Sunday, 31 December 2017

Last day of 2017!

Evening all~~

Today marks the last and final day of the year 2017
should I have a quick look back at this year
changes for me this year let's see
First of in January I started work at the education agencies
I also met up with adam since high school
February I turned 25, a 1/4 of a century old! I also spent my birthday sick in bed 
March I lost my precious Tiffin
April the day after April Fool's Adam asked me out
I also got Oz this month
May I started up having acupuncture and CBT sessions
through May-July I managed to work a lot at school
September my best friend Mia moved out into her own home
October I began dropping a medication I have been on for 6 years
December we rescued Maisy, it was also mine and Adam's first christmas, pinks made it to christmas which we all doubted
So I guess a fair bit happened this year which is great as I like progress
I got a job, my first relationship, tried to improve my health which is a constant on going battle, got bunny number 4 and rescued a guinea!

Right first a quick recap of yesterday
I spent my morning tidying and getting stuff ready to take to adam's house
dad came home and brought the 2005 Kia Rio home for me to test drive, my brother was passenger and we took it joy riding XD not really I was only gone for 10mins but I liked it. Just stunk and was filthy the previous owner had a dog or dogs - plural- minging and needs the clean of the century
but I agreed to have the car which is only 18months newer than what I have now
not much of an upgrade but beggers cant be choosers 

In the afternoon I went over to adam's I know we played pokemon and I refused to go for a walk in the cold winds but I can't think what else I did
anyway later on that evening we ordered chinese food and I ate bits and pieces it soon became apparent what I do and dont like, less saucy things and not noddles or egg fried rice
but I was happy to experience it all 
afterwards the 4 of us played on MY legendary playstation one and basically played for 90 mins on crash team racing, truly a classic and ultimate game and it was good fun
afterwards I pretty much went to bed adam stayed downstairs watching TV
I went to bed and left his bedroom light on for him
he came to bed and yes I was in top and underpants but that is not permission to grab my butt whilst I sleep!!!! >.> that boy gets away with murder for what he calls 'boyfriend rights' XD truth be told it really doesnt bother me and he knows it doesnt. I just dont appreciate being stirred in my sleep.
I didn't sleep brilliantly in fact at 5am I couldnt bare the pain much longer so I got up and went in search of my painkillers downstairs in my bag. Now usually when I get up for my pain killers in the night I end up having some dry cereal and a hot chocolate just so I have something in my stomach so theyre not taken on an empty stomach. But I wasnt at home. I was at adam's house. I did have a very quick look to see if they had any biscuits but I didnt want to rummage I really wanted a hot chocolate but that meant ether using the kettle or microwave both of which make noise and I know theyre not used to having someone up in the night in their house whereas my family are pretty used to hearing me up and about so it no longer wakes them. I didnt want to wake anyone and freak them out. So I went without. I did some yoga for 25mins then spent half hour on pokemon and at 6am I went to bed. Adam had robbed all the covers at this point so I was cold. at 7am I heard his mum get up for a brew so I dived out of bed to get up for a brew and some company. still no food tho. 8:30am came round and I could have more pain killers I took them with still no food I went for a very hot bath so hot I was pink and panting when I got out. at 9:20am I ate porridge but the effects from the pain killers had already kicked in I felt sick, dizzy, spaced out, smacked off my head but my god the pain felt so much better it really did. theyre more potent on an empty stomach and the hot bath helped. I havent taken 2 sets of pain killers on an empty stomach in years I forgot how good they work but they make you feel awful. I ended up sleeping it off for an hour as I wasnt fit to drive or walk straight for that matter XD

We got to my house so I could see Oz and my girls
I made us omelet and then we went for a walk as I felt I needed to get out the house
the weather was nice this afternoon now its awful at 9pm
we dropped into a pub on our walk and had a hot chocolate ^^
I drove us back to his house and I painted his mum's nails new years eve style
she loved em
then we played pokemon until my DS ran out of battery 
they we had a play fight and cuddles and just enjoyed each other's company

i came home and sat with my girls
had a shower and food
and I was going to watch Angerme's new DVD but Im not sure if Im in the mood or whether to just go bed. Ive been up since 5am I am shattered. 
Id rather watch it when im in the mood I know it's new years eve but I never stay up til midnight anyway I just get woke up by those inconsiderate sods blasting fireworks at midnight

so thats this year over and done with isnt it
bring on 2018 I say
I keep thinking of questions to ask karen's Angel cards its becoming a yearly tradition for me
see how they predict my upcoming year~

bye bye 2017 me~ you did well~ Ganbarimashita!

Saturday, 30 December 2017

Experiencing Chinese tonight for the first time

Afternoon~

I slept like crap as I was aching
and I ache today my Nigel's massage
my back and neck are still quite colourful 

I got up and did some pet duties luckily Oz didnt need to be cleaned out
but did need rescuing from the rain he was just sat in
Maisy sat really well on me today and last night she didnt run away when I gave
her food in her cage shes doing really well
Mum says Millie always looks happier on me than her that she knows Millie likes me X3

I haven't done much this morning
I cleaned up rabbit pee from my carpet, lovely job
had a shower
and test drove my new car to be!
It was much more responsive than my car and will take abit of getting used to
before i have it tho it needs the clean of the century as the previous owner had dogs it would seem
and the car smells fusty and feels gross
i will ether get it professionally cleaned or do the job myself 

adam rang me at 12:30pm he had finished the morning shift
he was only in 2 hours it was hardly worth him going in!
I said Id be over after 2pm
not sure yet if I want to go to sleep or not im so tired 
Its so windy today its horrible out there i feel like I should go for a walk to wake myself up but its just not appealing right now

so tonight im staying over at adam's house
my poor Ozwald will be without me but I know he will cope ok.

Friday, 29 December 2017

I had big girl needles

Konbanwa~

I so did not want to get  up this morning
I hadnt slept well
again
mum woke me at 9:30am
I spent my morning on pet duty even Oz couldnt play out due to heavy rain

I then proceeded in taking down the christmas decorations
didnt take me too long 
then I went back to bed and when I woke up the decorations had gone into the roof and my Playstation One had come down :D the game is on!!!
I got ready to go out to Nigel's for acupuncture

He answered the door saying 'Merry christmas' I replied "yeah"
he said "yeah whatever" smirking
we both dont do christmas and he knows me now
theres no point in pretending to be nicey nice
and to prove that he gave me a hard massage which has left my back all the colours of the rainbow i can actually feel now 6 hours later where he's been. He also used normal sized needles on me which i havent had before he didnt tell  me he'd done that til he had them out and they werent so bad
he called it a 'late christmas present' still smirking i told him to bring it on anytime
but he later told me he can see an improvement from when I first started going in May this year, and he said the normal needles show that too as before I just couldnt handle them but today I took them easily. i am getting better I know I am but its slow, 7 years and counting

I got home and told mum everything Nigel wanted me to try
including cutting as much sugar as possible out my diet telling me it makes my pain worse
which I can well believe 
I was shattered when I came home but I soon got up and started a few jobs
sorted out draws in the spare room
shorted out and hoovered 2 of my own draws 
cut up and stitched my old dressing gown into pieces Oz can use as toilet 
design adam's mum's nails new years style
laid out with newspaper on my wall where Id like my new wine crates for my manga
practiced a little bit of dancing

I got my new Angerme live 2017 dvd in the post today :D
might watch it New Years Eve ^^

Dad says he's got a car ready for me to test drive tomorrow
so I have that to do
and at some point I am seeing adam
I told if he was offered work for saturday then to take it but his boss had told yesterday he had saturday off, today his boss asked him to work saturday and adam said no!!!!
I couldnt believe it as I told him not to do that, we could have our night another night
but he says he likes the plans too much to miss out on and I know he hates working saturday nights also, but I am secretly happy he's not working as our night can go ahead!!
we have planned:
Chinese Takeaway (I have never experienced this) his parents are joining in too
playing on my playstation one including playing against his dad
playing pokemon
having a sleep over
gonna be amazing! I can't wait and I planned it all, he went to ask his parents if it can all happen and they were happy about it ^^ I dont mind doing stuff with his parents theyre very easy to get along with and id hate for them to feel I was taking their only son away from them 

so thats tomorrow!
i have the pets to clean out as well in the morning
im not sure what time im test driving the car or seeing adam
see how the day plans out

Thursday, 28 December 2017

Saw Mia for late presents shes got 2 pigs!

Evening~~

I've been awake since 5:30am!
I'm so shattered!
Yup my sleeping has gone outta the window once again -___-
really thought I was getting somewhere with my sleeping

Dad managed to fix the shower that started leaking last night
so we were able to have a shower this morning which meant I could get ready to go over 
to Mia's house for presents and a brew

I got there for 10am
and eventually Rob got up as well so I was happily chatting with them both
we had 2 brews and a Krusty Kreme doughnut! a real treat ^^
at 12pm she needed to go out and also adam had caught the bus to my house
she loved my presents tho
I believe Im seeing her next week

I came home and 20mins later adam showed up
we had lunch together
then we went out and walked through a park to some charity shops
i treated him to a coke in a pub and then we walked back through the park back to my car I drove home and we played pokemon
I was in tremendous pain all afternoon I felt like crying but wouldnt do that in front of adam
we're wondering if too much sugar effects my pain
we've thought this before actually

So after pokemon I got changed out of my dungarees and he massaged my back and shoulders I did feel a bit better after that and a heat pack on those areas
he was gentle too as when he massages pain from his parents they always complain how deep and painful he goes, he was soft on me ^^
Then I took him home

Adam has this saturday off
which I know doesnt seem like anything amazing but he ALWAYS works saturdays the only time I see him on a saturday evening is if I sleep over or we go away somewhere
his boss gave him it off
so I said we gotta do something for it!!
I suggested that when I put the christmas decorations away tomorrow that I get the Playstation one out and bring that up, we play pokemon, we order a takeaway, we have a sleep over
he seemed up for it all he hardly says no to me to be fair
he's gonna talk to his parents tonight about it all

I got a txt from Mia tonight shes gone and brought two guineas which will live at her sister's house but one is hers one is her 4 year old nephews 
nephews is called Mushroom and Mia's is called Barbara 
what a pair! I cant wait to see them!!!!

Tonight I sorted out my make-up draw as it was getting hard to shut simply cus of all my make-up and hair accessories so I have thrown some make-up out I dont use or want then I treated myself to a new brown eye liner as mine is too thick for neat lines, and treated myself to a new eye shadow pallet which is Etude House Juice Bar which is full of oranges, pinks, peaches my favourite colours for eye shadow and make-up as you can tell from the photo I took today 
i shall look forward to that bundle of fun and experimenting arriving

Tomorrow I am going to acupuncture which was originaly mum's appt but she doesnt want it and wants me to go instead and then I will put down christmas decorations  
and dont know what else I will do~

Wednesday, 27 December 2017

Sleep over and too much cake

Evening~~

Don't think I did my diary yesterday
ether way I stayed over at adam's house last night
so no internet for me~

My day yesterday felt longer than christmas day
just was going dead slow
I was invited over to adam's house for dinner and sleep over
so at 2:30pm I went to his house and me and his dad went to pick him up from work
he got in and showered and we sat around for a bit then I said I needed to go home
and see my Oz and get my sleeping over stuff 
he decided to stay at his house which was fine as it let me have a brew with mum
we let Oz play in my room with Pinks!! he followed her everywhere bless him
not a bad bone in his body 

Then I came back to adam's house
we had dinner which was turkey it was like a mini christmas dinner!
then we played Cluedo which I have never played and wont play again
that game gave me no satisfaction
then I got changed into my pajamas I got for christmas
I went to bed at 10pm adam was in bed with me and he said Id gone by 10:30pm
even with his bedroom light on. I was shattered
I woke up at 9:45am adam's parents had gone out
so I waited for adam to have a shower then I managed to have a bath
I was well happy about that as I truly miss my baths
and realized I had slept for about 12 hours and slept pretty well too
normaly I dont sleep well next to people but I must have been tired

Later on adam treated me to lunch I had fish cakes
then we came back to his but i wanted to go home and help with the pet shifts
adam came back with me we played pokemon i started my new Ultra Mood
and we had Oz in my room
then went to adam's house around 4ish as we knew his mum had made a chocolate cake
and its always amazing so we had a piece and it was so damn good
then I left for home having omlete for dinner followed by sponge and custard
my god do i feel sick!

tomorrow I am seeing my lovely sister mia for her late birthday morning 
should be nice and then adam is coming over after his shift
so should be a good day i like having stuff to do  

Tuesday, 26 December 2017

Boxing day without my sister

Afternoon~~

I didn't sleep well
I woke up feeling sick and aching and in the end I got up
this was 5am when I woke up this morning it was 10am
mia had left a message saying "come over at 9:30am"
great
So I rang her up and she said she was off out shortly to the cinema
which I was glad about as originally she wasnt doing anything much on her birthday
they were going cinema then she was tidying up ready for family going over
I was sad that I couldnt see her on her birthday but she was fine about it
and told me to see her on the 28th for the morning
if thats what she wants to do then fair enough

I spent my morning doing odd jobs really
I sat with my 3 girls let them trot together in the hall way
Alice spat out a spinach leaf she was eating just to hiss at maisie -_____-
millie stayed out the way she doesnt like the confrontation of it all

I got bits and pieces ready to go over to adam's house with 
he asked me if I wanted to stop over tonight and I said I would as it gets me out
dad is annoying the whole household. 
think hes going to work for a few hours tomorrow much to our delight

im tired but I refuse to go to sleep during the day
ive had enough of being in sodding bed
Im going to adam's at 2:30pm to pick adam up with his dad 
then after he's had a shower and stuff think I will bring him back her to see Oz and maybe get playstation one out of the loft if i can be arsed. If not just play new pokemon at his house
I dont want to get bored and fed up at his house
it's a long afternoon and I dont want to get snappy with anyone
doesnt matter which house im at if im not pleasing myself and just tolerating the day or people i will get peed off. 

dont know what im doing tomorrow but im sure i will figure something out 

Monday, 25 December 2017

It's Christmas 2017

Merry Christmas!~

I didn't sleep well
the wind was really strong and then it makes noises to which I wake up
im like a guard dog at night -_____-
I got up at 9:30am and mum said I looked tired
great start to christmas 2017

I got up and saw my pets and then went for a shower to wake myself up a bit, got changed and tied my hair up and came down stairs for present opening~

I got some lovely stuff this year, well I do every year
I took photos just so I know who I got what from so I can remember~
starting with my brother as I always start with his gifts

he got me a bunny toy which is so cute and so soft and another phone case but I like the one he gave to me the other week but I got a choice if I want a change of scenary

Next is adam he got me girl Stitch, well Angel is her name, I have been banging on about her for ages as I saw her in the Disney store and REALLY wanted her, he also kindly brought me the new Pokemon game too :D

Mia brought me a guinea pig version book of Romeo and Juliet but mum had pinched it thats why its not in the photo she also brought me a kitty light and a kitty in a banana X3

Karen got me a lovely picture done of a rabbit and all lovely words inside it

Adam's parents brought me a lovely bunny necklace and 12 chokers!!!

Tara brought me a christmas pikachu! and she made me one of her famous candles

from my parents I got
some bunny pajamas

a new mega soft dressing gown


and all the manga I wanted and also the wine crates to store them in!

After I had opened everything I went and took it upstairs to put away
My parents went for a walk and my brother on his BMX so I danced in my bedroom for a while and enjoyed myself, then went for a 20min walk 

I came back and got my piggies out for meet and great
there was a fair bit of hissing and spiting i have to say

I got ready to go over to adam's house
I was only over and hour and a half but it broke the day up
they loved their presents :D and I thanked them for mine also

Came home and had christmas dinner 
we had crackers and stuff it was a lovely dinner mum had excelled herself
and we've got sponge and custard next which im highly anticipating
then I might dance tonight 

Oz loved his present I opened it in the shed with him
and he tried it and sat in it XD

Tomorrow I am seeing my Mia for her 26th birthday in the morning
then late afternoon I can see adam and his parents said I could stay for food if I wanted to
adam is at work for a few hours tomorrow but im glad I can see him afterwards
so tomorrow will be nice im sure~

and christmas is over and done with for another year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D 


Sunday, 24 December 2017

Promise of being saved tomorrow

Konbanwa~~

It's christmas eve!
It's finally come and this time tomorrow christmas will be over and done with for another year, which is my favourite part of the year as its the longest time possible before christmas!
as you might guess im not a christmay person
raised in a family who also dont rate christmas
I know I should be grateful I have a family to spend it with which many people dont have and I am grateful jeez im grateful of my family and friends each and every day but i HATE  the way christmas is pushed on everyone and so commercialised.
anyway usually christmas feels like 2 days in this house it goes by sooooo slowly
but I have been told that I can escape to adam's house if I want to :D
such lovely words and they have no idea how happy I will be to break my day up like that.
and also I get to see adam of course
but just to get out the house will be a true treat! the bonuses to having a boyfriend! 

Anyway today
I didn't sleep well and woke up at 9:15am
I had a shower
and we let the pigs meet and greet on the sofa
millie and maisie followed each other and made cute piggie noises alice stood still the entire time...what is going through her head i have no clue shes a strange one at times
then I got ready to go see adam 

he had  asked for my Ozwald to come up
so i grabbed him and he was very well behaved and kept running up the stairs to adam's room he likes going under adam's wardrobe and draws XD 
then we took him home and mum had just finished making the sponge cake for tomorrow so I got to lick out the bowl :D well happy about that!! then me and adam went for a walk 
i am shattered all of today but knew I had to keep going and wasnt allowed to sleep as Id like to sleep tonight!
then we went to adam's house
I painted his mum's nails the same design i did for my nails 
she loved them
we talked and we had a lite dinner then they had 80s i think it was music it was bloody awful anyway and i was just laughing through it really
anything to keep myself awake as i when i closed my eyes i could have dropped off

at 9pm which is a bit later than i usually leave his house i came home
we had exchanged presents and his parents had given me 2 presents :D 
I had a shower when I got in I was sweaty from having a jumper on all day
and then I got Ozwald out for a fuss and told him its christmas tomorrow and he can have his pressie

tomorrow its obviously christmas, which next to valentines day, is my worst holiday of the year
i will just want to get the day over and done with!
But I hope all my family and friends have a lovely time and like what I brought/made them for christmas im sure I will hear about it all anyway
see how my day goes tomorrow!

Saturday, 23 December 2017

Made Kruidnoton!

Evening~

I didn't sleep well and I'll tell you why
I couldnt get off to start with but then I must have been scratching in my sleep
as my sleepy brain woke me telling me something is wet on my hands
I turned my lamp on and discovered that I had been scratching my nose
and my nail had caught just inside the top of my left nostril
my god did it bleed. I had blood all on my hands it made two tissues worth of blood
it was just a scratch!!! I then proceeded to look at my brand new rabbit bedding
there was blood on that too....-____- what a night it was only 11:50pm
I got up and went to clean my bedding and waiting til I'd stopped bleeding
by this point I felt quite nauseated as I dont cope well with seeing a lot of my blood

I got up at 7:45am and got my pets out
then cleaned out 3 hutches I could not be arsed I was so tired but I did it
things have to be done I put my ipod in and got on with it. 
I cut my nails filed them and took my christmas nails off
then I went to make some Kruidnoton!
It's a festive biscuit they have in the Netherlands and Anouk and Nienke taught me how to make them last year and I thought Id do them again this year and they turned out great!

ive put some aside to take to adam's house tomorrow
made almost 40 I believe
Then me and mum took millie alice maisie to the bathroom for their first 'meet and greet' session
and it went well actually no one was being aggressive so its a good start 
I had some lunch as I felt quite sick from my antibiotics theyre really upsetting my stomach this time round. its another thing to deal with. Then I went to bed as I was aching 
woke up 2 hours later not feeling that much better
but I did get up and go for a half walk 

Mum and dad came in and me and mum did another meet and greet session
its going well but we feel like alice is ready to start something up
millie isnt arsed and maisie just trots round the bathroom XD
we will keep at it tho
I had dinner and now I have Oz in my room hes just sleeping under my bed

Yesterday evening I was at Mia's she made me curry
which was ok but I dont think my stomach appreciated it very much
we talked and talked and laughed, swapped presents. She gave me a guinea pig christmas card
Rob came home with pizza he happily ate whilst me and mia talked
rob had brought her christmasy flowers which was really sweet of him
i had a lot of fun with mia then came home and got Oz out
Next time I see mia will be tuesday when she turns 26!

Tomorrow it's christmas eve!!
I just want to get christmas over and done with to be honest
but I get to see adam tomorrow! It's been quite strange not seeing him on a saturday 
Im not sure what we're doing tomorrow tho and I think I will see him after lunch as I want him to have a lay in after two 13 hour shifts. Im staying for dinner at his
he was on about that him and his parents for the last few years have gone for a drink at the pub on xmas eve which i have been invited to but im dreading as its gonna be mega busy and noisy
see how the day goes

Friday, 22 December 2017

Millie and Alice's Christmas Photo

Evening~

I had to get up for the stupid doctors
didnt want to get up
My appointment was at 8:40 the doctor walks in at 8:50
ridiculous
he gave me some more anti-biotics without examining me
told me it cancels out my contraception would have been nice to have known
that last week he said i should have been told, good job im not like a rabbit!

Drove straight to adam's house
his mum was home alone
she told me what steve thought to my present and the squirrel card
she then gave me 4 squirrel candles someone at work had given her
she told me to wrap them up and put from the squirrel crew again like i did the birthday card
steve turned up from taking adam to work hes doing a 13 hour shift today

we set off for the cheese place
i got dad £5 worth of blue cheese as it seemed enough as no one else in the house eats it
then they took me to a cafe and treated me to cake and hot chocolate this was at 10:30am
what a great way to spend the morning
felt a bit awful that i was doing this whilst adam was at work
they said I was welcome to have dinner on christmas eve :D
then they drove me back to theirs they offered lunch but i knew mum wanted to go out
so i left them came home and went out with mum
who was in a bad mood i came from having a lovely time to a stressy mother >.>
she said it was me! 
we went pets at home then to a model shop for something train related for adam
jeez the guy was a total nerd and i wanted to tell him to shut up or ask him "have you ever kissed a girl?" but thought better of it
nerd
and fusty shop
we got what we needed

came home and mum told me to go bed as she said i was in a bad mood
was not >.>
she just wanted rid of me XD
she wanted to palm me off on adam yesterday and she'd only been home 2 minutes XD
im not that bad XD

I woke up 2 hours later as mia rang me up asking if i had some clothing studs I could have
random but yeah sure
I spend my afternoon in a world of my own and wrapping adam's present from the train shop - its a gift from my parents to him kinda thing. I also wrapped the squirrel candles 

Now im showered and off to Mia's house who is making me a curry!
i have never eaten curry before as its not allowed in my house XD no one likes it
and ive never tried it, I love thai curry tho
we will swap christmas pressies too

tomorrow adam is doing a 15 hour shift
he wont finish til 2am! thats bar work for you
so I am gonna do some baking and god knows what else
probably sleep

here's Millie and Alice's xmas photo! 

Thursday, 21 December 2017

start of pet's christmas photos

Evening~~~

I slept like a log practically 
I did my pet duties and by 9:45am I was back in bed
asleep until 12pm XD
it wasnt happening I just felt so exhausted I think my body knew I could 
rest and just stopped feeding me adrenaline to live off

I got up and was able to put my pets outside for a while
I managed to change my bed, I am going to attempt to sleep in my bed
under my duvet instead of on top of it with a blanket which is what ive been doing the last two months due to being uncomfortable but I want to try 
I didnt wash my car I was too tired

I ate lunch by myself as adam was having trouble as work so he was running late and didnt get over til 2:30pm but it was fine as it gave me time to recover 
he came over and he wanted a play fight but i was tired and didnt put up much of a fight
he got Oz inside and we fussed his little face for half hour
adam had brought me a christmas card which opens in the most strangest fashions 
must take a photo of it 
we went on my bed and talked about games and christmas then it was time for yoga really

yoga was good Karen did her traditional 12 days of christmas yoga
its like a dance routine and I didnt screw up once i enjoyed it :D 
but the yoga class its self was hard
she gave everyone the option of picking a balance they liked which we did then we had to do one we dont like I asked "is chair posture a balance?"
she said "yeah do that"
so I did and it ALWAYS HURTS I HATE IT but I started doing it
and she came behind me and made me go further into the position making it feel like id never stand again she did it twice and i killed. I told her I hated her sometimes
she walked off saying "chair posture isnt really a balance"
i could have thrown something at her >.>
during the end of yoga she said "lets do chair posture" and looked at me
I glared daggers at her and she watched me do the position and said it was much improved.
i was dead after yoga

got home and I made pasta for mum and myself
which was alright
had pasta so much this week im sick of it
mia txt to say come over for dinner tomorrow were having pasta
great....
but it will be good to see her :D 

tomorrow morning at 8:40am I have doctors as I think I need some more antibiotics
then im going straight to adams house and im going with his parents to go get some stilton cheese from a stilton cheese shop for my dad for xmas thats his gift from me
then im coming home and going to a train model shop with mum to see if she can find adam anything from there for xmas
3 jobs to do tomorrow and see mia
busy busy again -_____-

my Pinks's christmas photo this year

Wednesday, 20 December 2017

Finished work for 2017!!!

Otsukarare deshita~~

I got up this morning feeling quite rough
i really need to see a doctor and get myself sorted
I was in two minds whether to go school or not
but I went I faced the day some how
i dont understand how I can be strong at times like this week recently
then in absolute pieces falling into depression another time

I got to school on time
and they did some play/work for half hour then the local vicar came to do
some carol singing with the whole school and personally if I can get out of
that kinda crap I will. So I asked the teacher if she would like me to put up
her new space display
and luckily she trusted me with that :D I was well happy about that
I never get to do wall displays 
So I set to work backing the wall in black and I got some silver type paper which behaved a lot like tin foil so I crinkled it up and bordered the black then I flicked bits of white and yellow paint on the black for the 'stars' it was all going well until a child left in my care (wouldnt do carol singing apparently) she was struggling to go for a number 2 then messed herself so I had to fetch another TA to come help cus no way was I helping there!

break time for the children I called them one by one to do a questionnaire 
I got the whole class done so that was yet another job I got ticked off for them this week
they couldnt believe how much they were getting done its cus they have an extra pair of hands that actually wants to work! and boy do I work
we called them in for the popcorn machine that had been lent to us  by the vicar and well you can imagine how excited and giddy the kids got over that

lunch time and the staff room was freezing this rather large TA in a jumper was wrapping presents and wanted 2 windows wide open everyone came in saying 'its freezing' but she never shut it i couldnt wait to go back to class just cus i knew it would be warmer there
i stood outside on lunch time duty
then me and TA spent the rest of the afternoon mouth blowing up 60 balloons I did 40
then tying ribbon round them
then I helped put away the old stuff from near the new space display
done that was my day done
i was about dead on my feet but some how kept going

They all thanked me for their help and got some hugs and 'im going to miss you' and it all felt heart felt and honest, I could tell they appreciated everything I had done for them
as my god these 7 days I have worked my socks off!

I got home and went straight for a shower to warm up and relax
got into my pajamas ^^ i have officially finished work this year and its a good feeling
I can start thinking about christmas

I actually finished all my wrapping including mia's birthday present
i have actually finished it all
I took a photo of Adam and his parent's presents randomly

I just need to give out now~
I am exhausted but I did rest sitting with the girls then Oz helped me wrap
so I have unwound with my pets but I find it hard to sit still

tomorrow I was going to do my wrapping but seeing as thats done I might
wash my car it is filthy as the roads are filthy 
Adam is going to come see me after his shift :D then I have yoga later on  

Tuesday, 19 December 2017

Looks how cute he is

Evening~

I got up for school feeling pretty crappy
Im on my last day of antibiotics and I have feeling I need more than just 5 days
not impressed.
So I got ready for school but I had awful stomach ache that kept me in the toilet
that made me 5mins late so I arrived at school 2 mins late
couldnt be helped. 

School was alright, this time of year tends to be easier
they had a bit of a play and I got the remaining crafts done
then we went into the hall and they sang songs to someone playing the piano
then it was lunch after lunch they watched a winter film
i was charged with printing out their christmas photos, trimming them, laminating them, trimming them once again then sticking them outside the classroom door for sale to the parents
i had done a good job, but i enjoyed the job as I got to sit down for an hour in the peace and quiet!
it was pretty much home time at this point and the teachers had a meeting so i left early
thank god as I was ready to drop
my shoulders, shoulder blades, collar bone, neck and lungs ache
this is a new thing today and i have no idea why i ache in these areas
but it hurts and im worrying about sleeping tonight with all that pain 
im shattered and think i will go to bed at 8:30pm
last night i was so happy to crawl into my bed

I got home and had Oz in my room with me
(this is my home screen picture on my phone)
he was very giddy and excited then calmed down and had almost an hour of me fussing him whilst i had make- up tutorials playing in the background
since then sat with my girls and stuff
dad thinks he may have a new car for me which isnt the 4x4 XD

It's adam's dad's 60th birthday today
they were going for a meal at the pub down the road were me and adam re-met 
i bet its gonna be busy and noisy and im glad im not going as awful as that sounds
i cant cope with anything else
adam said his dad loved my drawing of the blackbird and he laughed at the squirrel card
i so won points there and apparently im in for it XD

Tomorrow I have school
im hoping I can go for my last day

I managed the get that Angerme song :D
some kind soul had put it on youtube *0*

Monday, 18 December 2017

2017 Christmas Nails

Evening~~

I so did not want to get up this morning
but I woke up at 6:30am to the sound of a dog in distress like it was really
squealing i hated to think what had caused its upset
I was hoping that hadnt set up the rest of my day ><

I got to school with 2 minutes to spare
my morning was pretty easy as we watched key stage 2 do their dress rehearsal of their christmas play which was ok I guess im not into children's plays or plays for that matter
then we had 'christmas craft morning' basically split up all the school into groups and they sat and did 1 activity for an hour I was with a 2 TAs 1 of which I like shes very down to earth and I just had to help 1 particular child make a christmas card. that was it.
then it was lunch

lunch I was a lil peeved at as I only got 25mins break
as we were short staffed and i have the donkey work to do as usual
i had to stand outside on the remaining time of my lunch break to open the gate so parents could drop of nursery children. pointless. i could have just left the gate open! which is what they usually do!!!
so I lost those minutes.
afternoon was just play then I read a story to the class for the 2nd time i quite like reading stories as i like to be fun and act the characters out instead of reading it in a monotone way
home time and i was allowed to leave half hour early which i think ive earned considering i dont get any breaks or a full lunch time.
so i got home at the time i would have suppose to have finished school
perfect

I had Oz out he was really giddy in my room
then as I hadnt felt my feet since 7:45am this morning I decided to get a bowl of warm water and place my feet in which stung like hell at first but they soon tingled and relaxed
genius idea if I dont say so myself
i put in some relaxing salts too
oh my 14 face mask sheets arrived today XD
14 bloody hell XD

I got a lot of comments about my nails today


my christmas nails this year, 
Me and adam think the snow man one looks a bit psychotic XD 
but adam's mum loves them and wants them for herself X3
so she will be getting them saturday 
i cant believe this time next week christmas will be almost finally over for another year :D

tomorrow it's school again
not sure what kinda day it will be 
it is also adam's dad's 60th birthday
I have wrapped his present in pink wrapping paper with pink ribbon and a yellow bow!!!!
I have also brought a card with a squirrel on it and wrote it from the squirrel X3
it will be brilliant that I will be winning points over him and I wont even be there!!!

Im really in love with a song I can't have
how cruel is that -_____-
Angerme's Kimi dake janai sa...friends