Evening
I didnt sleep too bad~ I managed to put Oz home at 9pm as the fireworks had died down a lot. So once he was in bed I did my nails then went to bed myself
I got up for a wee at 11:30pm and found Jack reading his phone, I took some pain killers as I had bad back ache - which I have had since friday - and went back to sleep
I woke up at 7am....7 again!!! But its still a good amount of sleep so I can't complain too much
i had breakfast by myself again, I went to get my clothes from the bedroom but when I walked in, Jack woke up so I had company from 8am XD
I didnt really want to do my shopping but got on with it, and cus we couldnt get witch hazel from there we had to drive to boots, wait 15mins for the shop to open, find the witch hazel and get the hell outta there. I was really annoyed as it was wasting MY time buying witch hazel for school. But its all going down on my time sheet~ I will soon amount those hours up.
We got home and unpacked and had a tea cake and brew with Oz. Oz again hasnt played out much today. Not sure why. I think its bothering him having work men on the roof of the neighbour behind us. Its unsettling him.
We did my soup and I cooked my meat for the week. had lunch then I went to bed for an hour, I didnt want to but was tired. When Jack came in to me I thought it was only 10mins later but he was like "no youve had your hour" wow, where did that go? So I got up and did some actual ART yes art! I forgot what art was. I started painting my canvas, its going ok. i mean I have no idea what the purpose of this canvas is but Jack said it doesnt need a purpose if I enjoyed it.
We did a walk together which was nice then came in for a cup of tea and then did some more painting, did the dinner, then after dinner I had a bath right away as Jack is gaming with the guys at 7pm so I wanted him ready for then. I did some more painting, also brought Mia a christmas present online so that is a good result. I was struggling what to do for her.
Now it's 7:45pm and I am unsure what to do really, im too tired to do much. My painting is too wet to do any more. Got to have Oz inside. I would like to be in bed for 9pm. I can go to bed whenever as Jack is gaming.
since 3pm my body has been shaky, I thought it was cus I was hungry. So I ate fruit loaf with my brew and didnt feel any better. I felt sick and thought id feel better for dinner but no. I soon accepted what it is....anxiety. I feel sick and shaky with anxiety...what I am anxious about god knows!!! Its very frustrating being anxious and not knowing what your anxious about >.> I think its because of school as what else could it be!? I told Jack and stuff and he said he would get me through the day. I know he will. I just hate this feeling. So I plan on taking a lot of medication tonight to zonk me out so I dont have to be up all night with thoughts....
tomorrow is school anyway
