how we all are going to miss your little face
the past few months I have known you I have
treasured you and done my best to treat
you like the princess you are
thank you for everything Hazel you will always remain in my heart
I came back from the vets half hour ago
we made the decision to have Hazel put to sleep
it was the kindest thing
the vet felt her and hazel peed on her she was that terrified of the situation
and the vet felt the same lump she felt last week
it was looking like what could have been poo was actually a tumour
the options for hazel were:
Major surgery to remove what was in her
or take her home and be on pain relief
or put to sleep
i could tell the vet was leaning towards putting her to sleep option
it would be major surgery to remove this lump
and shes 4, terrified and not the strongest
i had prepared my self for the worst case scenario
i had sobbed before work whilst cuddling her
today i have cuddled her none stop
spoiled her rotten, taking photos and videos of her
so i had plenty of memories with her
the medicine she gave us last week
it was strange cus a few times i saw her pee
she didnt squeak which got me thinking it was a urine
infection after all and she would be fine
but these last 2 days shes really been squealing in pain
for the toilet. also i noticed over the past week
shes clicking her teeth which means her teeth could be long
and so if that is true she would need the rasping
which means she would need anesthetic
her outlook just wasnt looking good
and i wouldnt see go down a steady slop getting worse and sick
she deserved better than that
so thats how we came to the difficult decision
i have sobbed so much today my face is stinging
i loved her so much and gave her so much time
when she arrived in my life, she was so very timid
she would hide from us, not even speak we didnt hear
her voice for a long time, she wouldnt eat infront of us
but from bonding with her i got her to talk so much that
she wouldnt shut up! she had 3 years of talking to make up for
she would eat food whilst being handled and she happily sat
and watched TV with us. she smiled, she was happy
and thats all i ever wanted her to be was happy
Coming home from the vets i thought I had lost tiffin
I couldnt find him anywhere....
my legs started to go weak and i was so close to becoming hysterical
but luckily my brother called out and i came rushing
he had gone under a bush, as in chewed his was under
you could just see little parts of him through the bush
i would never have found him
how long has been working on that!?
so i am completely drained now and want the day to end
all photos and video were taken just hours ago
