Flump's pumpkin girl

Evening

I tried to sleep last night
got up for a wee at 1am and climbed into my bed and tried to sleep
and i did get off around 1:30am and i remained IN my bed as opposed to ON it
like I have been the last several nights
got up at 8:30am

this morning i went to pet shop with mum, but i waited in the car
seeing as the pet shop was close to a park we walked round it
which made a change as we have been walking the same routes for weeks!
we walked for 40mins

i came back and had a brew
then i did an hour of yoga with my physio exercises
i was shaking and sweating afterwards
jack said he managed to do his weight work out, so hes doing well
but said theo killed him off XD
i went for a shower

after my shower i sat colouring in the bikini girl from yesterday
so she is finished

i wrote note with it saying "i caught flump trying to pin this to my wall. this is evidence"
im sure jack will laugh at it
only him will understand the joke
i swear our plushies have a mind of their own now
we have given them actual personalities and stuff
mum said it was good
later on i took a 20min walk and posted it to jack
he doesnt know i have done him anything
he should get it start of next week at a guess

i played on my switch a few times
i also had a stab at the baby blanket
it just needs quilting then its finished :) shouldnt take me too long

dad is home saturday and sunday ugh
how unfortunate 
so thats me staying well out the way this weekend
i cant cope with him right
to be honest i cant cope with much full stop
like i feel it wouldnt take much to make me cry or angry
prehaps im reaching breaking point?
due a cry maybe? i know i am bottling my emotions and feelings
we shall see

i have been watching jpop videos mainly keyakizaka46
i love the lyrics to 'eccentric' 
one like 'kawarimono de ii' - i am fine being strange
its a good song but i mainly enjoy:

Mou Mori He Kaerou ka? and fukyouwaon and silent majority and hiraishin

i was doing some research into dances, as i have a few i want to learn but when i try my heart isnt in it which means - it is not the time to learn those particular dances. so i researched hard into the one i do want to learn its by Monogatari and its called Monogatari. But there is no clear video of the dance and its a fast one at that. so i havent learned it in the past just cus ive struggled for videos to learn from but i have amassed a few and i hope i can learn from them - its just no easy learning this way. but i want to try as i can tell this is the one my heart wants to learn!

that will be something i work on tomorrow as its 8:30pm and im tired. plus i need something to work on over the weekend in my room!

tomorrow i will probably finish off the baby blanket
do some drawing maybe
i havent really been doing a lot on the drawing front, just bits and pieces
but there isnt any rush with it anyway
and i dont like sitting there for ages working on it unless i have to

thats all really