I didn't sleep well
hay fever
then I was waking up every 2 hours for no real reason
me and mum got up at 7am to do park run
we had break fast, put guineas out
and by 7:30am it hammered it down
really bad rain
so we didnt go park run I was disappointed
but at the same time a lil relieved as I just couldnt breathe
humidity makes my hay fever so so much worse so does the rain for that matter
its been humid for 4 days now
been hell
I went back to bed I couldnt face the world
I got up at 10am
in a mood
just stuff isnt balanced in my head right now
i feel a bit helpless and not in control since my crappy appointment yesterday
im sure the psychologist thinks i make this stuff up
he doesnt take me seriously and gets pleasure out of getting a reaction out of me
hate going
I got up and I did a lil dancing but it was so damn hot and humid i gave up and showered
then I painted, i outlined the Kitsune (fox)
I came back to painting later on in the day and did a design in the red cloud
after lunch I did a lil dancing as the humidity was trying to clear
mooched round a bit reading and just being in my own bubble
Then I got up and I couldnt be bothered to but knew I had to
I went for a run, I ran up a hill to be greeted by my brother on his BMX putting his middle finger up at me - both hands whilst riding XD
he decided to cycle along side me whilst I ran, having him there made it easier
I came back and had a much needed shower
hate showering twice a day but i hate feeling dirty and sweaty more
Tomorrow not sure what I am doing as of yet
not really spoken to adam
not really wanted to
Last night I decided I'd come off my final pain killer
Pregabalin
I have officially been able to ditch Tramadol which is an amazing feeling
ive come off my antidepressiants
and now I feel its ready to let go of my final restraint
i take 2 Pregabalin tablets a day so it shouldnt be too hard
