Konbanwa~~~
So wednesday I was complaining to Jack that my throat was burning but didnt think too much of it. Yesterday I woke up with a sore throat, headache and just felt a bit death like
I went to school tho after doing a covid test which was negative
School was HARD
back to back practicals that everyone wants all the same stuff!!!
I also had my 2nd biology lesson which was making onion slides and using microscopes
I actually helped Luke with the onion slides rather than get my own microscope and do the work tho. So I didnt get the work done. It was a lot to take in again....I literally cant read off the board whilst Luke is talking. I can see why I struggled so much in school. Blame it on dyslexia
The rest of the day was a slog and I kept losing my voice, not completely but it was certainly quieter
I could have cried when i read that I had just as busy day the next day. I couldnt handle it. I couldnt prep it. And just sat under my desk for the last half hour of the day. Jack helped me loads to be honest.
I knew I wasnt right as I was getting goosebumps in a 30c prep room
Mum had been at our house putting plants in and doing too much work. she had been in the heat and made herself feel a bit unwell in the sun. So she had gone home and I didnt get to see her and it was just as well as I got home, had a cup of tea and went to bed til 5:10pm. Jack came in and said we need to dinner. I told him to his own as I wasnt eating
"you cant not eat"
"ill just have fruit loaf"
"you need to eat more than that"
"i wont starve and die from not eating 1 meal. Food has made me feel sick afterwards every time today. I also have no energy or will power to cook"
"Ill cook. I dont mind"
"no youve done enough, you even did some of my work today"
"its fine Jo we are a team and we look after each other"
so with that he left me on the bed and went to make me omelette, wedges and beans. He had kieves and chips from the freezer. He told me I didnt have to eat it all but at it was the first meal hes made me since moving in I made sure to eat it all XD
I laid down on the bed and then forced myself to have a bath. I felt exhausted. I didnt turn my laptop on at all yesterday
On the sofa later I said to Jack
"I actually dont feel well. I dont think I can go tomorrow"
"I dont think you should go tomorrow"
I set the alarm and went to bed after anime, I told Jack I would at least take him school
I did sleep pretty well to say I felt like death. However the best voice I had was whisper voice likemy voice had been reduced to that. I was talking normally but came out as a whisper its so strange how it alters your voice like that. I am normally LOUD XD
I got up this morning and had several debates with Jack about doing display work all day the office at work, working from home, working half a day. I got ready in my uniform then after breakfast I said
"i dont think I can go"
I just didnt feel well as much as it killed me to admit it as I did not want to stay home and miss a day of school on the 2 week of term!!!!
he said "i really think you need to stay home and rest Jo you look sick"
so that was that
he drove to school, I saw Julia in the carpark and I explained to her and she said I looked shattered but I was like "I slept!!" the whole time saying this in my whisper voice >.> she said her and Jack could cover me. But I had such a busy day on!! I felt awful for getting them to cover for me
I drove towards home and called in mums, just the drive back felt exhausting honestly. So I knew I made the right decision staying at home today
we had a cup of tea and I stayed there 9:30am and came home for an hours sleep
I got up and made biscuits which took it out of me. Had lunch whilst catching up on youtube then I sat round and mum rang me saying she was coming over to keep me company before Jack comes home. I had regained a bit of voice by this point. She was getting her shoes on to leave just as Jack came through the door. They made the joke of I go from one carer to another >.>
I sat with Jack and heard about his day. He had a shower and we did dinner not that I wanted it
then after dinner I was sitting drawing nail designs and prepped some paper with tea for tomorrow.
Throughout the day I have been thinking of xmas gifts and ordered a few things and looked at some things. I have also spent time with my Ozwald. Glad I have him but he didnt want me T_T
We are just with Oz now before he goes home for the night
I am still gutted I had to have a day off today but cant be helped. I ache a lot but poorly ache so there was no point in pushing myself to exercise also I think I would have made myself very unwell. I feel guilty having two days in a row not exercising!!!!
Tomorrow might do chores, nails, biology work. Anything I want as I dont think I will go anywhere dont think I am well enough to go places
