Evening~
Didn't sleep well
felt like throwing up
so i got up and ate something and drank something
again -____-
i didnt wake up til I think 7:50am
i could not be arsed with the day
i just felt like crap
I had a slow morning of sorting a few bits out
and then went to bed
i couldnt care less i just wanted sleep and to be left alone
i wasnt having a good day mentally and physically
i got up and had some lunch
then I stayed in my pajamas til 1:30pm which is when I was left
home alone and got dressed to dance
god only knows where i found the energy from
i finished Sexy Sexy and was dripping wet with sweat
so i went for a shower
then i had a sit with Oz
i did some drawing for my thought book
then I started a picture of Absol for Jack he requested
just about done the outline i can spend more time on it tonight
not doing much else i guess
been awful weather today
i almost went out but couldnt bothered with humans so stayed at home
ive stayed out of everyone's way today
tomorrow i'll probably do some exercise in the morning and go to work after lunch
mum has brought me some different sleeping tablets to try
so im gonna give em a go tonight
Evening~
Didn't sleep well felt truly sick
woke myself up at 2am
I was literally fitting in my sleep
its the medication I know it is
but when I woke up I just wanted to be sick
so I got up and had something to eat and drink and sat downstairs for an hour
didnt wake up til 8:30am
mum had bathed the guineas by this point then we went to clean out pets
i did some dancing until I was sweaty then I went for a shower
I headed off into the city centre around 10:45am
I wasn't meeting Jack til 1:30pm but I wanted to go clothes shopping
I got into the city centre
and went round the shops basically
I picked up 3 tops
one was £4.99, £5.99 and £11.99
and a pair of joggers for £10
so it was worth having a look round as I like my purchases
then i saw a fruit stall and they were doing fruit pots with forks
so I brought one as my lunch
then after I ate that I went to meet Jack
we went to a retro game pub
it was pricey in there tho so I wouldnt go in again
i was served by a girl from my year in high school, small world that it is
we had a game of air hockey which i lost at
then 3 rounds of pool which i won best of 3
i said I felt like celebrating my victory so we went to a different pudding place
and shared a chocolate fudge sundae which sounds so american XD
it was alright tho, nothing amazing
then we went to a pub we usually sit in and had a pokemon battle
i lost horribly as all my best pokemon were on a different version
after that we sat and talked then we played around really
poking each other in the ribs like children
the more i played the more my other self joined in
my hands were shaking a tell tale sign of the other presence
he asked if i was alright as he noticed my hands
and in the end i confessed what was up and asked if it freaked him out
he said it didnt really so we continued
then he held my hand for the remainder
he walked me to my bus stop were i managed to get the last bus
it was so cold and i didnt bring a jacket
he cuddled me ^^ and said i was perfect hug height XD
but it made my heart race i felt nervous but soon relaxed
i gave him a hug before i got on the bus home
i got in to find an empty house
so i did a bit of dancing - yet more dancing
and then went for a shower as i was sweaty
then my brother came home
i was waiting for mum and dad to bring home take away pizza
which took longer than i thought but gave me time to finish quickly my doodle
of Scorbunny
seems to be alright for a quick doodle
I want to draw Absol next for jack
pizza was a bit disappointing and i didnt eat it all
tomorrow the weather is suppose to be awful
so im not sure what im doing as of yet
but i will entertain myself somehow im sure :
mum asked me if i had enjoyed my time out with Jack
and asked about my day i told her i had fun and stuff
my dad wasnt in the room but when i saw him his only question was
"was town busy?"
wow seriously? he knows how to make conversation doesnt he
didnt speak to me for 2 days this week and when he does talk its so sad and boring
Evening~~~
I slept like crap
I couldnt sleep
soooo I took a fair amount of nerve numbing medication
last Thursday night i took 75mg of Pregabalin
last night on the other hand I took 175mg Pregabalin + Ibuprofen
I was smacked out my head XD
but it worked and I did eventually go to sleep
I had had enough
so overdose or not I wasnt arsed I wanted to sleep
I felt rough in the morning XD my own fault
Got to school
took me a fair while to get my barrings as I was still foggy with
the medication and I did come clean to Jack why I was foggy
he and mum couldnt believe how much i decided to take at midnight
but meh i live every time i take one too many~
so my day at school~
I first helped out Alan - who's 19th Birthday it was today - with his washing up
then Jack dragged me upstairs to the chemical prep room
think i spent the remainder of my day there
mixing up stuff
the worse was Copper Sulphate
my god that stuff is awful!
i can still taste it
i went up my nose making me do my stupidly high pitch sneezes which Jack found hilarious >.> and i was coughing as well, and it was all i could taste. I cant believe I can taste it all these hours later. And it took the pee to mix as well.
Then I had a bit of washing up to do and yeah that was all about it
I saw everyone and no one teased me about going out with Jack ^^
and everyone is up for the pokemon pub quiz on teusday
speaking of pokemon
both Jack and Tara told me to check out Pokemon Sword & Shield
and I did...
its made me need to buy a Nintendo Switch TT^TT
but luckily its not coming out til later this year so I have time to save up
I saw the start pokemon and finally a bunny pokemon is making it's debut as a starter!
we have Scorbunny!!!
as soon as I saw it I wanted to draw it so Ive stayed in my room doodling
its getting close to being finished its only gonna be a simple doodle
i just wanted to have a go drawing it
thats how I used to be when I got new Pokemon cards
if i saw one with great artwork or a cool pose I had to sit and draw it
i never played the card game i just collected and drew
i still have my collection
after school
i came in and had a brew
then did 20 mins of yoga
10 mins of dance as dad came in
so went for my half hour run
i did an hour of straight exercise i did pretty well after a day at school
then I had a shower
the dye is slowly coming from my hair
no one teased me about my hair today
heres the 'pink brown' hair dye i used
tomorrow think im meeting Jack at some point in the city centre
cus he asked me if id see him this weekend
so i very kindly agreed XD
but i dont think we're meeting til 1? so i might do some shopping before hand who knows
Evening~~
I felt off again when I went to bed so took me til 12pm to sleep
but slept pretty well from that point on
My morning dancing went well I finished Twice TT
just got Juice=Juice Sexy Sexy to finish
so i danced for half hour then went into the shower
I was ages in the bathroom but had the house to myself
so it wasnt bothering anyone
so I went through and did my hair dye
PINK BROWN was the colour
it came out a red colour but i got on with it
and whilst that happily sat in my hair i bleached my eye brows
then i did a face pack whilst having another go with the epilator
i hardly felt it but that could be the pain killers XD
then i went and washed off
god the amount of colouring that was washed out was quite surprising
i came out the shower and i could see in my wet hair that there was a colour
so i proceeded to dry my hair and this was the outcome...
it looks florescent orange...
was not impressed! ive wrecked my hair!!!
thank god it comes out in 7 days thats all i can say
i rang mum to say she might be shocked when she comes home
then i recorded a dance i kept forgetting to record
mum came home saw my hair and said its a bit of a shock
yeah not happy
pink brown my arse
i gotta walk into work like this tomorrow!
my dad hasnt even noticed shows how much attention he pays to me
dont think hes spoke to me last 2 days
hes only spoken to me today to ask if im working tomorrow
its work work work work work with him
such a dull individual
i had lunch with mum
then i fell asleep for like 2 hours
so not taking my medication tomorrow im not falling asleep at work!
then i got up and finished the canvas and thats all up the wall now
looks ok its something different to look at anyway
sat with Oz with a brew he was like falling asleep on me
he hasnt been out much today cus its nothing but rained
My brother came home and opened his cards and presents
he LOVED the guinea pig toy i brought for him
i knew he would and ive been dying to show it him too
he liked his water coloured guinea pig card too ^^
i like making him happy
we got ready for yoga
yoga was alright it wasnt too hard work actually
i just felt a bit sick and dizzy half way through but i put that down to medication
i didnt give in tho
but my god my hips hurt doing yoga jesus like arthritis
i came back and warmed up the leftovers for me and mum
and now im gonna go in the shower (again) and use a pink conditioner
just to see if that will help my hair along any?...
Jack texted to say a pub in town we all went to a few weeks back
is doing a pokemon quiz on tuesday
my god id be so up for that!!! so i believe we're meeting at 6pm and attending that
that will be amazing i text tara to tell her
tomorrow i have work
should be ok as long as i dont get teased for my hair or my relationship with jack ><
we shall see
depending on the weather and how i feel i might go for a run after school
or at least dance anyway
Evening~
So last night I went out to the pub with Tara and James
it was good fun and the guy who does the quiz kindly reserved us a table
we showed off our disney pieces for the photo so we could get extra points
we had a few rounds and did quite well
apart from the round where you had know voice actors!
the answers i got right i ended up getting the right quickest in the room
so that was satisfying, i have good reactions
Jamese was making fun of me so we were bickering all evening
He said I was spacing out a lot but i think thats the medication
cus my god am i in my own world lately!
we finished at 9:30pm and came 3rd
we won a bottle of wine which i let tara and james have as its
of no use to me, wine is horrid!
I came home, got ready for bed and sat with the tens machine on
it took me til 12:30 to get to sleep
but apart from that the night wasnt too horrendous
whilst i was out with tara and james, friends from work went out to a pudding place
and had cookie dough :/ i was a bit sad i missed it but i enjoyed myself
and said id like to join everyone next time
in the morning i took my medication
and felt sick again
its like the first hour you feel sick then it kinda passes
i did an hour's worth of dancing
i was so sweaty! even my stomach was sweaty! hows that possible!?
i did finish OnePixcel - we go now
i love it so much ive just got to perfect it now
got to move onto finishing Juice=Juice sexy sexy and Twice TT
might finish another tonight or tomorrow
i had a shower and then cleaned out the pets
then i started sewing the canvas and I have managed to get it all sewn
ive got to sew details on then i can attach it to the canvas and its done
hasnt taken me long
i got my £3 top in the post but i hated the design on the front and luckily I was
able to unpick it so thats gone and ive replaced it with ribbons
i sat with Ozwald who was just being a little devil
got him to look forward to tonight
i did save him from a cat earlier today bless him
think thats been my day cus i spent a couple of hours in and out of sleep
the afternoons have been crashing down on me since i started these painkillers
mum says i look rough
i dont think i should take em if i have work thats for sure
i hope they help me sleep tonight
oh we watched a comedy the other night called Warren it was quite good
been a while since ive seen a decentish comedy
tomorrow i think im gonna exercise in the morning
then dye my hair, dye my eye brows, use the epilator so yeah im spending some time in the bathroom when everyone goes out XD then ill probably finish the canvas, wish my brother a happy birthday too as i cant wait for him to open his present! and then we have yoga
Evening~
So last night I took one of my new stronger pain killers
thinking id be fine
man i was wrong
i felt like throwing up I felt dizzy and really tired
did lessen my pain and make me want to sleep
luckily i was in bed whilst i felt this way so i was able to just nod off
and i did sleep pretty well again
I didnt wake til 8am ether
I took the pain killers again in the morning and almost nodded off
but i motivated myself and did 20 mins of yoga
followed by a good run, i did really well ^^ and i enjoyed it too
i came back and showered
then mum came home so i sat and had a brew with her then we went
to go get a canvas as i have an idea what i want to do for a canvas
then we went food shopping
we came in and she kindly made me a salad
then after i ate it i totally fell asleep
honestly just went in the sofa
im not enjoying new medication
i do not want to be zombiefied all the time
i got up and sorted through fabrics, ironed them and began cutting
then mum made me a cup of tea and cut me a piece of nutella cake
so i sat and had that then continued with cutting out the fabric
i have it all cut out now
i sat and drew a picture for my thoughts book
drew a wolf i will photograph it in better light tomorrow
then i had dinner and got ready for pub quiz
disney pub quiz with tara and james
everyone from work is going to the pub quiz in the city
were its a harry potter quiz im sad im missing going out with them
but i suck at harry potter so i wouldnt be of much help anyway
but its good to socialise with them
then again ive not seen them all since me and jack were going out
so ive probably missed a good grilling XD
im gonna have a quick sit with Oz before i go just in case im too late to have
him out when i get home
tomorrow not sure what i will do as of yet
depends how i feel i guess
here is the other figure i got in the post
its Maki from LoveLive!
i love her pearly tights
shes on the opposite side to Kotori
she was wrapped in japanese magazine which i found most interesting so i took photos of my favourite graphics on it
got to take another pain killer tonight >.>
Evening
I slept reasonably well for the 3rd night
still not sleeping all the way through but beggers cant be choosers
I got up and I went doctors i had an appointment at 9am
the 3rd appointment of the day
by 9:25am i still hadnt been seen....he totally sucks as a doctor
whats more he completely had no interest or care in what i had to say
it was like he was right - end of
he gave me two choices - both of which i wasnt happy with
ether up my nerve numbing pain killer
or up my antidepressant
i didnt want anymore medication so to hear him upping it i was not happy
i wanted actual help not more medication
he then said ive got to have a blood test....
yeah Jo was not happy this morning
i have got to have a test to see if theres inflammation in my joints
i came away wanting to scream and burn the place down
i got home and danced it out my system
quite enjoying the dances im learning currently
then i showered
sat with a brew
then got ready for work
it would be the first time ive worked since me and Jack started going out
i wasnt worried
i got to school and all seemed fine really
we talked like normal
my hours consisted of washing up
just shed loads of washing up...dull but gotta be done
at least i have company whilst im doing it
Jack told me he ended up telling everyone at work about us ><
i only saw alan today and he didnt say a thing about our relationship
not sure the same can be said when i see more people as the week goes on
but jack has asked them to go easy on me XD
he went and viewed a property to rent after school
hes set on moving out which will be good
we talked about stuff and i casually said "im just waiting for your patience to wear thin"
he said "any other girl id be taking that as 'shes had enough and wants to break up' whereas with you you literally mean it" XD
we talked about pokemon and i was surprised we like the same pokemon in our parties, out of all the 100s there are to choose from we like the same
good minds think a like it seems
but he said he was relieved that work wasnt awkward between us now
it felt like nothing had changed, well thats how i felt anyway
so thats all good :) i walked all over him before he asked me out anyway XD
i did some yoga when i was home cus i needed to stretch out from washing up
i got my hair dye in the post and a figure
here's my new figure
kotori from Lovelive got her for £6.50 as no one bidded! she looks a bit alice in wonderlandy i think im waiting for another figure then im done
i had leftover pasta for dinner i made yesterday
and then mum had made nutella cake! well good ^^
after dinner me and my brother went out
just shops and then he was kind enough to take me to pick up my new stronger pain killers
so i can start them tonight
they should - acording to the doctor - help me with my sleep
we shall see
tomorrow
not 100% certain what i will do tomorrow
id like to maybe do a run
then in the evening im going to a disney pub quiz with tara and james!
should be good ^^
and you get extra points if you wear something disney so im wearing my only disney item of clothing, a mickey mouse jumper
tonight i will sit with the tens machine and listen to music which is what ive been doing past few nights it has been settling me, makes me be still
