My tillie is doing really well
almost like there was nothing wrong with her....
but im glad shes doing well ^^
Saturday morning I went over to Jack's
I was reunited with both jack and flump ^^
we made a soup for lunch
then we did a big walk with theo
we played switchs
at pizza
and that night I slept really well
had a dream that i was back at my high school
it was empty until i got to my form room which had a class in and my form teacher
thats when i flew into a rage and i could blast people with a force of wind by thrusting my palm out, safe to say that the room was covered in blood and guts when i was finished
i was being chased so flew out the window and was casually hopping from roof top to roof top
yup ether im disturbed or watched too much anime XD
sunday morning
we did a work out together which was mainly yoga for me and weights for jack
we did a walk
we baked cookies
played switches
then his friends gave him a call at 4pm on Zoom
i was laid out on the rug in front of the patio door which was open and letting in a lovely breeze and hot sun, and hot sun on my joints is amazing
so i laid and laid, they were only talking about politics for some reason anyway
then i got up and talked to them for a bit
then i made dinner which was chopped roasted veg and chicken, jack played his switch and didnt help much but i was fine as i kinda wanted to it as he seems to always cook for me
then he had his gaming and theo was gaming online with harvey
so i was very much just left to it
which i was fine about and it allowed me to finish of the picture i have done for the fridge at work:
cute huh
it got to 9:30pm and i was aching and had enough
i decided to grab my phone, ipod, jacks flat keys and i went for a walk round the city centre by myself at 9:30pm it was odd being out so late and no one around
i got back at 10:10pm
usually jack is done for 10pm but he wasnt
it was 10:40pm by time he had finished
bit annoying
i couldnt sleep as id gone past the stage of being tired
got to sleep around 1am
we woke up to the sound of jacks alarm at 8:30am
i got up and had a shower
we had a meeting online at 9:30am
it was good to see everyone from science
and people were asking if jack was treating me right XD
it only lasted 10/15 mins and was pointless as nothing was said but i guess its about staying in touch and i actually havent attended a single meeting yet so it did me good to show my face
all day from the moment i got up i have felt sick and really really anxious
like im gonna sit an exam or have a panic attack like my throat feels tight and everything
jack says i was ringing my hands a lot
dont know what the problem even is
i cant work it out
annoying tho
feels like i havent had my medication but i know i have
jack got showered and we went round the city
popped into wilkos and tesco
we brought the cutlery i wanted for our house - its rainbow! how cool is that ^^
jack paid for it as he says ive been buying loads of stuff for the house which is true but only cus he already has a shed load of stuff
we talked on the walk and i said i felt fed up last night, sometimes i think he talks too much about gaming or does/plays too much games
it can feel relentless at times like if hes not playing it hes talking about it
and sometimes its a bit much
i said i didnt know if it was me being tuned into it or if it was him
and he confessed he knows he does too much gaming or says to himself "ok i gotta shut up now"
i think cus i dont talk about my interests really as i think no one is interested why bore them
but he doesnt think the same as me XD
i dont mind him gaming but playing pokemon go whilst we're having breakfast can be a pee take
but i know a lot of his 'habits' are from him living how he likes, he usually does all this cus im not there so its hard to stop you doing these things in front of someone when youre so used to doing them. he says he will try harder but i told him theres no need, just sometimes its grating XD
we came back and had lunch
then i had a massive sleep i probably wont sleep tonight but i am shattered
we had tea and cookies
i got a message from mum saying my new plush had arrived - my replacement flump
i havent told jack, he just knows that i plan to replace flump in the future
so i said to jack i would take flump home and bring something else to his
little does he know its a great big bunny X3
i will photograph it :D
when i got home i went straight to Oz as i know he really misses me
i got lots of licks
and im gonna go now and sit with him and fuss his little face
he does miss me a lot and i feel guilty but i have to live my life sometimes
but mum always keeps him in routine and provides plenty of love ^^
tomorrow i might start a pokemon painting ive been wanting to do
and theo and jack gave me ideas for it too
