Konnichiwa~
I had school today
I didnt sleep well
life is an endurance run currently
I was able to give my new blusher a go this morning as it arrived yesterday
la femme
I have never used this brand before but im impressed
i was after a blusher SET not just 1 colour
so yay im pleased :)
and only £2.70~~~
School was nice to go back to
i was in year 3 and my god i lost count how many hugs and holding of hands
i had from the students X3
im there tomorrow too
we did english maths the usual
i did some lesson prep
the afternoon i had to call students out the classroom to read
it is called 'intervention' bit pressurizing but gotta be done
then i left at 3:30~
I rang the other agency to say im not gonna be a dinner lady tomorrow
and he was cool with it but i cant get out of going next week
damn life
for the last 3 or 4 days i have felt my depression slowly coming
im trying my best but i reckon im ready to have another crack and cry soon
prehaps the weekend? who knows
with not sleeping and being in constant bad pain does nothing to help my mood
anyway tomorrow is friday!
Evening~~
I didnt do my blog yesterday cus I ran out of time and then
when I got home it was too late and I couldnt be arsed!
So yesterday was all pretty mundane
went to the primary school to be a dinner lady
they had the school inspectors in. But I didnt notice them
But it was noted the dinner staff did well :)
So at least I didnt let the school down XD
I came home and went to bed
im not sleeping and im shattered and in pain
Then later on I got ready to go out
I would be meeting up with a friend from my secondary (high) school
Mum made fun a few times calling it a 'date'
upon the 5th time i bit her head off saying it wasnt funny
i was touchy XD
So anyway I haven't seen him since June 2008
We used to get on well.
He is name is Adam
And when we were at school he was tall
but standing next to his 6ft 5" self yesterday was not something i expected XD
I felt like such a shrimp!
We met at the pub in the bar area. He looked pretty much the same just
taller, bit fatter, and had a beard.
But he was his usual lovely self which I remembered him being like
He is a good person.
And the reason why we didn't keep in contact?
thats because 2008 Jozu-chan decided to ditch all her high school friends and ties
and start a fresh at college
why she did that I do not know ><
We chatted about what we both had done in the years apart
which colleges we attended and such.
He went to the same college as my brother - small world
but they would have been there at different times what with my brother being younger.
He told me his mum was a teaching assistant~ I like to hear of fellow teaching assistants~
I had a cup of tea and he drank non-alcoholic beer which said was gross
He is trying to keep his depression and anxiety at bay and says alcohol makes it worse
I got away with telling him about my multiple illnesses thank god
He told me that during his depression and anxiety - caused by graduating college (so leaving your friends and routine), being dumped by his girlfriend after a year of dating, not being able to find a job - that he ended up putting on a lot of weight
til he reached 24 stone....thats a heck of a lot even for someone 6ft 5"
so hes currently dieting still and has 2 more stone to go
i know he will do it considering how much hes already manage to lose.
at 9pm i decided to go as the pub quiz was starting and i couldnt hear a damn thing
when the microphone went on >< I didnt know there was a quiz!
I got home and sat with tiffin on my knee but i couldnt unwind
so last night i couldnt sleep i hardly slept
this morning i had bags upon bags under my eyes
i went to the shops with mum in the morning
then i went to school for the dinner lady job
it was dull but easy.
I got home and ate lunch alone as everyone was out ><
So I decided to do some more sewing of mum's birthday present
which i got finished today!!! I was well happy cus it took hours!
The agency phoned, im suppose to be going to my old primary school tomorrow for the morning then karen in the afternoon, so i wasnt doing the dinner lady job.
he rang to say the school want me all day instead of just the morning :D great news
but it meant i had to cancel karen T^T
then they said i was also wanted for all day friday
now i was down as doing dinner lady work on the friday but screw that im going to my old primary school damn it! its the actual work i want and it pays far better
so ive got to ring up the other agency tomorrow and tell em to stick it!
well my parents told me not to be quite that rude XD
yoga tomorrow as well!
so thats been my recent life
looking forward to tomorrow in year 3 all day :D
i like that class they have definitely grown on me
i mean theyre feral but i wouldnt have em any other way X3
here's a picture of adam i dug out of my photos back from 2007~
Konbanwa~~
I got up at 8:30am~
I did some of my cross stitch Im enjoying it even though its very slow X3
I did some dancing also, and managed to get a dance done for friday!
I went to the school for my dinner lady duty
slightly niffed as an agency had rang offering me TA work today -___-
but no im doing stupid mundane pointless dinner lady work for £10
I had no choice to suck it up and get on with it though
The lunch time was all fine even though it was indoor play
and none of the staff were arsy about me being inside instead of outside
not that we were outside today
never stopped raining today!
I came home had some soup and went to bed
just for an hour as i was just shattered for some reason
then i was with tiffin who hasnt been able to play outside today
i did some cross stitch with him
went for a walk with mum
and that was it really
oh yes and something else that niffed me off
i had a doctors appointment i made back december for 4:30pm today
at 5pm i realized I had missed the appointment.....i was well peed off
today hasnt been that good of a day really for me
and my laptop crashed which scared me
tomorrow dinner lady once again ><
here's this week's nails
im quite pleased with em~
Evening~
I slept pretty well last night
I was late in bed as I chose to wait for my parents to come
home from an evening round at a neighbours house
It was so nice having downstairs to myself
no TV blasting hurting my ears or people walking through or dad just being dad
just peace
tiffin sat on me knee really peacefully as there was no noise to disturb him
then i played on my DS most people would have watched TV
but I enjoyed the night without TV for a damn change :)
I got up at 9am ><
but who cares haha
I started my cross stitch! Tiffin was in my room as it was raining outside
he coughed/sneezed a few times :(
my cross stitch i was there a while and its so slow going but will look amazing when done
Then I got out mum's make-up bag to be out
and did some sewing
been at that for quite a lot of my day actually
then I went for a walk by myself with my ipod
looked at make-up online
arranged to meet a friend from school on tuesday!
not seen each other since 2008
he wanted to go out for dinner but that felt like a 'date' to me
i said just a drink
cus he may really annoy me be awkward and i dont wanna be there waiting for
food if all i wanna do is go home
besides i didnt want to go on a date not when i havent seen the person in so long
i want to see if theyre still the person i knew those years ago
im not nervous now but i probably will be come tuesday evening!
we decided to go to a local pub
im not drinking dont worry. its hot chocolate all the way X3
and not much else to say
tomorrow i got dinner lady and im guaranteed to be inside all week ^^
so thats alright
tonight i will paint nails!!
Here's a photo I somehow forgot to upload yesterday ><
10p deco pauge paper with 25p wooden charms
the owl and unicorn i will decorate for mia next christmas
and the star i will decorate for mum sometime :)
Evening~~~
Today I got up at 7:40am
I hadn't slept that well but I knew I was meeting lynn
so I got my act together
I set off about 8:35am
I got to the bus station and my bus was just pulling in :D
So I was able to meet lynn earlier than 9:30am as arranged
and a derby bus was there so we got to derby early too :)
The weather was a bit drizzly and really cold but didnt put us off
we had a hot chocolate then did some craft shopping ^^
I was able to pick up the bits i needed and more!
Everything I got today was ether cheap, on offer, or reduced
I dont think anything I got today was full price!
So i pick these things up whilst I see them as I know I will use them
and might as well get them whilst theyre cheap right
We had lunch i had soup and a roll which was good and filling
then we hit some charity shops
and any other shops we passed
finally we finished with a cup of tea and i had a piece of toffee cake *0* which was amazing!!
We didnt have to wait long for the bus back home
so we got back and went our separate ways
and just as i arrived to my bus stop the bus pulled up
i cant believe how lucky i was for buses today to say ive needed to take 4 buses
and mine to get into the city is a 25min wait!!!!!!! so miss it and its a bugger!
I got home fine
very tired and achy i have to say
saw my pets and showed mum what i brought :3
since then ive applied for a Teaching Assistant job at a primary school
sorted all the bits i brought today out
tomorrow im having a day of pleasing one's self
as i have many things i would like to do :)
ok i will show ya what I got from derby~
from a charity shop £2.49 and 'new without box'
a pair of hair waves! Ive wanted a go with some but theyre not cheap
and i thought for two quid its not the end of the world if i dont get on with them
ive since had ago and theyre awesome!! Mum likes them too :3
I love the design on them!
2 bags of fabric scraps for £1 each - i picked these two as i noticed
they had rabbit print fabric in them :D
a pillow case for cutting up 49p
fabric pieces £1 each - total bargin
Fur pieces £1.25 each another bargin its what i use to make guinea plushes from :3
then a load of fabric scraps ranging from 5p to 10p
I picked a lot of xmas fabric as its a good time of year to buy it in ready
some make-up sponges what i have wanted for ages simply to try a nail varnish technique with but i could only find them for as cheap as a £1
but I knew I could find them better than that
so here we are 25p!!! The socks, my fluffy socks have holes in so ive been hunting for a some and i found these 2 pairs for £2.50 and that is the cheapest ive seen em
now this was a bargin
a skirt from 'warehouse' but i brought it from charity shop
I paid £2.50 for it
when I got home I realized it still had it's original store tag on
it was only £40.....i loved the skirt but no way would i have ever paid £40 for it
so getting it at £2.50 was just amazing!
finally my last thing
now this is a bit different
its a cross stitch - i do enjoy cross stitch
and this just called to me i looked and looked at it
it was reduced from £26 to £13
I RARELY use a cross stitch design i HAVENT designed
I like making my own design
but this just called to me and i really liked it so decided to buy it!
im not even into bridal stuff
but i thought it was cute :3
gonna take ages!!!!
so thats my buys :D
Good Evening~
I slept pretty well last night
but I was exhausted
I got up at 8:30am
I went on my laptop for a bit
and I cant remember what else I did to pass the time
I rang the agency saying that I didnt want to be a dinner lady anymore
My body hurt to stand in the cold or stand for an hour full stop
after negotiating it was decided that I will only do 2 week instead of 4
i will always be inside too, so i dont get cold and hurt or the anxiety before
i go there wondering if i will be put outside.
so it seemed fair
what he did say tho was the school was very pleased with my work and liked me a lot ^^
so I was pleased about that at least~
School today i was stood on the spot for almost an hour
scraping food into a bucket -_____- very demeaning job
and quite depressing seeing so much food wasted
but still it was experience and all the woman are lovely to me ^^
i came home and mum had done me soup again
i wasnt too cold luckily :)
then i went to sleep for half hour
got up and went for a cold walk with mum ><
since then ive mainly been with pets
and sorting bits out
tiffin seems to be doing well :)
Tomorrow Ive gotta be up like 7:30am
as Im meeting lynn in the city center at 9:30am
as we are traveling to another city center - derby
i havent seen her since august! which is totally shocking
so i am looking forward to seeing her and going derby
as i havent been there in a while and i can only pick certain craft
items from their marker~
speaking of craft this is helina's apron i made for her
house warming present. i am yet to give it to her
i made the neck strap look like the cat tail
Hello one and all
I woke up in the night
i did not feel good
i felt drunk
i staggered to the toilet, heavy footed, leaning against walls
i couldnt walk straight
i felt off my head, the world spun but i hadnt been drinking or anything
not sure what it was all about really but i didnt feel much pain at all whilst being
in that state so it quite nice
i climbed back in bed and fell asleep instantly
strange~
Today my little prince seems to be doing well :3
Im keeping a close eye on him
he seems to like his usual self
the agency rang and hes got me more work at my old primary school once again X3
another one rang about some teaching assistant work but never got back to me
i dont want to do the dinner lady work anymore
so i will call tomorrow and tell them that i will quit due to it making my illnesses worse
cus of how cold i got yesterday today i hurt major time. my joints felt inflamed
and for £10 its not worth the pain
today at the school
they put me inside XD i had wrapped up MEGA warm
and it turns out it wasnt needed!
i was inside spreading cheese on crackers for the young children who couldnt do it
i was wiping tables and stacking chairs
its all very mundane and not very rewarding
i came home and mum had done me soup ready~
which was lovely of her
after lunch i wanted to go and get a pocket diary
simply to write down all my agency jobs cus im not gonna remember soon!
I got a diary for £1, it has peter rabbit on the front :3
I also managed to find some coloured pens i wanted for doing my japanese with ^^
came home and fell asleep exhausted
needed energy for tonights yoga
yoga we got to the room
this is the first yoga lesson for me and mum this year
and a different lady was there 0.0
she was covering for karen as karen had to whisk off to her child's school
but she was very good and did a very relaxing session~
now im just with prince
gonna sit with him and a hot chocolate ^^
tomorrow i am the school doing dinner lady work once again
here are my nails for this week~
