New watch!

Good Evening~~

I had a good lay in
I woke up at 7am and thought "sod this" and went back to sleep
waking up at 8:45am ^^

I had a slow morning of dossing around with my brother
then me and mum got ready for swimming
we both did 20 lengths
i was happy i had managed my 20
i think the week off did me good as it didnt feel like a massive chore how it usually does
but god it wiped me out

I got back and had some porridge for lunch
cus i was too knackered to make anything else >.>

I have 2 mats in my bedroom
heart one to cover a patch of carpet a burned lightly with the iron by mistake
and the other i made myself, my ragrug which took 80 hours!
I dont like the heart one anymore it irritates me and im sick of seeing it
my rag rug has been ruined by tiffin so i think ive got to part with it sadly :(
hes a royal pain my prince is at times
so i found a rug online i liked and i showed it mum to see what she thought
i like 2nd opinions~
I ordered it for £17 which is very cheap for a rug, i know its not gonna be amazing
quality but its just to hide a bit of carpet
im not replacing the rag rug cus i think tiffin will only wee again on it >.>
so i ordered a cardaptors magic circle rug and i cant wait til it arrives!!!

but something did arrive today.....

my new watch!!! im glad its come ok and i will wear it for school next week~
it has little pictures behind the muse symbol which i thought was cool

i went to chuck the packaging out when something dropped out

it was a card, cards i collect and put on my wardrobe
i have never had this before so i well happy
and what was even more amazing is it has Stitch on ot - my all time favourite disney character!!
so i added it to the collection of course~

I started planning out my coat
i finished the planning
i made a templated
tested and stitched it out of cruddy material to see if it works
and it does
so yay yay

tomorrow im going to a few shops with mum
coursework
and hopefully jacket making~

I started display 2

Good Evening

and exhale~~~~~
my week is over ^^
tomorrow is my day off although i do plan to go swimming
yoga wasnt on tonight sadly so me and mum went for a walk instead
i just have to walk again this week and ive achieved my 5 times a week walk!
that will be week 1 complete~

This morning I got up for school
I had a morning where nothing was going right for example i dont know how many
layers of eye shadow i put on! i couldnt get it right and kept changing designs -____-
mum said i looked fine tho

at school i was in year 3
year 6 were still away on their 5 day trip
year 5 went on a trip til the afternoon
year 4 were away on their 3 day trip
so we were the only ones in key stage 2!!!
dead quiet and nice ^^

I helped em out with english and maths
i really enjoyed my day i just love my job so much
they went into the hall to practice a presentation or something
they returned in like 10 mins i thought "jeez that was quick!"
each student from the class passed me saying the same thing
".....got stung by a wasp!"
yeah one kid got stung by a wasp
apparently a few wasps had made their way in the hall
so the teacher took em away back to the classroom
where the next 10 minutes she ended up answering bee and wasp related questions XD
i was trying to keep a straight face

in the afternoon i got the piggies out for the dutch girls as they
have never held a guinea pig before!
i went to class, they were getting ready for p.e. - perfect as i could do my display finally!!
the kids were getting shoes on and this guy who is a supply TA - who never even made eye contact with me the whole day, never spoke to me or even introduced himself to me turned to a girl tying a boy's laces
"why are you tying his laces?"
girl "im just helping"
turns to the boy "why is she tying your laces?"
boy "because i cant tie them yet"
"you cant tie them yet!?"
i was about to through a book at this guy's face
hes rude to the kids and saying that to a seven year old really peed me off
he'll get there one day and shes just helping what the hell is his problem!!
i had to walk off before i chewed his face off, you dont do that to children
he sucks at his job thats all i can say

display time~~
ahhhhhh i had such a lovely time
i had 2 year 4s with me who didnt go on the trip and they're really sweet
so i had them to talk to whilst i was painting, gluing, stapling, laminating
and i got it done, well its kinda done, i cant go any further til the kids have done work
for me to put up but so far the comments i got were really good ^^
the teacher - who is creative and ex-TA - liked it (i had that extra pressure)

i got home
had a brew
went for a walk
shower
played pokemon
then cleaned tiffin out
then just been on laptop

tomorrow is another day and it's one i get to choose what to do
tho i do have course work >.>

Did the WRAP training thing

Konbanwa~~

I got up at 8am this morning
I had a nightmare last night soaking my bed making it damp to sleep on -___-
so I was a lil tired this morning ><
But I got ready for this Wrap training I had volunteered myself for

I arrived there dead on the dot they were just starting ><
there was about 15 others there and I was by far the youngest
always the youngest....
anyway it was a 2 hour presentation about children and young people being radicalized 
and who is vulnerable and how to to help and reach out 
it was dull but and eye opener i guess
i cant say i know an awful lot about terrorism so i did learn a lot
still i got a certificate for doing it and looks good on my CV
no one else there was a training TA haha everyone was like dept head and other
important school roles...yeah im not totally sure how i got on that training XD

I came home and had left over pasta from last night for lunch~
then I had an hour's kip
got up and went for a walk with mum
had a brew and played pokemon
did some drawing
so i havent done a great deal but i wasnt in the mood to do loads
i just wanted to tune out really

tomorrow i am at school
and i should be in year 3 once again
god i hope theyre better behaved today
my head cant take that level of noise alllll day
and i hope i can do my display, i planning on getting there earlier so i can
start painting the wall before children come in
so and early start for me ><
my nails for this week~

 

Chokers

Good evening~~

I couldnt wake up this morning
mum woke me at 7:15am I told her "no not yet"
so she woke me up at 7:40am instead - i still had enough time~

I went to college 
couldnt find the classroom as it changes week to week -____-
but ive been told where it is next week thank god saves me walking round aimlessly
we got a few more units done and she set us some to do at home which i need to do
people in class once again shared stories about their schools
i left at 12pm, i was gonna wait to hand some work in to my teacher
but everyone wanted her and i couldnt be arsed to wait it out anymore
i'll give it to her next time
she did bump into me in the corridor on break time and asked how my depression is
she is a good teacher :) 

i got home and had some hot food i wanna say porridge but i cant spell it
then i went to bed for an hour 
got up and went for a power walk with mum
then came home, had a brew and played pokemon silver~

tomorrow i dont get a lay in again T^T
i have this training ive opted for dont know what it will be like
it's totally free and im praying im not the only one going
cus my plan is to sit at the back of the room and doodle in my note pad
its called
Mop-up WRAP TRAINING - Prevent and the Role of Designated Safeguarding Leads in Schools
god knows what it will be like! I just thought it would look good on my CV

then i have the day free
i have things to do but im hoping i have the energy and motivation to do em!
these came in the post today
my 99p chokers i ordered~

 

In year 3

Otsukaresama Deshita~~

I got up at 7:15am -__- could have done with more sleep
sleeeeepppppp
but I had school~

My morning began with seeing year 6 in non-uniform which I always
like to see, i think you can see someone's personality more through what they wear.
Many parents were there to see their child off
they were going for 4 nights = 5 days
some of the suitcases were huge!!! Im not exaggerating ether
they were massive, Nienka was like "I didnt bring that much stuff with me to come the england for 3 months!!" I said "I didnt take that much when I went on that trip thats for sure!"
mental
anyone would think they were traveling to 3rd world country or something!

so now it was 10:30am
I was class-less and my mentor forgot to allocate me a class.....
I've only been here what 10 months? and ive been forgotten -____-
personally i wanted year 4 but I got got year 3 *cringe*
was not a class i wanted to be in really but its experience i guess

so at first i helped with their english
then i got told i could do some display work and i was able to let loose with it all
making a volcano and maybe some waves later too
for their natural disasters topic so i was able to escape the classroom for a lil while
but i couldnt go any further with it as i needed to attach it to the wall and paint the wall too
and i couldnt with children right there :/ not that young anyway theyd probably walk into the paint!

at lunch at sat with the dutch girls - who i now have on facebook ^^ (not that i use it but i have a means of contacting them now)
we had a right laugh at lunch time it was good, im so gonna miss them
think they go 9th december or something :(

i wore my pikachu hair scrunchie today and my pokeball necklace
god i had so many comments from students and so many talks
about pokemon it was good fun ^^ i think they love the fact
im an adult but can talk about pokemon~ cus im awesome like that i guess XD

so i helped out in lesson to which we did a lil more english then art
art....yeah the whole day they were fussy and noisy to the point were it was wearing on
my patience. like they could not sit and listen.
art they were painting waves in fact its 'the great wave' by Hokusai
the teacher didnt know the name of the artist so i was like "oh is that the one by Hokusai?"
i said it in front the of the class she was like "I errr dunno really actually" yay i was smart!

basically i was dispensing the paint and also mixing colours for them to use
all paint was put on a paper plate not a plastic pallet as the class isnt good at washing up
so why was it i saw children trying to WASH PAPER plates!?
i had to tell every table
"the plates go straight in the bin!!!! dont wash them!!!"
it wasnt because they wanted to clean up, oh no, it was because they wanted to make
a huge painty mess
honestly some were smearing hands into it and it was just ciaos
in fact two TAs came round the corner and yelled at them for the silly noisy mess they were making

my head was pounding at the end of the day truly
i had had enough and wanted the quietness of home
it had rained most of the day so my bike was wet i had to stand up and ride all the way home
and my legs still hurt from cycling on saturday ><

came back and let tiffs in to stretch his legs
then me and mum went for a power walk for 40mins
apparently power walking 30 mins 5 times a week is good
for depression and can make you lose weight
so its a win win situation
im gonna do this!!!

tomorrow i have college T^T 

Tiffin's 2nd Birthday!

Tadaima~~~

Im here~

I am exhausted big style
life is hard currently but i guess i did have a good time

Friday I got ready with Tiffin, the idea to give him as much attention
as i could before I had to leave
then I went to pick ed up from the station at 12
from there we headed to worksop

we got there ok, held up a little as there was an accident along the way
the place we stayed at was basically an old pub
but the people were friendly and the service was good and the room was nice
it was bright, clean, open and tidy so couldnt ask for anymore really

We dumped our stuff then went into worksop town center which
was about a 3 min walk from us
so we checked some stores out there was a market on and loads of charity shops!
All i got tho was a few buttons and ribbon from the market as it was dead cheap

we walked back to the room and got changed for dinner, we walked along side a canal
which did a kinda loop round worksop center so we ended up near the shops
from there we walked to a thai restaurant 

ed as usual orders loads of food -______- i cant keep up with him
there was food left over - my fault apparently for not eating as much as him -__-
i was sooooo full food was amazing tho

Next day we got up for breakfast as it was only served til 10am
and we woke up at 8:30am
I had a quick shower then we went for breakfast ed ordered us both a full english ><
not my thing but there was cereal on the side so i had more cereal than the breakfast
he ate mine really XD 
then we went upstairs to get ready, well i got ready, i sent ed out to go get us a sandwich
to take with us for lunch XD so i could get ready in peace, save time, and save me energy

from there we headed to Clumber park - a national trust park
i have been there on a school trip in year 9 
we went to go rent a bike we wanted - well mostly me - a tandem bike (double bike)
i thought it would save me energy as i was quite anxious about it all
its a big place!
you could rent bikes for 2 hours or all day
we went for 2 hours, they gave us a rent slip for a tandem but it turns out there
wasnt any tandem D: so we had to go on normal bikes but they said we could
have a free hour on a tandem after our 2 hour bike ride  so i guess that was good
ed noticed i had gone quiet and it was cus i was anxious

but we headed off and we kept going and going and going and going
had the odd stop off and i knew ed could keep going and go even faster if he wanted to
but he stayed with me the entire way which was good of him
my god tho i had had enough i just wanted to die in peace
we used up the whole 2 hours, 2 hours of cycling!!!!!!
we got back to the bike rent and i wanted to sit down before i went on the tandem
but noooooooo we had to go there and then didnt we >3>

going on a tandem was one of the most scariest things ive done in my whole life
im glad ive done it but my god its terrifying
being the back passenger gives you no control just a bar and pedals the pedals
are connected to the front so you have to pedal 
i held on to everything i think at first, the handle, ed's massive rucksack (couldnt see in front of me it was so bloody big!) and ed himself
i was telling him to slow down
going down dirt track hills with stones with not being able to see the ground of have any control is terrifying he kept saying "relax. relax. im not gonna let you fall"
to which i say "accidents do happen! now slow down damn it!!"
over the whole of cycling my  tights got torn and ripped >< from thorns and such snagging me

we gave the bike back, i was exhausted
we ate our sandwiches then went and had a brew in the cafe
we headed home eventually
as soon as i saw the bed i collapsed i knew i would fall asleep given the chance and i did!
and it turns out ed also fell asleep with me!
i woke up at 7:30pm!!!! D: we still had to go out to dinner
i was feeling dizzy and tired. my body was really at its limits

we went to a pub for food it was alright
it was hard to find somewhere to eat as everywhere on a saturday night
was loud or had football on
we still ended up with football in the background -___-
i had sweet potato, chick pea burger - i love veggie burgers for some reason
but my god the spice!!!! it was like eating a chili! My mouth was on fire
i drank my drink and ed's as i couldnt put the fire out i even felt my tongue to see
if it was as hot as it felt XD

we headed to the room but it was loud as there was a 60th birthday party happening just
under neath us so they had loud music and karaoke
i went to go use the bath that was available to guests to rest
my muscles as i ached like mad
the noise downstairs didnt end til 12pm
yeah i was close to passing out at this point
i did rob ed's t-shirt he wore during the day and slept in it, he didnt notice til morning XD

this morning we woke up at 9:15am so we didnt have long to have breakfast
so i got up, changed, brushed my hair and went down
i ordered beans on toast for myself this time
then we went upstairs i did a lil make up and hair
then we checked out, on the way home i took us to Rufford park
which was nice, we walked round the lake whilst ed played Pokemon Go
he played it a fair bit but i still couldnt get my head round it all
we stopped at the cafe as they had ice cream - real ice cream
i had white chocolate flavour it was really nice
and we got 2 scoops for the price of one as they charged us too little!

then i came home for a little bit
then took ed to the station at 3pm
i have school in the morning so i needed time to rest and stuff
i felt bad getting rid of him but he just doesnt get  my illness and my needs
so thats it im not gonna see him now i dont think
it was sad to see him go

ive been fussing my little bunny today as he's 2 years old today!!!
my little prince!
I havent had chance to make a cake but i will do this week or mum will
hes lovely and i cant imagine life without him
i hope he has more birthdays to come!

school tomorrow!
i will be in a different class but which one?

Yep I am

Good Evening all~~

I didn't sleep brilliantly and mum told me not to go
school when I got up as I was having doubts about my health
but I just knew it would be a very long day once again if I chose not to go
so in the end i got my butt in gear and went
knowing that i wouldnt be able to go yoga tonight
as it would be impossible with my current health to do both

At school we started with the computer guy who comes in
last week he came in and the internet was playing up so his lesson
was anything but smooth
this week we didnt use computers! instead he got them thinking about their digital footprint
safe to say it scared the hell out of them
i dont think any of them had even a moments thought about what they do online
is watched, monitored and saved 
so in that sense it freaked em out, even more so after watching a video about a guy
getting a job but his employers saw facebook pictures - well you know the stories
so yeah bit of different lesson but it was finished off nicely
he brought an ipad in and programed the controls to fly a mini drone!
he let a couple of the kids choose the 'commands' and they had to go stand
in the area they thought the drone would land
good fun the kids LOVED it big style

afterwards the year 6 had P.E. so I went into year 5 where they were having the exact
same computer lesson, freaked them out also.
but i think what i got out of that lesson was horror
how many kids sit and watch youtube for hours or play call of duty!!! its a 16!! theyre 9/10!!
its sickening and i feel like saying something to their parents
its wrong well i think its wrong
i wouldnt let my kids be playing them games or wasting hours watching crap online
they snapchat intergram all that rubbish too, i havent even been on a lot of social media websites and theyre there having bloody accounts!!

during lunch I sat with the dutch woman, the one in my year 6 class is called Ninka
I cant get the name of the other one ^^" but I will next week
we talked and i asked them how old they were
i was shocked to find out i was the oldest.....yeah...they look and act so much more mature than me...
i told the TA that and she just laughed XD i am a joke i know!
i was only older by 6 months with one and a year older than Ninka
im gonna miss them theyre good company
they look so smart but i was happy to hear Ninka's home style sounds just like mine
joggers and t-shirt!! she was like "I hate wearing smart clothes" - a shared spirit!! 

after lunch they did some work finding paper pairs which Ninka had hidden around
outside and so the kids were on a hunt really. But she hid them too damn well!! 1/4 hadnt been found!
I was laughing my head off
Then the last part was drawing portraits once again~

I got home and just relaxed as I was dead really
I've been getting a few bits ready for tomorrow
as I am going away
yep once again im on my travels -__- 

I will be picking up Ed at the local station not the city one ^^ at 12:00
from there we are heading 45mins away to a place called Worksop
its not a city center its a town, i went as a child but not been since
and it just seemed like an easy thing to do, as I can drive that distance easy
no trains for me!! We have booked a 4* hotel too! I was well happy and it didnt cost too much ether and it has a car park. It was the only hotel in the center of Worksop which makes it easy for food really rather than having to drive out to find somewhere.
I will be back on Sunday sometime, I'm hoping to be back earlier than later as I do
plan on going school Monday

Tiffin is gonna miss me I know he is
last weekend he really missed me
he was good boy but yeah when i got back he stuck to me
like glue for 2 days
on the sunday i get back - the 25th - it's Tiffin's 2nd Birthday!!

Right that's me off
again~
drone older than dutch

Am I going again?

Evening

What a truly wasted day I have had
and a long one at that~
I've done nothing
I was even gonna just draw but I talked myself out of that
I've felt off all day with awful stomach pains
my dad has had a stomach for a week and im wondering if i've caught it off him -____-

So yeah after sleeping for just 4 hours instead of
the previous day's of 13 i have been tired
so i slept, played pokemon, read my kindle, doodled, and walked for 15 mins
that was my day

currently im skyping Ed we are trying to book
something for this weekend
with any luck been at it hours -___-
but i guess i wasnt doing much else
i think we're going away anyway XD

tomorrow i plan to go to school
but if im like this i aint going no where

mate ne~
wish for a more productive day tomorrowz

13 hours

Hiya~~

I had 13 hours sleep last night!!!!
13!!!!!! I can't get over that
I woke up at 11:30am
jesus, thats like the morning gone just like that

I woke up feeling and looking like a corpse
safe to say its time to pay for my holiday time
so today i have done nothing but recover
literally just sat and read or played pokemon
that was my day
whilst my head was on full patrol with calorie counting

i sat with my pets
cus since i have come home
tiffin has not left my side
honestly its really cute but i feel guilty even tho
i know he is fine when i go away as mum does an excellent
job tending to his needs
he just needs me X3

I went to karens for reflex
that knackering and since then done nothing
probably done 100 steps today compared to about 15,000 per day
at the weekend

speaking of the weekend holiday i thought id show you my purchases:

I got a Pikachu necklace from Afflecxs £4

A watch from claires to tide me over for school was £15 I got it for £5

A t-shirt from Afflecxs again reduced from £16 to £5

A t-shirt from disney store reduced from £15 to £5

and some manga from forbidden planet 3 for 2

and finally 2 hair clips for 30p each from Afflecxs

I got some converse too for £14 but forgot to photograph them
so i didnt go mental with my purchases :)

Back from my celebrating X3

I'm Back~~~

So fat and struggling
going through a lot of self hate right now
its at its worst currently, always is when ive been away
but this time i have consumed a lot of sugar
sugar = fat
fat = weight
weight = self hate
not a great start from coming back from my travels i know
but its how it is

anyway my travels~~
mum and my brother dropped me and mia off at the train station
its about 100 mins travel
we talked the entire way XD
we followed mia's iphone to the hotel
which turned out was next door but one to a club called G-A-Y
facing it was a painting of batman kissing spiderman
and round the back was another club - painted on the door was 'take it up the rear'
so its safe to say we worked out we were in manchester's gay district XD
we laughed saying 'people will probably think were lesbians!'

the hotel was shocking
seriously
i cant get over how crap it was
the bed was half finished, it was stuffy as hell, it was a basement room with a tiny opaque window, the air con was tiny and incredibly loud, the kettle didnt work you had to hold the button down whilst it boiled for it to work, dusty, the plumbing my god the plumbing! every time you used the toilet, sink, shower did this horrendous noise happen - it would scare a young child for sure and we could hear it happening round the hotel too so it wasnt just our room. the door could support my entire weight and still wouldnt close so mia had to slam it damn hard, as did the rest of staying the basement. it was just grim really 2nd worst place ive ever stayed in
i wanted to complain but mia wouldnt let me!!

anyway we hit afflecxs palace and had fun a picked up some bits
had peanut butter ice cream which was sooooo sickly but good
and went round other shops

we went for lunch and both had tuna baguette which was the best
one i have ever eaten - no cheap but bloody brilliant 

that evening we  looked round for a place to eat
being friday night places were busy
we walked in one, it was soooo loud i couldnt hear mia so we walked out
cus i felt it would have been an effort so we walked to an american diner
which had the worlds slowest service we had meatballs on chips? weird combo but alright

we did plan to go for a quick drink but we both had belly ache
so we ended up at the hotel room playing pokemon and tired

in the morning we went in cruddy shower and tried our best
to get ready to the little light we had that time of day
very hard to do make up!
we walked to a cereal bar in afflecxs palace
both of us have always wanted to have ago
and it did not disappoint its called - black milk - i believe

basically they have every sugar cereal available
you choose from
a small bowl
a large glass bowl
a chocolate EDIBLE bowl
we both obviously wanted to eat our own bowls so
we had white choc bowl
you choose your milk, i had fudge mia had banana
then choose your cereal combo
and any sauces/trimmings
we both had reece and kelloggs clusters and other bits
mine 

mias 

it was very sickly
in fact i just wanted to throw it all up
too much that time of day

we hit the shops 
we bumped into someone wearing a giant pikachu outfit
so of course i asked for a photo!!

we went to a cafe for a drink and sat in weird furniture
well practically every cafe in manchester is quirky in someway

then mia took me to Krispy Kreme as ive never been before
my god
all they do is doughnuts and i was blown away
that way the best every doughnut i have ever eaten
so i was sure to bring one home for my brother and he was very grateful

later on the plan was to go for thai food then go for a drink
we had a 30 min wait for a seat at the thai place so we had a drink there
we got a table ordered and food arrived in 10 mins!!! hows that possible!?
really good tho i had yellow curry duck and veg with a side of coconut rice

mia had some beef noodles

but we were so tired
we had not stopped all day
so we ended up going back to the room
watching youtube on mias iphone and playing pokemon

this lead to today
the day we would have to leave manchester T^T
our train was at 2:47pm so we had time to kill
we busied ourselves round a cafe and a few shops and another cafe

mum and my brother picked us up
and thats it
i'll update tomorrow on my purchases

ed txt to say can we go away this friday 0.0