Oha!
Today I had work again for training
given by the ever so amusing Alice-san
Daniel-kun decided to show up today
as a fellow generation mate I can have a good laugh with him
Ernia-san also showed up for training
I had news that Amanda-chan who is my gen mate has left :(
But today I had a good time at work
I found out I have another fellow 92' baby oh yeah! Nicola-san!
And Kristie-san is 91' baby so not far away from each other
infact shes only 4 months older than me
when you leave school its hard to find people your own age in the work place
so i feel really lucky at mad science ^^
I was laughing and joking, and before I realized it I have become so
relaxed around everyone at work even my seniors and managers
I was able to play around and joke with them on an honest level
i mean they were laughing also
i hope they are ok with the "real" me
i prefer it when I can be myself round others
its just a lot nicer
before I was so well behaved and didnt mess around ><
Got home and sat with mama and pets she rested so i did too ^^
I hope to do some sewing but I doubt I'll get any done to be honest
So I will do some dance practice I guess ><
Tomorrow I am teaching and I'm teaching a favorite lesson of mine
rocket making never gets old XD
my class will love it!
Friday I am super busy!
anyway thats all for now
here's the dance I was able to squeeze in today
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTUNScCoWqE
Evening
I will make this quick as I'm sweaty after dancing
and want a shower!
This morning I got up and felt much better my body felt lighter
I didn't have to worry about putting a brave face on for others today
i just didnt feel like i needed to
I held hazel and things before work
when I arrived for training it was me with Ernie-san. alice-san giving the training
and new kid David-kun who I found out is a 92' baby also :D
but I;m older muahahaha
i had a real good laugh at work
i felt mentally better and stronger today
i have no idea why
i was fine talking about popu and thing
my thumb felt better - not perfect - but better
(wont stop bleeding tho =.=)
So yesterday felt like it was a bad dream or something
How Have i got over this so quick?
maybe I cried it all out of my system yesterday? who knows
my face was raw yesterday
and my eyes killed
i got home and sat with hazel again
did some sewing of the coat
stitched my mum trousers up
mended my brother's jacket
arranged dates
i was busy
now just did dancing
which ive enjoyed but one song is giving me jip
it wont sink in!!!
but I should have a dance uploaded tomorrow
just havent had time lately
anyway thats all
i hope my good mental strength will be there tomorrow!
I've just had the worst day ever
my face is red raw from the tears and pain today
Popuri sadly left us last night
I have no idea what caused this
Like I said yesterday she had diarrhea
but in the evening I never even saw her pass anything
I mixed up some vegetables and gave that to her
with probiotic as well
but you could she wasn't right
I took her to bed with mum and we gave her more clean bedding to wrap up in
hazel had been next to her all day
in their cage and in the hall hazel was beside her
When I went to bed last night I woke up loads
each time thinking "hope shes ok"
this morning I woke up at 8am I saw mum coming up the stairs
I said "how is she?" mum just shook her head and when I saw her eyes
I could tell she had been crying
"She's gone Jo" I was in shock I didn't expect her to leave me that soon
I couldnt speak my heart felt like it wasnt beating
she took me into my brother's room where I found Hazel wrapped up on his bed
I gave her a big cuddle and sobbed. "I can't believe shes gone and Hazel will be by herself"
Mum filled me in on what my dad did this morning
we asked him to check if she was with us (I have a thing about finding my animals dead)
And she told me Hazel was beside Popu and even when dad was getting her out
Hazel almost followed her out - she doesnt do this
so hazel didnt want to let go of her ether
Dad buried her before I was even awake. I wouldn't have wanted to see her anyway
not the way I would have wanted to remember her
Now I have baby Hazel to look after
I feel I've got to spend even more time with her now so she doesn't get lonely
I feel so bad for her Hazel she had just started to relay on a friend
now shes gone leaving her alone again
I would adopt a pig in a heart beat if I knew they would get along together
I hate seeing them lonely
I have just facebooked Miho (their original owner) I am waiting for a reply
I hope she takes it ok
I havent even had them a year
I am going to remember Popuri for the little things she did that made me smile
all the nips she gave me all the squeaks she did
her little face when we bathed her
all the good points about her
right now that it killing me just to write
so I'm gonna leave it there and spend time with hazel and kip
I love you Popuri thanks for all the beautiful memories you gave me
rest in peace
I went to get Popu a tomb stone
arrived and got out the car and slammed the car door shut on my thumb
i was in unbearable pain crying and winching
I looked and my nail had turned completly blue and the palm of my thumb had also
it throbbed for ages
and all for nothing as the shop didnt have what i wanted
im in a lot of pain for nothing
i could have quite easily put myself in a coma today
i feel i need to escape this pain
dad got home, heated up a paper clip and pierced my nail to let the
pressured blood out my nail it doesnt throb like it did
but it still hurts and is bloody
tomorrow i have work
and the way im feeling its gonna be hard to put on a brave face
rest in peace popu
Hello all~
Today I woke up on time and got the pets in
altho is was quite mind this morning
so they weren't cold
but my Popu she wasnt talking and thats rare
so I put her down and she didnt do anything
and when I put her down she was floppy....
I put food down like every morning
and only Hazel was eating....
Popu I then picked up and held her to me
she stunk!
I looked under neath her and I could tell she had
got diarrhea - bad
So I told mama and things we just thought he stomach
didnt agree with yesterdays cabbage - a veg they dont normally have
I kinda thought she'd be fine later
but everytime I've got her out today she's been the same
she cant get comfy when she sits and holds her back paw to her stomach
really looks like she had bad tummy ache
she walks like shes holding her tummy in
i can see her first trip to the vets coming....
I started my friend's cosplay coat well started sewing anyway
made a good start and im happy with how its coming along
I also made a small basic fleece bag for my brother's new
crystal ball which he was pleased about
thats all ive done today is the coat really
tomorrow I plan to continue it
hope popu is better tomorrow i really do
gonna do some dancing now :)
Hellooooo~
Today was a nice relaxing day for Jozu
I woke up at 9am!! late!!
I was wanting to get up early so I could bring the pets
indoors to warm them up
but mama beat me too it
I slept so well!!!
So after warming the pets as usual
I started painting the walking stick
I'm not very far with it tho, then again no rush i guess
I wrote some more xmas cards
uploaded a new babyraids dance I recorded the other day
Then I started my friend's xmas cosplay coat
he wants One Piece's Law coat making
I have been putting it off as I know its not easy ><
But it's not gonna do it's self
So I made a good start and I can start sewing tomorrow
Today I cut out and things
Then I went for a walk I felt tired
so went out for fresh air
but my god was it numbing out there!
Still I enjoyed it and was playing the dances on my
ipod I want to learn for christmas :3
Came home did a bit more of the coat
whilst my family arranged the pet's cages into the shed
I had the duty of looking after the pets whilst they did this
which was fine - kip was up the shed "supervising"
now they're in there they will be warm and dry
I feel better when theyre out the cold bless them
so they will spend a few months up there
its a pain in a way but its for their benefit :)
here's a photo of the bears I made outfits for
for my brother's girlfriend's birthday present
Tomorrow I plan to start sewing the coat
dont have any other plans after that really XD
I might do some dancing tonight altho I'm tired
but I will never the less!!
anyway thats all for now~
Hiya all~
Today I had a blood test at 9:30am
I was dreading it I felt really anxious from the moment I woke up!
stupid isnt it
We left at 9:20 and arrived home at 10:30am
I kid you not I was an 1 hour having a blood test
lets say I didnt cope well
when I was 18 I had so many blood tests I was like a pin cushion
and eventually I got better with it all
but now its been a whole year since I've had a blood test
I went into the room heart racing my mama informed the nurse
that I dont cope well with blood tests
so she altered the seat I was in so I wasnt completely upright
I could other patient's blood samples which made me feel sick
the nurse then started unwrapping an adult needle which is massive!!
I panicked my mama telling me all the time "calm down relax"
it meant nothing to me in that room
I said to the nurse "I usually have a smaller needle than that"
so she got the child's one
then it all starts doesnt it
to which i could feel myself sweating, nauseous and then I went
just passed out I could start to hear them asking if I was there
and I couldn't speak to reply back
so I came round and the vampire I mean nurse had finished
I felt really awful then my eyes killed like someone was pushing them
into my skull never felt anything like it i dont suffer with eye pain haha
my head hurt and then I went again passed out all because I sat upright
so I came round again at this point I was handed water
I was starting to feel better now but then the nurse and my mama
was talking about what had just happened
like my face turning pale >> gray >>green
now how my face changed to those colours I do not know
my blood is red not gray or green....
just them talking about this and telling me what I was being tested for
made me go again yes again 3 TIMES!!!
I was getting very cross at myself now as I knew I was causing
problems for the nurse she was now behind schedule
and had patients waiting outside because of me
I couldnt say sorry enough times
but I had no control over what was happening to me - its just werid
she said I was really sweet and not a bother
she called another nurse through who then took my blood pressue
it read 80/50 which is very very low
so no wonder I kept passing out
so I sat a bit and drank water I just wanted to get the hell out of that place
then I said "i am feeling a bit better now" so mama and the nurse
walked me out to the waiting room where I was to sit and rest before
leaving for home also the nurse wanted to check my blood pressure
again before I left
she wanted it over 100
but when she did take it it was 92
but I told them not to worry as I have naturally low blood pressure anyway
and that I would relax at home
I was wet with sweat and felt drained
mama took me home
let me get this straight
I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS BAD BEFORE
I have passed out before yes but it would only be once
and normally during the procedure - mama said the nurse's
hand was shaking whilst she was drawing blood she could
see I wasnt right
I'm such a bother arent i
anyway I cheered up and recovered at home with popu hazel and kip at my side
I then rang up work to ask if I needed to come in or if it could wait
til Tuesday when I go in for training
and it could wait so I got to have all of friday with mama
been a long time since thats happened
so it was nice
we decided to go clothes shopping
I picked up a red jacket for £5, new pajamas, 2 t-shirts to give to my brother
we picked up other things as well of course
came home and had lunch together
we then went to granny's I put up her xmas decorations
as granny likes decorations and christmas
my household doesnt so our decorations has to wait
Granny had a mysterious parcel sent to her today
with my name on
all 3 us had no idea what it could be
and when I opened it cards fell out
addressed to us all
and there was a walking to stick to paint
my auntie lynn from the other week had sent us
christmas cards and the walking stick she was talking about
shes so lovely I have only met her twice!
so I'm gonna paint it at the weekend for granny to use :)
so I had a nice day
I am gonna do some dancing now
I uploaded a dance today
some people liked it some people didnt
to be expected
anyway sorry for the longness!
Konbanwa~
Today I had a relaxed kinda morning
well wasnt really relaxing but I enjoyed myself
I had the house to myself and free time before work so I
DANCED!!!!!!!!!
woo haha I got 2 dances done and recorded for tomorrow and Saturday :D
So that was a good feeling of achievement
then as I get too carried away with enjoyment I realized I had 20mins
to eat lunch and get out the house!!
So that was stressful ><
got to class rather early but I needed time to set up
and how many of my little scientists came through and said
"I MISSED YOU LAST WEEK"
I felt so grateful for them saying that
that they remember me and like me I guess
In a werid way it gave me another boost of confidence
so I gave them my best energy
and I felt on the same level as them
really enjoyed myself
before they left I was asked by work to hand to them
leaflets about the Birthday Parties we do
as I gave them out they started asking
"WOW BIRTHDAY PARTIES!"
"JO DO YOU DO BIRTHDAY PARTIES!?"
"JO WILL YOU BE THERE!?"
I felt so loved =^.^=
and even came away thinking
"I wouldnt mind being a primary school teacher"
so it was a nice day
and mama greeted me at the front door with lily and pinky when I came home XD
since then I have done some reading
and sat with the pets
the assisted mama with the dinner :)
Now I would like to start doing some dance practice
after all that loveliness I now have a horrible thing to say....
I HAVE A BLOOD TEST TOMORROW!!!!! D:
I hate HATE blood tests
my fear in life is those needles
werid tho I'm fine with injections I just
don't cope well when fluid leaves me haha
usually I pass out so mama comes with me
ugh just typing this has set my heart racing!!!!
stupid isnt it
anyway thats it for now~
few photos of the food I ate on holiday~
