt feel well
i was on the floor trying to raise my blood pressure but it just wouldnt happen
everytime i got up, even slowly, i was back on the floor feeling faint
head of biology told me i should be resting
jack was concerned and yeah i was being stubborn but i hate it
and the pure frustration i feel at not being well, at nor being how i want to be
i stayed tho
somehow i made it through the day
and the sheer amount of food i ate at school
how did i eat all that
just too keep me going and keep my energy and weight up
i repotted a cactus that has been on the windowsill for well forever really
only today did i take it from the pot and see the state of the roots >< poor thing
so i repotted it
it made babies so i gave one to luke for his lab
i took one home but unsure i want it its not healthy and very hard to handle
Hannah saw my Phantom on the fridge
she loved it and said the freezer and staff fridge needs a character which i thought was a brilliant idea and jack approved so im gonna do some art for those, jack said the freezer has to have something weird as it has all the gross hearts in and stuff
i made it til the end of the day and drove home somehow
sat with mum and Oz for a brew
Oz fell asleep and mum was full of cold
made dinner
and then i did my terrarium i think its quite sweet
and something different to look at for a bit
i will photograph it in the sunlight
just got to get my bits ready for school tomorrow
school doesnt look too bad tomorrow
i have my stretches to do tonight -___- theyre becoming tiresome at times
everything i have eaten has passed through me
just like how stuff used to be, i dont want to question the diet this far in
its an achievement that i made it through the day
just got one more to do before i can die over the weekend
