Yep I am

Good Evening all~~

I didn't sleep brilliantly and mum told me not to go
school when I got up as I was having doubts about my health
but I just knew it would be a very long day once again if I chose not to go
so in the end i got my butt in gear and went
knowing that i wouldnt be able to go yoga tonight
as it would be impossible with my current health to do both

At school we started with the computer guy who comes in
last week he came in and the internet was playing up so his lesson
was anything but smooth
this week we didnt use computers! instead he got them thinking about their digital footprint
safe to say it scared the hell out of them
i dont think any of them had even a moments thought about what they do online
is watched, monitored and saved 
so in that sense it freaked em out, even more so after watching a video about a guy
getting a job but his employers saw facebook pictures - well you know the stories
so yeah bit of different lesson but it was finished off nicely
he brought an ipad in and programed the controls to fly a mini drone!
he let a couple of the kids choose the 'commands' and they had to go stand
in the area they thought the drone would land
good fun the kids LOVED it big style

afterwards the year 6 had P.E. so I went into year 5 where they were having the exact
same computer lesson, freaked them out also.
but i think what i got out of that lesson was horror
how many kids sit and watch youtube for hours or play call of duty!!! its a 16!! theyre 9/10!!
its sickening and i feel like saying something to their parents
its wrong well i think its wrong
i wouldnt let my kids be playing them games or wasting hours watching crap online
they snapchat intergram all that rubbish too, i havent even been on a lot of social media websites and theyre there having bloody accounts!!

during lunch I sat with the dutch woman, the one in my year 6 class is called Ninka
I cant get the name of the other one ^^" but I will next week
we talked and i asked them how old they were
i was shocked to find out i was the oldest.....yeah...they look and act so much more mature than me...
i told the TA that and she just laughed XD i am a joke i know!
i was only older by 6 months with one and a year older than Ninka
im gonna miss them theyre good company
they look so smart but i was happy to hear Ninka's home style sounds just like mine
joggers and t-shirt!! she was like "I hate wearing smart clothes" - a shared spirit!! 

after lunch they did some work finding paper pairs which Ninka had hidden around
outside and so the kids were on a hunt really. But she hid them too damn well!! 1/4 hadnt been found!
I was laughing my head off
Then the last part was drawing portraits once again~

I got home and just relaxed as I was dead really
I've been getting a few bits ready for tomorrow
as I am going away
yep once again im on my travels -__- 

I will be picking up Ed at the local station not the city one ^^ at 12:00
from there we are heading 45mins away to a place called Worksop
its not a city center its a town, i went as a child but not been since
and it just seemed like an easy thing to do, as I can drive that distance easy
no trains for me!! We have booked a 4* hotel too! I was well happy and it didnt cost too much ether and it has a car park. It was the only hotel in the center of Worksop which makes it easy for food really rather than having to drive out to find somewhere.
I will be back on Sunday sometime, I'm hoping to be back earlier than later as I do
plan on going school Monday

Tiffin is gonna miss me I know he is
last weekend he really missed me
he was good boy but yeah when i got back he stuck to me
like glue for 2 days
on the sunday i get back - the 25th - it's Tiffin's 2nd Birthday!!

Right that's me off
again~
drone older than dutch

Am I going again?

Evening

What a truly wasted day I have had
and a long one at that~
I've done nothing
I was even gonna just draw but I talked myself out of that
I've felt off all day with awful stomach pains
my dad has had a stomach for a week and im wondering if i've caught it off him -____-

So yeah after sleeping for just 4 hours instead of
the previous day's of 13 i have been tired
so i slept, played pokemon, read my kindle, doodled, and walked for 15 mins
that was my day

currently im skyping Ed we are trying to book
something for this weekend
with any luck been at it hours -___-
but i guess i wasnt doing much else
i think we're going away anyway XD

tomorrow i plan to go to school
but if im like this i aint going no where

mate ne~
wish for a more productive day tomorrowz

13 hours

Hiya~~

I had 13 hours sleep last night!!!!
13!!!!!! I can't get over that
I woke up at 11:30am
jesus, thats like the morning gone just like that

I woke up feeling and looking like a corpse
safe to say its time to pay for my holiday time
so today i have done nothing but recover
literally just sat and read or played pokemon
that was my day
whilst my head was on full patrol with calorie counting

i sat with my pets
cus since i have come home
tiffin has not left my side
honestly its really cute but i feel guilty even tho
i know he is fine when i go away as mum does an excellent
job tending to his needs
he just needs me X3

I went to karens for reflex
that knackering and since then done nothing
probably done 100 steps today compared to about 15,000 per day
at the weekend

speaking of the weekend holiday i thought id show you my purchases:

I got a Pikachu necklace from Afflecxs £4

A watch from claires to tide me over for school was £15 I got it for £5

A t-shirt from Afflecxs again reduced from £16 to £5

A t-shirt from disney store reduced from £15 to £5

and some manga from forbidden planet 3 for 2

and finally 2 hair clips for 30p each from Afflecxs

I got some converse too for £14 but forgot to photograph them
so i didnt go mental with my purchases :)

Back from my celebrating X3

I'm Back~~~

So fat and struggling
going through a lot of self hate right now
its at its worst currently, always is when ive been away
but this time i have consumed a lot of sugar
sugar = fat
fat = weight
weight = self hate
not a great start from coming back from my travels i know
but its how it is

anyway my travels~~
mum and my brother dropped me and mia off at the train station
its about 100 mins travel
we talked the entire way XD
we followed mia's iphone to the hotel
which turned out was next door but one to a club called G-A-Y
facing it was a painting of batman kissing spiderman
and round the back was another club - painted on the door was 'take it up the rear'
so its safe to say we worked out we were in manchester's gay district XD
we laughed saying 'people will probably think were lesbians!'

the hotel was shocking
seriously
i cant get over how crap it was
the bed was half finished, it was stuffy as hell, it was a basement room with a tiny opaque window, the air con was tiny and incredibly loud, the kettle didnt work you had to hold the button down whilst it boiled for it to work, dusty, the plumbing my god the plumbing! every time you used the toilet, sink, shower did this horrendous noise happen - it would scare a young child for sure and we could hear it happening round the hotel too so it wasnt just our room. the door could support my entire weight and still wouldnt close so mia had to slam it damn hard, as did the rest of staying the basement. it was just grim really 2nd worst place ive ever stayed in
i wanted to complain but mia wouldnt let me!!

anyway we hit afflecxs palace and had fun a picked up some bits
had peanut butter ice cream which was sooooo sickly but good
and went round other shops

we went for lunch and both had tuna baguette which was the best
one i have ever eaten - no cheap but bloody brilliant 

that evening we  looked round for a place to eat
being friday night places were busy
we walked in one, it was soooo loud i couldnt hear mia so we walked out
cus i felt it would have been an effort so we walked to an american diner
which had the worlds slowest service we had meatballs on chips? weird combo but alright

we did plan to go for a quick drink but we both had belly ache
so we ended up at the hotel room playing pokemon and tired

in the morning we went in cruddy shower and tried our best
to get ready to the little light we had that time of day
very hard to do make up!
we walked to a cereal bar in afflecxs palace
both of us have always wanted to have ago
and it did not disappoint its called - black milk - i believe

basically they have every sugar cereal available
you choose from
a small bowl
a large glass bowl
a chocolate EDIBLE bowl
we both obviously wanted to eat our own bowls so
we had white choc bowl
you choose your milk, i had fudge mia had banana
then choose your cereal combo
and any sauces/trimmings
we both had reece and kelloggs clusters and other bits
mine 

mias 

it was very sickly
in fact i just wanted to throw it all up
too much that time of day

we hit the shops 
we bumped into someone wearing a giant pikachu outfit
so of course i asked for a photo!!

we went to a cafe for a drink and sat in weird furniture
well practically every cafe in manchester is quirky in someway

then mia took me to Krispy Kreme as ive never been before
my god
all they do is doughnuts and i was blown away
that way the best every doughnut i have ever eaten
so i was sure to bring one home for my brother and he was very grateful

later on the plan was to go for thai food then go for a drink
we had a 30 min wait for a seat at the thai place so we had a drink there
we got a table ordered and food arrived in 10 mins!!! hows that possible!?
really good tho i had yellow curry duck and veg with a side of coconut rice

mia had some beef noodles

but we were so tired
we had not stopped all day
so we ended up going back to the room
watching youtube on mias iphone and playing pokemon

this lead to today
the day we would have to leave manchester T^T
our train was at 2:47pm so we had time to kill
we busied ourselves round a cafe and a few shops and another cafe

mum and my brother picked us up
and thats it
i'll update tomorrow on my purchases

ed txt to say can we go away this friday 0.0

On wards to celebrate 20 years olf friendship!!

Evening all~~

Daijoubu desu~
I just couldn't be arsed to go on my laptop yesterday
I had about 30 mins to go on it and chose not to basically
there was nothing special about yesterday
just school and yoga and being knackered really XD

Today I havent done a lot
I've packed as far as I can for Manchester tomorrow~
I went round a few shops with mum - got a purple mascara :3
not as good as my pink mascara tho I have to say - which is a hit with the kids XD
I slept and ate biscuits
and mum dyed my hair
its now shiny, soft and full of life ^^ thank you mummy! X3 

So tomorrow my mum is kindly dropping us off at the station
were leaving at 9:10am to pick mia up
plenty of time but Id rather be early than stressing as mia is late for everything in life

I am looking forward to my little trip away with my best friend
but i cant help but feel a little bit anxious about it all
its strange but when im with ed i feel safe and looked after
but i dont with mia some how shes very much an air head so i have to 
watch out for myself and plan things 
which can be exhausting
im also anxious about food but that always makes me anxious when I go away
it will be good tho
ive charges up my phone, camera and 3DS - we plan to play on the train X3

I will be back at 5pm monday 
i hope we have decent weather today it has rained loads

anyway see you all soons~

 

Repotted

Good Evening~~

I managed to wake myself up on time this morning 8:15am
mum wanted to set off for swimming 9:20am
at first i thought "yeah swimming! lets do this!!"
as the morning went on my enthusiasm wavered 
I did 18 lengths, it was hard and i was forced to stop
as my head was banging and my stomach lurched and i thought 
i was gonna be sick, i think my breakfast hadnt gone down
so i got out before i made a scene of myself
but still 18 is good for me~
by was i knackered tho!!!

Came home and had a sweet cup of tea cus i needed it
then i collapsed reading on my bed
fell asleep as it goes ^^;
mum was like "what time do you call this?" when she walked into
my room at 1:30p woops ><
she said "are you that bad today"
me "yeah im shattered and aching but i'll come out"
so i grabbed some lunch then went pet shop, boots and TK MAXX
with her, i tried some different styled shoes on
and i just looked werid if you ask me haha so i didnt get em
but i did get a new pot for my plant for £4!!! comes with scissors too!!
I was amazed at it, sales are always worth checking ;)
there was some cute rabbits in the pet store ><
i just pray they go to bloody good homes

came home and went and did some homework
started drawing a picture
deleted it and started another one but not sure if i will finish it :/

I went outside with tiffin to re-pot my plant 
he obviously cant resist being nosy cus its tiffin
he managed to rob a leaf from my plant!!! so i picked off
the only dead one and gave it him and he was well happy XD nice
i enjoyed re-potting her cus shes been well over due now
and now she looks amazing ^^ 
gives a good feeling~

tomorrow its gonna be another hot day
so im prepared with loose clothing for school~
i havent been taking any photos lately
nothing to photograph
might photograph my plant now shes happy :3

Returned to college~~

Good Evening~

Today mum woke me at 7:30am
she came back at 7:40am realizing I hadnt got up XD
I just really couldnt wake up this morning but I got for college >.>

Upon going to college I saw a class mate - one I like to sit with
at the reception desk finding out where class is
whilst we were there the receptionist said our lanyards are 'out of date'
so we needed new ones, last time i had managed to get 2 different colours
orange and pink, unstitched them and resewed em so they were 2 colours
no one elses was like mine ^^
but this year they havent given us a choice of colour everyone's is
black -___- how soul destroyingly boring is that!?
i was disappointed but i thought "well only 3 months to go anyway"
what made it worse was that she took away my lanyard and student card!!! 0.0
usually in the past you get to keep them and i like to keep them
they have a photo on, theyre a memory
but.....she doesnt know that i have my second card and my second lanyard at home X3
so im keeping them :) i didnt bother having my photo updated i look the same from february haha

We got a few units ticked off which was good
and we worked in a group of 4 which was ok
the class chose to not have a break time!!! D: shock!!! so we worked through 
and finished early which was good as it was hot in that room!

I got back and had lunch and collapsed on my bed its really hot and humid today
said it was 31c but it wasnt that hot im pretty damn sure

i had doctors at 4pm
he gave me details how to refer myself for therapy and i have to go
back to see him in 2 months so yeah that was all fine
hes never arsed about me anyway

then i was sorting out pieces and my itunes
and then i went out for a walk with mia and toddie which was nice
we talked about manchester which is saturday!!!!
we both cant wait :D

tomorrow day off
going swimming in the morning
then shops with mum - we need pet food!