Monday, 18 October 2021

glad I aint doing weddings and babies

 Evening


it took me a while to sleep last night, almost midnight

I woke up at 7:10am >.> ugh

I got ready and went for a walk with Mia at 9am

havent seen her in agessssss so it was good to see her

she had a lot to talk about in regards to marriage/wedding/babies

all stuff I am really glad I am not taking part in!!!

sweet jesus I think I would end up in a unit if I was tackling all that

I mean one day I would like to get married maybe, but I am in no hurry! Its no disrespect to Jack, its just I am not ready or mentally well enough to take all that on. Sorting a wedding out is so stressful!

I told Jack a while a go that I could be engaged but I cant marry him right now

well not marry AND be well. Its one or the other in my current state! But me and Jack love each other very much, I dont feel the need for a ring to say that. I am happy and comfortable.

Mia is ready for the next stage of her life and relationship and I think shes doing so well with it all ^^ shes thinking of getting married in september!


I came home and was thawed out with a tea, even tho I got warm walking my skin was frozen

we sat round and then had lunch then I rested on the bed with Jack next to me on his switch

then we went into the garden, Jack dug the land some more and I painted the 1st coat on two tires, but we got rained off. 

I went to see mum as 3pm for a hour, had a brew and clipped the girls claws, truffs gave me licks ^^

I came home and had fruit loaf and another brew 

we sat doing something maths, as I had a maths thing in my last biology lesson 

did.not.understand.a.word

so I asked Jack to explain it. It was a mammoth thing. I still havent got the hang of it 40mins later T^T so we are gonna work on it and hes so patient!!!

did dinner, and had Oz in with dinner

then had a bath

now were gonna have match of triominoes with Oz inside - we havent played a board game for months. Then watch anime and go bed


tomorrow

busy day ><

got doctors at 9:10am about a few things 

straight from there we're going into the city centre for a shop and treats

then at 4pm I have a massage. I am gonna be dead!!!