Good Evening~~
I have returned~~
I have a bit of catching up to do huh
Ok hajemaru yo~
Thursday
I had acupuncture at 8:30am
I told him how my stomach had been and my mental state
we talked a lot about mental health as thats what he trained in for many years
and still works in mental health once a week
I was keen to talk to him but ran out of time so Im looking forward to talking
to him this tuesday
I had a needle in my forehead to 'calm' me didnt work
In fact I squirmed more than I ever had
I had 3 in my stomach - one to help with periods cus i hardly get them, i wasnt impressed as I didnt want that to change that cus lets face it no one wants periods! but he says its all connected and the obviously something wrong if im not getting the regularly
I had some in my legs he put one in the right of my calf and it was horrid but i grinned and bared it
that was until he placed on in the opposite leg... i about bucked off the bench i hated it he quickly removed it as it was having a horrible effect on the right leg weird isnt it how its all connected. so the left leg didnt have one in and he said 'are you relaxed with the one in the right? I need you to relax'
"then in that case take it out cus im like a plank right now"
so I had a total of 8 needles in stead of 10
he told me for my mental health that at the end of each day to think of something I have achieved and even if I havent fully achieved it, think about the energy and the journey it took you to do those tasks, he says i dont give myself enough credit for everything i manage to do. i go from one thing to another wanting to achieve more and more and not stopping to look at what i have managed to do basically. dont know what good it will do but i am willing to try anything really
I came home and I cant remember what I did really
but I know I did go over to adam's to pick him up and go into the city centre
I picked up some pokemon bed sheets on sale for £10! I picked up a pokemon t-shirt reduced to £5 a few nail varnishes from £1shop and I believe that was it
when we went to game (got the t-shirt from there) at the til the lady asked if we played pokemon and gave us each a code for Lycanroc lv50 download! nice surprise! Ive had that before with Hoopa but I never know when pokemon are going free on mystery gift. I told Tara to get her butt down at game store! She thanked me
we had lunch in town we both had chicken burgers
then we went over to my house where I got all my stuff for sleep over then went over to his
cooked lasagne which was alright
played pokemon and traded pokemon and downloaded pokemon
I didn't sleep brilliantly i kept waking up
Friday
I woke up not feeling good in all honesty
I was suppose to be coming home in the morning and going shops with mum
but i felt terrible
i ended up going back to bed at 10am -_____-
adam didnt mind and he even went out without me to go get us some lunch :3
he was so good to me
I felt better upon my sleep
and then we had lunch and came home for a bit so i could see Oz and get fresh underwear
that night we ate 'burgers' is what adam called them i called them lumps of mince
i didnt know he hadnt made before i thought he knew what he was doing XD i wish i had taught him but i stayed out of his way and helped were he wanted me to
so my stomach found it very hard to digest and got stomach ache bad
adam was annoyed that i hadnt told him that that dinner was bound to give me stomach ache
but i forgot
yet it was still my fault
(whilst typing this out he has just txt me saying I LOVE YOU XXX) what am i gonna do with him
we played pokemon and mario cart together we played darts as well
I slept better and didnt wake up til 9am
today~
it was a bit cooler today as thursday and friday it had been like 25c+ mental and awful to bare
we went up to the shops to get a few things for the day
then we just sat and played mario and pokemon
we had lunch together and dinner together then at 7:30pm I came home
got Oz out who I think needs to go to the vets
he seems to have a runny nose
im not surprised cus he sticks his nose in everything! So ive got to sort him out this week
Im not sure what has happened as of late but my head is very quiet since ive been to acupuncture
i mean yesterdat god it was so quiet and i wasnt used to that at all i have to say
even thoughts about food we're distant and everything else had vanished
today im still alone in my head and not sharing it anymore but thoughts about food are pretty strong today but i did manage food ok. its very odd being alone in my head im not used to it at all.
i wish to talk to the acupuncturist
It's 9pm now
ive gotta go for a shower to get the smell of adam's house outta my skin XD
tomorrow at 11am mia is picking me up and we're going city centre for some shopping i do believe. another tiring day but cant be helped i wish to do these things
ok things ive achieved today
ive even 2 cookies and ice cream
i've managed to rest in front of my boyfriend instead of hiding it.
