Evening~~
well I woke up this morning thinking
'what a cruddy week i have lined up, dinner lady job earning £40 for the week'
so I just went about my morning
did some cross stitch and stuff
then I had a phone call from the agency...
my old primary school wants me in for the WHOLE of this week!!!!!
How the hell did that happen!?
I was well happy as it meant I was doing something meaningful with my week
not only that but this will be the first week in my whole life
that i will earn over £150 in the week!!
Its not really that much but to me who had no income for 18months it is a lot
and means a lot
I had to ring the other agency and tell them to stick the dinner lady job
yeah they hated my guts but i said id rather actually go earn some money
and do the job i was trained to do
stuff em i dont care if i dont hear from em again!
so i had to go into school after my lunch
I was in year 4 which made a nice change as its a class im not that familiar with
but given the choice, i do prefer the older children anyway~
they read to the youngest class
then we were colouring in and gluing sticking cutting
it was good :D
tomorrow I am in year 4 in the morning and then i believe year 3 in the afternoon
but to be honest i dont care what class im in im just happy to be there you know?
i came home and went for a walk with mum
i needed the stretch
then i spent like well over an hour looking for ideas for mia's house warming present
and also some thing to do for my freakin' birthday!!!
i think i have some decisions now~
for mia - i will go to pot painting place and paint her a special plate commemorating her and rob moving into their first house. it will be a lot of effort but certainly unique and special.
my birthday i realized theres a vintage fair on!! so im thinking go to that and have a meal
sorted. or so i think!
here are my nails for the week~
Konbanwa~~
Today I woke up at 9:30am
I slept pretty well and dreamed i had visited japan X3
The morning I just did what I wanted really
I found that tiffin did not appreciate the lack of sawdust in his cage...
he had just destroyed the newspaper -______-
so I got some towels (old ones) and laid them over the news paper
and so far they have stayed where they are!!
In the after noon mia came over and i took us over to helina's house
which was really easy to find actually
her fiance was there tho :/ i was hoping it was just gonna be a girly thing
we talked and had brew and cake
she showed us round her house she wasnt
enthusiastic at all but i think thats just the way she is XD
alright house I guess. Its a new build and I dont particularly like new builds
theyre all very boxy and have no character or charm but i think shes happy with it
its clean and will do her
i think mia's house will be fantastic though but then she did have double helina's budget
I came back home with mia
she stayed for half hour or so and then rob picked her up
and then i had dinner
so i havent done a lot really today
I took photos of mum's bag I made
it was suppose to be a small make-up bag but ended up being the size of
a bloody lunch bag! its really big so i dont know what she will use it for -_____-
im sure she will like it
i included little guinea charms on the zip
tomorrow im a dinner lady ><
Konbanwa~~
I woke up at 9:50am....wow
I slept real late I must have needed it and I slept pretty well actually
But when I woke I had awful stomach ache I have no idea why
I had the pets to clean out this morning
mum had mentioned she thought tiifs had a wet nose...
so I went up and it was a bit wet but could that be from wet grass and plants?
but whilst I was cleaning them out he was having some really big sneezing fits
really bad and then i did realize his nose was running it wasnt water from outside
so I rang the vets, they were fully booked but managed to squeeze him in for me!
so 2:30pm he'd be there ><
In the morning I did some more of my cross stitch, went for a walk with mum,
started making mum a birthday card, wrapped mum's presents
her birthday is thursday :) Im all sorted as i eventually finished her card
drew a guinea pig!
I took tiffin to the vets again
it was a vet we havent met before but she was good and nice
she has given tiffin the same anti-biotic but higher dosage
she also told us to take away his sawdust...
tiffin was good boy ^^
upon leaving the store we bumped into the head teacher of my old primary school, 3 students from that primary school! so weird!!
Tomorrow I am seeing mia and helina
me and mia are seeing helina's new house for the first time
i will be sure to give her the house warming presents i made for her :)
tiffin will have to go to back to the vets in 10days time
i made this card for the vets to say thank you
Konbanwa~
Yoga last night was good but I felt really crippled afterwards
At night as usual I watched TV with my parents with Tiffin on my knee
my parents had some program on, i tend to sit and read my kindle more than watch the TV
a man on the TV said "my children are my assets"
to which my dad said "funny, ive never thought of you as an asset Jo"
I just pulled a face at hime
totally unnecessary I tell you
This morning I woke up to find this on the outside of my door
for those who cant read my dad's writting (he always writes in capitals)
it says 'ASSET'
hilarious >.>
Ive kept it there X3
Well dad never gives me anything!
I had school today and I was woken up 10 mins late!
but surprisingly I had lots of time!
how does that work!? some mornings time just flies and others you have time!
School was hard work but I got through it!
I sat and talked to Tom a lot
we decided to swap facebooks so we could keep in contact
I got home and had a brew
at 4:30pm I went for a walk with mia
and she delivered some impressive news to me
SHE'S BROUGHT HER FIRST HOUSE!!!
And while that still hasnt totally sunk in my head yet I was very pleased for her
but its kinda bitter sweet to me, as im happy for her truly i am and shes done
really well getting the place she has, its unbelievable actually
it just makes me look myself and where i am at in life you know?
no partner, low income, still living at home
yeah sucks at times
i sometimes wonder what will become of my life
So now I gotta make her a house warming pressie!!
shes requested a peg bag actually XD which i found a bit strange to be honest
but if thats what she would like then shall do it, i will also do her something extra~
I ordered the bloody oil cloth i need to make it with tonight
I HATE OIL CLOTH!
does NOT sew!!!
Tomorrow I have a day to please myself~
Konnichiwa~
I had school today
I didnt sleep well
life is an endurance run currently
I was able to give my new blusher a go this morning as it arrived yesterday
la femme
I have never used this brand before but im impressed
i was after a blusher SET not just 1 colour
so yay im pleased :)
and only £2.70~~~
School was nice to go back to
i was in year 3 and my god i lost count how many hugs and holding of hands
i had from the students X3
im there tomorrow too
we did english maths the usual
i did some lesson prep
the afternoon i had to call students out the classroom to read
it is called 'intervention' bit pressurizing but gotta be done
then i left at 3:30~
I rang the other agency to say im not gonna be a dinner lady tomorrow
and he was cool with it but i cant get out of going next week
damn life
for the last 3 or 4 days i have felt my depression slowly coming
im trying my best but i reckon im ready to have another crack and cry soon
prehaps the weekend? who knows
with not sleeping and being in constant bad pain does nothing to help my mood
anyway tomorrow is friday!
Evening~~
I didnt do my blog yesterday cus I ran out of time and then
when I got home it was too late and I couldnt be arsed!
So yesterday was all pretty mundane
went to the primary school to be a dinner lady
they had the school inspectors in. But I didnt notice them
But it was noted the dinner staff did well :)
So at least I didnt let the school down XD
I came home and went to bed
im not sleeping and im shattered and in pain
Then later on I got ready to go out
I would be meeting up with a friend from my secondary (high) school
Mum made fun a few times calling it a 'date'
upon the 5th time i bit her head off saying it wasnt funny
i was touchy XD
So anyway I haven't seen him since June 2008
We used to get on well.
He is name is Adam
And when we were at school he was tall
but standing next to his 6ft 5" self yesterday was not something i expected XD
I felt like such a shrimp!
We met at the pub in the bar area. He looked pretty much the same just
taller, bit fatter, and had a beard.
But he was his usual lovely self which I remembered him being like
He is a good person.
And the reason why we didn't keep in contact?
thats because 2008 Jozu-chan decided to ditch all her high school friends and ties
and start a fresh at college
why she did that I do not know ><
We chatted about what we both had done in the years apart
which colleges we attended and such.
He went to the same college as my brother - small world
but they would have been there at different times what with my brother being younger.
He told me his mum was a teaching assistant~ I like to hear of fellow teaching assistants~
I had a cup of tea and he drank non-alcoholic beer which said was gross
He is trying to keep his depression and anxiety at bay and says alcohol makes it worse
I got away with telling him about my multiple illnesses thank god
He told me that during his depression and anxiety - caused by graduating college (so leaving your friends and routine), being dumped by his girlfriend after a year of dating, not being able to find a job - that he ended up putting on a lot of weight
til he reached 24 stone....thats a heck of a lot even for someone 6ft 5"
so hes currently dieting still and has 2 more stone to go
i know he will do it considering how much hes already manage to lose.
at 9pm i decided to go as the pub quiz was starting and i couldnt hear a damn thing
when the microphone went on >< I didnt know there was a quiz!
I got home and sat with tiffin on my knee but i couldnt unwind
so last night i couldnt sleep i hardly slept
this morning i had bags upon bags under my eyes
i went to the shops with mum in the morning
then i went to school for the dinner lady job
it was dull but easy.
I got home and ate lunch alone as everyone was out ><
So I decided to do some more sewing of mum's birthday present
which i got finished today!!! I was well happy cus it took hours!
The agency phoned, im suppose to be going to my old primary school tomorrow for the morning then karen in the afternoon, so i wasnt doing the dinner lady job.
he rang to say the school want me all day instead of just the morning :D great news
but it meant i had to cancel karen T^T
then they said i was also wanted for all day friday
now i was down as doing dinner lady work on the friday but screw that im going to my old primary school damn it! its the actual work i want and it pays far better
so ive got to ring up the other agency tomorrow and tell em to stick it!
well my parents told me not to be quite that rude XD
yoga tomorrow as well!
so thats been my recent life
looking forward to tomorrow in year 3 all day :D
i like that class they have definitely grown on me
i mean theyre feral but i wouldnt have em any other way X3
here's a picture of adam i dug out of my photos back from 2007~
Konbanwa~~
I got up at 8:30am~
I did some of my cross stitch Im enjoying it even though its very slow X3
I did some dancing also, and managed to get a dance done for friday!
I went to the school for my dinner lady duty
slightly niffed as an agency had rang offering me TA work today -___-
but no im doing stupid mundane pointless dinner lady work for £10
I had no choice to suck it up and get on with it though
The lunch time was all fine even though it was indoor play
and none of the staff were arsy about me being inside instead of outside
not that we were outside today
never stopped raining today!
I came home had some soup and went to bed
just for an hour as i was just shattered for some reason
then i was with tiffin who hasnt been able to play outside today
i did some cross stitch with him
went for a walk with mum
and that was it really
oh yes and something else that niffed me off
i had a doctors appointment i made back december for 4:30pm today
at 5pm i realized I had missed the appointment.....i was well peed off
today hasnt been that good of a day really for me
and my laptop crashed which scared me
tomorrow dinner lady once again ><
here's this week's nails
im quite pleased with em~
