Konbanwa
I couldnt get off to sleep
kept bringing up sick at the back of my throat as i laid in bed
when it got to midnight i decided to get up for a drink and stuff
i woke up at 5am and then 6am to my alarm
cuddled Flump all night long naturally~
This is flump
he's like 40cm tall and so squishy im not sure what hes filled with
he almost feels like memory foam its weird stuff
hes also really soft to stroke
i really like him ^^ sadly i will have to return him to jack
as he lives at jack's with snorlax and also there is not enough room on my bed ><
i went to school and was warmly welcomed back
i was told it was quiet without me XD
it was nice to be back
and nice to wear non-uniform also X3
of course the geeks julia and jack wore uniform
i took my morning easy
although it was a bit dull with no lessons going off
i took my time prepping as i didnt want to do myself in
then lunch came and we had our free school meal
i had pasta with a cookie
then we went back to the prep room
i did a few bits and pieces but not much if im honest
just cus i didnt have the energy
but jack didnt get at me
he was just happy having me back
i could tell he was by how much he was around me
and he told me ^^
i left school and came home and had a quick brew
didnt even take my shoes off and went back out to nigel's
i had my back done with the cups again and 20 needles in my back
and 1 in each ankle
to get rid of the pain and tension i have there
and it does feel better however it does ache and is all the colours of the sun
my god those cups do a number
i am gonna hurt tomorrow ><
i came back and just laid on the sofa til dinner
then after dinner my brother messed with me
i was on the floor laughing from going weak XD
had a shower and now feel ready for bed its only 8:30pm
but i managed the day and thats what counts to me
as i have missed enough school
tomorrow
i have a haircut at 10am
then at some point i will see jack? who knows with him
as i could tell he wanted to sleep in
i for one will not be wasting my day
i will go do something and just wait for him to emerge from his pit
cant wait for hair cut tho
then i will get some hair dye at some point and freshen it up completely
Evening
i had another boring day off school -___-
i did however feel slightly better
i managed a walk this morning whilst it was sunny
which was nice but tiring
mum brought me a pumpkin to carve for halloween
i slept a bit
did a base wash on my painting
i havent seen the pets today they were outside
apart from the babies
but as we've had the living painted they couldnt come in for a sit
im gonna sit with oz tonight i just hope the smell isnt too much for his little nose
i managed yoga!
it felt good to stretch
i was aching this morning but it was ache because i havent moved much past few days
my joints cracked so much!
i slept with flump last night
and ive got him again tonight
tomorrow im going school
i dont care if i dont last the entire day, im going!
and its insec day so that means free school meal and i can wear what i like!
jack has warned me theres gonna be a lot of cleaning to done >.>
god knows what state that prep room is in
but it will be good to go back on a day teachers dont have lessons
its less stressful
i hope i can manage the day
then im seeing nigel at 4:15pm
Evening~~~
I slept ok apart from getting up for a hot choc as i felt quite sick
then i got up at 8am and watched the girls play in the hall whilst i ate breakfast
which was nice to see
i decided to read the side effects leaflet that comes with my new tablets
it said do not take longer than 3 day - well ive prescribed a months worth
it says after 3 days theres an enzyme in the liver that turns the codeine to morphine...
that would explain why i coped over the weekend but im dying now
im practically on sodding morphine again!!
i was not happy
i am happy with not being in pain tho
i eventually showered
i just felt so out of it to be honest
i spent a lot of my day in and out of sleep -- again
i did decide on a design for mias dog blanket
i started a drawing of a wolf but i gave up due to a headache
i got round to taking photos of my piglets and these are the best two
jack came to see me
first time hes made it solely on his own to my house!
he brought Flump the toy i have at his house and said i could have him til i next
sleep over at his house
so flump is amongst my plushies
we sat and talked and he had dinner with me in my room whilst watching anime
then he left at 8:15 to get home
it was good to see him
he'd missed me too
i want to go school tomorrow but have been told by mum that im not
im gonna go on friday tho i dont care what people say
i have a bid already on one of the jackets i made and put on ebay
so thats good considering its only been on two hours
so another boring day at home
mum will be home making pumpkin soup and we are having the living room
painted so that the kitchen and living room outta bounds tomorrow
i will literally be holed up in my room tomorrow -______-
Evening
slept like a total log
but woke up 10 mins before my alarm
i didnt feel great this morning but kept going
thinking i will be alright in a bit
i drove to work feeling rotten and a lil tempted to turn round
but i kept going
then jack said when he saw me "you dont even look like death warmed up you just look like death" yeah i felt pretty much like death too
i put my lessons out
told head of science that i was struggling with my new medication
he said i could take this week off if need be and use that and half term to get myself right
and i went home
id only been at work an hour!
got home
crawled up in my bed
that was that
i stayed in bed all day drifting in and out of sleep
i felt rotten
not sure whats up as i wasnt like this over the weekend
so im unsure if i have a virus or if im just struggling with meds
im taking tomorrow off
but i dont really want to miss any more school if i can help it
theres a practical i dont want to miss on thursday id like to see
jack says hes sorted it all for tomorrow
so hes covered anyway
as for me as got a day to waste in bed tomorrow no doubt
i hate life
well i hate wasting life anyway
mum brought truffle to me in bed but i could she didnt have time for me XD
i had breakfast with oz who wanted fuss which was nice
hes been outside all day actually
right back to bed rest!
Evening
I slept really well last night
just outta it XD alarm was needed -__-
School was alright really
couldnt get much ready for tomorrow due to it all being needed on the day
so i have a fair bit of running around to do tomorrow
i got cancer spray on my hands somehow
but im not overly concerned i think its only bad if you breathe it in
hopefully...
i didnt feel well this morning around 10/11am
jack said "are you alright?"
i said "yeah yeah im fine"
he said "you seem to lose your step and sway a bit"
"im fine"
"jo your hands are shaking"
"ugh will you leave me alone" ><
he said "jo" grabbed a stool next to me which is never a good sign
when he comes to sit down at my level a lecture is never far away
he said "as your boss, i need to know. Are you alright to be here? are you safe?"
i said "i dont know. i usually feel a bit crap with new pain killers this time of day then i pick up again"
he said "do you need to go home?"
i said "i really dont want to go home i will be ok. but if i get worse i will go home"
he said "will you actually say if you dont feel well tho?"
"yes I will say"
"pinky promise"
i pinky promised
i said "i hate giving in tho, i hate going home, it feels like im losing"
he said "its not losing jo, fainting on the prep room floor is losing"
yeah he has me there
but luckily i was able to stick the day out some how
i still had staff asking if i was alright today tho ><
i got walked to my car by jack with his umbrella as it was slashing it down
i told him i didnt need his umbrella as i had a hood
but he insisted >.>
honestly
i got home and sat with ozwald with a brew
then mia rang me to talk about a few things
then i did some yoga in my pajamas
then had dinner
sat with mum and went on my laptop
im so tired tho now
im having an early night
tomorrow its school
i might try dance after school or go for a walk
today i did yoga
wednesday think im staying at jacks
Evening
My god I felt drugged up when I woke up yesterday
I hadn't slept that well as I woke up in the night feeling like
i was actually gonna be sick, you know when you keep burping it up?
really gross so i got up and got cereal and a drink
in the morning i did some yoga and some dancing
sat with my ozwald and the babies
and then got ready to see jack
i took my time as i knew he wouldnt be ready on time
honestly
but anyway i got to his and we walked to the bus shelter
and caught the bus to derby
we had a good day out
i managed to buy 8 different fabrics with dogs on!
i got 2 pairs of joggers as jo can never have enough joggers
some bunny fabric for my growing collection of bunny fabric
a new school bag by an artist i love - lisa parker
mums stuff she needed
treats for ozwald
yeah i got everything on my list i did really well
it was worth the journey
jack got a few bits and pieces
we both brought anime dvds
i found Digimon Tri!!! ive been waiting since 2015 to see it dubbed
i had to buy it even tho it was expensive
we got back and went shopping for food
made dinner and had that
then we watched the first digimon tri whilst eating pick and mix
then i took my new meds and it about did me in so i had an early night
woke up this morning
and could not wake up i just kept falling asleep
it was horrible, jack said i looked shattered but i hadnt had a bad night as nights go for me
i got up but we had a slow morning as it was throwing it down outside
apparently i saw on the news that out of all of october so far we've only had one day without rain
we went out to the shops as we forgot we needed food for work
then as jack was meeting harvey to go watch a film, i came home
felt a little drugged up but i got myself home
put my stuff away from derby
did half hour of dancing until i was dripping
went for a shower
then i sorted out jackets and coat, chucked a load of stuff out
but two things i have made i plan on selling on ebay this wednesday
well i will list them for wednesday anyway
here they are
i want them to go to a good home
i did other bits and pieces that needed doing
got my nails to do tonight also
we let oz in the hall with the pigs
molly was protecting her babies and literally chasing oz off
oz of course ran off despite molly being half his size
but the little ones were interested in him and followed him
he licked truffles ears too
school tomorrow -___-
Evening~
I got up for school despite only having like 4 hours sleep
i felt soooo sick in the night and got for something to eat and drink
i decided to eat breakfast with oz as i was early this morning
not only did he get his usual wake up treat of cereal from me, the git tried to rob cereal from my bowl then when i booted him outside he turned 180 and put his paw on the back door step-begging
i couldnt very well shut the door on him like that now could i
so the little git got another treat outta me!
i went to say goodbye to mum who was in bed i told her oz had only been up an hour today and had got two treats out of me and not to give him anything else today!
i got to school
i didnt feel too bad an was determined to do the practicals
even tho the practicals didnt go well -___- not my fault it was the students
but i stuck the day out for those practicals damn it
it was a hard slog
i came home and pretty much just had a brew with oz and went to bed
and got for dinner
then later went for a walk
im tired now tho
and i have my new pain killers to start
i dont wanna take them but its necessary evil i guess
tomorrow i am going to derby with jack
well im going derby reguardless to be honest
whether hes alive or not
he said i could sleep over but i will see
but i know hes seeing his friends on sunday and my friends are busy so sunday looks like a quiet day but i have stuff to do at home anyway
i need to write a list of all the stuff i need from derby
the list grows -____-
the babies are doing well
i hope to photograph them on sunday
theyre very cute but tilly keeps trying to hump molly and truffle
annoying thing is oz gets a treat every night
so hes won >.>
