Evening~~
I was up til 1am just aching and wanting to die
had enough
i read manga tho
I want to get through my series of Nura rise of the yokai
I havent read it all the way through
I woke up at 6am and drifted back to sleep til 8am
my sleep way disrupted through the night as i was bloody freezing
This morning I found it hard to motivate myself
I went to go see Oz to say "we've been together a whole year!"
but sadly he wanted nothing to do with me -___-
all day ive tried to see him and all day hes blanked me...
getting blanked by my rabbit on a special day sucks
he's with me now tho hes by my feet XD
I wasn't able to take a photo of the pair of us cus i couldnt even stroke him
let alone pick him up!!
I will get him tomorrow i hope!
anyway here is photos of my lovely little boy throughout this last year with him
He is very dear to me and to me and my family we feel we've had him much
longer than just a year
he has settled in so well, quickly and perfectly
its been such a pleasure to have him in my life
i would say his only "bad" quality to him is that he is very very untidy!
but thats nothing compared to his many good qualities
hes loving, he loves the pigs, gentle, has no aggression, playful, likes treats, not fussy with food
hes so lovely and i am very lucky to have him
i hope we have many more years together!
I didnt do much all sodding day
ive been in a bit of a daze really
I was suppose to see adam today as i do every single saturday
he didnt text me last night
and i just felt a bit unwanted, which is rather needy of me i will admit
today i txt him saying i wasnt coming over and he was like "oh ok then"
dont think he was expecting me not to come over
although he had not invited me as of that point
mum found me reading a manga book on my bed
and asked when i was seeing adam i told her i wasnt
she was very surprised and instantly asked what was up
i told her i just felt like i was in my own world and could be doing with seeing everyone
she said it was fair enough but i could instantly see the worry in her eyes
she was worrying about my mental deposition
i told her i was fine and that me and adam hadnt fallen out or anything
adam rang me up but he wasnt that talkative
it took a while for me to get the conversation to flow
just whats up with him? im finding it all very confusing
and when i next see him am i to go back into how everything was
we have had 6 whole days apart which isnt a lot but it feels like 2 weeks
and in that time ive done a lot of thinking prehaps too much thinking
and i dont know where his head is in with all this
i feel i have questions to ask but like i say i could be looking too much into this
he could be totally fine and just been resting what with feeling poorly
it just doesnt feel like hes wanted me much this week and thats strange for him
but it could just be because he was sick. who knows but i do feel a bit muddled with it all
im hoping things will all be alright when we actually meet up
which i said i would see him tomorrow
i just dont feel like im the right frame of mind somehow
after lunch i told myself i wouldnt sleep
even tho my body was heavy and i couldnt think straight
mum said they were going out but she didnt want to leave me
i told her i was fine
i had got paint out and dances up on my laptop to do and what did i go and do
i fell asleep
yup for 90mins
and in that time my parents had been out and come home again and i didnt hear a damn thing
but if it was during the night i guarantee you i would have heard them before they'd even pulled up the drive! its so unfair how i sleep heavy during the day than night
i was annoyed with myself to say the least
as i got nothing done
the girls had to be inside today as it has rained all day
but its bank holiday and its expected sleet for tomorrow and monday!
lovely!
i did manage a 15min walk with mum just for a bit of fresh air
i went through 2 dances which is the most dancing ive done all week
just not feeling it for dancing at the moment
im gonna do some easter nails tonight!
i hope i sleep
tomorrow i am seeing adam i will i will go
gotta do this
but i decided seeing as its easter and we have our residential easter bunny i would
surprise adam and his family by taking Ozwald up before we are invited up
well heck adam has no idea im gonna bring Oz up tomorrow
id like to sleep over as monday is mine and adam's 1st anniversary and it would
be nice if we could wake up together ^^
Evening~
me and mum talked about yoga yesterday
there was a woman in the class who we'd never seen before
and i personally hope to never see again
I get some people breathe deeply i do
but what she was doing was more than deep breathing
she was having some sort of erotic experience!
i swear some of the noises she made should have been X rated!
it was not normal
she was weird
i said to mum "i bet shes a swinger" XD
sick
anyway last night I couldnt sleep
what a shock that is!
I played pokemon in bed aching til 11:30pm
went downstairs and at 1am I came back to bed at 1:30am
I was up for some pain relief and by 3am I was back in bed
I read a manga book, i played pokemon, I read, i coloured busy busy in the night XD
I was woken by the sound of dad ranting about work to mum at 7am
so thats 4 hours sleep
great! at least it 4 hours straight sleep
We did the girls int eh morning then I went food shopping with mum
came back and did some painting
I decided to sit outside with my girls and Oz as well it would seem
he likes to come in the run as well
the girls all behaved anyway then i took maisy out whilst i ate dinner
went to bed after dinner just felt dizzy from being tired
Mum woke me as i'd had 2 hours sleep
woops
i had a brew and went for a walk by myself and got rained on
just hasnt stopped raining since 4pm
i could have told anyone it would rain today and get it right
and you know how i know this?
i dont need any fancy weather computers
i just know its bank holiday weekend
and it ALWAYS rains on bank holiday!
true british fact
since then i showered
and i played pokemon watching john bishop
needed some comedy to laugh at and it does me good to sit
i find it hard to sit and relax!
we had the girls inside for a play as well
which went better than it ever has before
but alice soon kicked off once the food had gone -____-
Since then Ive had dinner and just been with Oz
he's happy bunbun
tomorrow can you believe I would have had him a whole year!!
our 1st anniversary!! It feels much longer tho I have to say
I will take a photo tomorrow i hope
I havent spoken to adam much this week
I last saw him on monday
and i know he's been poorly
but I feel he's been a bit off with me
I could just be reading too much into nothing as woman can do
but usually he's more talkative by txt
last night he said I could sleep over tonight
but today he was like "i forgot to ask my parents"
id he wanted me to stay he'd stay "oh i will just ask my parents"
i could tell he didnt want me over so im not gonna make anything of it
or ask if i can stay cus i aint looking like the needy one
and if he doesnt show much enthusiasm about seeing me tomorrow
then sod it i aint gonna go over as im no ones lap dog just waiting
for when they want me, when it suits
but like i said i could be reading too much into it
I cant remember if i uploaded the picture of the wedding card i made
Evening~
My sleeping went out the window again last night
I ended up getting up at 1am my spine really ached
seriously, spine ache?
so I got up and sorted myself out and played pokemon til 3am
My team is growlithe, pichu, pigeotto, haunter
looking like a solid team just I like to train them up quite high
I went to bed and woke up through out the night then at 7am
but didnt get up til 8am
It was freezing this morning we had such a harsh frost
its been chilly all day
I went back to bed after breakfast
then got up at 12
I moved the run outside onto the other lawn so it was neutral territory
then put a selective toys out like tubes
I first put Maisy in the run
followed by Millie the pair of them didnt notice one another
then I went to put Alice - the dark horse - in the run
but i was stopped as Oz decided he wanted in on the action
I swear he thinks hes a guinea pig sometimes
so he hopped round and when he bumped into a pig he sniffed them then ran off
like he didnt know how to react XD
alice went in the run
so I now have 4 pets in 1 run
Oz soon leaves so Im down to the 3 I did want in the run
the girls are doing well so far
im freezing my ass off
they continue eating the grass
millie and maisy find one another and maisy talks (millie cant)
millie in the end just puts her head down and continues to eat the grass
seeing maisy as no threat shes not arsed, maisy went trotting off
maisy and alice find one another, alice cant help but hiss once but it ends there
maisy talks a lot but no one got hackles up or went for one another
it went well actually for 25 mins until i got far too cold and took maisy away
i have found its a lot easier outside as theres room, no smells, grass to eat
food is an amazing distraction to them XD
I hope it stops raining so I can have another go tomorrow
after lunch I did a lil painting not much
not as much as I wanted to do
I fell asleep as i felt like crap
i woke up to find my mum had dyed my brother's hair
this is twice hes dyed it hes red now well redder than last time
i would like to go blond this year i think
if i go lighter maybe i wont look as pale!
I looked at make up as theres a few sales going on
i brought a lip balm (hate lip stick!)
i brought a sugar scrub which i love and this is strawberry flavoured!!
then I brought an eye shadow set, I know i shouldnt as ive got loads
but it was £8 down from £35!!! i havent heard of the brand but upon looking
did i find out it wasnt a cheap brand i got the last one
and its got nutrients in it which considering how dry and sore my eyes are from
being tired and rubbing them, that i would love to give it a try
its pinks and browns :D
this came in the post today
2 hair bobbles i brought online
for my Rika Jougasaki cosplay it was the closest i could find to her hair bobbles
and im impressed with em
tomorrow not sure what im doing
painting hopefully instead of wasting the day sleeping
i doubt i will sleep tonight having a cold and 2 sleeps
yoga was good today we had our usual supply as karen is having an operation :(
i havent been yoga in 2 weeks but i wasnt stiff as i do it so regularly by myself ^^
Konbanwa~~
I had a great time at mia's last night
I originally told my mum Id be home around 9ish
it wasnt until I checked the time did I realise it was 9:50pm!!
woops XD
we were talking about all sorts
mainly me if im honest
we got on to the subject of how our relationship used to be before I got sick
how fast paced, hyper active, cut throat,highly strung and aggressive my behaviour was.
in a way I know im a better person for becoming sick
even tho that is incredibly hard for me to admit
when i first got sick i considered my life over and ruined
but now i can see how ive come out of it all
and we said how our relationship is stronger and healthier now than it ever has been
I got home at 10:15pm and got my Oz out
I swear he seemed to know he was out late as he was really giddy it was cute
he was hungry as he hadnt ate in a few hours
i have no idea why he wont take himself home for food when he is capable
as we have seen him do it!
so i took him home for food
I went to bed at 11pm
woke up at 12:10pm
seriously!?
one stinking hour's sleep
ridiculous and a pee take
and worst of all i had to get up there was no getting round that i had to get up
pinks was eating XD
i did 15 mins of yoga but i was exhausted mentally and physically
i sat and played pokemon, had cereal, had hot chocolate
and 2am i went back to bed
didnt wake til 10am! so i slept for like 8 hours straight!
mum didnt bother waking me which i was grateful for as it let me sleep
I had a cool dream of being a werewolf and in my human form
i could even ride a broom stick
such a cool dream i didnt want to wake out of i was loving it
and when i did wake i found my blanket half on the floor and 3 toys on the floor
usually everything is how i leave it so i must have been moving in my sleep as a wolf XD
it was so great to get up this morning and my eyes to feel just about normal instead of sore and trying to stay open which is how they are 95% of my life
I got dressed and went for a 45min walk with mum
came home and ate my lunch/breakfast then continued with a bit of drawing
i told mum id like a two canvases a rectangle one and a square one and does she fancy coming shops with me for them
TK MAXX has canvases but its very hit and miss what they have
I could not believe my luck that they had what I wanted
it was perfect and I got them both for a total of £5
£30 worth of canvases for £5!!!
amazing quality also
I got home and I started painting the background white
and then drew/traced a design
its all drawn it just needs painting now
im doing a battle scene from pokemon crystal!
playing on it last night i was leveling up my growlithe and my egg hatched
it was Pichu!! training that up! I was lucky to get a pichu ^^
tonight i might do some more digital drawing
not 100% sure really id like to draw last nights dream but maybe a lil tricky
theres a program on tv at 10pm called "are you autistic?"
mum said we should watch it and said "im sure your dad is autistic, but you (me) i have no idea wha you are" -_____- thank you mother
might try and watch it with em XD
tomorrow not sure what im doing as of yet
not sure if i have yoga or anything really
might start painting!
here is my Pikachu make-up for mondays pub quiz!
Afternoon~~
Last night
me and adam got to the pub 10 mins before tara
we all ate and I had macaroni cheese i havent had it in over a decade!
we sat and talked
no one else had dressed up so when the quiz master came round to see us
he instantly gave us points
we were 75 points up before we'd even started!
we went round the corner to get good seats for the quiz
first round was harry potter, safe to say i didnt know any really
well not quick enough anyway!
next round - video games
here we go!
I got quite a lot right it was like me and Jamese against one another who was
quickest to put the answer
we were leading through both the first and second round
i didnt think we'd win i was just happy that i knew some answers!
last round - general knowledge - ugh
actually i did know some and we got a lot of points and ended up winning
yes we actually won!!!
we won £30 worth of food voucher!
tara and james have been many more times than us and highest theyve done is 2nd prize
mine and adams 2nd pub quiz and we win!! well happy!
I dropped adam off and came home
I had a crappy night
i cant even be bothered to write about it
as im getting sick and very tired of it all, having to get up in the night
i was so shattered in the night that i couldnt read or play DS or do yoga
i was dead but still had to get out my bed!!
This morning i have been on patrol in my own room
I have hoovered, changed my bed, washed blankets, washed toys, polished
i have got a fresh room
i kept smelling parts of my room and i wasnt happy with that
i take after my mum being a clean freak XD
I went to Karen's at 1pm
I havent seen karen in ages!!!!
it was good to have a massage and to catch up with everything
i feel so much better
came home showered and had a brew
since then i have been drawing
thinking of drawing a lil picture to go in adam's card
but only have a week to get it finished!
wow a week and we would have been going out a year!
i havent seen him today
tomorrow not sure what im doing
tonight im seeing mia and giving her her curtains ive made shorter
my nails this week~
Evening
I didnt get to sleep til 5am woooooo
go me -______-
I was shattered, played a fair bit of pokemon crystal
mum woke me with the birthday girl at 9am
so I'd had 4 hours sleep
I went back to bed after breakfast
When I got up I showered and I went shops with mum
she wanted some make-up that was it really
I came home and I took a pretty birthday photo of Alice~
Cant believe she's 3!!!
totaly and utterly in her own wonderland
she hasnt got a clue whats happening round her 99% of the time
but we love her shes currently our biggest piggie too
Im just about to get ready for pub quiz
which involves a bit ok pokemoning myself XD
I will take photos if it turns out any good!
setting off at 5:15pm which is an hour from now
picking adam up and were going to meet tara and james!
were having food out too should be fun again
its hurts like hell to sit for 4 hours tho
im such a fidget butt tho even in front of my friends
not sleeping at adams
he is still poorly so his coughing is gonna keep me up
so im gonna just stay awake til ive wound down enough which could
be anywhere in the AM hours
as i wont get home til near 11pm
joy
its worth it tho
tomorrow hopefully swimming, karen for massage and then mia
busy busy!
Konbanwa~~
I didn't sleep well
I was up a lot during the night
but I didnt have to leave my bed I was just awake in bed
I read and stuff to try make myself tired
but I had a cruddy night I was tired and the clocks went forward today
so we lost an hour in the day
I ended up not stopping this morning anyway
Adam looked a bit better anyway
I collected him at 10:45am
we went into the city centre
we shopped round and I picked up most stuff I wanted/needed
I picked up lighter hair dyes, but im always conscious of buying 'blond' hair dye
as i never like that cheap fake blond some girls lust after
i just want lighter hair but they dont seem to do light gingery/reddy colours
i can give em a go theyre wash out anyway
I went to pick up an E.L.F highlighter for my face and it was the size of a £2 coin
£5 they wanted
forget it. I know that was probably tight of me but I felt it was steep for how much I got
and it was only highlighter, I have 2 highlighters so its not a must have
I picked up this top I saw in H&M last time i went town
So cute isnt it! has kitties and food on it! my brother liked it X3
we went forbidden planet and I noticed they had vol21 of Natsume's book of friends
I was convinced I have up to vol20 because that is what wikipedia had said
was the final volume of natsume so what was vol21 doing there? /:
I rang my mother
my dad answer "what do you want?"
"could I have mum please?"
"i dont know where she is" then i heard him yelling 'your daughter is on the phone she wont talk to me'
mum came on and I said "its not something he could help with"
turns out I did have til vol20 so I picked up vol21 and Noragami and Alice as in forbideen planet its always 3 for 2 on manga so makes sense to pick up 3 its cheaper
I want pandora hearts but they volumes i need are never in stock
we had lunch i had beans on toast
we went to two GAME shops as the first we went into didnt have Okami on XBOX one in stock then second GAME had okami in but it was the last copy!! Adam brought it for me ^^
I havent played Okami in years, I brought it on a whim when it first came out on playstation 2
and it have been my favourite game of all time I love it
we came back to my house and sat outside with the pets with a brew
Oz was happy boy and the girls really went at that grass XD
we went to adam's house and had a brew
then i went upstairs, almost fell asleep waiting for okami to download
then i played it for 50mins
i could have stayed there all night if need be
I was invited to dinner but I didnt stay as adam was looking rough and I need him
good for tomorrow as its pub quiz
tomorrow not sure what im doing during the day
but its pub quiz at night!!! dressing up a bit pikachu themed!
