I'm still alive
I haven't been good hence why I havent updated a damn thing lately
just couldnt face it, face writing/thinking about my life
I mean I know my life isnt as bad as other but i have been damn struggling
I've cried a lot and got to my wits end with life
struggling to cope with myself
and I can see its having an effect on those around me as well
I didn't do much over the weekend
I saw adam and went up to his house on the saturday
I came home and made mum a birthday card ^^
Sunday well sunday I was suppose to be seeing adam and we were meeting an old friend at the pub at 2pm did any of that happen? NO and that is because it snowed rather heavily
adam told me not to see him as cars couldnt get up or down his hill of a road and everywhere was bad as it hadnt been predicted and therefor the gritters hadnt been out
everywhere was bad
so i had to cancel both adam and antony. i was well peed to say the least
i cleaned my room and danced and at 8:30pm when a lot of the snow had disappeared i decided to go for a walk by myself as i was restless.
Today I stayed home in the morning then after lunch I went TKMAXX and a bargain shop
I picked all this up from TK
TonyMoly facial wash reduced to £3, nail varnishes reduced from 20p to £1!!! liquid eye shadow reduced to £3 and a korean nose thing reduced to £2. I also picked up 2 pairs of fleece lined leggings reduced to £4 each and a nightie for mum's birthday reduced to £8 so I did well
from bargin shop I got some wrapping paper for mum's presents
From there I went for a walk by myself down along side the river Trent
i always love being around water and then I came home, put my girls out for a trot waited for mum to come home so we could have a brew together
then played pokemon and emailed a couple of friends
adam offered for me to go up and see him but it was like nearly 4pm and i couldnt be arsed.
said id see him tomorrow
tomorrow im not sure how to spend my morning
but at 1:30pm I have my first, and much needed, psychology session
from there i will go see adam as mum wont be home and i will need to talk to someone
I worked on thursday and friday morning at a local school which went well
i enjoyed it and would go back again
me and adam have been talking about going away im thinking Ireland as its more local and looks more interesting than france, nothing is grabbing me about france. i know its a bit judge a book by its cover but it just doesnt look like my kinda place. ireland looks more natural and fun.
millie is still recovering from her chest whatever thing she has
we took her vets wednesday as her chest was really rattly so shes on a week's worth of antibiotics and is going back on wednesday to the vets but shes lost a bit of weight despite her still eating and being her usual self granted she is quiet sometimes i hope she recovers soon
mum's birthday on friday!
