Evening
I slept through the night. I was playing Disgaea4 til late as I was too involved in the item world, youre a bit committed and can't leave ^^; and I bit off more than I could chew but hey whats new!
We got up and I left the buns in their cage but brought Oz in.
we went for food shop which exhausted me
when we came home we brought Oz in and put the buns out.
Oz was determined to mate with me, I just let him. He tends to mount my arm and grab my skin in his teeth which feels like a very painful pinch. He did this 5 times in same place. Think I might have a bruise tomorrow but the pain was welcomed. To feel something different. I didnt flinch or make a noise but I know it would normally make another person yell out. I welcomed the pain. Almost like he was doing the self harming for me.
I also had to ring my mum as we had a panic as I noticed a leaking pipe coming from our boiler. I bit my mums head off on the phone and after we ended the call I felt instant regret and I cried and cried. I am exhausted, tired, in pain, and the littlest thing pushes me over the edge. This leaking pipe - i couldnt cope with it
I got on with cooking meat and prepped meat. I decided I am gonna have yogurt and cereal for breakfast and chicken for lunch.
we had lunch but I only managed a hot chocolate and biscuit as my stomach was churned up
my parents came at one, I apologised to mum for snapping and she said it was fine, I told her whats up and that I had cried it out my system. My dad fixed the pipe it was such a small job and I am so so grateful. I had visions of having to change pipes! He looked at the windscreen wipers on my car and says I need a new motor, so yeah hes got that to fix sometime. hes gonna order the part for me.
they left and I went to bed for almost 2 hours. I was drained of life. I was upset as I am just fed up of feeling so crap.
I didnt fall asleep but once I got up I went for a walk with Jack which was nice but tiring even tho we went at my pace. My legs were hurting.
luckily dinner wasnt too difficult and I was relieved
we put the buns away, shaved Oz's tummy and let him outside for a bit but hes not that active and likes to go home at 7pm-ish, I have no idea how that rabbit knows the time.
I had a nice bath and then Jack did, now hes gone to game with Harvey and Theo, I cant imagine it will be a late one as they still have work in the morning even if we dont.
I might do some drawing but I am very tired
tomorrow
should be going for a walk at 8:30am with Mia and the dogs. Hopefully I can manage it and it doesnt bugger me up for the rest of the day. then I am going to my mums to wait for a parcel. Then maybe go shops with Jack. see how I feel.
