Tuesday, 4 February 2020

introducing foods - cheese and seeing tara

Evening~~

I slept pretty well but then I was pretty well dosed up  ><
I got up for school it was a chilly morning I have to say even tho it was above freezing

School was longggg
my god it was long
1 practical and that was first lesson
so i felt i had like nothing much going off
i attempted to update a technician guide but found it much to dull to sit and do
but every job i went to go and do i just wasnt in the mood to do somehow
everything was boring
until i turned round and asked a biology teacher if i could redo her photosynthesis display which had partly fallen down and before she could get to repair it, it got damaged by water
she jumped at the chance of me redoing her display for her
so that was that i went to art and robbed a load of acrylic
and started painting a sunflower, as you do
but its coming together really well
everyone who walked by it whilst i painted for over an hour in the science prep room was amazed by it and envied my skill
but i find it so easy as im not trying massively hard as i dont have the time or resources 
its nice that i can do something different to everyone around me tho
makes me feel i have a use, a place

as i had gotten into work 20mins early
i left 20 mins early
i was meeting tara after school so i wanted all the time i could get
i got in, got changed and sat down for 10 mins then left to meet tara

we met in the pub between our houses
and both had salted caramel hot chocolate which was nice
we sat and chatted for 2 hours
she cant believe me and jack have almost been going out a year and she hasnt met him yet
so we said we would try an go out for dinner the 4 of us next month

came home and got everything ready for school and ready to stay over at jack's tomorrow
so much sorting
did physio exercises also
ordered a switch game as i have decided to buy a switch
gonna get a yellow switch lite on friday or saturday

now gonna get Oz then go to bed
done in
eaten so many bad things today having so many bad thoughts about how fat i am
so tomorrow i shall eat better
just struggled for energy today and been bloody starving all sodding day
i also tried cheese today
gave me bad stomach pains....
but i was so hoping for pizza on friday
probably still eat it

school tomorrow then jacks
please god dont let school be boring again tomorrow
if not i will just paint all day XD