Evening
I slept over at jack's last night
we had gone to view a house near the woods here
we went with my mum and dad and had a look round
we came home and had food then sat down and talked about the house
jack i can tell really likes the house but i just havent had the good feeling about the house
theres a few draw backs on the property that i wouldnt be able to change even if i wanted to
so im not really taken with it
the one next door is for sale and jack has booked to see it on sunday but to be honest i might ask him to cancel it as i cant be bothered to go see it, its the same lay out and same circumstances so i wouldnt be gaining anything by seeing it. just using up energy by going
i showed jack the painting nigel had gifted us
he really liked and said, and i quote "it's weird as fuck"
so i went over to his and i was totally exhausted
i just played on my switch in bed the went to sleep really, i had had enough of it all
its not so much of a big step for jack - he has already moved out
im struggling to cope with a lot of aspects of moving out
i know i want to do it and it will be hard but i want to do this
im just exhausted with it all and it makes it hard to enjoy the experience really
so we got up for school
i forgot to get changed out of my joggers so ended up going to school in my joggers which the dept head noticed XD woops XD i wasnt that bothered to be honest
but school was fine i pretty much just painted all the time i was there
working on display pieces
jack wouldnt shut up talking to people and i just wanted to get home and get dosed up as i just hurt so much for nigel
we got back and he did do lunch for me
i ate it and had enough of listening to jack and theo drone on about games so i went to bed really, jack played games, i wasnt bothered. i got up and had a brew then i was home for 4pm i didnt want to stick around at jacks
i just needed my own space. when im in pain its almost like i can hear extra noise its weird. like just noise in my head from pain so i struggle to cope with everything around me. sure does make thinking extra hard
i got home and sat with Oz
then i planted a plant i brought back from school as i have plans for it ^^
had dinner and then went to paint plant pots in my room
my parents popped out and so i decided to see if i could remember any yosakoi dances from last year as it has indeed been a whole year since i have done any yosakoi! and i could remember a fair bit much to my surprise
now im gonna get Oz and go to bed i have had enough
tomorrow just exercise and art really
