Evening~~
Been busy ><
Keep waking at 6am!!!!!! So annoying
I was a lil late leaving for school but still got there early ^^
I had another full on day
I had a group of 12 children to do hand writing with
Loads of jobs to do honestly the day goes so quick cus i just never stop
the last 90 mins of the day was bliss tho as I was in the art room by myself
creating these head bands for the 30 children
there was frogs, bats, parrots, snakes, spiders and elephants
I got 10 finished so all snakes and spiders are done
i had photos of last year's to go on but I added my own unique twist onto them
I think the teacher liked em ^^
came home and went to bed at 4pm
woke up and went for a walk with mia
it was good to see her top brace off and next week she is having the bottom one off
we went to vote together too
not that i knew what we were voting for
dont pay attention to politics at all
even if someone talks to me about them i turn off and glaze over XD
Tomorrow I am at school once again
same class and everything
hopefully i'll have more time to just sit in the art room and do more headbands
maybe maybe
it was really warm today says me who went in school with a jumper and vest
i got home and got in cooler clothes
then going for a walk with mia it got very cold and so did i
so yesterday i dressed for summer and it was freezing
im sick of getting it wrong!!!!
but tomorrow mum is picking me up for lunch so if i need to change for the afternoon i can
Here is a skirt I got in the post~ £8.50
It's got sailor moon pattern printed on and a bow on the back
kawaii ne~
Good Evening all~~
Once again I awoke at 6am
I got ready for school same old really
The class was really quite hectic today
a girl was sick 3 times in 1 minute at 10:30am
so we had that clear up
I had to assist in changing a boy's nappy (don't ask)
Someone crapped themselves at 3pm
it was just a really icky day! But its what you get for working in the youngest class I guess!
I was asked to come for the remainder of the week
as the TA im covering is really quite poorly
so I have to push myself for thursday and friday!
I was also asked if I would like to attend a residential a trip with the year 2 class
i'll be working with as of next week
it would be 1 night stay in derbyshire
im all up for it! but mum has asked me to find out more information about
it before I confirm my attendance but I would to go!
I got home exhausted and sat round with Oz
watched him sleep and twitch
I caught up with some crud online really
theres a school id like to apply for so i asked for an application form
and I got a sailor costume I ordered in the post today only £9! and I LOVE it!!
Here is the t-shirt new I won for £3.70 kawaii ne~
Not seeing adam til saturday now so its gonna be almost a week since
ive seen the guy. But today marks 1 month!! woo! gone so quick!
Mia rang me this evening to tell me tomorrow
she's having her brace off!! She was really happy and it was good for her to get
some positive news for a change
she told me about misty as well :( awful
Tomorrow Im back at school
working in the same class but different teacher and one i really like ^^
not going yoga tomorrow im seeing mia for a walk instead
so i will come home from school, sleep then see mia
Good Evening~~~
It's actually 5pm
which is earlier than I usually blog but I thought I might as well do it
Ive been awake since 6pm woohoo
I got all ready for school this morning
I booted Oz outside in the hopes he'd actually stay outside
he loves the indoors more than the great outdoors thats for sure
School was very hectic
I was in the youngest class and I was warmly greeted by them
and other students from other classes! I love my old primary school ^^
I did so much today I worked in my breaks and my lunch too
I was exhausted!!
And I found out they want me back tomorrow also as the TA im covering has
flu so shes still poorly.
So I have work again~~~~
I got home and collapsed on sofa
now im just in my room with Oz really not doing a lot
Im tired actually
Mia sent me a sad txt today
She has 2 dogs and 1 died today
Misty
Misty was her aunty's dog who mistreated and Mia's dad took it away from her
and brought Misty home were they basically brought her back to life
this was a good 10 years ago
and since she's just had the best of lives
she was glued to mia's mum's leg constantly and she had a very protective and hard nature
i know she will be sadly missed
Evening all~~~
I slept not too bad
but my throat still feels a bit sore
I spent my morning absolutely shattered
just felt so worn out and I have clue as to why
but thats part of my condition
i get good days and bad days
So I did a bit of sewing to a skirt I brought off ebay for £4.99
it was too short so I was altering it but it's been more time consuming
than I first thought it would be and Im not even sure now that I am happy with it
it puffs out too much for my liking but that could be me being fussy
so I will try it on and see what mum says she usually has a good opinion
I went to bed around midday cus i was zombiefied and not functioning
when I got up I was still sewing whilst watching vampire diaries
I went for a very short walk with mum
I made pasta dinner for me and mum she appreciated it ^^
She got a txt message from the head mistress at my primary school
asking if i could return tomorrow for I think for now just the day
but who knows
so im going back tomorrow to school in stead of the 10th!
Im looking forward to it
I found out Mia's nephew has got a place there and will start in september!!!
I kept meaning to upload these photos from when I finished before easter holidays
I worked with a child every morning
and her parents brought me a card and flowers!!! I also got a hand made card from the students of the class i worked in and they all signed it!! It was so lovely and I kept the cards the staff in the classroom also gave me a card ^^
So thats what Im doing tomorrow
Id like to ring up for acupuncture also at some point
cus I need to go but I do wonder if I need to go speak to someone about my mental
health that i feel is crumbling
but mum says to try acupuncture first cus that can be good for mental health
it could be a while tho til i get in and get seen to /:
Evening~
I didn't sleep too badly last night
in fact I didnt read before bed I just collapsed and fell asleep
but upon waking I found my throat felt sore
and I felt a bit off
I spent my morning making hair bows
sewing dad's jacket, sewing a pillow up
and watching vampire diaries
I got ready to go over to adams house
I got Oz ready also as he was going over~
I ended up having a shower as I spent an hour sweating
honestly i was wet through! and it wasnt hot today
I must have a fever or something cus usually im as cold as corpse
I drove mega slow to adam's like an old lady XD
Oz was a lil stressed but I soon arrived and fussed him
Adams mum made a real fuss of him
he sat on her for ages!! and licked her several times and her glasses!!
total suck up
he went on the sofa for a bit then on the floor but froze up on the floor
he'd been over an hour and i think he'd had enough
mentally
also he hadnt been toilet in over an hour and i didnt want an accident to happen!!
so I brought him home with adam
We played pokemon
but I was hot so we went outside and sat
then got the PS1 out to which we played crash team racing
and I beat him he was good competition but I won!
then we got ready to go pub
I didnt want to but i know he did so i went
knowing full well anywhere was gonna be busy
we walked to a local pub and yup it was busy
and hot very hot
i was sweating
we had dinner adam paid and i had leg of lamb
he had similar and a pudding no way could i eat anything else
then we walked home and i drove him home
tomorrow i plan to sew~
here's Oz's blanket which I took over to adam's house
his parents loved it and my mum likes it too
front and back~
Evening all~~
I woke up at 7am ><
I wanted to wake up later than that
but I got up at 8am
I sat with all the pets as mum went to do her park run
and I got dressed for the convention!
I was able to take my time as I was home alone
and no distractions~
So here I am wearing my Haruhi Suzumiya cosplay~
I added gems to my eyes
I set off for the city centre
I got into the que which was a little long and in the shade
I was FROZEN absolutely frozen
I had wrapped up sorta warm
Helina turned up with her fiance in tow who brought two friends
They went to the back whilst Helina lined up with me
we were waitng about 10 or so minutes
when we got in it was a little warmer
lots of people had dressed up
helina didn't as she didn't realize that a costume she hadnt worn for a year
may be in dire need of an iron....seriously?
so she came in normal clothes /:
I looked round the stores, dodging the lines for the celebrity guests
cus lets face it - who's bothered?
I picked up a few bits and pieces
I picked up Adam a mewtwo rubber key chain as it's his favourite pokemon for £2
I got a lil charmander key chain for £2 but when I got home and looked at him he seems to have ears...charmander doesnt have ears. so if you can identify this pokemon please tell me! XD
I also got a pikachu key chain that speaks and from 1999 I already have an identical one but mine is too precious whereas this one has found it's place on my bag :) it was only £2!!!! even tho its vintage. I also picked up 2 badges for my collection for £2 - i always pick up a new badge~
Then I found a store selling acrylic goods they were amazing but acrylic stuff is always pricey
but i fell in love with this necklace it has bunnies on it!!
and it wasnt too badly priced £5 and then from a lolita kinda table i picked up a necklace for £3
just as I was leaving I passed the artist section - a section im never fussed about
but this lady had such cute pictures of hamsters and rabbits
i thought "aw be cute if she had guinea pigs" she did!! she had 1 picture of a guinea pig
it was £2 and had to be brought!
I left helina and went to catch the bus
I decided to call in at adam's house instead of going home and going to bed
he was pulling a face at the window when i pulled up
and when i got out the car his face was priceless when he saw me in cosplay XD
I got a txt from mum cus i told her i'd gone to adams
"make sure you eat summert (something to you and me)"
i told adam and he made me a sandwich ^^
I gave him his mewtwo keychain and he put it straight on his house keys ^^
then I gave him the darts i brought yesterday
he was pleased with them and I think they got more attention than i did! XD
we played darts
and he talked to me about a few things cus hes decided to compete for the city's athletics team
despite him supposed to be having a year out this year
but hes doing it
i said id support him what ever he did and he didnt need to stress if he was too busy training to see me cus i dont want to stop him living his life as i wouldnt want him taking over my life
I left him and went to the pharmacy to pick up my new cream
there was an old lady waiting in there
saw me dressed as haruhi and said "are you in a uniform?"
so i quickly filled her in XD
I got home and mum had made a cake and left me a message
saying she'd love it if id decorate it X3
when she came home I gave her the guinea pig picture and she loved it
says shes going to frame it :3
since then ive put my stuff away, danced, seen pets
watched vampire diaries
tomorrow seeing adam
but have no clue what we're gonna do yet!
Evening
I didn't sleep well at all last night
I had my usual nightmare which was just off the scales
thats the worst it's been in a very long time
I still can't get over what happened actually it's just not possible for me to have
these thoughts and dreams its almost like having another entity inside me
it scared me actually scratch that
i woke up sweating but not only that i was shaking in fear
i was terrified
so safe to say it took quite a while to get off to sleep
I was tired come the morning
I had doctors at 8:50am
only just got there on time!
but he saw me and prescribed me yet another steroid cream for my dry skin
I havent been to collect it tho yet
hopefully it works cus i've had enough of it I truly have
Came home and took my Oz to the vets
god talk about stressful
they were running 30min late....
I didnt complain cus it turns out they were putting down a very sick cat
but honestly it was like 'bring your barking dog to the vet day'
just 4 dogs all giving it some plus one in the back you could hear
poor Oz was stressed beyond belief
then when he did get examined he was terrified and kept coming to me
she said he weighed 1.5kg so he weighs less than tiffin but at times looks
almost as big as my old prince
he had his injection and said he could be neutered in about a month
the vet recommended that Oz was to be paired up with a female once he was neutered
well that aint happening!
came home to let Oz home and chill out
then me and mum eventually set off for some shops on the other side of town
it's a trek but it was well worth going actually
I got a fair few things and when I got home turns out I had a delivery of clothes
so safe to say I have enough now! but here's what I brought today
2 shirts from next for £4 each!!!! suppose to be £28!
A plain top from next for £3
a shirt from matalan for £6
and a set of pajamas from matalan for £8
then I brought these for Adam as a surprise they were reduced to £3.49!
he brought me a pokemon poster which I love and I wanted to get him something I told him I was gonna pick him up something at the convention but I doubt that will happen and he has a dart board on his bedroom wall and I wanna play damn it! but he says he's lost his darts
so here I am buying him some~ I hope he likes em~
I also picked up a new ironing board for my craft :D
we came home at 2pm
i was starving for lunch!
so i ate then went to bed I was just physically and mentally exhausted
I got up and Ironed my Haruhi Suzumiya cosplay as I will be cosplaying as her
tomorrow morning!
Im meeting helina at 11 at the doors she has my ticket
then its up to her whether she walks round with me or not
its never very good but something to do
then depending on the time I will ether go straight home or call
in at adam's house. i can tell he feels a lil strange about me being dressed in cosplay
its really not his thing and i dont think he has a clue what im actually wearing
so i have such a temptation to call in and see his face XD
hope i sleep tonight
all of today I have thought about how I am going to get help
im not sure what to do or who to turn to
i feel maybe i am gonna lose it one day and become someone i dont want to be
and see people ether afraid of me or hate me
i can feel it bubbling beneath my skin
why cant i be normal?
i know people say "who is normal?" but this isn't normal
Mum's friend works with those who suffer big time with mental health
im wondering if she could put me through to anyone /:
grasping at straws here
anyway convention tomorrow~
