Evening
I slept really quite well last night
towards waking up i dreamed that i was with other adults
we were in this big play room playing different roles
i was playing the role of a dog and i really enjoyed myself XD
This morning I prepared myself for my interview at the school
i was nervous and excited
i dressed simply
I arrived on time and got there ok
the school was big....
Two ladies saw to me who were really nice
they jumped straight to the observation/group work id have to do
i had no idea what i was in for
they grabbed 4 year2 children
all foreign....
now im not by any means racist but i do find it difficult to work with children who dont have english as a first language
so i couldnt understand what they were saying really and also i could not pronounce their names
1 child also had severe learning difficulties
i was not warned or told about any of this
the kids got on with it but the kid with the difficulty was just making a mess
what the point of jumping me in at the deep end like that i have no idea
i couldnt wait for the lesson to be up
then the interview
that went fine, the woman were nice and it went quick i feel i answered
everything well enough. its all practice at the end of the day
they said they had been keen to meet me as i had been the best candidate so far
but that could be a load of bull for all i know!
I left the school
drove home in a bit of daze really
got home and i was drained
completely drained
mum was home 5 mins later
i made us both a brew mine had double sugar -___-
I told her how it went and stuff
and i got upset big style
i had a bit of a break down about it all
like the lid to the jar of my insecurities was opened and i couldnt screw the lid back on
i cried about not wanting to be at that school
mum said that was fine and theres no rush in getting a job
i cried about thinking it will be impossible for me to find a nice quiet small school, ive chosen the wrong career i did my qualification and training for nothing, agency work will be hard if i get given schools like that one, what will i be left with after christmas when i leave my primary school? just loads of stuff piled out
i was done
i went to bed to cry it off and rest
when i got up dad wanting me up at his work to test drive a Polo car he has
its a whole 3 years newer than mine
i was so not in the mood
i test drove it and didnt like it he said that was fine
i love my car its gonna be pretty hard to beat it
but dad hates my car XD
i went over to taras for an hour had a catch up with her
came home and applied to some schools i visited whilst i was with mad science
to see if they had an openings, well its worth a shot, you dont know unless you ask!
tomorrow i am going school
i feel a lil deflated about everything right now
but i hope i will feel good about life tomorrow
tomorrow is a new day
Konbanwa
I slept quite well last night
and this morning I certainly must have slept deeply as I woke up
at 8:45am and I didn't hear anyone getting ready
My morning consisted of getting stuff ready for my interview and lesson tomorrow
I have decided to do some Aboriginal Art
I learned this 'lesson' back in 2007 when I did some work experience at an art center
so I thought it would be a nice one to do as I only have 15mins to do it in
I printed off an Aboriginal tribe to show they live in Australia and all that
Then Examples of Aboriginal Art
Then the one I did
I did two actually the one above is done with finger tips
this one is done with the end of the paint brush,
when i first learning this we used ear buds
but i dont want to faff with that
so i tested finger tips and that works fine
im gonna be with 5x 7 year olds, so its gotta be simple and quick
I have some shapes to draw round for the center of the hand
i chose a hand as its simple to draw round your own hand
the shape in the middle is my idea tho
praying tomorrow will go ok, i am excited to teach but im bricking it about the interview and stuff. I went on the school's website today and it looks like quite a multi-cultural school. I hope i dont have any children with tricky names >< I hate when i get names wrong
mum was giving me tips but it was all stuff i know XD
I packed my bag, got my outfit ready, and my item of choice which is my pokemon necklace - which i will be wearing!
Then I applied for another school, 2 agencies rang me today. 1 saying they need one more reference then the other said i can actually work for them!
I got a dance done this morning
i wasn't going to as i was gonna go college to pick up my folder
so i got in my car and it didnt start ><
im not shocked. It was very cold this morning like below freezing and i havent used it in a while.
so i told my teacher i'll collect it another time
dad came home and fitted me a new battery :D
he hates my car and wants me to have another >.>
in fact tomorrow he's on about me test driving a car 0.0
i'll be sad to get rid of my car tho ><
I had Karen's today which was nice
and good to have a catch up
then i came home and showered
did some hand sewing
and thats my day really
i hope tomorrow goes ok i really do
i hate interviews i try to appear confident
anyway im not gonna think and worry over it too much
thats at 10:15am tomorrow!
Otsukaresama deshita
Dad woke me up at 6:55am -____-
i hate the monday morning rush
but I suck it up and get on with it :/
I got to school with my new coat and dress top on ^^
many people liked my dress top - note to self must photograph it ><
I saw the year 6 teacher he said
"Jo I left the wall for you to do, thought you'd like to do it"
I said "did you leave it for me tho? or did you run out of time?"
he said "a bit of both" ^^;
thought so >.>
but anyway it got me out of helping with english and maths XD
I was doing the water wall basically
and I took my time with it
whilst backing some of the work i came and sat with Nienke whilst she
marked the year 6's math paper
so i had someone to talk to
then Anouk came over to talk followed by a young guy
i was like "so who are you?" - noting the 'student' sticker on his shirt
basically he's Tom, 23 years olds, has a car, lives with his parents, training to be a teacher
and other facts i found out about him
yeah i grilled him big time XD
Anouk was a little peeved as he's in year 5 with her
and hes been following her around, and I guess i would too as we're all the same sorta age so we stick together. i didnt mind. anyway i gotta suck it up cus after next week when neinke and anouk go im gonna be left with him on break and lunch times ><
anyway Neinke and Anouk invited me over on friday
they're having a kinda leaving party as its their last weekend
i was really happy i got invited, i'll be the 20th guest and the only british one at that!
its about equal guy and girls and were drinking hot chocolate and stuff
my kinda party X3
after lunch the class did some work i helped out with but i also helped another TA do
some work. Then the year 6s were practicing their lines for the christmas performance
i dont like sitting and doing nothing so i went and helped out in year 4 with art~
so it was an alright day really :)
i got home shattered tho i have to say
i sat with a brew and my little girls~
i went to check my emails
i had one from a school i applied for last week
i have been 'short listed' apparently and they have asked me to come in on wednesday
for a 30min interview + a 15min activity with 5 x year 2 children 0.0
bit odd but im all for it
so i sat there planning my lesson
im gonna do some Aboriginal Art with them ;)
i hope it will go ok!
so a few nice things happened today:
wall display
invited to a party
kinda made a new friend/colleague
invited for an interview
Tomorrow I am going to college to go collect my folder
be nice to say hello and bye to my teacher
i hope i can catch her anyway
then i have karen at 1pm
these are last week's nails
i tried to do fans
using nail tape :/
Konbanwa~
I slept pretty bad last night
so I was determined I was gonna get up early
and ended up waking up at 9:50am
but I wasn't arsed really
The morning went to sewing a dress i got from charity shop
the other week. I got it finished and it looks cool even though i didnt do much to it
I will photograph it
I photographed the thank you card Ive made my teacher
I think its alright, I went a bit blank on what to do, its been a while since ive done a card ><
I went for a walk by myself
then I came home and snuggled in my bed reading
sat with my pets a few times
oh i remember now where a lot of time went
1 hour 45mins went to do this stupid online safe guarding course
of course safe guarding isnt stupid
just the amount of time it took is stupid
i was there ages!!!! I passed it luckily
but i swear im not doing anymore online tests! it took the royal pee
but got it done for that agency i went to on friday
some stuff has already sold on ebay would you believe
i mean everything finishes on saturday but people have put bids on the rabbit bag and tardis light
so im glad some stuff is going anyway
tomorrow im gonna wear the dress i did today for school
i have a coat now to wear for school thanks to charity shops ^^
oh and Ive started my Joe/Gomamon picture :3
mate ne
