Konbanwa~
I slept a lil better last night
mum woke me this morning cus we were gonna head off for the city centre
so we got ready to go, we always every morning find time for the pets before
we leave the house, we left at 9:30am
The city centre was really quite
a lil creepy really cus we expected it to be busy
so we cracked on and just stuck to the places we needed
mum managed to find a few things in the sales
we went to a jewelers (where i got my ears pierced 10 years ago) to look
at silver chains for this charm necklace granny left me
i love it, its very heavy tho so it needed a good chain the chain she had
was simple stainless steel god knows why she had a big silver charm on a crappy chain
i dont wear it cus the charm keeps falling off so i need it to be 'soldered' together so
it physically cant leave the chain its on
but at the moment we through we'd have a look at chains
mum wants to do this for my birthday (feb 7th)
so I tried some chains on with my charm
i found one I liked it is 24" long the current chain is 28" which is too long
i was glad I found on. So mum has the chain, I have the charm as I need to get it soldered still
but she says she wants to pay for it so it will be all nice and finished for my birthday
ok the pieces i found
helina told me that primark had a load pokemon stuff in
i dont shop at primark but i thought 'i gotta check this out right!'
and luckily cus the pokemon stuff had been in for a while it was in the sale!!
so I some bed sheets for £13 (will photograph as some point)
I got a hoodie for £5 it was the only one left and my size!! fate i tell you!
a t-shirt for £3 again there was only 4 left
a pajama top for £5
mickey mouse joggers for £8
we went to next to see their sale
mum picked up some stuff
i got 2 halloween t-shirts cus i love halloween stuff and i'll wear em any time of year X3
t-shirt was £6 and longer shirt was £7
I wanted to go water stones as i really want a japanese work book
and i cant find one online as you cant see inside the book on line
i really had to see them in person to see if they were right for me
i found one i fell in love with
my plan was to write down the author and get it off amazon but i couldnt be arsed when i had it in my hand, also i hadnt seen this particular one online so i got it £11.99 didnt cripple me compared to some which were like £25
you can write in it like a proper work book which is what i wanted ^^
and that was all~
worth going in and we didnt even go all around the centre
it was starting to get busy so we left and were home for 12:30 :)
we had lunch I put the stuff away
rested for a bit
then i stitched helina's tea towels which are done
photographed her apron too
that was my day really
tomorrow i have the new year party!
Good Evening~~
I'm still not sleeping at night ><
I had the paralyze dream once again
but it was different...
every time it takes place in my bedroom but last night it was somewhere made up
and when i woke it was 12:30pm not the usual 1pm - 2pm
strange
anyway it kept trying to pull me back in as it does so i flashed my kindle in my eyes
that wasnt enough so i ended up reading for half hour
got back to sleep but i was waking up constantly
so irritating
so i was tired once again this morning and it was freezing
the plan was this morning to go off into the city centre
but me and mum decided to go tomorrow as its suppose to be warmer tomorrow
i was relieved in a way but disappointed as well
we did go round a few shops in a town today tho but we werent out for long really
we got back had lunch
and i went to bed for a quick hour
woke up and i was home alone
so i went for a walk in the cold as i was quite warm
i bumped into mia's parents X3
got back and mum was home so we had a brew
then from there i worked on helina's apron
which is finished now (as of like 8pm) i just have a few threads to cut
but i'd had enough so i'll finish it tomorrow
i have the designs ready for the tea towels as well~
Tiffin has been fine outside
its when he comes indoors his sensitivity starts up so he does cough
i put the mist thingy on and it does relieve it a lot but not fully
but he seems fine
i brought him some treats from the pet store today they were on offer
and he hasnt had them agesssss
so i when i went to give him one
he took it soooo gently from me and ate it in 4 bites! thats the slowest ever hes eaten one
usually theyre gone in one mouthful!
he must have loved it and savoured it!
so that was my day
still havent photographed anything new!
tomorrow i believe we are going to the city centre ~
Evening~
Why am I not sleeping ><
I was awake from 5am onwards
at 7:15am I could take no more and got up and braced the cold house
why the hell we cant have the heating on at 6:30am i have no idea
then when everyone gets up at 7am the house will be bearable
but no dad has to have set at 7am
the house just gets warm by the time you leave for work
But this morning we headed out pretty early to a local retail park
I picked up this apron which is 1m x 1x big, purple and was £17 reduced to 50p
50p!!!! I have no idea how they can sell it that cheap but I just found it
on a clearance shelf in TK MAXX
So I am gonna do it up and make it into a house warming gift for helina turn it into a kitty apron
I brought 2 tea towels im gonna sew on a kitty face and give to helina also~
should be enough of a house warming present I think
maybe the apron will be enough actually by time im done with it!
I brought some hair dye from boots, I found they had a new section of their own brand of hair dye
one was called "honey" so I brought it and later on today mum dyed my hair
i wasnt planning on dying it so soon but eh it looks better
it looks more natural its taken the red out of my hair to be honest its basically dyed it my natural colour, but the usual hair dye i use gives it a red tinge which i like :3
but I like this colour its freshened it up a bit
We went food shopping
i was highly amused by mum as we always say 'she buys more than what she went for'
she had written down 11 items on her shopping list
and thanks to the receipt I can confirm we brought 46 items!!!
How the hell does that work!? that more than 4x what we went for!!
mental but thats how it always is XD
we came home i ate some porridge and went to bed shattered
got up and cleaned pets out in the cold
designed the apron
cleaned under my bed with the hover as it was pretty bad...
tiffin as of today has started doing that awful sneezing/coughing thing he did before xmas
he suddenly stopped doing it so i assumed he was fine but hes been doing it
a lot today it seems, i was wondering if it could be dust
thats why i cleaned under my bed - his 'den'
but hes still doing it :( it makes me stomach turn when i see him doing it
but i cant tell whats up, his nose isnt runny, i cant see anything up it and he is fine in himself but he does snore a lot louder than usual. almost like he has a sore throat
so i spent a good 45mins researching online
and i think he is sensitive to dust and the change from cold air to the heated house
most people seem to say that anti-biotics and injections have so effect and that the coughing passes in a few weeks. so im gonna monitor him and put a humidifier on in my room for him and change his bedding to dust extracted see how he goes
tomorrow me and mum may brave the city
the sales are calling!
but i hate going when its packed and people turn into animals
thats my idea of hell
so we're thinking about it
we shall see
i kinda hope we go tho :)
i forgot to photo graph the things i made yesterday ><
but he's my figure from the other day
I believe her name is Hibiki she's cool
but my favourite from idol m@ster is Mika Jougasaki
I have a figure of her sister Rika Jougasaki
maybe one day i maybe lucky enough to find her online~
Good Evening
I have no idea why Im not sleeping at night
I woke up at 9:30am
about 2 mins after I woke up someone was practically bashing down our front door
like it was a bloody emergency or something
turns out it was guy asking about a car battery in our garage!!!
He'd been in our garage a complete stranger!!
Dad was incredibly rude to him to which my stomach lurched
i wasnt bothered about the guy's feeling i was more thinking
"yeah that him putting a brick through our window later or keying one of our cars" -____-
but dad doesnt think like that he just sees red like a bull and rages
so if we've been robbed in the night or anything i know why!
thats me not sleeping again once again!
So I didnt do a lot today really
i was tired and worn out but not sure why
I did gather my outfit together ready for new years party
black dress, black tights with floral design but i was stuck for accessories
so i made myself a hair slide using an old necklace and i made a choker
with just plain black ribbon. So im all set~
I found a make-up tutorial i think i'll follow
as i dont really do vintage make-up ><
that took me quite a while
i caught up on my sleep
and that was it really
tomorrow hopefully will be more productive
especially as dad is going to work so i have mum back to myself ^^
I started Pokemon yesterday night!
Seems good so far
started with the grass type this owl looking one
Konbanwa~~
I didn't sleep despite taking sleeping tablets >.>
it was 9:45 when I woke and I didnt wanna get up ><
But I did and started my day as a normal day
txted mia happy birthday
she said she'd txt me later when to go over and see her
so i went for a walk by myself
came home and did some skipping
trying to burn off some bad calories
i dont know why i scoff myself as i only regret it ><
but i cant resist cake and chocolate sometimes as i have them so infrequently that
i make the most of when they appear in my life XD
so i went over to mia's about 1pm
she was with rob
i gave her her pressies she loved them especially the 25 bunting flags
she wore her unicorn hoodie id given her at christmas time ^^
we talked about christmas and things
she talked to me about the party on new years eve
its a vintage theme apparently
so ive been thinking what i could wear
think im going in a black little dress i have :3
keep it simple and do some make up
i left about 5pm
and since then we discovered that mum had forgotten to give my brother
another christmas present I had gone to the trouble of ordering -_____-
so we gave it him
my poor brother had like nothing to unwrap on christmas day XD
here's me and mia on her 25th birthday
the card i made
she loved it
flamingos!!!
Merry Christmas
there i said it >.>
haha XD
Yeah its christmas
the day that put everyone under stress from september is finally here
now in stead of christmas adverts on the TV it will be sales followed by losing weight clubs
same old year in year out
easter eggs can be brought from january on wards
how mad is that!?
anyway today mum woke me it was 9:45am
i had taken sleeping tablets so i was dead to the world
but it meant i had slept for 11 hours ><
I could not be arsed to start this BS production of a day
But I did
my brother wouldnt let me go to the city centre with him, he'd already left before i was awake
so i got dressed and saw my pets and had cereals, same usual morning
then my brother got home
we opened gifts at 11:40am
I got some lovely bits as i always do
i cant ever complain about what i receive as its lovely people the time to bother with me
so I took photos cus its easier XD
me and my brother always open each other's stuff first so he brought me a craft book and natsume manga (need number 20 then i have the collection!!!)
my parents (well mum as she buys, wraps and bothers. dad just pays)
gave me pokemon moon!, craft scissors, leg compression tights (good for pain), and 2 jumpers which i had picked out earlier in the year
mia had brought me a pair of pikachu slippers, to which tara had as well!!
mia also brought me a guinea pig piggy bank - i brought my brother an identical one last xmas!!
helina gave me a cute plusheen key chain!!! so cute ^^
karen brought me far too much! lip butters, cherry necklace with matching earrings and a rabbit broach the broach was hand made, mum got a matching guinea pig one
tara gave me a candle she made, pikachu slippers, and a tray of nuts in their shells with a nut cracker (james had chose it as i always crack his nuts when i go over - i mean actual nuts XD)
my brother kindly signed his present to me from 'ya nigga' how thoughtful on christmas day...XD
now comes things that could only happen in this family
*clears throat*
i ordered dad's presents to give to mum
yep i order on dad's behalf something for mum
he never asks what i have brought her
my brother this year kindly wrapped it on my dad's behalf (usually i wrap as well)
so my mum opens one gift, i turn to my brother "wheres the other?"
"you have it dont you?" "no"
my mum laughed and turned to my dad "have you forgotten to give me something?"
my dad "clearly it would seem"
my brother "what is it dad we forgot to give hmm?"
so my brother went and found it, my dad sat there not phased in the slightest
any other family maybe cringing at this or embarrassed but im just not surprised anymore
dad is almost proud of the fact he has nothing to do with christmas
he even washed the car first thing this morning, who the hell does that!?
its like he draws attention to himself 'look at me im not bothered about christmas'
loser
so then my brother finished unwrapping
after we left the room i went to mum "where's bad education?"
"oh i forgot, dont you have it? i dont know where it is"
"well its 3 DVD box set its a lil hard to miss"
she had it and gave it my brother we laughed when my brother said
"you've cocked up as well have you?"
honestly i cant leave people to do things!!
i was in my room with tiffin doing stretches and such
helped mum with the dinner
we ate, had pudding
god im full
not to mention the amount of chocolate and biscuits ive snacked on
my parents went for a walk my brother went on his bike
i didnt go outside XD
i did take a few photos of myself to upload here
but i looked ugly so deleted them
i txted everyone my thank yous
tomorrow im seeing mia for her 25th birthday :3
Well thats christmas done and dusted for another year!!!
i love this time cus its the furthest time possible away from christmas!!!!
Evening
ugh its christmas bloody eve
we all know what that means
yup its christmas tomorrow
my most hated day of the year
People say to me "eh how can you not like christmas!?"
its very simple
i was brought up into a family that doesnt like christmas
we are a tiny family so its not like we have enough for a party or games
no one makes a big deal of it in my family
and this year theres only the 4 of us so it feels like a normal day
its just dull, empty, forced, commercial
so i just wanna get tomorrow over and done with
I didnt sleep well
im not sleeping deep
the slightest noise and im up
lately my brother has been going to bed late and i keep waking up hearing him
so im shattered
dad woke me up at 9am im glad he did but i didnt wanna get up
mum had gone for a walk and left guineas down stairs for me
so after i sorted the pets out then myself i cleaned them out
tiffin always insists on helping X3
I didnt feel like lunch
so i went to bed actually, i wasnt going to but i couldnt continue with day
i didnt want to go for a walk cus it was cold and really windy ><
i spent my after noon making mia a birthday card as i forgot to make her one
her birthday is 26th
i couldnt get my head in gear tho so it took much longer than usual!
mum has cooked leg of lamb for tomorrow's christmas dinner
we NEVER have turkey but im not fussed on something we never have
and she made a sponge cake for pudding tomorrow so i got to lick the bowl out ^^
at 3pm i had my lunch
since then ive been in my room yoga and exercising
gotta do something to help me sleep and burn off all the biscuits and chocolate ive been eating
i did weigh myself on thursday actually and since the start of december ive lost 4lbs
id like to keep it off but i'll probably put it back on
considering tonight we're having take away pizza as well
i feel so sick and anxious
like something bad is going to happen
i get this feeling time to time
i painted my nails last night
pink and gold glitter gradient
tonight we're watching 8 out of 10 cats does count down christmas special 2016
finally something to watch
tv has been crap lately
so tomorrow i'll wake up when ever
me and my brother open each others presents first as is the tradition
then i open the ones from my friends
have breakfast and open others
thats what usually happens but may change
my parents have decided theyre gonna be a pair of old people and go for a walk
im hoping and praying my brother will take me to the city center with him for when he goes to take photos for his project of the city center being totally empty like a ghost town
nether of us have experienced it and i want to
and i want to get out the house!
i hope my friends like what ive made/brought for them this year
merry christmas folks
here's my millie and alice
alice always hides whenever she can -______-
Good Evening
I'm so tired ><
Once again I did not sleep well -___-
in fact the paralyze dream had begun
but thanks to my brother still awake on his laptop the sudden
noise of it woke me up
but it kept pulling me in so i decided to read for a bit to stay awake
i have noticed i always wake up from it between 1:30am and 2am
when I woken last night it was only 1am
anyway last night i was not happy
basically i dont sit with alice and millie at night
i just sit with tiffin
simply because the girls never sit well at night
but they are fine during the day
random i cant work it out
but i decided last night after yoga id sit with them as it had been a while since
they came out
from the moment they were on my knees Alice was spinning around
and squeaking
ok number 1 she was spinning round which shows they are not happy and comfortable (reminded me of how popuri used to be actually)
number 2 alice NEVER speaks
so it was different behaviour for her
i took them home after like 1 minute
they were fighting to go home which was odd
i got tiffin out and sat with him
upon taking tiffin home i noticed alice was sat in a ball on some hay - she doesnt usually do this
so al in all i was concerned
as i am still scarred from when we lost Popuri
she was different during the day then in the morning mum told me she'd died in the night!!!
so all night all i could think about was alice
all things went through my head
"is there something wrong inside like popuri?"
"millie is too young and lovely to be by herself, we'd have to get another pig"
"i dont want to lose her"
mum said she'd been going through the same thoughts
come morning i could hear mum shouting millie
not alice
i hung around upstairs not wanting to face my fears
in the end i went down and looked under the igloos and there she was with spinach in her mouth
shes totally fine
im over the moon with relief
im so glad
perhaps i read to much into it
but like i said im scarred from suddenly losing popuri
today i cleaned my room
went for a bloody cold windy walk with mum
had lunch
made some biscuits!
theyre dutch biscuits Nienke and Anouk gave me the recipe for
it was the first time i tried it
theyre really nice and christmasy
usually they are suppose to be in little round disks
but me being me that wasnt creative enough
so i made guinea pig ones, rabbits, stars, gingerbread men
they came out well ^^
i made 32 in total
so i took 4 rabbits over to taras for her to share with James
i went to taras for a good catch up for 2 hours
we sat with her bunnies
i managed to catch nutmeg but rocky was too quick for me!
here is my lovely chino figure i got the other day!
i love it!!!
tomorrow is christmas eve~
oh and my twine came today
so i hung some across the top of the girls's cage and hung carrot slices from it
they loved it! so they must have had to go and reach on their back legs
gave them some stimulation
i might take photos
Evening
I hadnt slept well
i had my 'paralyze' dream to which i eventually woke up
heart thumping and sweating
its a dream that has got stronger over the last 4 years
usually im paralyzed whilst struggling to escape the dream
last night a strange voice left my mouth but i was unable to make out the words
this dream just continues to get stronger
never has that happened before
it felt body possession
god i sweating
maybe i do need to talk to someone XD my dreams arent normal
when my depression is bad
like the other week
i was dreaming of watching suicide, i dreamed of being raped
not normal -___-
Today in the post came my Chino figure from the anime 'is the order a rabbit?'
its the 7th one ive bidded on and eventually won!
This morning me and mum bathed millie and alice
we had the heating on and an extra fan heater for them
i kept fussing them and sat with them on my knee
dont think they appreciated it but i dont appreciate smelly pigs
once they had dried they had their christmas photo taken
it wasnt brilliant tho
alice just kept hiding behind the tinsel -___-
I was sewing the piggies up
and they are finished now!
i went for a cold walk with mum
i had yoga we did the usual 12 days of yoga routine she made up
tomorrow i am cleaning my room!
i may even do some baking as well :3
here's pinks
here christmas photo
shes cute right :D
still going strong!
Konbanwa~~
I had a pretty restless night for some reason :/
This morning i stitched up the hamster, stitch and pusheen
theyre all finished~~
so i started on the guineas
so far none are finished but lily is almost done
and thats all what ive really done today
that and cleaned out my pets
the sows were smelly gonna wash em tomorrow
i feel bad washing em in winter but they smell
I'll have to keep them inside with the heating on til they dry
i planned on being home anyway:3
Tonight i am off to mia's house with helina
we're just gonna swap presents really and have a catch up
helina is moving out her parent's home tomorrow into her very first house
so its good timing we're meeting tonight really
i took a few photos the other day of pinky and tiffin for xmas
i still need to take a christmas photo of millie and alice
maybe friday when theyre all fresh :3
here's one of tiffin anyway
my god he has been in such a bad mood all day
it started last night
but today he is being very naughty and nasty
don't know whats up with him
must be a full moon or something XD
Good Evening one and all~
I was lazy this morning and got up at 9am
a lay in was needed~
I went food shopping with mum :/
didnt wanna but I did
we were like an hour -_____-
but now that chore was out the way i could focus
on what i actually wanted to do with my day!
which was make some xmas decorations
so I've started, and almost finished
disney stitch head
a hamster
Pusheen the cat
I plan on finishing them ether later or tomorrow morning
tomorrow id like to do the 3 guinea pig decorations~
i ordered some twine which is safe for pets
as id like to try making some things for my pets to interact with :3
£1.49 for 15m which i thought was really good
i saw someone had tied a length of string to the roof of the guinea pig cage
it was hanging across the length of the cage with carrot slices attached
i thought 'what a good idea'
the guineas can reach up for the slices
luckily millie and alice have a low roof to do it with
pinky is in a rabbit cage so she has a tall ceiling XD
speaking of guinea pigs we were watching 'vet on the hill' last night
the vet had a guinea pig on. female and 2 years old i think
it had a huge lump growing on it's leg poor thing
the lump had grown very quick
the vet was able to remove it but only just had enough skin to stitch the wound
back together. the lump turned out to be not cancerous
and the guinea was alright! i was glad
it always makes me tense when i see little animals under anesthetic
i saw mia at 5pm for a walk with todd
she ended up carrying todd half way round as he was being difficult with walking
i dont think he likes walking at night anymore
he is 15 and now on bone tablets bless him
it was good to see mia :) havent seen her for ages
tomorrow me mia and helina are meeting up for present swapping~
here is a plushie i made last week using a pattern from sewdesune
cute huh? i made it look like rudolh but i think its suppose to be a 'peryton' instead
