Evening~~
Yesterday I had a doctors appt in the morning
I got my pain killers on repeat prescription but sadly
due to the system being down for 4 days last week
my X-ray results we're done :/
I got back and showered and then I went to see karen with mum
it was really lovely to see her
shes got hair growing back! she looked so well
she said I looked well also
we sat and chatted for 2 hours
we met her new dog - Hector hes very cute
but as normal for puppies he gets up to no good
it looks tiring looking after puppies
from there me and mum went to a cafe
i had cheese and beans on toast it was so good
then i shared a piece of cake with mum ^^
i didnt do much in the afternoon
went over to jack's and saw him for an hour and then i walked to life drawing
i got there and looked round the room instantly spotting the model
a man....
course it was
Nigel said there hasnt been a male model yet but when i turn up its a guy
Nigel wasnt at the session - maybe he knew XD
ether way this model did slightly make me feel sick
he was bold, over weight, covered it tacky tattoos, and piercings
he 'area' was pierced twice.....
now i knew men can get the 'tip' pierced but i had no idea you can go through it horizontally with a bar. it looked painful and grotesque if im honest
of course he matched it by having his nipples pierced
he was like 60 and looked like this....
and i had to draw him for 90mins
to be honest i enjoyed myself
it was bloody freezing due to the heating not working
but time went quick and i feel id go again
kinda when i feel like it
yeah i was a good experience
i got out on time and jack was waiting for me
we walked to Wagamama's laughing the whole time about my experience XD
i had Pad Thai it was good
we saw loads of halloween people
females dressed in what would consider tarty themed underwear
and some males in pants and painted their skin red to look like devils
you could tell they were all freezing
idiots
we got back and theo was there
and as he's not there tonight we decided to carve our pumpkins together
so we put a halloween playlist on and carved away
so here's mine
Jack's
Theo's
group pic!
and of course Flump got in on the action
then we headed for bed
i slept pretty well but woke up cold but soon robbed heat from jack
this morning i got up
and it was halloween
i got ready and jack came with me to my appointment at the pain clinic
i ended up seeing a hyper mobility specialist who i saw as a physiotherapist many years ago when my illnesses first started, she could not believe the progress i had made
and she taught me so much about my hypermobility
it was really worth going
also its good for jack to learn about me and my weirdness XD
from there we went to work for 3 hours
i got what i wanted to get done
then i came home
rested for a bit and went to yoga later
we came in and had pumpkin soup!
i washed myself with pumpkin body wash afterwards
now im gonna sit with oz then im going to jack's
we're gonna watch sleepy hollow and have the candles in the pumpkins going
then sleep
unsure what im doing tomorrow yet
but thats been a nice little halloween thing to do over the last few days
Konbanwa~~
I woke up at midnight feeling so sick
its always the 2nd lot of pain killers that get to me
but being woke up by it is not great
so i had to get up, had cereal and hot chocolate
then soon fell to sleep and got up at 8am
i sat with the babies, watching molly take food from
their mouths...just no stopping that big pig she just lives for food
i wish truffle would eat more, theres nothing on her but she'd rather
explore than sit and eat
tillie is filling out a bit now :3
i did half hour of dancing but didnt feel my heart was in it really
i still got hot and stuff but i dont feel i put 100% into my movements
also i was very stiff this morning so it affected my dancing
i went for a much needed shower
then i started doing mia's blanket
i sewed it together and cut the access off outside as it makes a mess
and Oz is there sniffing all the pieces that fall to the floor X3
i decided as it was so nice out that id put the pigs outside
and i ended up sitting outside for a whole hour with them!
just sat watching them, watched Oz join in with them which was nice
hes a bit weary of the babies i think cus theyre so fast XD
truffle likes following him but she's yet to win him over
i think he's licked tillie's ear
i finished mia's blanket
which does look good im sure she and her dog will like it X3
i went to bed for an hour as i felt mentally drained for some reason
then i went for a walk with mum
it was cold but nice to spend time with her
then i started doing something i should have done a long time ago...
clear out of fabric
i have accumulated A LOT of fabric
i didnt quite realise just how bad the situation was actually ^^;
ive thrown out a dustbin bin bag full -_____-
its going to charity as i know they sell remnants
i have so much room now its a lot neater
and i know where stuff is
i then moved onto a few draws in my room that have been untidy for a while and struggled to shut a time or two, threw crap out and they shut now and are tidy
so yeah it wasnt too bad it took a couple of hours but it needed to be done
i gain fabric as presents, pieces that didnt get all used from projects, and stuff given to me
what i have thrown out is materials i dont work with anymore
no point in keeping them as i havent used them for years anyway
i know what i like to work with these days
tomorrow~
i have the doctors at 8:40am to discuss my Xray and my medication
then at 11am me and mum are seeing karen and her new puppy! i can not wait
ive seen pictures and he looks so damn cute but she says hes a bit naughty
so we will wait and see
then i plan to clean my room
later on i will see jack, i will go to his and drop off my stuff then walk to a place in the city centre to do some life drawing! Nigel goes and recommended it to me. its only £5 from 6-7:30pm so i will go there then go to jack's and watch digimon with him and stay over
i offered for him to join my in life drawing but this is how the conversation went
"you're welcome to join me"
"I do not want to draw some old guy's dong"
"actually it will probably be a woman otherwise i wouldnt be going"
"Let me rephrase that, i do not want to draw some old woman's saggy tits"
"thanks jack youre really making me want to go" XD
his is right tho, ive done life drawing before and the models are never 'pretty'
i think thursday im going into work with him
here is an under eye concealer i brought to try
and im quite impressed actually
really evens out the tone and helps rid those dark spots
Evening
I couldnt sleep last night
i felt so sick -___- so i got up for a hot chocolate
then I did fall asleep
its nice not being kept up aching tho
i got up at 8am
sat with the babies and watched the run around the hall whilst eating my breakfast on the floor with them i can tell when theyre hungry tho as they come sniffing you and circle you XD
by 9:10am i was dancing
i did 40 mins i was well hot! but it was good
after showering i worked on mia's blanket
then i sat with mum
went to sleep for an hour i know i shouldnt but i did
this afternoon i put my girls out!
mum had researched online that they are in fact fine to eat grass pretty much from day 1
so yeah why hesitate as they love it outside
so i filmed them and took photos
Oz thought it was great to jump in the run with them -___-
he was mustling in on everything it made me laugh
so he got his photo taken as well
i gave them 45 mins outside so they didnt eat too much grass first time
but they enjoyed it and followed one another, molly kept checking on them
so did oz XD
i went for a walk which was chilly but nice
its gonna be 0c tonight!!!
i worked a bit more on mia's quilt and i know tomorrow it will be finished!
then i brought a few bits online, practically finished my christmas shopping and even got a good dent in birthday presents for those who have birthdays at the start of 2020
might work more on my painting tonight as i havent done any in days
it gets too late and i run out of time ><
tomorrow i am going to finish mia's blanket and do anything else i feel like doing
my neighbours cat watching us whilst we were out with the pigs
Evening~~~~
So yesterday I stayed at home
it rained like alllllll day so I was not wanting to go out in it
i did do some dancing tho which was nice
And A LOT of sewing
mia's blanket it really coming along :)
Jack came over in the evening
i made dinner for him and the family
whilst under the watchful eye of my mum
jack was just laughing as he could see i was getting wound up by mumXD
we ate dinner watching Auron High School Host Club in my bedroom
then i left him to go get ready into my costume~
didnt take me too long to be honest
and he was really surprised by the transformation XD
he said i could pull off black hair which surprised me as i thought he was gonna
say how pale and stuff i looked (even tho i had put on white face cream)
i helped him get ready he went as a black cat i said he looked cute XD
as i was getting ready mum came to see me
"are you drinking tonight?"
i said "no no"
she said "good i didnt think you should what with new meds"
i said "no as i cant drink on them plus im driving"
she said "good i dont want anything happening"
i said "mum im 27"
she said "i know but that doesnt seem to stop you from doing stupid things" -____-
then she walked into my bedroom where jack was and was saying stuff along the lines of 'look after her tonight' sweet jesus
we arrived at the party at about 8:15pm
there was already people there and we recognised an english teacher from work/school
so we talked to her
then i went to go check out the decorations that the D.T. teacher had made
they were stunning i wish i could show you
and her house was so amazing too! so unique you can tell she had really put her stamp on the place and jack said he liked that. and that he wants our house to have the same sort of feel
we had a few drinks - mine of course non-alcoholic
i went to grab a bottle of squash as i recognised the bottle shape, but it had it's label ripped off but i went for it anyway. jack said "hold on, that might not be squash if the label has been ripped off"
i said "oh you worry too much"
i let him smell it
and he said "yeah it is squash"
i said "see told you, you worry too much"
he said "sorry jo im just having flash backs of spending my birthday in hospital with you"
git XD
at 11:45pm i had had enough and was in need of my meds so we left
we got to jack's at midnight
all was quiet in the flat luckily, despite theo having his woman over
i was laying around in pain waiting for my pain killers to kick in
i was in so much pain with my hips that i struggled to get down to take my shoes off
jack was there offering to do them for me but i felt like i could do them myself
i dont want him doing stuff for me already
he said i was being stubborn
but he stayed awake with me whilst i laid round in pain
i woke up loads and it took me til 1:30am to even get to sleep
then i woke up at 6am to a weird sound
i sleepily thought "what the hell is that sound?"
yup it was theos woman screaming her face off like she was making her own porno
jack said that they are even quieter than they used to be so god knows how load they used to be as i found her loud. sick and disturbing
i got up as i ached and could not sleep through that
luckily upstairs i couldnt hear her as much
baring in mind ive seen this woman for all of 10 seconds to simply say hello
so i feel ive heard her more than ive actually seen her
at 8am the noises stopped and i went through to jack
id taken my tablets and felt less achy but also sickly
he got up with me and we had breakfast
theo came in and asked if we wanted to go pumpkin picking with him and his woman but i said i didnt want to simply because i felt a bit mentally scarred from the morning's experience
how can i look at her in the face?!
so they went out and i fell asleep and so did jack
i got up for a shower and theo came back with his woman and i actually saw her for about 2 mins and i studied her
jack has said to me before "she looks old. like older than 35"
and i sat there thinking 'yeah she does look at least 40'
as soon as they went out the door i turned to jack
"she is definitely older than 35!" we laughed
and then were wondering was she lying to theo about her age or was he lying to us?
the pumpkins they brought back were beautiful and the one theo got for me is Flump shaped!!! so cute!! i love it and im gonna make into flump!
i was so happy to start my day with a pumpkin
we went for a long walk through the city centre and then to a canal then to some shops were we bumped into one of the science teachers - small world
then after jack had picked up some xmas presents we walked home as i was struggling to walk
we got back to the flat and i could hear noises coming from theos room but i couldnt make out what the hell was happening so jack shut the living room door to keep noise from escaping
later they came upstairs and theo saw her off and later said to us they were only tickling one another but jack said "its hard to tell whats going off what with some of the noises that come from your room"
i laid round on jack's bed for a bit then we booked to go birmingham convention in november for the day i think its the 16th which will be good
then i came home to my ozwald
tomorrow i plan to dance and do some craft work
here are my halloween nails
Konbanwa~~
i slept pretty well and woke up at 8am
the hallway was still being decorated today tho
when i got up my god my hips
the sheer pain
i struggled to bend over, go down steps, get down on the floor
just everything that basically needed hip hinge work
didnt ease til midday
i got out to the post office to post the jackets
worked out i made £10 profit
this morning i sat and cut endless fabric
just endless...
i needed 108 squares -___-
depressing
by 11am i went to bed id had enough
and the morning was dragging
i got up at 12 tho to the sound of the decorator singing to the radio....
hes dads best friend so its fine i guess
afterwards i cut out more fabric
and laid it all out on the living room floor
arranging it all took ages as laying out 108 pieces in an order i like is a big job
then i cleared up and danced
my god my joints cracked no end
had a shower and then designed some halloween nails
gave my brother a back massage he requested
and now im working on my painting a bit
then i will sit with oz then do my nails and go to bed
tomorrow i will bake some cookies in the shape of bats
then i will please myself what i do during the day
jack will come over later for dinner
we will get ready and grab my bat cookies
then go to a halloween party a teacher from school invited me too
can not wait!
Evening~~
Last night I went to jack's last night
we watched digimon
patamon is sooo damn cute i want a plush of it
then we went to bed at 11pm as i was tired
woke up at 9:30am.....9:30am!!
jesus
you know its late when jack is awake before you ><
guess i must have needed the sleep
it was raining this morning
but we went out
hit the charity shops
i managed to find dad a coat for work which is my job every year i feel XD
but hes happy with it so i was pleased
we went for a walk in a park too
the whole time it was raining so by the end of it i was pretty wet
we got back to jack's and i made him lunch
we had tamgoyaki! which is rolled omelette
but jack had bacon also
he appreciated it and they both came out well for my first attempt ^^
then we watched digimon
we have just 4/6 so we're more than half way now
then i sat with him and then i went home for yoga
yoga was good
we're working towards splits
so it was a lot of hip work, which i struggled with
my hips hurt now but i hope i can walk in the morning!
i wrapped up my coat and jacket to send tomorrow
my god i could not believe what they fetched!
my jacket fetched £19! coat me £8 to make
my coat fetched £21 and coat me £6 to make!
so that was worth doing :)
i will post them tomorrow
tomorrow id like to work on some craft projects
i need to knuckle down and get on with stuff
oha!
I slept pretty well but had weird dreams
i sat with my girls watching them run around the hall
god they were so energetic, molly looked stressed XD
i sat and did some of my painting
i guess its coming along
im trying not to be too critical
i think i can start using pencil crayons soon anyway
then i tidied up downstairs a bit
me and mum went out across town to a few shops
i didnt pick up anything exciting
just two pairs of pants and some leggings
after shops we had lunch together
then went for a walk round a nature reserve which was nice
it was sunny so we ate lunch outside and the walk was nice outside too
i felt done in tho
then we came home, had a brew and let the babies have a run around
whilst molly had time on the grass
they went mad running around
then they tire out bless them
its good to tire them for molly
mum dyed my hair so at the moment i have lost my blond-ness
its gone a light brown i like it its made it so shiny
but wouldnt use that brand again
i shall see what colour it fades to as it was only a 28 wash like usual
but its freshened it up
it just didnt smell good, was thick and they didnt give you much
tonight im at jacks we will watch digimon probably
then god knows what we're doing tomorrow
but considering my parents are having the hall way and stairs decorated
i will be keen to stay out the house simply because i wont be able to get by
and the smell of paint will be right outside my room
im gonna take my sketch book over to jack's and maybe work on it a bit there tomorrow
im coming home for yoga anyway
my jacket and coat come off ebay tonight
i wonder what they will fetch ;3
here's the huge ass donut i ate the other day with mia - biscoff flavour
easy the size of my open hand
Evening
Last night I set off for jack's at 9:30pm
after he had got back from his family's house
we sat talking to theo until bed at 11pm but i couldnt sleep
i didnt sleep well ether
i got at 7:45am
as i had an xray to get to
jack got up but i could tell he would rather be in bed
even tho i told him i was fine by myself
we went on the tram and it was so cold outside
we got to the hospital and i found the x-ray department very fast
jack was impressed by my navigation skills
i was in and out really fast despite being early for my appointment
and i didnt have to take any clothing off!
after i had that done we rode the tram to the next stop
which takes you to a park with a lake
and we had a walk round there and it was only 10:20am
we took the tram back to the city centre and went back to jacks for a rest
he offered for me to go bed but i said no
we went out to get stuff for lunch and after lunch i did go bed
as i could jack wanted me to sleep
he kinda knows my death states now and he said i looked half dead XD
so i slept and then when i woke up we picked up bits from the shops
nothing amazing apart from fangs and bat wings for jacks halloween costume
ever since i showed him "Nyanpire" he has wanted to dress like that for halloween...
but i dont mind its nice hes taking an interest in his costume
he still has no idea what i will go as XD
i came home and had dinner
then spent a bit of time with my brother
then had a shower
sat with oz who didnt want to know me
so i got the girls out on my knee and he didnt want to come see them ether
right miserable bunny
he'd got the hump with me i think cus i havent been in all day
i came upstairs and did a bit more on my painting
its not great but im enjoying it
tomorrow i think im out with mum, then crafting and in the evening im staying at jacks
should get my x-ray results in a week's time
Evening
I slept pretty well last night actually
and woke up at 8
i sat with my piglets watching them run round the hall
molly right tries to put them in their place XD
i got ready to go to mias house at 10am
and we went off to the city centre together
it was nice to spend good quality time with her
we went round a lot of shops
i got a pumpkin spice lip scrub which is amazing
a huge candle gift set for mum for xmas
a headband im gonna turn into hair clips
two chocolates you melt into warm melt to make hot chocolate
for me and jack to have one evening
and that was it really
i did have a good look round for stuff for people for xmas
but i couldnt see anything amazing really
we got back to hers for 1pm as she didnt like leaving her puppy long
which was fine for me as i could feel myself tiring
despite the big donut we had X3
i sat and talked to her for 2 hours then came home
rested for a bit
then made myself dinner, and had a shower
i went through the presents ive picked up during the year
stuff i have stashed under my bed all year and i was pleased to see ive made
a good dent into people's gifts actually
so i havent got all that much to get luckily
tonight im staying over at jacks because at 9:50am i have an xray and its easier and cheaper to go to the hospital from his house than mine
i said im fine going by myself but he says he will come
but i can do this alone
i have never had an xray before
im having it on my pelvis as the pain in my hips is bad
then i might go for a walk round this park near the hospital
after that im not sure really
i have stuff to be crafting or drawing
Evening
I went for my hair cut yesterday
i have been trimmed and have full vision once again XD
next time i go will be december! scary!
after that i warmed up in my bed as i was cold
then after lunch i went for an hour and half long walk by myself
exploring new grounds XD
im never afraid of getting lost i always believe i will find my way
and i did but i was much further away from home than i realised XD
good tho
i did have clean my muddy shoes afterwards tho
i got back and laid in bed with flump for an hour
jack had text but i let him wait
cus i mean he had just woke up at like 2pm
so i thought 'he can wait'
and stayed in bed with flump
later on i went over to jacks house
we got a few bits from the shops as i wanted hair dye
i brought 'honey brown' to have a go with
i also got a blanket to do mias dog blanket with
we went and tried a pudding place we havent been to yet
we both had brownies i had mine with custard he had ice cream
then we made pasta when we got home
then watched the second episode of digimon tri
we went to bed at 10:30pm as i was shattered
got woke up at 8am by people digging the pavement....seriously on a sunday....
i got up as my god i wanted pain killers
we went shops at 11am as jack needed a few bits
then i started not to feel good so i rested at jacks
fell asleep
still didnt feel good
i hadnt had lunch and it was 3pm by this point
so he went out and walked all the way to my favourite noodle place and got noodles
and yeah brought us noodles :D
i was well happy and i did start to pick up this was at 4pm so i told mum i didnt need dinner
we watched anime then i came home
havent done much since i came in at 7:30pm
i want to do my nails tonight and see oz too
tomorrow i am going shopping with mia
meeting her at 10am
oh my stuff on ebay
my jacket has two bids on and is at £3.20
my coat surprised me as its reached £10
they finish wednesday
Konbanwa
I couldnt get off to sleep
kept bringing up sick at the back of my throat as i laid in bed
when it got to midnight i decided to get up for a drink and stuff
i woke up at 5am and then 6am to my alarm
cuddled Flump all night long naturally~
This is flump
he's like 40cm tall and so squishy im not sure what hes filled with
he almost feels like memory foam its weird stuff
hes also really soft to stroke
i really like him ^^ sadly i will have to return him to jack
as he lives at jack's with snorlax and also there is not enough room on my bed ><
i went to school and was warmly welcomed back
i was told it was quiet without me XD
it was nice to be back
and nice to wear non-uniform also X3
of course the geeks julia and jack wore uniform
i took my morning easy
although it was a bit dull with no lessons going off
i took my time prepping as i didnt want to do myself in
then lunch came and we had our free school meal
i had pasta with a cookie
then we went back to the prep room
i did a few bits and pieces but not much if im honest
just cus i didnt have the energy
but jack didnt get at me
he was just happy having me back
i could tell he was by how much he was around me
and he told me ^^
i left school and came home and had a quick brew
didnt even take my shoes off and went back out to nigel's
i had my back done with the cups again and 20 needles in my back
and 1 in each ankle
to get rid of the pain and tension i have there
and it does feel better however it does ache and is all the colours of the sun
my god those cups do a number
i am gonna hurt tomorrow ><
i came back and just laid on the sofa til dinner
then after dinner my brother messed with me
i was on the floor laughing from going weak XD
had a shower and now feel ready for bed its only 8:30pm
but i managed the day and thats what counts to me
as i have missed enough school
tomorrow
i have a haircut at 10am
then at some point i will see jack? who knows with him
as i could tell he wanted to sleep in
i for one will not be wasting my day
i will go do something and just wait for him to emerge from his pit
cant wait for hair cut tho
then i will get some hair dye at some point and freshen it up completely
Evening
i had another boring day off school -___-
i did however feel slightly better
i managed a walk this morning whilst it was sunny
which was nice but tiring
mum brought me a pumpkin to carve for halloween
i slept a bit
did a base wash on my painting
i havent seen the pets today they were outside
apart from the babies
but as we've had the living painted they couldnt come in for a sit
im gonna sit with oz tonight i just hope the smell isnt too much for his little nose
i managed yoga!
it felt good to stretch
i was aching this morning but it was ache because i havent moved much past few days
my joints cracked so much!
i slept with flump last night
and ive got him again tonight
tomorrow im going school
i dont care if i dont last the entire day, im going!
and its insec day so that means free school meal and i can wear what i like!
jack has warned me theres gonna be a lot of cleaning to done >.>
god knows what state that prep room is in
but it will be good to go back on a day teachers dont have lessons
its less stressful
i hope i can manage the day
then im seeing nigel at 4:15pm
Evening~~~
I slept ok apart from getting up for a hot choc as i felt quite sick
then i got up at 8am and watched the girls play in the hall whilst i ate breakfast
which was nice to see
i decided to read the side effects leaflet that comes with my new tablets
it said do not take longer than 3 day - well ive prescribed a months worth
it says after 3 days theres an enzyme in the liver that turns the codeine to morphine...
that would explain why i coped over the weekend but im dying now
im practically on sodding morphine again!!
i was not happy
i am happy with not being in pain tho
i eventually showered
i just felt so out of it to be honest
i spent a lot of my day in and out of sleep -- again
i did decide on a design for mias dog blanket
i started a drawing of a wolf but i gave up due to a headache
i got round to taking photos of my piglets and these are the best two
jack came to see me
first time hes made it solely on his own to my house!
he brought Flump the toy i have at his house and said i could have him til i next
sleep over at his house
so flump is amongst my plushies
we sat and talked and he had dinner with me in my room whilst watching anime
then he left at 8:15 to get home
it was good to see him
he'd missed me too
i want to go school tomorrow but have been told by mum that im not
im gonna go on friday tho i dont care what people say
i have a bid already on one of the jackets i made and put on ebay
so thats good considering its only been on two hours
so another boring day at home
mum will be home making pumpkin soup and we are having the living room
painted so that the kitchen and living room outta bounds tomorrow
i will literally be holed up in my room tomorrow -______-
