My first pub quiz

Evening~

I know I didn't do my diary yesterday
man yesterday was hectic!

I had school first thing in  the morning
and what was suppose to be a 25min drive was a 45min drive
I was passed round different classes and really had to think on my feet
if it was my first day as a teaching assistant i would have crapped myself
i had to teach children as in a class of children by myself
i had been given lesson plans i was expected to just do 
talk about winging it
i was quite stressed and couldnt want to leave
the kids were brats and feral

I got home and had some lunch and went to bed for 2 hours
mum woke me up and as she did adam came to the front door
so i had no choice but to get up
I was quite achy to say the least but I believe it was the stress of the school
that had made my pain worse than usual
so i didnt do much with adam really
i got ready to go to the pub quiz

It turned out the pub was one id been to years ago with a college friend
so that was a lil weird
we ordered food and it was so damn cheap too! adam paid for me ^^
after we'd eaten we moved tables to go for the quiz
there 3 rounds the first being general knowledge, second music, then third just random
i sucked big time but i knew i would
i did get 3 questions right tho the first question i got right was
what was abolished from france in 1981?
and before the quiz master said the options i had said to my friends "the guillotine"
and that was the first option, my friends all turned to me gob smacked
i laughed as i said "the first answer i get right and its to do with death" XD
i got right the question
.....played John Smith in which animated film? I said Pocahontas
then there was a picture and the question was 
"who is this band from years ago" i recognised them as Coldplay 
mum loves Coldplay 
and that was all i knew out of like 100 questions
i knew nothing on the music round
it was fun tho but I was aching from sitting there so long
every break i could get i was up and about
we didnt come last but we didnt come very high

we all enjoyed it and want to go again
so two weeks time were going to a themed one
round one is harry potter, round two is video games, and third round is general knowledge.
and you can dress up and win extra points
we left at 10:15pm
i was tired
i dropped adam off i chose not to stay over as i got the feeling he didnt want me to stop over

i got in at 11pm and i told my parents briefly about the night
they went to bed i was up til 1am by myself
went to bed to only lay there in pain til i got up at 2am and was up til 4am
i slept from 4am til 8:30am so i got 4 and half hours sleep
wonderful

Today I got up and motivated
i was going to the city centre with adam as he needed new clothes for work
and i needed treats for Oz off the market 
everything felt like a massive effort today i was so drained but i knew
that if i did nothing then i would simply sleep

we picked up a few bits and i got what i needed i guess
adam wanted to go get some clothes from this store he has frequented as an adult
its called 'big and tall' because hes so damn tall he struggled to fine his size in every day retail stores
the guy who owns the store knows adam from over the years
ive been in before but he made a fuss of me this time
discovering i was adams girlfriend 
he told adam "you have your hands full with her dont you"
sure do man i dont take no crap

we had lunch which i paid for and then we went home really
to my home and sat round but i was getting fed up of sitting
so i said we'd ether go for a walk or we'd go to his for an hour
we went to his and no one was home
we laid on his bed a bit then he turned to me and asked me if i wanted a bath
i think i died right there i was very grateful of a hot bath
and my god it was hot i came out pinkish with a strong pulse
but felt much better for it all
then i came home

tomorrow i think im going swimming with mummy
then seeing adam 

It's Mother's Day

Evening all

Man did I have a crappy night
I couldnt sleep so I got up and went back to bed at 1am
woke up at 2am got up for an hour then fell asleep around 3am
and woke up at 9am

I had a morning of pets and cleaning
everything has be straight for when mum comes home!
i did some dancing as well
then i went for a shower and got ready
i decided that because my skin had healed enough that i would
wear make-up today! i havent worn make up in 2 weeks! 
not even for work just cus my skin was so sore and raw
so i felt like a girly girl today
i wore a flowery top and a velvet skirt

I made a fuss of mum when she came home
she had had a good time and told me about it all as i ate my lunch
she sat with pinks as well
then she opened the stuff i gave her
the card i made her

and the Ipod pouch i made her (had to cut out all those 1" squares)

along with a face pack, candle, foot cream and hand cream
she was very pleased with it all ^^ made me happy
mum does so much for me and has been through a lot with me
i could not live without her i love her so much and very grateful for all she 
does for me and my family
a very selfless person indeed


I set off for adams house i told him to be ready as we were gonna go
to a few shops i just needed a few bits which i did manage to get!
then we went back to his i had a brew and did his mum's nails
we looked at holidays and places to go

he said to me cus it was mothers day that a lot of people from our year
had uploaded photos
it truly staggers me as to how many people from my school year
have got children and/or married
seriously its amazing and i know being 26 its not an uncommon age or anything
it just makes me wonder am i on the right path?
i still feel like im 18/20 years old
i could raise a child hell i even have trouble caring for myself
how is it other people my age have just gotten on with life so easily
and im so far behind
will i get there? will i want to get there?

I came home for dinner
i was glad to come home as i was quite cold and wanted a jumper
i was wearing adams fleece but it still didnt feel enough

tonight ive got to get a few things ready for school tomorrow morning
just there in the morning a school thats godly and 30+mins away
i went last year but cant remember it

tomorrow i am going school
then im going to bed as adam will be over just after 3pm
at 6pm we're meeting tara and james at a pub quiz finally
were all eating there together too
then might sleep over at adams house

A batty thing

Oha~~

I slept not too bad last night
I did drink that new sleep tea which tasted like how i imagine cat pee would~
rank truly rank
but maybe it helped? who knows but I will be putting it to the test again tonight
ugh not a pleasant thought

Last night I sat with Oz in the living room with tv off and I just sat reading whilst
he made himself at home on my knee
only when I felt him twitching did I realised that he had dropped off to sleep!
I have had bunnies go to sleep NEAR me but never ON me
it was so unbelievably sweet I didnt want to breathe in case I woke him!
bless him so sweet and trusting

I got up at 7:30am
I had stuff to do man~
I got pinks out and released oz into a very wet garden
I let pinks have her trot and put her home
I got maisy out and got my first licks from her!!! I couldnt believe it I got licks!!
maisy had her trot whilst I had a shower and got ready for hair cut
I put her away and went for my hair cut
feels good to be trimmed i must say

I got back home and i got millie & alice out
cleaned them out and sat with them and went up to adams house
we walked straight to the shop to get lunch
i came back and talked to him and his parents telling them all about going mcdonalds at 1am
they were surprised but they always all laugh when im telling them about my week
i like making others laugh

we had lunch then sat and talked about anything we want to do this week
we both put money in out 'holiday fund' pot reaching i believe £605
more than enough for a holiday i reckon 

i went home as i needed to do pets and he was going to work earlier 
i put my girls outside and Oz came to watch over them
i found it very hard to motivate myself my body to do anything
its like a lead weight, ive even had 3 brews today to try stay awake

in the end i decided to start working on the card im making for adam
not that im far with it i got distracted by music
im hoping i have enough strength to dance tonight
normally when i watch live videos or PVs i get pumped up to do something
idols motivate and inspire me

me and adam talked about the pub quiz on monday
and he feels he knows a few topics whereas i know nothing
literally i know nothing
i suck at maths and english
i dont do history
dont know any english music
dont do sport 
dont watch films or tv
so what do i know?
im gonna be next to useless at a pub quiz XD
i will just take a doodle book with me

I finished this the other day

a random bat i thought of
i liked it enough and gave it a background and now its the background for my ipod touch

tomorrow is mummy's day!
shes coming home thank god
my brother brought flowers today and ive arranged them for when she get back
ive got to have a tidy up of the house in the morning
see mummy and see adam at some point

Visit to Mcdonalds at 1am

Evening all~~

I went to bed at 9:45pm
and I did eventually drop off to sleep
I woke up at midnight tho
came downstairs and got some cereal and pain killers
no longer giving a crap about it all
10mins later i heard a car pull up and its my brother getting out of a taxi
he'd been drinking with his friends
and hadnt eaten since 3pm and had had quite a bit to drink
he was craving a mcdonalds to 'soak it up'
i told him id be up for another hour at least so if he wants to go
i will take him
thats what we did, 1am I was getting my coat on in my pajamas and got in
my car and took my brother to a deserted mcdonalds
like no one there at all
it felt quite strange almost like i was in a dream
in truth i was just grateful of the company as im finding the nights very difficult
my brother was very very grateful tho and ordered 3 burgers 
he ate them downstairs whilst i had made myself a hot chocolate
then i wondered off to bed to try it all again
i did sleep a bit from there but woke up at 5 i went to bed at like 2
i just dont sleep long enough
i was dead when i got up at 7am

mum and dad have gone to derbyshire
i left for school
which went just fine as soon as the 9 year old boy got into school
he was so hard work but he did calm down and work with me
i was grateful as i was shattered 
i finished at 12 without any issues 

i came home and put my girlies out
and made myself some lunch
i then washed my car as the snowy roads from last week had made my car look brown not red
i kept shifting thie guineas round so they all got a turn outside
i wrapped mum's presents up for mother's day on sunday
i went on my laptop for a lil bit and did some dancing then showered
made myself some dinner and then went to TK MAXX and B&M bargains
mum had informed me that B&M had got bunny bed sheets in and i knew they had to be brought
so i wen tot get some whilst they were still there, only £9.99! thats really good for bed sheets actually dont know what the quality is like but they look cute
i like easter time as the shops are filled with bunny styled things
i went into TK and i brought a A3 sketch book for £4.99 which was amazing value, sleep tea - a different brand to try which im gonna try tonight for £1.49, and then a canvas to paint for £3
so i didnt break the bank 
i needed A3 card anyway, and i knew if i brought just one sheet i was looking at at least £1 so ive got 32 pages for £4.99 the sketch pad will get used eventually. but i dont work with A3 as much as i used to i just want to start making the anniversary card for adam :D 

I got home and unpacked and got into pajamas
gonna sit with my lad now

tomorrow I have got hair cut at 9:30am
so ive gotta get up and get pinks out, shower, put pinks home and go for my hair cut. come home get millie & alice out then clean their cage, sit with them, get maisy out and let her have a trot then sit with her. then im going to adams for lunch, coming home and starting sow shifts once again
im not having as long as i usually do at adams cus ive got pigs to sort 

i ache a lot
and im restless like i have been the past few days 
ive been pushing myself so much to try and tire my mind and body out that i sometimes feel a bit light headed, fainty but gotta keep going 

i got these in the post...

what are they?...

cute cute cute ear muffs!! with cat ears!!!

i had no idea they folded up and i was well happy that they did!!! i love em!!! £2.40 bargain!

2nd Bowen Massage

Evening~

I had another bad night
literally pain sank in at 9:50pm
I had ages to wait til I could go downstairs!
It was torture laying there waiting til everyone had gone to bed at 11:15pm
hate my life
I felt like crying I just couldnt get relief
I was on my bedroom floor stretching out as I was just in agony
my skin is healing tho! Im making a real effort not to scratch myself
I scratch out of habit as I do it to focus on that new pain instead of my daily
agony pain. I would never go as far as self harm
i mean yes sometimes i do scratch til i draw blood but its never much
not compared to cutting myself
i tend to freak when i bleed. when others bleed im fine but not when i bleed
which means im guaranteed to not self harm
i have thought about it one or two times but yeah then i remember blood
and i forget it XD 
i did get to sleep at 1ish and got up at 8:30am

I had an easy morning i didnt do a great deal
I did get this in the post, its new from ebay for £7 complete bargain 
i mean its a few sizes too big but sometimes i want big baggy and loose

cute huh and has cat ears, neko mimi! 

I got ready to go to Nigels
i was fine about going
he gave me my second treatment of bowen massage
hurt more this time round as hes on his second practice XD
so he can get his thumb and finger in deeper jesus it hurt in my neck
not much meat on a neck well not on mine anyway
he said the pain shouldnt be as bad as it was after my first session
and it turns out it isnt

afterwards i went home and had lunch with mum
then we went to a few shops just to pick up odds and sods really
we called into a pub for a hot chocolate which was nice
then we came home 
i went and worked on her mother's day gift and i got all the machine
sewing i needed to get done
just got the hand sewing to do and its done!

we went to yoga
and we were separate from one another i was at the front next to karen
ugh i was not looking forward to it as she seemed too pleased to have me that close
but it turns out when im not next to mum im more focused and i did really well actually
it was slower this week but still i did do really well and im pleased with that
i said to mum i might go at the front by myself next week and see what happens
i liked that focus
and the yoga has helped eased the pain caused from nigel's massage

ive been called up by the agency with work
had so much work as of late which im totally grateful for
its just bloody hard with pain and not sleeping

tomorrow mummy and daddy go away T^T
i will miss them well i will miss mum anyway
they come back sunday
just going derbyshire 
so i have work in the morning til lunchtime so i wont get to see mummy much
before she sets off but i will be fine
so just work tomorrow then anything else i wanna do 

My picky bunny

Good Evening~

I slept pretty well
I still woke up and stuff but I wasnt getting up or laying in pain
maybe the bath helped or taking these new calms tablets mum brought
who knows but im taking the tablets again tonight
I got up for school at 7am and had plenty of time to get ready
i didnt bother with mum make up as my face is still recovering
it looks a state makes me feel like crap

school was good
local school - adams old primary school
staff we lovely and the kids were pretty good
i had to do a lot so i was exhausted
but the teacher walked me to reception at the end of my shift and
told the receptionist to keep my details as theyd like me back ^^
makes me feel like I can do my job ^^

I went and met adam for lunch at the pub that practically faces the school
i had some vegetable thing wasnt that great or filling
i paid for lunch seeing as ive been paid and i ow adam like a million times

we came to my house to which mum said that Oz hasnt eaten
i informed her that last night i gave him new rabbit food - a new brand
he likes every other food i give him even the guinea food
but he doesnt seem to want this
and mum said he was desperate, even more so, for treats this morning
and savaged her plants as he was hungry from not eating from last night
so i said to adam we'd go get him some food i know he likes
it was a trip to pets at home and i stocked up on bags seeing as i had muscles with me
we went for a quick walk by the river
then came home and i grabbed Oz and locked him up with his new food
so he would actually eat something, not good for bunnies to stop eating
thank god he'd been eating little bits here and there of other stuff

so yes my fussy little bunny
didnt want his new food!
im gonna pass it on to tara i know her bunnies will eat it no doubt 
never known Oz to be picky
i fell asleep on my carpet last night and he jumped on my leg and woke me >< 

after the walk we sat down with my girls as alice has a real thing for adam XD
then we took Oz upstairs as i was falling asleep and i felt grubby from sweating
all day and being in a primary school
but i felt bad for adam having to wait but he insisted i had a shower
so i did and it did wake me up for a lil while
then i was nodding off on the sofa to the point where i did nod off for 10 mins mum and adam said to me, i must have left my DS on as when i came to later i hadnt a clue what had happened as id missed the cut scene -_____-
i was so tired so i took adam home at 5pm
i feel bad for him when im like when im not normal
but he assures me he understands, hes used to and he loves me and not to worry :) 
he puts up with a lot 

since then i havent done a lot really as i am worn out
i have nigel tomorrow for more Bowen Massage
see how i cope this time as last time i was in agony 
and i have yoga as last week was cancelled due to snow
suppose to be having more snow
but i will believe it when i see it kinda thing

Random Bat

Konbanwa~~

Last night I did nod off and woke up at 12:30
then fell asleep and woke up at 2:30am and i had to get up
I ached far too much to drift back off to sleep
I came back to bed at 4am
I had been playing Okamiden for a whole hour X3
I woke up at 7:30am tired as usual

I mainly did sewing in the morning as I gotta get it done
I put anime on whilst I was sewing away
I txted adam to see what we were doing today
he just wanted to have a brew and walk to the shops
i didnt mind as it saved me thinking of what to do

I picked his butt up from the gym and we went to his house
for a brew and he went to shower
he offered for me to have a bath and i took him up on it as no one was home anyway
it was a real luxury honestly
i miss hot baths on my muscles 

we walked up to the shops and i had pineapple juice in a cafe and he had some chips
we walked round charity shops and i picked up 2 pairs of tights nothing special 
we walked back to his house and had a play fight or two on his bed
i couldnt stop sweating and having goosebumps its not nice 

ive had bits of paper work to file and sort out which has been dull
but its almost done 

ive got work tomorrow morning at adams old primary school
then ive got work on friday morning which i should have had last friday
but it was cancelled due to snow
its nice to just work mornings ^^ 

so tomorrow its work
then seeing as the gym adam will be at is a 1 minute walk from there
we said we'd meet up and have lunch
then not sure after that

Ive been drawing this week
and i made this little critter up at 11pm
drew him in pencil then been drawing him up digitally