Lost 4.2kg!!

 Evening

I couldnt get to sleep, my mind was racing with so many things i wanted to do and what I wanted to get done over the weekend. I woke up at 5am and kept waking up until my alarm went off at 7:45am

So I was quite tired this morning but still went for our weekly shop

our trolley just consisted of meat and veg XD just Jo's diet T^T

speaking of my diet I weighed myself this morning at mum's and since starting my diet on 25th January I have lost 4.2kg! I am very pleased with that as it has not been easy. I wish to lose more. I currently weigh 64.6kg I would like to be in 50kg section as I feel I will be able to actually look into the mirror without wanting to cry in despair. Jack isnt happy about me losing weight and is closely monitoring me.

So once we got back from shopping I went straight to mum's, I left Jack to unpack the shopping

I got to mum's and began washing my car. My car was filthy both inside and out just because of the winter snowy weather. So I gave it a good clean outside and in. Then went inside to have a cup of tea with mum. How I miss having a normal cup of tea with her. Stupid fruit teas >.>

I left her about 11am to come home and do my soup for the week, I tried to do a different fish soup as I enjoyed it last week but didnt want to make the same again. Turned out well. 

So we ate lunch together, which set Jack's stomach off. He hadn't been too bad all morning but a simple lunch of wraps seemed to start him off again and he was running to the toilet then on the bed in a ball with hot bag on his tummy.

I went outside after lunch and did the 3rd coat on the garage back door. It looks better for the last coat but I am thinking of painting a silhouette of a rabbit on the front of it as it is Oz's kingdom. I think I might have some paint at work I can use for it.

I came inside, rather cold. To warm me up I did my exercises. I want to keep going with them as I do feel better within myself for doing them ^^ 

I had a much needed shower afterwards. Then waited for Jack to shower, then cleaned the bathroom.

Had Oz inside for a bit, he was happy boy ^^

Had a half hour rest on my bed then did the dinner. Which was good and seems so far to agree with Jack's stomach. Lucky really as he has gaming tonight >.> bloody miracle XD 

I talked with my brother on the phone for 15mins as it is his 26th Birthday today so he was thanking me for his presents. I got him 2 pairs of quirky socks as he likes random socks, a DC t-shirt and a bottle of gin he likes. He was happy with his gifts.

Now I am unsure what  I will do to be honest. I have a picture to draw for chris but not sure I am in the mood to do it but might make a start at it. Maybe go on Just Dance later when my dinner has gone down a bit. Then just wait for Jack to watch inuyasha with me i guess.

Tomorrow

working from home. Our last week of working from home!

i has my book to read. So I will do that but in the morning I am seeing mia for a dog walk. Its good to see another person! Hopefully do my exercises too~ Wanna sleep ><

Managed to complete the 14 day shred!

 Evening

Once again I had to get up for a massive wee in the night >.> I'm not having a hot drink before bed and see if that helps >.>

This morning we both got up about 7:45am as the electrician was coming over at 9am but turns out he didnt come over til 9:30am 

but this morning, I needed to cook my breakfast as I had ran out of turkey so i cooke dmy new pack of turkey in the same seasoning i used last time - honey, soy sauce, coconut sugar - and there was one tiny stake in the packet, a stake that wouldnt fill me. I had 1 egg left so i cooked an omelette in the same pan once the stake was out and cus it had been cooked in the seasoning it made the egg sweet and it was actually really really tasty!!! for the first time in weeks i enjoyed my breakfast, it was so damn good!!!

So this morning I tidied up whilst Jack i feel spent all morning in the toilet

i asked if he was ok but he said his stomach is massively off. he didnt have breakfast and just sat in a ball which isnt like him. Thats usually me XD

I let him see to the electrician whilst I went outside and decided to go put the first coat of paint on the door and window frame. I was in a t-shirt and joggers - my painting clothes - I was so cold as it was 0c! i had goosebumps constantly and my finger ends had gone bluey purple...but i got it done and came in for a warm. By which point the electrician was leaving. We are able to finally put our plates and bowl back into the cupboard. they havent been in the right place for over month, making another cupboard rather congested. So I was happy about that but I still have wiring in places I would rather not see wiring hanging from. But it will get sorted in march he says....he says...

I decided to warm myself up by doing my work out. I worked out that it was my 14th day! So I have completed the 2 week shred challenge! I plan to weigh myself at mum's tomorrow

hopefully i have lost some weight. But I want to continue with it as I feel fitter, I have enjoyed working out and if I can shed some weight that would be great as I HATE looking at myself.

I had a shower not a bath as its quicker and didnt want to occupy the bathroom if jack's stomach is off as he was just constantly running to the bathroom.

We had lunch together but he said he felt worse for eating and just stayed in a ball on the sofa. I went to go put a second coat on the door. Oz wasnt much company XD

I came in and laid on my bed for an hour. It was so lovely and warm outside now and I felt i should be outside in it but I was so exhausted, jack was asleep on the sofa.

So in the end i brought Oz inside to cheer Jack up a bit

he stayed inside with us over an hour just sleeping in his hay basket

I took him home and we did dinner, but I once again got stomach pains after eating. Not as bad as last 2 days but stomach pain nonetheless. 

for dinner tho it was omelette and sweet potato chips, i cooked my egg in the same way as this morning and it was just as good ^^

Jack has now just gone to do something on his PC then he says he is sitting on sofa all evening...must be bad if he cant sit at his PC gaming!

not sure what we will do tonight. Im tempted to go on just dance or learn a dance.

Tomorrow

weekly morning shop~

then come back and unpack then I might wash my car over at mum's but I have got to go over anyway as its my brother's birthday, seeing as hes at his girlfriends house i said i will leave his present and card on his bed. Then I need to make my soup. I have bathroom to clean. and maybe a 3rd coat needs to happen to the door. When it fully dried i could see it could benefit from another coat but sun was going down by this point and rapidly going cold so i left it as the paint wouldnt dry properly.

not sure what else i will do, probably my work out at some point.

2 days of stomach ache

 Evening

I kept waking up last night so I was a bit tired this morning but got on with it

we dropped Oz off for day care and went to work

Work was same old, sat on my own listening to my ipod whilst painting. Got my painting finished and typed up my timetable. So yeah got all my jobs done today

Jack had my lunch so he had 2 pieces of pizza and 2 portions of chips. 2 cakes which he took home and that would be his 'dinner' I had soup

We got to mum's for a brew and for Ozwald but I only stayed til 4pm as I wanted to get back to do my exercises. We first watched the announcement for the new pokemon games. I want diamond and jack wants pearl. Cant say we were fussed on the other games coming out.

Then I cracked on with my exercises. somehow. it is hard at times

I went for a shower afterwards. Mum txted me to say she had tried one of Chloe Ting's workout videos. I was very pleased she had had a go. She said she enjoyed it.

I had my dinner which was left of thai stew. Jack sat with me whilst I ate so we could watch digimon together. I was soon in the ball position afterwards tho for over 45mins. I hate getting stomach ache cus it feels so unfair and makes me want to give the whole diet thing up. Jack just gamed next to me on the bed, not doing the washing up then going to play online with harvey and theo. He said he would do the washing up. too right as all he has done since 4pm is game and watch digimon!

I sat with Ozwald who was a bit tired to be honest. he has obviously had a busy day at mum's XD

then just doing my diary. Cant say I want to stay on my laptop.

not sure what I will do for the next hour whilst jack games

tomorrow

I will probably do my exercises as it will be day 13 out of 14! so I am getting close to finishing the 2 week program. I will try weigh myself over the weekend see if I have lost anything, fingers crossed

tomorrow when I have got my workout done with, I plan to paint the back garage door lime green! I bet Oz will give me a hand X3

I can not wait to do it. It will look loads better I am sure of it. Not sure what else I will do really. 

How unfit!?

 Evening

Last night me and jack played Just Dance, as per his request

he had never played it before.

I let him choose which game and he chose just dance 2 which isnt a favourite of mine but he knew a lot of songs on that one. I let him pick songs. Song I had never even heard of before but no shock there

even tho I didnt know the song I still creamed his butt XD

after dance number 2 he was out of breath. I thought he was gonna have an asthma attack

he was sweating and panting.

I was fine....

He managed one other dance and said he had had enough....

was hardly worth getting the Wii set up XD

so i did a few more dances which he enjoyed watching

afterwards I said to him "you're really unfit arent you" he said "yeah"

I said "does it not bother you?"

he said "no i know I am unfit"

i said "yeah but if that was me I would want to change that. I couldnt bare to be that unfit"

I beat myself up for finding Chloe Ting's workout hard. Now I know that even tho my body is sickly that I do have a good level of fitness ^^ I have a lot to be proud of as I work damn hard

After all that excitement we watched Inuyasha and went to bed

This morning I didnt want to get up, I had woken up in the night, sweaty, again.

But I got up at 8am

I felt really achy and tired but by 9am I decided I would get ready to do my workout. Jack pushed me to do it as he knew I was struggling with the motivation. 

I managed it and went for a bath

when I got out the bath I started reading my science book

we had lunch then I cleaned the craft room window as it had all black mould growing round the frame. I then cleaned the kitchen window and the glass was dirty. I went outside and sanded down the back garage door, which Oz helped with XD

We had a staff meeting at 3:15pm online, just telling us about how the children are returning to school on 8th march. went on for half hour

after that I asked Jack if we could go shops for some paint for the back garage door so we popped out and acquired that. At first I picked up bright pink but looked at Lime colour and then Jack said "oh I like the Lime" so I thought, if he has noticed it and liked it I will go for that. We can see the door outside our bedroom window so its got to be something we both like.

Thats my project saturday morning ^^ I looked at colours to paint our actual garage door and saw a berry red I quite liked so I might do that that colour when the weather warms up. As painting on metal can be temperamental in cold weather

we came home and had a brew

I had been hungry since 2:30pm and snacked and couldnt wait for dinner

so when it came to dinner i couldnt wait but my stomach was curdling and when I sat down with my leftover meatballs i was battling with stomach pains. I ate the last half of my dinner laying out on the floor. As soon as I finished eating I was in the toilet, passing more food than i had eaten,

waste of time

i may as well have had my dinner at like 4pm when i was really hungry and i wouldnt have died of stomach pains then >.> so I was peed off

I rang mum whilst resting my stomach, i had Oz out too, Oz is going over to mum's tomorrow for day care. 

Now just doing my diary. Not sure what I will do after that as I have just under an hour before jack finishes up gaming with harvey and theo.

tomorrow is school :/

Photos of my dresser

 Evening

I slept a little bit better last night, waking up at midnight drenched in sweat, i went to the toilet and literally dried myself off as I was wet~ I am gross XD

I got up and used my shower for the first time! had my new bathroom a month and havent actually used the shower before, i was happy with it ^^

me and jack got my thai stew on, it was a totally winged recipe but it actually turned out really nice, i will make a note of what I actually did!

jack drove to school

I got to class a realised we had extra children so I couldnt sit where I usually do, meaning i didnt have access to a computer. Chris sorted me out a laptop tho ^^ and I had a desk all to myself and just spent my day painting. painting all day. my hand ached to be honest!

I had a meeting at 11am with head of science. To fill in my "return to work" form. usually i fill it out with jack and I was a bit worried as to why he wanted to do it with me, not jack.

Turns out it was because it had been flagged up that Jo here has had 21 days off in 12months....thats a fair amount i guess ^^; I was worried about what he was gonna say or do. I have never been in this position before. But all it was, was about supporting me in work so i dont end up having so much time off. He had looked at my notes and researched my conditions before the meeting which i thought was good of him. He asked about me, what i struggle with and how to improve it. He told me how amazing a job I do and what a great member to the science team i am and how the science department needed someone like me ^^ so it was all positive really.

Before I had even a chance to tell jack, head of science had bumped into jack getting lunch and told him that. i suppose nothing will stay secret from jack as hes line manager + boyfriend XD but yeah it was good. Just need to make a time table before next wednesday which is when i am meeting with him again. He wants me to have a structured day and to make sure i look after myself and fit my breaks into my day.

I drove us home, I didnt get my painting finished but I have friday to do that. 

we went to mum's and had a cup of tea and picked my ozwald up who was outside with the girls. Its always nice seeing him out with them. Mum said Oz hadnt been outside much cus of the wind tho

We got back and I decided I wanted to do my exercises! I cracked on with it and achieved it!

I had a much needed bath afterwards. Then served up my thai curry, jack had a whole packet of rice to himself which is for 2 people XD he enjoyed my dinner tho, and there is 4 extra portions! the slow cooker was brimming tho this morning XD

after dinner we rested a bit and then jack wanted to try Just Dance on the Wii, he picked songs he knew and i didnt or hadnt even been on the dance. I still beat him everytime. Also by dance 2 he was out of breath XD takes me til about 8 dances to start to noticed my breathing has changed XD i told him he was unfit. and then I did a couple of dances and he watched me. He said he liked watching me >.>

Then we had Oz inside who ate pea flakes, satsuma, strawberry then his straw house. So I took it as he was hungry and took him home. honestly. anyone would think i dont feed him!

now just doing my diary downstairs. but its 9:20pm so we might watch Inuyasha soon

tomorrow

working from home really not a lot else to say or do!

here is my dressing table, my second hand pine dresser i got off ebay for £52 and now its been totally transformed. People say its very me XD some hours has gone into it i tell ya!

Up til 4am, back at school tomorrow

 Evening

Well I was up til 4am -________- I kid you not. 4 sodding AM

Was well annoyed

it got to 12am and I got up for pain killers and stayed up til 1am and went back to bed

but still couldnt sleep so I got up and yeah just stayed up til 4am

its not like I can have hot chocolate or cereal ether T^T pure torture, those beloved foods gave me strength to get through the night. All I had last night was sultanas and buts T^T

So when the alarm went off at 7:30am I switched it off and went back to sleep

woke up at 8:30am with jack saying he had made me a orange fruit tea and had placed it beside me

when I got up he was like "jeez you look like death!"

I said "I feel it. Couldnt sleep. Was in too much pain. So I was up til 4am"

he said "why didnt you wake me?"

i just dont like waking him. I said "its not like you can take away my pain" he said "no but at least you wont be alone" i guess...

So i literally ate breakfast and went back to bed as I was just dead, my body needed to rest from so much exercise the day before.

I woke up at 10am and found jack and Oz in the living room so that was nice to wake up to,

I felt a bit more human anyway

I pushed my self to do my work out however I only did 3 out of the 4 videos then went for a very hot bath.

We had lunch then I did some reading

I have learned so much from that body book already. But everything I tell jack I have learned he already knows....how does he know so much >.>

We walked to the local corner shop as I wanted to buy jack a treat for going to fetch my dresser yesterday, I brought my dad some chocolate for also going yesterday. Brought my mum some flowers for being an excellent postal service as all my post goes to their house.

we came back and had Oz out who just did toilet everywhere -______-

he hasnt chosen to go much today as its sooo windy, his little ears cant get signal in this wind so it scares him and so he chooses to stay in his cage. 

I started dinner, we were having meatballs. So I made the meatballs and I made pasta sauce, cooked sweet potato for me and actual pasta for jack and it was really nice even tho i wasnt having the traditional meal of pasta and meatballs like jack i still enjoyed it as it was tasty.

got stuff ready for school tomorrow as i am back on baby sitting duty. I also have a meeting at 11am with head of science about my absence before xmas. you have to fill a form out if you are ever off sick even for just an afternoon off. and usually jack does it with me but for some reason head of science has asked to do it with me. which is odd as jack is my manager and i usually fill it out with him...so i am a little bit worried about it and i dont really want to talk about my illness ether.

This evening jack is doing an extra raid online with his friends so i said I would go over to my parents house for an hour, sit with Oz and then I dont need to drop him off in the morning. So I am about to go do that. Then might come back and do a bit of drawing, not sure yet. See how tired I am as I have had a headache all day.

tomorrow

in the morning I have got to put on my thai curry stew, something i have never done before or even got a recipe for, just totally winging it here! its half prepped so not too much to do in the morning.

then we have school and I am hopefully just painting display work

then we will come back and collect Ozwald then not sure after that. it will be wednesday so its a night jack doesnt game he spends time with me. but no clue what to actually do!

I have managed to win a few more joggers online and jumpers. Also a new charm for my earring as the acrylic cheese charm i always wear has lost its yellow colour its like a white cheese slice XD 

here is Oz the other night, making himself at home. It always feels weird not having him here in the evening but i know when I sit with him at mum's soon he will be happy 

Acquired a welsh dresser

 Evening

Jack actually finished his online gaming at 9pm last night, so we watched a couple of episodes of Inuyasha then I said I was going to bed as I was just shattered

So we were in bed for 10:20pm he said he was gonna play on his switch which I didnt mind as I know it was early for him and I soon fell asleep

I woke up at 12:15am, a sweaty mess and needing a wee, but i thought "why is the room lit up"

jack was still playing.....

i said "jack is 12:15 you know" he said "is it actually?"

once again he gets fixated and obsessed on games. so i go for a wee and come back to find him still gaming so i said "are you not coming off it? we have work in the morning"

he said "let me just kill this boss" he had already been on it loads in the day! i just went to sleep

woke up at 7:30am and felt grouchy, tired and achy

but got up as we had a staff meeting and I was going for a walk with mia at 9am

typically it was raining -_____- so I got quite wet

we walked for an hour, the entire time spent moaning about men XD about our partners

I came in and had a brew then decided to do my exercises as I was aching and cold

I did those and went for a bath

then had my lunch watching digimon

after lunch I started ready  my body book and learned a lot to be honest and only read the first 2 chapters 

mum popped in after going to the dentist so we had a brew with her and Oz

I did some more reading when mum left then at 3:50pm I laid out on my bed as jack was on the sofa on his switch, i thought "10mins time i will take my tablets"

that was the last thought I had then the next thing i knew it was 5:30pm! we were suppose to be going out with my dad after 6pm to go collect a welsh dresser!!! i hadnt even got the oven on let alone dinner ready. I was sooo cross with jack, that he hadnt realised what the time was, to think to come see where i was after almost 2 hours, to not check to see where Oz was

so i made dinner and dad turned up i felt so wound up, i didnt go as i was of no use to anyone

i couldnt lift the dresser

so i stayed behind, i told mum how i was feeling and she popped over whilst i ate then I had a massive rant at her about jack and gaming and i felt better for it. we had Oz out with us then when i got the txt to say jack was on his way back, mum left. Jack came in and had his dinner with me and Oz

i didnt start up and argument as it was gone 7pm and i didnt want animosity at that time of night and the moment had passed, i had ranted to mum. besides i had already had a go at him when i came in from my walk! like i said for some reason i am a bit grouchy today. but he doesnt help matters, or help what so ever!

so after Oz went home Jack cleared the kitchen and i am up here doing my diary whilst he games

I am pleased with my welsh dresser tho. It looks good and dad says its a good buy as its like solid. really good quality. i prefer buying older pieces as they are made much better than the crap in IKEA or other cheap places.

I hope I sleep tonight seeing as I have had a long nap so late in the day T^T

I have decided to keep going with my exercise routine til the kids go back to school on 8th march as i wont have the energy for that routine AND school besides i will probably be bored of it by then.

Tomorrow

working from home so probably reading more of that book, do my exercises, maybe a walk

but in the evening jack is doing an extra raid on his online game, he asked if he could, and so i might take Oz over to mum's in the evening whilst jack games and then I wont have to drop Oz off in the morning before school.

here is my lad in his new cat tent

First time I havent slept in a while

 Evening

I couldnt sleep last night, I was in too much pain so by 1am I got up and stayed up til 2:30am, had more pain killers but no food to take them with so my stomach rotted. I went to bed but it took me almost an hour to actually get to sleep -_____- so when my alarm at 7:45am went off. I was not impressed or ready to start the day

but we got up and got out to go do our shopping.

We came back and had a cup of tea and a snack then I got on with my soup, my fish soup I have never made before or got a recipe for. I left it simmering whilst I did my exercises. 

The soup was really good! much to my surprise! so I had that for lunch after my bath.

I finished season 2 of Gameface.

I won the auction on a welsh dresser! for my craft room, got it for £62, got to collect it tho but its not far away however it does involve my dad as its almost 2m long and that aint gonna go in my car!

I went to bed as my eyes stung to keep them away I was so tired

when I woke up at 4pm, me and jack sat with Ozwald who was happy to come in

then we went for a walk but didnt get back til 6pm so I  told jack I wasnt sure on the chances he would be gaming on time for 7pm. so he was in a flap as its most important that he games on time and doesnt keep them waiting >.> however i have been waiting for 3 weeks for him to pay me back for his half of the bathroom and i mentioned it 3 times today we need to do it. I have asked him to hoover and he hasnt done that ether. So once again games take priority.

I had a half hour phone call with mum after dinner she had been with dad to get new glasses. cost dad £1500 for 2 glasses for both of them. Think he stumbled out rather than walked out the optitions XD

Then I did the washing up, which is jack's job but cus hes gaming til 10pm i didnt want the pots sitting there til 10pm not as theyre fish >.> stinks the house out. I made the dinner as usual. I do everything in this relationship

Im gonna chill out and have Oz out. Then I think I will go bed. Not sure I can be bothered to wait for jack at 10pm then watch inuyasha

Tomorrow

back at work! working from home tho. I have my body book to read and some art to plan.

seeing mia at 9am for a walk tho, highlight of my bloody week.

Ate dinner over at my parents

 Konbanwa~~

I slept better last night

This morning I felt awful and just thought I was doomed to have a crappy health day. But no it just turns out that I had forgotten to take my medication. I took it at 9:30am and eventually felt better then did my exercises which are getting easier

I had a bath and then my lunch

I cleaned the bathroom and found jack cleaning the kitchen! hadnt asked him he just did it, but I had nagged at him yesterday for doing bugger all all damn day. He then came out to help me to clean the garage a bit more. We tackled so many spiders. I cleaned down the units and the door and the door frame. As everything was black. I can not wait to paint the door a really whacky colour. Its round the back of the house so it wouldnt offend anyone. Job for the summer.

We came in and my parents came over. They came to collect their stuff out the garage so we had Oz inside for a bit so he wouldnt be scared. Although I imagine he had a good nosy round  the garage after it was emptied.

I went over to my parents at 5pm as my dinner was already prepped so I took it over and ate with them. My mum couldnt understand why i chose to come over XD she looks over at dad and pulls a face XD

I spent a bit of time with my brother as well. didnt make mum a mothers day card as I realised my glue gun was here and to be honest i was really tired.

I came home and sat with Oz for an hour, eating orange and watching comedy called Gameface, almost finished 2 season!

Now just on my laptop, jack is talking to his friends. I keep joining in sometimes. Mostly to make fun of jack which he friends found really funny

tomorrow

its our weekly shop time~ we need a fair bit too as some stuff has ran out and i also want to try making a couple of different dishes - food i havent made before or eaten!

not sure how else i will pass the day to be honest

tackling cobwebs

 Evening

I couldnt sleep well last night as Jack was snoring >.>

So I was quite tired this morning

But still i got up and got dressed. Mum picked me up at 9:45am and we popped to 3 shops just for a few bits, I managed to spend £22 on hair and skin care. Stocked up 

She dropped me off home and I sat with Oz and had a brew with him. Then I cracked on with my exercise routine, which went well. I was still a sweating mess. I hopped into the bath afterwards. 

We had lunch and then I decided to go varnish my dressing table, cleaned my Oz out as he was smelly bunbun. He was really enjoying my company in the garage and it was mild out so I decided to clean the garage a bit as it is awful. Its full of 50 year cob webs as the ivy had pierced through the brick work and the spiders had come through to make their home. Dad got rid of the ivy for me when we first moved in but all the old spider webs and dead spiders are still there. Along with a load of old tat the previous owners had left for us. They said it was to "help" us. And whilst a spade does help. Old garden products that have turned from a liquid to a solid, do not help us. So I binned it all really and sweapt it out and cleaned the window as it was filthy. 

I came in and had a bit of a rest. But I was so hungry so I made some biscuits.

I have done house work as well. And just exhausted. I had dinner to do as well

Jack has done literally bugger all today, literally just gamed. Told him its a waste of life and I have done so much. Doesnt seem bothered

After dinner I went online to look for joggers and managed to find another pair.

Now just drawing digimon and pokemon, whilst talking to theo and harvey and jack

tomorrow no plans as of yet, might tackle more cobwebs

beat him again

 Konbanwa~~

I slept pretty well last night, Jack got up and released Oz for me whilst I made him a coffee ^^

I didnt feel up to my usual standard this morning, just really worn out. But wanted to do my workout so after breakfast I did - somehow - crack on with it

Then had a much needed bath, I cant get over how much i sweat. I feel I can do some of the exercises a bit easier now tho.

Mum came over from 7 houses down at 11:30am I made her a tea and we had Ozwald in. he likes to see mum and mum likes seeing him. He was feral last night and this morning so I offered for mum to take him back with her XD

Me and jack had lunch then I went to bed, I didnt want to but I have just been struggling to get through the day after working out and on my diet. So I had a good sleep then when I got up Jack dragged me out for a walk but it was nice to get out for fresh air, I just found it hard work!

We got back and had Oz in for a brew as usual

then when he went home, Jack insisted on re-matching me to triomiones i brought him. as I won the first round we have played. And what happened....Jo won is what X3 he does not like losing. Personally I aint that bothered XD

we had dinner then jack went upstairs to go play online D&D for the first time in a few weeks. I havent been up to see him

I sat watching a comedy episode eating my pomegranate ^^ then I got Oz in and ate oranges with him. Now I am just on my laptop watching a few jpop videos. I was gonna do some drawing but unsure what I want to draw and I dont really want to sit on my computer chair ether

Tomorrow

I wanted to go shops with Jack today but he didnt seem overly keen. So I text mum and she said she might come with me tomorrow. So we might do that in the morning. Then I will do my workout then I need to do some house cleaning I guess. Kinda would like to get things in order before school.

p.s. we threw the maid costume in the bin this morning....jack said he will acquire a better quality one...

It is getting easier

 Evening

Last night I stayed up til gone 11pm watching Inuyasha with Jack. I even had a hot chocolate made with water not milk and it was alright but it wasnt as big a deal I thought it was gonna be to me, to say I havent had sugar or chocolate in weeks!

I slept quite well but woke up late for Oz at 8:20pm

I thought I would get off to my mum's around 9am but my stomach had other ideas. I spent half hour on the toilet whilst the world fell out of my arse. Awful stomach upset. The only thing I can think it was, was the hot chocolate as everything else I have been eating is the same.

So I got to mums at 9:40am she was out shopping so I wrapped my brother's birthday present

and she arrived, I helped unpack and then we sat having a cup of tea - always fruit tea for me tho on this diet T^T god I miss tea!

I went to go work on her 2 projects

she wanted a new mask made of this pig fabric i had made her ipod case from, and she also wanted a new door stop for the toilet. Both I made before lunch ^^ no templates or measurements needed I just got on with it~ 

We had lunch together as I brought my own soup over to have with her

then I left at 1:30pm as she had an appointment. I came home, after receiving a cute video of Jack spending time indoors with Oz, its nice having someone else care for him as much as I do. I have never had to share a rabbit before so its a new experience to me. As I have never trusted anyone else with my rabbits. But Oz has a tendency to walk all over Jack XD Jack had ended up having Oz inside a lot longer than he planned as he couldnt get hold of Oz he kept running off and jumping out his grip. Doesnt dare try that with me!

I did my exercises which I felt today had gotten easier actually 

also I weighed myself at mum's and since I started my diet I have lot 3.4kg/7.5lbs

I wish to keep losing weight in the hope I can look at myself in the mirror

but also to gain muscle. And obviously heal my stomach

I will keep going with my work outs tho

we both had baths when I had finished. 

then we had a cup of tea inside with Oz

went for a short walk which about killed me off

dinner was easy as it was leftovers

so before dinner i was online looking at videos and gift ideas for mum on mothers day.

think I have a few things now I can give her.

I died after food, just mega tired so I ate some fruit and then some nuts, had Oz out

now its only 8:30am and I am shattered!

Jack says we can watch Inuyasha early, and we might end up going bed early but him playing on his switch in bed. Just so done

Just hope I sleep!

tomorrow

I have no plans~ 

2nd Anniversary

 Evening

Today marks mine and Jack's 2nd Anniversary~

Yup we have survived 2 years without killing one another!

I actually cant imagine life without the guy now, he honestly feels like family

and of course I love him so much <3 even if he is patience trying at times XD 

So this morning I was hoping on a lay in as I didnt sleep well, I basically kept waking up in pain

We had to get up at 7:45am as mum had messaged me last night saying Matt was gonna come fit our blind and repair a couple of bricks on the outside of the house he had to knock through but couldnt get the same bricks when he was last over, but now has them. Of course we didnt know WHEN he was gonna come so we got up early just incase

he didnt come over til 9am, and it took him an hour to fit a blind....cus hes such a perfectionist. I know my dad would have done it in under 10mins XD But hey we have a blind, and a further hour was needed to fix the brick work. so he left just after 11am. I had basically had a lazy morning of being with Oz and then on my bed, as I was dead. But still keen to do the work out!

Which is what I did when Matt left, I got the videos up and got to work

Jack laid on the sofa eating crackers and cheese -____-

I sweated so much, by video 3 i had to mop my face as the salty sweat was literally stinging my face 0.0 yes I am that gross 

I had a much needed bath, then jack had a bath then we had lunch

we popped out for a walk along the river and through a village

then popped into a shop on the way home for jack's cider and a few bits and pieces nothing special.

We came home and had a brew with Oz

Then I made some of my banana biscuits, then decided to make some biscuits for jack but it was a recipe online and i am not impressed with them but jack says they are edible.

then I made dinner which was pork burgers and chips, all homemade. I of course cant have the bun so literally burger and chips for me but it was nice. Lamb mince is far nicer but the shop didnt have any so we had to get pork. and i think it laid heavy on both our stomachs as we were both done for afterwards XD so we had to literally rest and digest

then we played 3 rounds of the triominoes I brought for jack for his anniversary present. I WON! my god I never win board games especially against jack, I could tell losing left a bitter taste on him XD

we had Oz in during the last round and he couldnt understand why we didnt have our full attentions on him, bless him.

I took him home after I shared the usual satsuma with him.

Ah yes jack's present to me >.> need I go there

it was literally lace

honest to god that is not an outfit!

he said "i didnt think it was as skantly as that" yeah right!! its a maid costume, but not much of one - literally. So i feel its more a gift for him XD however i said i will try it on....but in the bathroom. I might show him. its just nothing i have worn before! i feel it would rip apart with the slightest touch!

he found it more amusing more than anything

but its been a nice day anyway, a slightly different day anyway

its 9:30pm and I am tired.

I said as a treat I will join him to hot chocolate tonight when we watch Inuyasha

I had a cup of tea on my birthday, I can have a hot chocolate - made with water not milk - on my anniversary.

Here's to many more years ^^

Oh I also finished the picture for him. Which is officially his desktop picture~

He really likes it and says its for his eyes only XD

tomorrow I am going over to mum and dad's

i was taking Oz but as of this evening a fence panel has broke and fallen down so the garden is no longer safe for Oz so he is staying here with Jack

I will be coming home after lunch around 1:30pm

I just need to make a few things for mum which is why i am going over for a while.

i hope to do my workout in the morning before I go over tho

Thought I was fitter than that 0.0

 Evening~~

So last night I did in fact start these workout

a series of 4 videos ranging from 11-14mins long

oh      my      god

I was a sweating, dripping, shaking mess

I could barely keep going, I have no idea how at 8pm I did these videos. I was listening to the videos thinking "theres a whistling sound on the background music" but when I paid proper attention I realised it was my asthmatic breathing! I was obviously struggling! But I kept going. My legs were like jelly. I honestly thought I was fitter than that!

I was watching during video 4 by Jack who laid on the sofa, scrolling through his phone, finishing off the 100b butter toffee chocolate he had started an hour previously.....I told him I hated him XD actually it made no difference as I am working for myself, a chocolate bar would not help this. 

I ran a bath after my work out and did I need it. My hair and clothes were soaked. I sweat a lot in the day anyway never mind after such a work out.

I came out the bath and I hurt, I hurt everywhere T^T but I didnt moan too much or ask for sympathy as it was all self inflicted.

We went to bed after watching 2 episodes of Inuyasha, jack had finished gaming at 8:30pm instead of 10pm so we had a bit more time

I woke up at 7:30am after having weird dreams about murderous sheep

and as soon as I opened my eyes, my body......god it hurt. Like I had been beaten all over with a baseball bat in my sleep! But still I got up and it was all go til 9am when Mia showed up as basically we had to get the stew on which I make from scratch - like all my meals - and I put my soup on which I left in jack's capable hands whilst I went for a walk with Mia which was nice. I just bloody hurt XD

I got back and found jack had done my soup for me ^^ I sat with him and Oz and had a brew as I was a bit cold. I had a good rest and at 11am I decided to do day 2 of my workout. Jack stayed in the room in entire time but I didnt mind. 

Once again I was a mess but felt I did a bit better than the night before. I was running short on energy as I had only had a turkey steak and an apple and I had done an hour's walk previously

But I did it and Jack ran me a bath after I had finished. My clothes were wet and hard to remove XD

He said  I was disgusting but I said "well I need that bikini bod dont i?" XD 

After my bath it was lunch time so we sat down to episode 3 of digimon season 1 as we have decided to watch digimon when eating lunch. I havent seen it since I was a child! so I have little memory of it.

Mum came round as soon as I finished eating. Her bathroom is slowly getting done but she had the electricity off today and got cold so she came for a warm and a brew. 

I rested on my bed after she left as I was just done and hurt sooooo much

I got up at 4pm and had Oz in for an hour.

We had dinner which was really good ^^ Jack didnt speak during his meal so I know he was enjoying it.

Now we are just on our computers. He is playing with Harvey and Theo online I am logged into discord so I can talk too but I have been doing other things on my computer. However after an hour I am getting bored as usual, computers dont entertain me for long! so I might go do something else. But jack will be on here til 10pm. I will need something to pass the time as it is only 8pm!

Tomorrow is our 2 year anniversary! 

there isnt a lot we can do tho! We have brought each other a present for something we can do together. I hope Jack likes my gift. I also finished the hammington picture for him so I have that to present to him. We might go for a walk by the river. Not sure what else we can do really cus theres literally nothing to do in a lockdown! But I am sure we will pass the day. We did a lot of chores today so we wouldnt have to do them tomorrow anyway. I will not be skipping out on my workout anyway

week of working out

 Evening~~

I didnt sleep that well last night, kept waking up as I wasnt comfortable but I still managed to get back off to sleep each time luckily. We got up at 8am and by 8:45 we had set off for the shops. I can actually say we were the first ones to enter the supermarket this morning, odd experience XD we got what we needed, unpacked at home and I cleaned Oz out all before 10am! Woo!

I had a much needed bath as I did go on just dance last night, got a bit sweaty and went to bed XD I was grim

Afterwards I did a few house jobs and had Oz in

after lunch I went over to mum and dad's and sat with them for a bit then did a bit of yoga there. Sat with the girls as well which was nice. Then I came home to show Oz his new hay basket that had arrived at mum's he was really happy with it, standing on top of it eating it -____- cocky git

what also had arrived was our anniversary presents! Mine was a fair size box as its to fit a board game in, jack's was a small, light packet. So i said to him "if it is a kinky outfit, it cant be more than a few strings its so small and light" he laughed and said "yes jo its a present we can both enjoy" i said "I feel if i was wearing a few strings, YOU would be getting more enjoyment out of it than me!" perv >.> so i have some strings to look forward to on tuesday!

I rested on my bed thinking of what I can do during the holidays

mum had asked me today what it is I want to do, I thought "what could i do?"

so I came up with something

seeing as I havent been working that hard on my yoga and dance as I have been trying to get out to walk more for fresh air, my muscles have been suffering and usually after dance or yoga I hurt the next day. It shows I have worked - yes, but also during the time I was dancing and doing yoga more, I never got aches after I had exercised. So this week I would like to do a workout every day. I found from a while back that theres someone called Chloe Ting online and she does good workout videos, i wanted to do a 2 weeks program ages ago but always chose to dance or something instead. Now I have the time and free space to follow a program. It says to do it for 2 weeks but I only have a week off. But I might start it tonight if I have the energy. Be a good goal anyway.

tonight jack is gaming so I need to once again entertain myself

I am thinking of having Oz out and then when I have put him to bed i will do this workout, then bath as I imagine I will surely need a wash. Then I might paint my nails. Im sure I can pass the evening

I know its valentines day but yeah it means nothing to me. Jack kindly sent a text to harvey and theo at 8:30am saying "happy singles awareness day" I said "Im sure they really appreciate that jack, stop being smug" but he sent it anyway -____- he said they would do it to him XD

tomorrow

seeing mia for a walk in the morning i think at 9am

then unsure after that, got that workout to do i guess, the hammington picture to finish as well if i am gonna give it to jack on time. Oh and my soup for the week to make.

Got the hammington picture almost done

 Konbanwa~~

We watched Inuyasha and went to bed last night and I slept so well. I didnt wake til 9am! but we had gone to bed at practically midnight >< Jack luckily got up at 7:30am and let Oz out for me :D 

I showed Oz his floral toy today and he wasnt that impressed T^T snobby bunny

This morning I did a few jobs round the house, then decided the weather didnt look that bad so I wanted to go a walk, Jack hasnt done any exercise all week so I dragged him out and we went for a good walk. It was freezing, there is still snow in places as it hasnt come above freezing for days now. today was -4c and we walked in it! I was so cold even tho I had really wrapped up. didnt stop my back from sweating tho. Jo is a sweat machine. We got back and had a hot drink with Ozwald then had a bath. So I was warmed through. We had lunch then I had a sleep, then had Oz in again. I varnished my table and now the whole house stinks of like solvent. I mean it stinks and i mean the whole house. despite me locking myself in there and locking the door afterwards. Potent stuff. We will both probably have headache come morning.

After dinner we went on our computers. I needed to crack on my picture for Jack as I would like to give it him for the anniversary on tuesday. So i managed to get the actual drawing done I just need to photoshop it a bit and give it a background as its gonna be his PC wallpaper XD

But i think it looks ok, very different to my usual pictures!

I have also been talking to harvey and theo whilst drawing which has been nice, nice having someone different to talk to.

Im about to go and play a bit of just dance and then sit with Oz, quite enjoyed playing just dance last night on my first turn in almost 2 years I got 4/5 stars! Jo still has it X3 on my 3rd dance I got 5/5 stars~ like the only game I do semi-well at!

Tomorrow

we are getting to the shop at 9am for our weekly shop, we are gonna get in during the key worker half hour so it should be dead, then come home and unpack it all. It may be valentines day tomorrow but it literally means nothing to us both just some stupid holiday so we wont be acknowledging it. I am unsure how we will pass the day tho. think mum would like to see me

played an actual board game

 Evening

I got up for work at 6:45am for a bath before work

we dropped Oz at mum's for bunny day care~

Work was ok, just sat in a room whilst colouring really whilst there was 2 other members of staff and 3 students. Mad. I felt poorly so I had 20mins to myself in the office but picked myself up eventually. The last lesson of the day I was left the whole hour with the 3 children. It was no bother as theyre only 11 years old and just normal boys really. Full of energy tho as they have just been behind a screen all day so I let them play a few games together like rock paper scissors and various things that didnt involve a desk.

We came back to mums and had a brew and picked my Oz up

I got one of his toys in the post, that quick, its his little bouquet of flowers made of crepe paper, cant wait to show it him tomorrow ^^ Mum says I have spoiled him but I said its because he is doing so well with his diet. Honestly when I picked him up this morning he felt thinner around his chest. Bless him. Hes doing better than me! I've only lost 2.5kg >.> doing this diet for bloody nothing

we left with my Wii as well, which jack kindly set up for me when we got home

I had dinner but Jack didnt as he had a massive lunch of pizza and chips so hes just going without tonight but brought back his cake from lunch from school so hes currently snacking on that.

we played some sort of boardgame after dinner as we said we would have ago. I HATE board games with a passion, jack enjoys them and does really well at them. The game was dull I didnt enjoy it and it was the best of his collection to offer. So we finished up and he won - obviously - now I just came online to do my diary but I am gonna sit with Oz now and then I might go on Just dance then have a bath and watch Inuyasha

I have no plans for the weekend tho 0.0

like nothing at all

Just dont know what to do. its hard to know what to do you know? although I know I can now varnish my dressing table! which will be done in the craft room with the door firmly shut as the varnish stinks the whole house out its potent stuff. but its something to do. might do my nails as well. Its valentines day but that means nothing to us. Its just commercialised rubbish

Had a good day and spoiling Oz

 Evening~~~

I slept well last night, I heard my alarm go off but didnt get up XD I let Jack get Oz out~

I had a nice day today actually ^^

I danced, I had a bath, I had a nap, I had lunch, I painted, I had a cup of tea with my mum, Played with Oz, and did more painting. Yeah its been a good day to be honest!

We had an easy dinner too, which was leftovers for me and stuff out the freezer for jack

We finished watching derry girls too but luckily there will be a season 3!

Now were both on computers but I think I will go and sit with Oz and share an orange with him, which is our usual night routine~

Tomorrow

We are off to school~

then I will pick Oz up as he will go to bunny daycare whilst we are at school

then not sure after that what we will do, we are thinking of setting my Wii up and playing dance games XD

oh and speaking of Oz, he has been enjoying this cardboard box in the living room but soon the box is needed in the spare room, so he wont have anything to chew, so I am looking for actual pet alternatives! so far I have ordered him a tent to sit in if he wants, I have always waned one but never had the space. Just need a chew toy next~

secret presents

 Evening

Yesterday I worked from home and we did my appraisal and mum came over for a walk, a walk I was reluctant to do as it meant day 3 of walking whilst it was snowing! it absolutely came down as well, i felt like it was aiming for my face I literally couldnt see! so i was cold and aching and had enough, the sun came out as we were on our way home -_____-

In the evening I had a bath and fell asleep on my bed woke up at 9pm >< and got Oz out of course

This morning I got up for a bath before school, i hurt. my joints hurt and its from walking in the cold and snow. I dont want to do it anymore! we dropped Oz off at mum's

school I was grouchy just cus i was grouchy, especially when i realised I had left my sketchbook and paints at home!! so i had to go and rob stuff from the art department and luckily i did get what i needed but i still prefer my own stuff

I basically sat all day painting a volcano! easy day, it does feel a bit pointless at times but yeah its easy enough.

after school we went farmfoods which basically sells frozen food, we didnt get much and what we did get was for jack

I dropped him off with the goods, got changed and went to mums for a brew and Oz

I did half hour of yoga as well whilst Oz snored on the sofa

I came back and did dinner which was stew I put on in the morning

then we took our separate ways. as its our anniversary on tuesday and as there is literally nothing we can do i suggested we both by something in secret, something we can do together - sex toys not qualifying.  I have gone with a board game I know i can play as  i know jack enjoys board games but i refuse to play them with him as he takes it too seriously as is just far superior at them than me. I have picked Triominoes 

now gonna have Oz out and such

tomorrow working from home really

got given my book from school which classes as training as you cant go anywhere for training so they ordered me a book and i might read some of that!

Oz inside yesterday morning enjoying his morning carrot with us, usually he has it in the garage or shed at mums

yet more snow

 Evening

I slept pretty well and got up to work from home but noticed it had snowed a lot in the night

so of course I go out in the snow 10mins with Oz who always gets very giddy in the snow, its very cute to watch, i love being outside with him. But i was getting cold so came inside

we had a lot of faith meeting  this morning.....suppose that goes with the territory of working in a catholic school. but my god it was awful. such warped individuals.....so my godliness it was so irritating.

and one speaker even had a monotone....felt quite annoyed by the end of it. But chilled out with lunch and derry girls.

after lunch I went for a walk with mia, in the snow. so cold and buy the end of it my voice sounded like an old womans voice. glad I saw her tho. I was just bloody exhausted afterwards. she kindly brought me some converse! 

I rested when I got in with Jack and Oz as my god I needed to thaw out...

when i got up we were gonna have a bath then do dinner. But that didnt go to plan as i started the bath running but didnt put the plug in....i even looked at it thinking it was taking a while to fill up! the whole house's hot water quite literally went down the drain....I was peed off by this

so we had dinner and i chilled out

Jack went to game with harvey and theo and looked at clothes online then I sat with Oz for a bit

now its 9pm and I should go for a bath soon really

tomorrow just working from home really. 

My Last Year in my 20's

 Evening

Today I turned 29! My last year of being in my 20's!

getting old huh XD

Yesterday Tara popped over with my present and just stood at my front door talking for a few minutes as you know you cant invite people in, but its been a whole year since I have seen her face so I was over joyed to actually see her, plus it was a total surprise appearance too

Yesterday night we did our weekly food shop so we wouldnt have to go on my birthday, I did some dancing in the morning and after my throat felt constricted. I worked on my dressing table some more

Today tho

I woke up and saw my Oz, I let him out for a stretch then brought him in to open presents with us. He was going mad with all the paper and boxes! It was really cute to watch

I got some really nice gift from people, Jack got me a bunny scarf, cacti candles, bath bombs

we decided to go for a walk, we went to some woods which is kinda pathed so we werent walking through endless mud. we did get snowed on tho! so it was really quite bitter and cold. From there we went a bit further to the farm I got Oz from, they didnt have any hamsters but Jack said he would buy Oz a toy so I chose this really lovely rabbit print tube. Its staying in the living room for a while ^^

we started to make our way back and called into a garden centre that mum had told me has hamsters and indeed saw the hamster. The woman let us view them through the glass, poor things had their bedding removed just so we could see them. It felt cruel. We did reserve one in a way as we told the woman we would be back after we had made the cage up. But it was odd, even the tho they were obviously very very cute at just 5 weeks old, i didnt feel that nervous excitement i get when picking out a new bunny or guinea. I wasnt sure if it was just because I havent been feeling myself or if it truly was because I am not that bothered about owning one. I love Oz so much I almost feel a bit traitorous to get a hamster...Jack however seemed much more up for it than me and was a bit disappointed we didnt get a hammy. I said I would think about it.

we came home and made lunch I had a salad for a change. Karen came and popped her gift to me. I havent seen her since summer. When she had grown her hair back but now she has nothing again...it was so sad to see as she did look poorly with her cancer. and bless her she didnt need to get me anything i was just happy to see her. and she needs to rest! but thats karen, always putting others first before herself.

after lunch I made my soup, cleaned Oz out as I know he enjoys it and that makes me happy.

I had a rest as I was in pain from walking in the cold and I was just tired.

I woke up and had Ozwald in for a stretch and to see his new tube which he loved ^^

then we went to mum's were I had my treat of the day - a real cup of tea!! none of this bloody fruit tea rubbish >.> 

she gave me my gifts, mum really spoiled me!

she made us all dinner, and I made some biscuits for me to eat, we had a sit with the pigs as well.

then we have just come home, I will sit with Oz, then bath then watch Inuyasha and go bed

its been a pretty alright day really, its a winter lockdown, not a lot you can do!

got to make the most of being in my 20s!

I am very grateful for everyone making time for me today tho and yesterday ^^

i really did get some lovely things, people know me well

next birthday is my brother's 26th!

Tomorrow is a load of meetings online -______- then should be seeing mia for a dog walk in the after noon some time.

Last Scientist Done!

 Evening

Last night was 'date night' but we didnt get up to much as literally what can you get up!? its winter and lockdown. We ended up watching 3 episodes of inuyasha and called it a night

I didnt sleep that well ether so I felt quite tired this morning

but got up as I had a science department meeting that I felt I best attend as it looks bad if jack is there and I am not. But it was boring and not useful to us technicians

I went for a walk with Mia which was nice but tiring, the dogs were cute. But walt did poo whilst farting. It smelt and sounded disgusting. We both laughed in the end tho. And this is why you dont have dogs... She said she will see me monday and give me my present then, when we go for a dog walk.

She told me her 94 year old grandad, whilst recovering from a stroke, had covid...

he had no symptoms...he was fine. HOW THE HELL DOES THAT WORK!?

her mum said "will nothing kill that man off!?" XD

I got back and mum called in as she was 7 doors down so called in for a tea

then I had a bath and lunch and a sleep and saw Oz and painted my dressing table

then spent this evening working and finally got my last scientist finished!

Fritz Haber!

so hopefully tomorrow I can put the school display up!

Mum kindly made me some pancakes today, which are safe for me to eat! I ate some but gonna have the rest now at 10pm woo

she says she will make me some more, but at least I have something semi-nice to eat on my birthday

she said she found of from matt theres this massive allergy test you can have done to see what you can eat what you cant digest. its like £350 and in another town but shes gonna get more info on it and says i should do it if we can find out enough about it. cant imagine not having stomach issues.

tomorrow

is school -______- but last day this week!