Evening all~
I slept through the night even though it was one heck
of a stuffy hot night!
I think it's because I'm not taking my anto-depressiants anymore
well only a tiny dosage anyway
I swear they were giving me actual depression!
This morning mum woke me at 8:30am
I was in the swimming pool at 9:45am ><
It was quite quiet this week which was nice
what wasnt nice was getting out the pool, showering with my
face towards the shower, 2 old men walking behind me and I heard
"she's slim isn't she" there was no one else around so Im guessing it was
me who he was staring and commenting about
-________-
I got leered at by 2 old men
seriously ewwwww
but I managed my 22 lengths this week ^^
I got home and had my morning brew :D I had worked for it damn it
then I started sewing a poke'ball plush that im gonna give to tara
for xmas with pins in it and use it as a pin cushion
After lunch me and mum went to a clothes shop
I didnt need anything but picked up a tunic top in the sales for £4
I have noticed that pinafores are in fashion at the moment
i already had quite a few i think theyre cute and you can easily
dress them up or down
i didnt know they were in fashion
jozu is ahead of the fashion XD
Im never arsed what's in fashion, it changes so much, i just wear what i like
speaking of which
Ta-Da~~~
Basically my mum and dad have these really old photos in their bedroom
of me and my brother from when we were infants
so the photos are old, the frames are old and it all looks dated
mum likes the photos but would like them re-newing
so she brought a frame last week and me and my brother were tasked to
producing a new photo together
I kept mentioning it to him over the week but i sensed he wasnt keen to
do it i know he doesnt like his photo taken
but we had to do this for mum as she does so much for us
as the weather was good we decided to do it
so we went up to the woods - were me and mia usually walk
took a few photos using trees and fields as backgrounds
they came out well, then we went to a park with willow trees
i thought they would look good but the lighting wasnt in our favour
so we stuck with the first lot in the woods we took
my brother will edit the photo
im looking forward to seeing it
mum liked my outfit and hair style, she told me to look sweet
my brother was in his usual t-shirt and jeans :)
I came back I was sweating so was my brother
i dived in the shower to freshen up and cool off
that was at 5pm since then ive been in my pajamas ^^
I finished the pokeball and photographed it
i'll upload it soon
tomorrow i have a few jobs to do mainly getting through to the doctors
i tried to get through to them over the period of an hour
then they were off for lunch
ridiculous
good job im not dying!
Evening~
I slept~~ Ah it felt good to have slept ^^ I think I was so shattered
maybe as well it could be due to me weening myself off the awful meds
It has been hot today!
This morning I finished my Pusheen hoodie
looks cute~
I photographed it
Then the sailor top I did the other week I unpicked the red bit
so all thats left is that sailor collar then I added white ribbon
so its basically a white t-shirt with a strip of blue ribbon
looks much better i have to say, and i think i will wear it for school too
I made myself pasta for lunch today
I played on pokemon my charmander evolved
I havent heard from mia so i dont know how far she is
I had a look online for teaching assistant jobs
I applied for a few and within the hour of applying one rang me up
but it was agency work i hadnt realized i had applied for agency work
thats not what i want, i dont want to be going to school to school treated
as a supply and as an outcast i want to know the staff and children and work
as a team
so i spoke to mum about it all she said to finish college first
im getting ahead of myself she doesnt want me to over load myself and make myself
sick, she said no one is rushing me out the door to get a job
shes right, i just wish i was healthy so i could do things that are easy for 'normal' people
i will get there tho
I went for a short walk in the heat
as theres gonna be a tabletop/jumble sale on the park 2mins from me on 25th sept
its never happened before and its only £5 for a table
so I went down to see the poster and wrote the details down
i'll give em a call tomorrow i think im gonna do it
shift some crud
I took a photo of my shelves
they have improved and filled out since i first put them up
mainly filled up with new figures
but they look good and im proud of this little corner of my room
im thinking of making tara a poke'ball pin cushion for christmas as she's getting
into sewing now :3 or i may make a donut im not sure yet
tomorrow I have swimming
I may apply for a few more schools and not sure after that!
Evening all~
*sigh* I got 3 hours sleep last night
I was shattered and up at 7:45am
I went to the doctors and I finally got my medication switched
So I have got to ween myself off my current anti-depressiants
and start up my new ones, the doctor said I could feel like Im not
getting any treatment for a month but I said that it cant be any worse
than how im feeling currently
I went to the post office to post the ebay bits
I think i've made about £5/£6 not a lot but I guess its better than nothing
and shifted some crud
Came home and had my guineas out whilst having my morning brew
and I sat and read, reading the last book of this 5 book series
best end well >.>
Mum gave to me a grey hoodie she brought recently
I didnt turn it down, a hoodie is a hoodie and im always wearing em
seeing as it was grey i decided to alter it based on the cat Pusheen~
I have almost finished it, its kawaii for sure
Here is my Macaroon I made over the weekend
its on my bag I hope it stays on after the effort I went to!
when i started I made a mini one to test it out
i tried to do a whip cream style but it failed but i know now why it failed
but i didnt like it so on the final one i just did normal filling
After lunch I fell asleep my eyes were stinging and i was shattered
so after 1 hour I got up and went to a few shops with mum
mainly charity shops but didnt get anything
we went to a cafe
i had hot chocolate and we shared a cake :D
it was good and sweet~
got home and continued with my hoodie
gonna recap my dances and have a shower
and may do some drawing later
mum and dad will be watching new series of ripper street tonight
i for one can not stand that program
too what i call 'ye old english' i cant understand a bleeding word
theyre saying and its soooo violent
not what i wanna see before i go to bed
so i'll sit in my room with tiffin tonight
he will be out of his little routine doing that bless him
Konbanwa~
I slept!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my god I actually slept through the night!
And what a different 11 hours sleep makes
I felt so much better this morning when I finally awoke at 9:45am ^^;
I spent my morning finishing off my macaroon which is done now
i guess im pleased with my first attempt
Here is my neko dungaree/apron
i had the shorts and i basically added the front of the dungarees/apron
the back is just straps so its like a cross between dungarees and an apron
but huh? I love em~
and I used em for my dance today
Next I sat at my desk packaging the stuff I sold on ebay
i tried to make them flat and small = less to pay~
took me a while to do it tho
and already I have a bid on these dungarees I put on yesterday!
I never did wear them outside the house
just were never that comfortable to me
so id rather they went to a good home
mum and dad went out and brought back with them this
its a solar bunny!
its a garden thing but at the moment ive brought it into my room X3
mum said there was a beige, black, and grey to choose from
she chose grey cus its like tiffin X3 i have never seen a solar bunny
usually its birds and owls and random stuff so im happy with it
probably illuminate my room tonight!
I went for a walk for 45mins man i was sweating
but i needed to get out the house
felt good to be out in the sun and wind ^^
came home and showered
then read and then played pokemon~
and thats my day
gotta write some notes for the doctors tomorrow
my appointment is at 8:40am so thats me getting up early :/
i aint leaving til im happy with what help theyre gonna hopefully give me
mum insists on coming with
then when i get home id like to apply to local schools in the area to see
if they have any TA jobs
Good Evening~
I hardly slept at all last night
safe to say it was a long~ night for me -____-
So when I reluctantly got outta bed at 8:45am I looked
and felt like a corpse
This is certainly my anti-depressiants causing all this grief
Im so glad i'm off school and college at the moment as i dont know what
I would have done, I dont think I would have coped
anyway I spent my morning reading, and playing pokemon soulsilver
training my pokemon up before the 1st gym~
Mum made my lunch for me and afterwards I tried to fall asleep
and some how i managed to! I felt a bit better
so I got started making this macaroon thing i saw on youtube
i made a mini one first then a bigger one, taw the bigger one apart as i didnt
like it and rebuilt it differently
tomorrow i will decorate it~
I put a few more things on ebay
I managed to make £8 on ebay well less than that by time ive paid
postage and ebay but all well :) gets rid of some stuff
I went for a 20 mins walk to get some fresh air
did a bit of dancing to tsubaki factory
i have dances to record but never get the chance ><
tonight we had take away pizza
i dont usually take part but tonight i thought i would
i didnt eat it all much to my brother's delight as he always finishes mine off haha
here is the pikachu plush i made from a pair of socks!
i cant believe 2 socks make this!
amazing isnt it, this is for tara's xmas present
and my brother's friend has commissioned one
im thinking of making my family all a sock something for xmas
Konbanwa~
Last night I sat with 2 DS's whilst trading my pokemon
onto soul silver version then hatched them
So my party consists of so far
Eevee - soon to be vaporeon (male) I called him Yeo - was suppose to be Veo but i was tired
Charmander (male) I called him Chari
Houndour (girl)
Mia has
Eevee (girl)
Charmander (boy)
Miltank (girl)
Totodile (boy)
When we played crystal together as children she would always have a miltank
I used to hate it cus it would be so strong in battles
so I surprised her with it and she was soooo happy haha we said
'just like the old times' gotta stick to traditions XD
I havent been on pokemon since last night i will later tho~
This morning it poured it down!!!!
serious pour down
and me and mum decided to head off to the city center
I got a couple of things i needed from the Bead Shop
and I got 2 pairs of pants for £2 each they are such good quality and soft and fit my butt haha
mum got underwear, 6 t-shirts and I got a pair of pinky tights for £1
so it was worth going in even if we did get a bit damp ><
Came home at 12:30pm and had lunch
then I crawled into bed shattered after having nightmares last night
when I got up I finished my dungarees!! they look really simple and cute
Then I finished my home work which is a good feeling
took photos of things like pikachu, dungarees and a few things for ebay
tomorrow stuff comes off ebay and im gonna bang some other stuff on i think
might as well i guess
here's what i got from TK MAXX yesterday
pink top for £4
and these amazing wooly shorts for £7
Evening~
Upon going to bed last night i realized id had a missed call from lynn at 9:30pm
i thought 'odd she doesnt usually ring me this late'
so i sent her a txt saying "hope your ok and sorry i missed your call"
she rang me up there and then
den had had a heart attack and been rushed to hospital
they lost him for 30 seconds and they broke the back of a few ribs
from res-sussing him
i felt sick and upset at this i couldnt believe it
this isnt the first time he's 'died' ether and i worry how much fight he has left in him
i dont think i could bare to see lynn lose him they love each other immensely
so i told her to send my love and if there was anything i can do to let me know
Last night I had awful i had nightmares
but i think its my medication
ether way i was not looking forward to going back to sleep
today marks the day that we have had Pinky for 5 years!!!
5 years ago we brought her and lily from pets at home after losing
nutty my brother's guinea pig
there they were just paired in a cage together
two oddments leftover from 2 litters
and since then we have made many lovely memories
i hope she stays with us for as long as she can
shes a fighter and a squealer
today she had a bath a she quite dirty but she likes being dirty XD
mum made a cake and i decorated it as we both agreed it might be one
of her last milestones
not that she realizes any of this of course she just hated us for bathing her XD
This morning i did some sewing of my new dungarees/apron
its almost done, about another 30mins and it will be totally done :D
I went to TK MAXX with mum as she wanted some t-shirts
i picked up 3 bras that are really pretty and were only £5.99 each
mum always gets jealous as she always ends up paying £20 + for just one bra
i got a t-shirt for £4 and a lovely pair of wooly shorts for £7
i will be sure to photograph them
i came home and read and fell asleep
decorated the cake
had dinner
then went to mia's to play pokemon XD
that was fun
i spoke to lynn, today and she wants me to take her and todd
to her daughters tomorrow so her daughter can take care of todd for her
over the weekend whilst den is in hospital
god i hope he recovers
here's some snaps of pinky throughout the ages
