Evening~
Didn't sleep great
been awake since 6:40 which is the time I got up
I let Oz out and I got ready and had my breakfast
crawled into mum's bed whilst she was still in it
and wished her a happy birthday
got millie out and bathed her
cleaned her hutch
sat with mum and my brother whilst mum opened her birthday presents
made mum a cake and decorated it
went for a run
and had a shower
all before 12pm!!!! what a feat ;)
i actually had energy this morning so i went for it
i knew i had all those things to do anyway
my dad was starting decorating at like 8am and thats the room
millie currently lives in so i knew i had to get her sorted whilst
i still had access to everything
i knew the cake wanted making so it could set for the afternoon
of course mum needed to open her stuff
she loved what i gave to her but her favourite thing was this
a lil guinea toy i got from Manchester convention last year!
id saved it for her birthday
she loved it
oh and heres the cake,, nothing amazing but tasted great
i knew that i wouldnt be able to do any dancing today what with everyone
decorating so i thought id get a run under my belt
after lunch i sat with millie on my bed
shes so damn cute right!
speaking of Millie
tomorrow is the day we take her down to meet and greet a potential friend!
im actually quite excited to go
just seeing all those guineas will be a treat in its self!
we bathed millie so she looks presentable and helps get rid of her scent too
another reason why i cleaned her out too
she cant stink for socialising!
me and mum went out for a brew which was nice
then we drove to shops
i got a canvas as i had an idea for some art work i wish to do
we came back and had a brew and some cake ^^
afterwards i went on my laptop and did a lil dancing
then i deleted 200 pieces off my deviantart website
a job i kept forgetting to do!
just rubbish really and really old stuff too
so ive had a sort out really
then my family went out to the pub
i stayed home
did some dancing but got a bit sweaty so i stopped as i didnt want to shower again
sat with Millie and Oz
Oz licked behind millie's right ear and when he was finished her fur stood up in all directions XD she looked so cute, she shivered which made Oz growl!!!
I have NEVER heard my Ozwald growl before!
and what a growl he has! I was really shocked actually
dont know why he decided to growl
but Im glad I know he can do it
my family were bringing home take away pizza
and dad usually lights the fire when we do
i thought to save him a job id do it
never ever done it before
and i did it fine
i was happy with my little achievement
both my parents were surprised and grateful they both said well done
like its a massive achievement XD
pizza i only ate half mine as i didnt want to give myself stomach ache
so just got to sit with Oz now and then bed
i really want to try white tea but its expensive online
so im gonna check supermarkets and if not i will try online
tomorrow going guinea place!
think mum has had an alright birthday
ive made a fuss of her anyway ^^
Evening~
I didn't sleep too bad I guess
still woke up but luckily got back off to sleep quickly
was a lil sore in my legs from yoga
But today was my first full day at school~
so I got ready to go this morning~
I was 15 mins early for work just cus i did well on the roads
i was anxious ><
but I really enjoyed it actually
I did soooooo much today
sorted out paper work for students, sorted out some documents for me cus im new
Jack had taken the time to sort through pages of revision guides and lent them to me
to learn from and i forgot to bring them home T^T
I was annoying Jack all day
then he dropped a big bomb on me
he likes anime!! my god, someone my age who likes anime!
I never find anyone who shares my interests
so I was well happy ^^
we get along well, i think, or he could just be tolerating me XD who knows
we had lunch and I sat with him and Alan and Rebecca
dont think rebecca likes me much at the moment
but alan is really nice to me
i didnt even check my phone at lunch as only had 30mins for lunch
and the other 3 werent on their phones so i didnt want to look rude
my lunch gave me stomach ache for the remainder of the afternoon
i think cus i was anxious, food just didnt sit right
I got to mix chemicals, chemicals that werent nice
some that scold the skin, could blind you, could knock you out if you inhaled too much
so yeah strong stuff
i had to wear full on safety stuff and do it an extractor cupboard thing
and Jack made me do all the measuring out myself and pouring
its so hard and pressurising!!!
but I did it ^^
and then he was like "you like cleaning right?"
i was like "yeah"
he said "how squeamish are you?"
I said "im pretty fine apart from blood tests"
he said "great you can clear up the pigs lungs then"
i said "fine"
he was like "we'll see"
so basically there was pigs lungs attached to the throat and tongue
yup all that in a bloody mess on a tray
the tray even dripped blood on the floor XD
i was completely mesmerised by the sight
i put gloves on and held the lungs, poked the tongue and touched other tissue
alan held the bag open for me to put in the bin basically
then i was left to clean the tray and equipment
alan was like "check how jack makes himself scarce"
i said "oh yeah i just noticed he's gone"
alan was like "yeah he wont admit it but hes squeamish" XD
so jack thought he was spiting me but i really enjoyed it
i enjoyed my day to be honest and pigs lungs topped it off
at my last job that TA job at the primary school
when people would ask me at school "are you enjoying it?"
i replied "yeah" but inside me i knew i was saying a lie
but now when people at this school have asked if i am enjoying it
i reply with the upmost certainty "yeah!"
cus i am i really do enjoy it
so far i mean
yeah i like it ^^
safe to say i was knackered at the end of the day
cus god knows how many laps i did of the school
seriously
and its mentally draining too taking everything in
i was glad to be home
I did a bit of just dance when i got in as i felt tense so i needed to loosen up
then had a shower to rid myself of chemicals XD
had a brew with mum
whilst being out mum had got through to the guinea pig rescue
we are taking millie down on sunday
its about a 15 or so minute drive and millie will have to come and choose a friend basically
cus we think she needs one
i let her see Oz again today
hes so submissive to her its cute
and she kept creeping up to him
shes too loving and young to be alone
so that is something to look forward to over the weekend
speaking of the weekend its mum's birthday tomorrow!
ive got all her stuff ready
i will bake her a cake
my brother and dad are decorating the back living room
so busy weekend ahead which will be nice
i hope mum likes her stuff
its 90% guinea related presents XD
I ordered like 4 days ago a new lanyard for school from Japan for a total of £2.30
Its Pompompurin!
So cute and came sooooo fast!
i shall be taking that on monday~
Evening~
Slept crap. again
just ache. a lot
so I woke up at 12, 3, and 5:30am
when I did wake up at 5:30am I got up
I went downstairs for an hour, released Ozwald
and went to bed but didnt really sleep
Millie seems a lil quiet
we've been giving her plenty of fuss
we've found a guinea pig rescue centre that lets you take your pig down
and introduce it to a friend to take home
so we rang up but no one answered, we will try again tomorrow
we rang plenty of times it was weird
cus i think we want to get minnikins a friend
I let her and Oz see one another on the sofa
he was submissive to her bowing his head down
she snapped in his face a few times i think cus hes double her size she was a lil weary
but apart from that it was fine really
today i went for a run in the morning
it was damn cold out but i couldnt face more dancing
i needed a change
i came in and showered
then i did some drawing
had a brew with mum then me and mum went to Pudding Pantry
its kinda for her birthday on saturday
we both had a brew which had proper tea leaves not a bag
and we both had sticky toffee banana pudding with custard
it was so good, stodgy and big i was amazed at the portion actually
the custard was my only disappointment as it was like custard cream not proper thick custard
but still very very good
they didnt have cookie dough on the menu so i said to mum id take her to one in the city one day that does cookie dough cus its bloody amazing
i was dosed up on sugar
we came home and cus we're redecorating the back living room at the weekend
my mum wanted our dvd cupboard sorting cus my god we could put HMV out of business
we sorted through and found VHS XD
we knew mum's VHSs were in there the ones she recorded of me and my brother as toddlers really she wants them converted to digital format and whilst im all for that
im also not wanting to face the demon footage those VHSs contain
as i know for a fact it has footage of me and my brother naked in the bath -_____-
why mother? why?
she just says i'll understand when im a mum
that your children are cute and its nice memories
*sigh*
we found some CDs round the computer from over 10 years ago with photos and videos on of family
so we checked those out, we found old guinea photos and all sorts
it was nice to see
we also found floppy disks XD can anyone even remember those XD
cables to technology we no longer have
we've chucked a load of stuff out
ive put my gamecube and wii games and playstation2 games in the roof
ive kept out my just dance ones out obviously
i laid on my bed reading keeping warm as it had soon gone cold and damp
then sat with millie and Oz
then yoga which was good
tomorrow is my first full day at school
im a bit nervous about it cus not sure what ill be doing and i have to have lunch there
and yeah its a lot to take in
i know i will be shattered afterwards
but looking forward to it
this week's nails
hearts!
God I hope I sleep tonight so im not like death in the morning
Konbanwa
I hardly slept last night
ughhh
fell asleep around 10pm
woke up at 11:30pm.. what the hell!?
so annoying as I was left awake til 2am
to wake up at 4am
god i was shattered this morning
i think the whole night consisted of thoughts of Alice and how
Millie is gonna cope without her
When I got up at 7:30am I noticed how damn frosty and cold it was this morning!
we had ice!! lots of it
After I had fussed Minniekins who seemed in good spirits
I went outside to take photos of Oz in the frost
cute huh
I found it a lil weird this morning that he hung round the graves all morning...
like he knew alice was there
he doesnt usually hang round there as theres nothing to eat there XD
In the morning I went on just dance and had a shower
I cleaned out millie and alices cage then cleaned Oz's out
and seeing as millie wasnt using the outdoor hutch anymore
i was able to have a sort out of stuff in the shed
basically corning off all of Oz's hot spots as to where I cant get him
so now i have much easier access of grabbing him
much to his annoyance! he was looking for ways to get through my barriers!!
i found out he has badly chewed one of my parents outdoor chairs..
the fabric looks like rats has been at it..
woops
I had a bit of lunch and went out to shops with mum just to pick up odds and sods
then we went for a half hour walk on the park i sometimes run round
it was nice cus even tho it was only 4c the sun was really out and
it seemed a shame to miss out on it
we got back and i tried to thaw out on the sofa
i had a hot drink
mums friend came over to give her her birthday present so i left them to it
and went on my laptop
mia had asked if i would book manchester for us
so ive done that now~
now just gonna have dinner then probably draw
ive come up with an idea and i think it will look cute for valentines day
not that ive drawn it for that purpose
but its gonna be of the pokemon Cacnea giving the Digimon Palmon a flower :3
tomorrow not sure what im doing yet
me and mum might go out for cake who knows
Evening
what a crappy day today has been
I woke up after a bad night and I heard mum had just brought
the girls in so I shouted down to her
and all I got back was "Alice isnt right!!"
So I came downstairs blurry eyed
and mum was in tears
she put alice on the floor and alice could barely move
it was like she was drunk or had had a stroke or something
i felt sick and i cried
millie stuck by alice's side all morning
we put out millie's beloved spinach like we do every day
and alice didnt move, millie pinched 2 leaves but decided to remain by alice's side
I said to mum we would get ready to go out and be outside the vet's doors
for when it opens at 9am
so thats what we did and we got millie with us too
we had no idea what was up with alice
she was totally fine yesterday
but today seeing her unable to walk and we could see she was tensing in pain
we got to the vets and they saw us to make sure alice was stable
then we had to wait to see a vet
the vet didnt seem to know what was wrong
he felt alice and checked her over
alice was in pain and discomfort its awful seeing her like that
the vet said said she could have possibly fractured a leg or a pelvis or have kidney stones
or have something else internally going off
he gave her 2 injections
an anti-inflammatory and a strong pain relief
we were there an hour
we got home and we settled her in her cage and gave them salad
mum went to work
and i did some dancing and had a shower and fell asleep
we kept checking on alice
at 4pm we got her out as we noticed she had not moved all day and millie has remained by her side all day too, so we got her out to see how she was doing
and she couldnt walk, her back leg was at an odd angle
we felt sick at the sight
cus it wasnt right and knew it probably wasnt fixable
so i rang the vets up and they said to bring alice down at 4:45pm for a top of pain relief and maybe syringe feed her food and get her booked in for an xray in the morning
so we put millie home which was hard to do as she was glued to alice
and licking alice's ear - something they never do
and we took alice down
a nurse saw us again and we said how unhappy and unwell alice truly was
and that we think putting her to sleep would be the kindest thing to do
as an xray isnt gonna cure her and who's to say that whatever they do discover will be curable?
she will be put through more pain and yeah we dont want to put her through more hours of pain of her trying to get herself comfy and sitting in a ball
she looked like she had given up
she wasnt even stressed when it came to even being at the vets
it was like she was in a coma or something
horrible
so then we had to wait for a vet to do the dreadful putting to sleep treatment
once again we were at the vets an hour
and came away with alice wrapped in a towel
horrid
i cant believe how quickly she has been taken from us
she was fine yesterday
we hadnt changed her food or dropped or hurt her
she was fine
and today seeing her like that was like a different pig
in the space of a month we've lost 2 pigs
poor millie - our most social and loving pig - is by herself now
when we came home my dad came home like 5 mins later
we got to work as a family
mum prepared dinner
my brother got pinks's old indoor cage from the loft
my dad buried alice in the garden with the other piggies
i set to work on making pinks's cage homely for millie
we had decided that since millie is a single pig and its winter that we would house her indoors
so we can give her more company and she will be warmer too
so poor Oz is alone in that shed!
millie has received lots of fuss from us and she seems alright in her new home too
i just cant believe the day i really cant
i loved alice
she was such a spaced out guinea pig living in her own world and was very lazy
she was also my mum's 25th wedding anniversary present
mum loved her and its mum's birthday on saturday T^T
poor alice, what an awful way to go after living the life of luxury
she will be sadly missed
mia had rang me, i didnt get time to tell her about alice
as it didnt seem as important as she was telling me her grandma is in critical care
in the hospital and doctors dont think she will pull through
so i hope mia gets through that tonight
not sure what im doing tomorrow
not thought
my head is messed up today cant think on anything
i made sure to see Ozwald tho
he loved his pigs and i hope he will keep millie company
here's photos of dear alice
Evening~~
Didn't sleep too well but whats new!
I got up and didnt feel too rough today to say I had slept crap
So I did my pets as usual then I did the 30 min zumba routine
i was sweaty~~~~
so I showered
and I missed a call from the school so I rang them back and basically
they said it was fine for me to come and work today
and to be in at 1pm
So I went on my laptop this morning and tried to design
a business card for my dad as he needs a new one
then I got ready for school and had lunch
I left for school
I was a lil nervous but not overly so
maybe its my antidepressants as they work with anxiety and social anxiety
I had to wait for the head technician to fetch me - Jack
he took me to get rid of my coat and bag
He gave me a sciencey talk then he got me doing a few things
he took me round the labs collecting in equipment then we got equipment ready
it was good and he was so good with me
i felt totally at ease and could actually be myself in the workplace!
it was just us two and i found out im a year older than he is
so being of a similar age helps too
i joked around a lot and he joked back
it was fun actually
didnt even feel like work!
Jack imparted the news that the guy who got the 6 hours on a friday
has turned the job down...
do I want it?
YEAH!
so i've got all the hours for the posted job
so thats monday afternoon's and all day friday ^^
i was grateful and Jack gave me a polo shirt to wear for friday
i was quite worn out but i think its cus i didnt stop for 3 hours and also the nerves
he said to me "you're suppose to come out with weird stuff after youve signed your contract"
XD yeah i was my usual weird self i guess
he also said "i've given you a key to the chemical cupboard - not sure thats wise" XD
he's learning
so yeah it was good fun actually
got tonnes to learn sheer tonnes!
but its work til easter :D
im happy ive got somewhere good and it feels so much more better than being a teaching assistant and it pays the same!
I came home and had a brew with mum
my brother had designed my dad a business card so I havent got to do that now
i felt kinda bad talking about how much i enjoyed my job in front of my brother
considering he's still trying for a job
i hope he gets something soon
I sat with Ozwald
then came on my laptop
and about to have a look for inspiration on what to draw next!
tomorrow got no other plans apart from seeing mia in the evening
we should be booking manchester
we were originally going friday
but looks like i have work now on fridays
or shall i tell school i need that day off?
or shall i just work
probably just work
mia worked last year when we went manchester we had to go on saturday
ill talk to her
But yeah Im a Science Technician I guess
til I sign the paper work anyway XD
Evening~~
Didnt sleep great I woke up a fair bit
when I woke up at 7:45am I didnt want to get up
my bed was warm and the room was cold
the house was cold
but I knew Ozwald needed letting out for a wee so I got up
I felt flat today
like physically and mentally flat
just couldnt find the strength to do anything
i was originally going for a run but i ached and it was cold out
i just knew it would make my aching much worse so i didnt go
instead i read in bed keeping warm
I got up and did 30mins of yoga
i designed nails i hope to do tonight
heart themed~
and i didnt get out of my pajamas til 2pm!
just could not be arsed with the day
when it did get to 2pm I got up and dressed
and i danced for an hour
man i was dripping wet
i did 25mins on wii dance then the rest jpop
my speaker wasnt playing loud enough for my liking tho
felt the need to blast music but the speaker is old XD
after i went for a shower
mum came home so i had a brew with her
then i went on my laptop and started doing more of
my ninetail and kyubimon picture
got a bit further then i sat with Ozwald
continuing on with my drawing i finally got it finished!
here it is~
Its not too bad
took longer cus i gave it a background
not sure what i will draw next tho
after dinner i uploaded a load of my doodles onto Redbubble
under my Lunatiquedesign profile
as i had forgotten to upload stuff on there
not that i expect i will sell anything but at least it has the chance on there
saved to my laptop doesnt do anything
need to share my work
tomorrow not sure what im doing
depends if there school have sorted the paper work and i can go in
i hope i can but if not i know it will be next monday
but fingers crossed i can go in tomorrow
if not i will entertain myself someway
