Evening~
So last night I had the pub quiz
I made my way into the city centre and Jack met me outside a store
and we walked to the pub together
we got there earlier than Alan and Rebecca so we had a little time to ourselves
I didnt want food but promised mum id eat something
Jack ordered like a massive burger how the guy isnt fat ill never know
I ordered what was essentially a chicken breast on a bun with wedges
i ate some wedges and ate the chicken from the bun
didnt bother with the rest of the meal
far too much there for me
Rebecca showed up at 20 mins later Alan showed up
the pub was filling up with people
lots looked nerdy and lots looked like pokemon fans judging by their outfits
we had a picture round were we had to write how a pokemon evolves
a general knowledge round (i knew nothing!)
a round of general knowledge on pokemon (i knew some)
a round of pokemon theme tunes from the games (knew a lot)
a round of clips from pokemon movies (new movies i hadnt seen so knew nothing)
it was good actually
alan and rebecca left and me and jack stayed to see how well we'd done
we knew we hadnt won but it was fun all the same
we got 27/40 highest score in the pub was 39....some serious nerds
i said to jack as he looked tired that we can leave as he has work in the morning i didnt, but he wanted to stay out with me a bit longer as he said he wouldnt see me til friday. so i was fine witht hat we sat and talked then i waited with him for his tram as that was gonna be quicker than my half hour wait for my bus
i got home and i hurt as id had to sit for hours and it was cold and wet coming home
i had no time to wind down
so that was me up at 2:30am in pain wanting to die
i woke up at it was 3:40am i thought "is that taking the pee" i must have only been asleep a sodding hour, so i got up and had a pain killer and cereal
still hardly slept reckon i got 2 hours
i was shattered this morning i had massive red bags under my eyes and i was white
i looked like death and i had a lovely blood test to look forward to
got to the doctors and yeah i did really well having my blood done actually
i didnt feel too bad
but once i tried to get up i almost fainted
its a weird feeling having your legs go out from under you and your vision to just turn black
so i had to lay down
mum said i looked dead she had i had that look and my lips had no colour they matched my face she said its disturbing and she feels sorry for me going through it
she watched my body shake she said it looked like i was fitting and i was sweating
think i went into shock a bit
but on the positive side i was having to have another blood test next month to test my thyroid and the nurse said she could do it today!! so if thats all fine it means i wont have to have another blood test for a year!! fingers crossed
i did eventually get out the surgery but took a while
and i felt horrid and like i wanted to be sick
i came home and had a cake and sweet tea to revive me followed by a shower
i went food shopping with mum which i found draining
i came back and went to bed i was just so dead mum said i didnt need to go food shopping but i felt the need to help
i woke up and had lunch mum had kindly made me a salad ^^
then we went shops just for a few bits
she picked up make up that im gonna have a go with
we came home and a choker had come in the post for me
from china but doesnt say who from and cus im waiting for other bits from china i have no idea where or who theyve come from and i havent ordered a choker so its a lil weird
i have 1 clue who it could be from but i cant email til everything else has come and im 100% sure
rather annoying as if ive been sent a choker instead of a tshirt i will be annoyed
i havent done anything all day
ive tried to draw but im so sodding tired
ive just slept and read
no exercise!! my god its odd not doing any exercise
and i can feel i havent
but ive felt too drained and poorly really to do any
stupid how much blood tests do to me
i find it so frustrating!
this evening i have planned out 2 place mats mum wants me to make for a neighbour's 50th wedding anniversary this month
so im gonna get out fabrics now so i feel like ive achieved something with my day
then tomorrow i can make something i guess
tomorrow i will put the world to right
im gonna exercise til im sweaty, do some sewing and drawing and go yoga
it will be a better day tomorrow!!
here's the canvas i did last week nothing special but something different to look at
i have laid out tonight
3 times the dosage of pain killers
and a sleeping tablet
ive gone past the stage of caring how crap it could make me feel
i just need to sleep
Evening~
Didn't sleep but whats new
i could not get off to sleep ether
too many thoughts and too many aches
so this morning I got up and I tidied my room
which didnt take as long as I have put quite a few figures away now
speaking of figures here's my new Cocoa figure from the anime is the order a rabbit?
Shes now with Chino and Rize :D
Another figure related topic
i won another figure
one i really wanted! its from Hanamaya think thats the name
its the Yosakoi anime so i was well happy about that
cant wait for it to come
after I did my room
I did 20mins of yoga
followed by 10 mins of dancing then I headed off for 35min run
it was a good run i did a good distance
id had enough but wasnt really out of breath
i came in showered and had lunch
waited for mum to come home to have a brew with her
then i went to bed cus i was shattered and im out tonight
just been getting ready
4 of us (dropped down from 6) are going to a pokemon pub quiz
in the city centre so im setting off shortly
hopefully should be fun
the only part im not looking forward to is eating out
but cant be helped
then ill come home and wont be able to sleep no doubt!
tomorrow at 9:10am
blood test
well unhappy
Konbanwa~~
I tried new sleeping tablets
they relaxed me but that was about all
i couldnt sleep
then woke up at 1am
then at 2:30am as i was cold so i grabbed my dressing gown
then woke up at 5am
then 8am
shattered its constantly disturbed sleep
i did some dancing this morning but it was a hard ask
and then i went for a shower
had a brew with mum
and then got ready for school
ive ordered some tea
i dont think im gonna enjoy it but its good for pain and apparently can give quite vivid dreams, and usually if im having a good dream i tend to stay asleep
so i thought it was worth a shot
but it says it tastes earthy and not to drink if youre pregnant? /: what the hells in it?
i got to school
and sat in the office as i was early then i noticed my doodles i do on my lunch breaks on a friday were on the wall! theyre so bad but Rebecca had put them up ><
i had various jobs to do and I got to see Liv and Alicia both of which said I should draw my little science team of 4 and put it up in the office >< im not that good but i guess a chibi picture wouldnt hurt to do~
i had a cruddy shift to say i was only there 3 hours just stuff kept going wrong for me
the only redeeming factor was that i got to hold a pig's heart and clean up a lot of blood
i couldnt be bothered to wait for alan and jack at the end of the day and went home as the traffic soon builds up so i just left
im seeing tomorrow for the quiz anyway
i got home and had a brew and home made cake from mum
sat with Oz too
i got another anime figure in the post just waiting for one more i believe
this is Eli from Lovelive!
then i warmed up my leftovers
now im just wondering whether to read or to draw
dont know what im in the mood to do
im so god damn tired
tomorrow i think im gonna dust my room as it needs doing i believe
and then im going pub quiz with everyone
Evening~
Didn't sleep well
felt like throwing up
so i got up and ate something and drank something
again -____-
i didnt wake up til I think 7:50am
i could not be arsed with the day
i just felt like crap
I had a slow morning of sorting a few bits out
and then went to bed
i couldnt care less i just wanted sleep and to be left alone
i wasnt having a good day mentally and physically
i got up and had some lunch
then I stayed in my pajamas til 1:30pm which is when I was left
home alone and got dressed to dance
god only knows where i found the energy from
i finished Sexy Sexy and was dripping wet with sweat
so i went for a shower
then i had a sit with Oz
i did some drawing for my thought book
then I started a picture of Absol for Jack he requested
just about done the outline i can spend more time on it tonight
not doing much else i guess
been awful weather today
i almost went out but couldnt bothered with humans so stayed at home
ive stayed out of everyone's way today
tomorrow i'll probably do some exercise in the morning and go to work after lunch
mum has brought me some different sleeping tablets to try
so im gonna give em a go tonight
Evening~
Didn't sleep well felt truly sick
woke myself up at 2am
I was literally fitting in my sleep
its the medication I know it is
but when I woke up I just wanted to be sick
so I got up and had something to eat and drink and sat downstairs for an hour
didnt wake up til 8:30am
mum had bathed the guineas by this point then we went to clean out pets
i did some dancing until I was sweaty then I went for a shower
I headed off into the city centre around 10:45am
I wasn't meeting Jack til 1:30pm but I wanted to go clothes shopping
I got into the city centre
and went round the shops basically
I picked up 3 tops
one was £4.99, £5.99 and £11.99
and a pair of joggers for £10
so it was worth having a look round as I like my purchases
then i saw a fruit stall and they were doing fruit pots with forks
so I brought one as my lunch
then after I ate that I went to meet Jack
we went to a retro game pub
it was pricey in there tho so I wouldnt go in again
i was served by a girl from my year in high school, small world that it is
we had a game of air hockey which i lost at
then 3 rounds of pool which i won best of 3
i said I felt like celebrating my victory so we went to a different pudding place
and shared a chocolate fudge sundae which sounds so american XD
it was alright tho, nothing amazing
then we went to a pub we usually sit in and had a pokemon battle
i lost horribly as all my best pokemon were on a different version
after that we sat and talked then we played around really
poking each other in the ribs like children
the more i played the more my other self joined in
my hands were shaking a tell tale sign of the other presence
he asked if i was alright as he noticed my hands
and in the end i confessed what was up and asked if it freaked him out
he said it didnt really so we continued
then he held my hand for the remainder
he walked me to my bus stop were i managed to get the last bus
it was so cold and i didnt bring a jacket
he cuddled me ^^ and said i was perfect hug height XD
but it made my heart race i felt nervous but soon relaxed
i gave him a hug before i got on the bus home
i got in to find an empty house
so i did a bit of dancing - yet more dancing
and then went for a shower as i was sweaty
then my brother came home
i was waiting for mum and dad to bring home take away pizza
which took longer than i thought but gave me time to finish quickly my doodle
of Scorbunny
seems to be alright for a quick doodle
I want to draw Absol next for jack
pizza was a bit disappointing and i didnt eat it all
tomorrow the weather is suppose to be awful
so im not sure what im doing as of yet
but i will entertain myself somehow im sure :
mum asked me if i had enjoyed my time out with Jack
and asked about my day i told her i had fun and stuff
my dad wasnt in the room but when i saw him his only question was
"was town busy?"
wow seriously? he knows how to make conversation doesnt he
didnt speak to me for 2 days this week and when he does talk its so sad and boring
Evening~~~
I slept like crap
I couldnt sleep
soooo I took a fair amount of nerve numbing medication
last Thursday night i took 75mg of Pregabalin
last night on the other hand I took 175mg Pregabalin + Ibuprofen
I was smacked out my head XD
but it worked and I did eventually go to sleep
I had had enough
so overdose or not I wasnt arsed I wanted to sleep
I felt rough in the morning XD my own fault
Got to school
took me a fair while to get my barrings as I was still foggy with
the medication and I did come clean to Jack why I was foggy
he and mum couldnt believe how much i decided to take at midnight
but meh i live every time i take one too many~
so my day at school~
I first helped out Alan - who's 19th Birthday it was today - with his washing up
then Jack dragged me upstairs to the chemical prep room
think i spent the remainder of my day there
mixing up stuff
the worse was Copper Sulphate
my god that stuff is awful!
i can still taste it
i went up my nose making me do my stupidly high pitch sneezes which Jack found hilarious >.> and i was coughing as well, and it was all i could taste. I cant believe I can taste it all these hours later. And it took the pee to mix as well.
Then I had a bit of washing up to do and yeah that was all about it
I saw everyone and no one teased me about going out with Jack ^^
and everyone is up for the pokemon pub quiz on teusday
speaking of pokemon
both Jack and Tara told me to check out Pokemon Sword & Shield
and I did...
its made me need to buy a Nintendo Switch TT^TT
but luckily its not coming out til later this year so I have time to save up
I saw the start pokemon and finally a bunny pokemon is making it's debut as a starter!
we have Scorbunny!!!
as soon as I saw it I wanted to draw it so Ive stayed in my room doodling
its getting close to being finished its only gonna be a simple doodle
i just wanted to have a go drawing it
thats how I used to be when I got new Pokemon cards
if i saw one with great artwork or a cool pose I had to sit and draw it
i never played the card game i just collected and drew
i still have my collection
after school
i came in and had a brew
then did 20 mins of yoga
10 mins of dance as dad came in
so went for my half hour run
i did an hour of straight exercise i did pretty well after a day at school
then I had a shower
the dye is slowly coming from my hair
no one teased me about my hair today
heres the 'pink brown' hair dye i used
tomorrow think im meeting Jack at some point in the city centre
cus he asked me if id see him this weekend
so i very kindly agreed XD
but i dont think we're meeting til 1? so i might do some shopping before hand who knows
Evening~~
I felt off again when I went to bed so took me til 12pm to sleep
but slept pretty well from that point on
My morning dancing went well I finished Twice TT
just got Juice=Juice Sexy Sexy to finish
so i danced for half hour then went into the shower
I was ages in the bathroom but had the house to myself
so it wasnt bothering anyone
so I went through and did my hair dye
PINK BROWN was the colour
it came out a red colour but i got on with it
and whilst that happily sat in my hair i bleached my eye brows
then i did a face pack whilst having another go with the epilator
i hardly felt it but that could be the pain killers XD
then i went and washed off
god the amount of colouring that was washed out was quite surprising
i came out the shower and i could see in my wet hair that there was a colour
so i proceeded to dry my hair and this was the outcome...
it looks florescent orange...
was not impressed! ive wrecked my hair!!!
thank god it comes out in 7 days thats all i can say
i rang mum to say she might be shocked when she comes home
then i recorded a dance i kept forgetting to record
mum came home saw my hair and said its a bit of a shock
yeah not happy
pink brown my arse
i gotta walk into work like this tomorrow!
my dad hasnt even noticed shows how much attention he pays to me
dont think hes spoke to me last 2 days
hes only spoken to me today to ask if im working tomorrow
its work work work work work with him
such a dull individual
i had lunch with mum
then i fell asleep for like 2 hours
so not taking my medication tomorrow im not falling asleep at work!
then i got up and finished the canvas and thats all up the wall now
looks ok its something different to look at anyway
sat with Oz with a brew he was like falling asleep on me
he hasnt been out much today cus its nothing but rained
My brother came home and opened his cards and presents
he LOVED the guinea pig toy i brought for him
i knew he would and ive been dying to show it him too
he liked his water coloured guinea pig card too ^^
i like making him happy
we got ready for yoga
yoga was alright it wasnt too hard work actually
i just felt a bit sick and dizzy half way through but i put that down to medication
i didnt give in tho
but my god my hips hurt doing yoga jesus like arthritis
i came back and warmed up the leftovers for me and mum
and now im gonna go in the shower (again) and use a pink conditioner
just to see if that will help my hair along any?...
Jack texted to say a pub in town we all went to a few weeks back
is doing a pokemon quiz on tuesday
my god id be so up for that!!! so i believe we're meeting at 6pm and attending that
that will be amazing i text tara to tell her
tomorrow i have work
should be ok as long as i dont get teased for my hair or my relationship with jack ><
we shall see
depending on the weather and how i feel i might go for a run after school
or at least dance anyway
