Tuesday, 10 November 2020

ending is in sight

 Evening~


I couldnt sleep at all, I did however try to sleep IN my bed last night as apposed to sleeping ON it. As thats how I have been sleeping for the last few weeks and I did manage the night in my bed but I kept waking up simply cus I was about falling off the bed! it is so difficult in the end I woke jack up saying hes got to move as I am slipping off the bed

I woke up at 4:30am and kinda just waited til morning really and got up at 5:40am as I had enough

Oz was such a grouch this morning tho! woke up on the wrong side of the bed himself I think XD and all day he has been in mood which isnt like him


School was hard as I had 2 practicals first and second period, the beetroot prac. its hard work and I helped the students clear it up  too and then I had shed loads of washing up. it makes 2 full bowls of washing up. so many cuvettes and test tubes T^T I did some of Julia's washing up too for her


My mum had the job of transferring me her money and in the end she rang me and i video called her so i could talk her through sending her bank information so i could have her money basically. But it didnt work the first time so she rang me back 2 hours later it needed to be done differently and she was so stressed bless her so i talked her through it again and yeah she wasnt happy just cus she was home alone doing this massive thing by herself


I got home and hugged mum and she was happy to see me

she made me and jack a brew and we sat with Ozwald who was still grumpy for whatever reason then me and mum went for a walk i could not be arsed to even keep my eyes open never mind a sodding walk i was sooo tired been tired all day, life just feels like an endurance test. i keep feeling dizzy and my heart is erratic at times. but i know all should calm down once we have the keys 

i fell asleep for 20mins after dinner, mum woke me up and she asked if i would check my bank account to see if things had progressed and they had so tomorrow me and jack are going to the bank in the morning to transfer money and pay for bungalow and then we are done, well should be as this is literally the last bit i feel i can finally see some sort of ending in sight. I am dead nervous tho, this is biggest amount of money i will ever sign away and probably wont see again, but it will be worth it i am sure.

so thats tomorrow, work - bank - back to work - home - die