Didn't sleep great
I was in a whole lot of pain
got I ached and ached
Mum woke me at 8:30am
I got ready and spent as much time as I could with Oz before
I had to take him to the vets
I arrived at the vets on time
Oz was being good boy he was panting a little bit
my favourite vet saw to us
Oz was weighed and they said he was the correct weight
which surprised me
he then had his name on a sticker put on the carrying case
and a little paper band round his neck with name on
It was hard to leave him but I knew he'd be good
he was very good whilst having a post op check up
I left the pet shop and went TK MAXX
i did very well in there
only buying the reduced stuff i spent £21
i got:
thermal leggings
thick tights
x2 compression tights
3x socks
x2 netting socks
shiny nail varnish as mine is running short
base coat for adam's mum in mind as the nail varnish is drying out her nails
a bra
hand cream for mum for xmas
bargins
I did start to feel a lil panicky from being out in the public
by myself...
doesnt happen very often and i feel i could be losing confidence in going out by myself
usually i have someone with me
but I carried on and forced myself to drive to Tesco
I picked up 2 pumpkins - one for soup - one for carving
and i picked up adam this brand of beer he likes but can never get
I came home and sat with mum a minute before she went out again
put stuff away
washed a bra
hung washing up
drew out halloween nails
adam came
made us both a hot lunch
stripped my bed
made my bed
put the girls out
god i hadnt stopped
I had a mini break down today
i was very hard
i had been suffering today as it was and to have adam and mum over and i was struggling to make my bed and mum was nagging a lil
i just wanted to explode and have ago at people and it would have been over nothing
i was beating myself up for feeling like this as it's not 'normal' way of thinking
beating myself up that i was struggling to make a bed
i was in pain as well
i was tired as well
so i was in my room doing my bed when i started crying
mum shouted upstairs if i was ok cus both her and adam was in the living room
i told her i wanted to be left alone
after the bed was made i laid and cried
about 10 mins later adam and mum came into me
i re-assured them that i was ok i had just had a moment and it was best i was left alone
they both knew that was the case
but adam picked my spirits up and i came downstairs
for extra pain relief, tea with two sugars
it picked me up
we think the stress with Oz added to all of that
I went over to adams for 90mins as i needed a change of scenary
he offered to take me for cake but i didnt want to be around people
he offered to go a walk but i was tired
so we were just on his bed really
when i said "i have to leave to go get Oz"
he got up and went to make me a quick drink id asked for
i popped for a wee
came down stairs to find adam bleeding...
i freaked out a bit
it was a nose bleed
he doesnt usually have them and he was so cool and collected i was more upset than he was it was the first time i had seen him bleed and i didnt like seeing it even if it was just a nose bleed
it made me feel a bit weird actually a bit sicky and shaky
i came home for Oz
we were waiting about 10mins for him
and he was quite awake and as soon as the vet opened the cage door
Oz came straight out trying to jump up me
i had to control him so he didnt cause an injury to ether of us
he calmed down
brought him home and put him in his hutch for re-assurance
I ate dinner quickly and brought him straight inside my bedroom
the vet said he has eaten and passed poos i havent gotten him to eat yet but he has passed poos and eaten some so he seems to be ok
i might syringe him water before he goes bed
but for now hes under my bed where its dark and warm
I have to take him for a check up on saturday at 3:45pm
Thats been my day
bit of a wasted day but i knew it would be like that
cus i just needed distracting really
and i couldnt do anything creative as my head was else where
speaking of my head im loads better now
i hate being so up and down
feel bloody bi-polar
tomorrow my parents go away for the weekend
im staying home doing crafty bits and looking after Oz
so glad he's ok tho
