Yesterday I only woke up twice in the night so it was another good night
but I felt exhausted and full of anxiety
I have no idea why tho
My dutch friends had been in contact with saying that they were back in my city!
5 of the had come over from Holland for a holiday and visit
they asked if I wanted to join them for afternoon tea
I wanted to so I said yes but my anxiety was so bad that I couldnt face travelling to the city centre by myself for some reason.
I told Adam everything as I was suppose to be seeing him
he offered to go with me, so I asked my friends if Adam could join and they were more than happy for him to join
So we met up at Curious Manor
I have never been and it was my suggestion
turned out to be a pretty weird and cool place and the food was really good luckily!
we sat at a table and theyd ordered before we got there and my god how much food had they ordered!!! there was tonnes! I felt so sick afterwards
Id drank so much sugary tea and ate so much cake >< talk about sugar rush!
but it was lovely to see them and hear about what they were doing with themselves now and stuff and Adam got along fine with them cus they are really good people.
we parted ways
They said I need to go visit them in Holland :D
We went back to adam's house as we were to have dinner there as my usual sunday routine
i felt the sugar and i felt so anxious coming home worse than what i left the house with
but when i got to adams i was totally fine
adam went to tell his parents we were ok and that i was 'high' on sugar
i walked into the living room where the 3 of them were and his dad laughed and mentioned something about having to be on his toes as i looked hyper XD
and when i am hyper there is no filter on my mouth so yeah the evening was very very entertaining im glad i can make everyone laugh i suppose!
I couldnt stomach eating pudding which was cake and I really wanted it, his dad ate it in front of me and he never has seconds but he damn well had seconds last night!!!! rubbing it in my face
I left for home and a shower and Oz
adam said his dad had gone straight for a bath and bed id tired him out which apparently is a feat XD
Last night I woke up at 3am and didnt get off til 4am
I got up at 8:30am
spent my morning sewing really as I was determined to get my blankets finished
and I did ^^ theyre packaged alreayd to go tomorrow :D
I went to bed at 12pm exhausted for some reason and slept for almost 3 hours D:
then got up and finished the blankets, doodled some nail ideas, googled some holidays
yesterday I found out that adam wants to do MY japan trip
my japan trip on my bucket list
he actually WANTS to go with me!!! I couldnt believe it
its not cheap and not a country everyone wants to visit
i instantly felt a step closer to going now that id found someone to go with
but I said Id want to go for more than a week
and then I said that I had never been away from my family more than 4 days
so Id have to have a practice run so he suggested france as he wants to go france with me, not a country im arsed about and hes been loads before with his parents. i agreed to go if i could go whilst Japan Expo was on and he said that was fine.
I told him every year I set myself goals and I think for 2018 Im gonna open up a new bank account and keep transferring my earnings and save up for holidays
technically i could afford it now if i wanted to but it means dipping into my savings and it wouldnt feel like ive earned the trip.
so thats 2018. probably manage france in 2018 and japan 2019 i bet
anyway ive gone enough
tomorrow I have CBT at 9:30am >.>
Ive tried to book an appt for acupuncture but he's out and not with his diary
Im suppose to be seeing adam and mia had suggested last week that I stay for dinner at her house so who knows how my day could turn out tomorrow!
