Evening
I was sicky anxious when I went to bed last night
just didnt want to go to school in the morning
and was hoping Jack would be at school to support me
This morning Jack was like "I'm really hungry"
not surprised as he hadnt eaten really
so he had fruit loaf with honey on, so a plain breakfast and even had mint tea instead of coffee!
I didnt want to go school but was relieved i would have Jack by my side
At school I got my jobs done and the practicals sorted
but its like I literally feel I can not cope if someone orders a practical
ive got bad practicals coming up so god know what Im gonna do then!
I finished painting my space duck and took a photo, I will upload it~ I took it down to the office where the other ducks are kept - waiting for their big race, the competition in style is pants XD
Julia's daughter sarah came in, and I got her making up sugar solutions for me which she managed. Its a case of starting small and building her confidence up
I was saying stuff like "if you need a break feel free to have one. Or if you need a minute just go quietly sit on your mum's chair"
it wasnt til I got home did I think "WHY CANT I BE LIKE WITH MYSELF!!??"
I made it to lunch time then came home
mum came over to have lunch with me and Oz. Oz sat in hay basket snoring away whilst we talked. Its been windy and rainy out so hes not wanted to play out much today. Mum said she would like truffs's fur cutting this week. She said "im sure having long and unruly hair makes her behaviour and ADHD worse" I laughed. We say truffs is feral and has ADHD. I love her and she loves me. Id keep her if I could. Mum likes her really but truffs doesnt have any time for mum XD
I went to bed and when I got up i finished making the clay chimeacho wind chime for Jack's birthday next month, just needed to attach the chimes was all but it finished it off nicely.
I went and did some drawing as well on my laptop
I started dinner by myself and Jack couldnt get a lift home til late so I didnt want him stressing about helping out with food so I got on and did it which was fine he did help when he came in at 5pm
we had dinner then went for a walk
the weather wasnt great but I was glad of the fresh air although I was tiring out despite it being a short walk.
I had a bath whilst Jack cleared up the pots from dinner
Now I am just in the lounge doing my diary whilst Oz has a hop round
I said I might do my nails tonight as I havent done them in weeks!!! I stopped as my nails were so brittle but they seem to be doing better lately but I kinda just stopped caring about them. I need to make more effort with myself. So I might do a simple design on them during anime tonight
tomorrow
its school T^T its also stew morning so bit more of a hectic morning but we get it done
dont wanna go school, today was a bit better tho. Think my confidence took a knock yesterday. I was glad to have Jack back at my side
mum said she will come over for lunch if I want her to, heres the card she got me on my bedside cabinet ^^
