Bonfire Night!
I didn't sleep well
I couldnt get off to sleep therefor i felt sick and had to get up for a drink
so it was gone midnight by the time i had gone to bed even -___-
got up at 6am
my lonely start to the day in total darkness
i got to work fine and stuff
the day went alright really
i managed everything
there was a fire started by the science department
all it was was something was new and got a little too smokey over a Bunsen burner
so of course the fire alarm went off
and of course it was cold and raining
i had just finished my last mouthful of food, not had a break from 7:25am leaving the house til 1:15pm and was expected to line up outside in the cold
i was not happy and i was shivering
head of science was like "you cold jo?"
i said "yeah its really not nice out here"
he said "you need a coat, where's jack?"
i thought 'is he wondering about jack or was he gonna get jack to sacrifice his coat for me' XD
as it was jack gave me his umbrella even tho i was the one with a hood
but it was too windy for the umbrella and i didnt want it to break on me
i got to take part in science club! finally and Luke was hosting it this week - even better ^^
we were doing 'fireworks' in the spirit of bonfire night
it was different chemicals under fire and watch the flame change colour
it was nice to do and be part of a class again
i showed the art crew my picture
got some constructive feedback from the D.T. teacher
and the other teacher held it up in class and the kids went mad
i know what i have to work on
this is it so far
but the scan doesnt do it any favours...
i came home and had a brew with Oz and mum
mum hadnt had the injection in her foot so she could walk bless her
i had txt from the phone compant saying my contract was up by the end of the month
so me and dad spent an hour sorting my phone out
so on thursday i believe i will have a new phone
cheapest they had as Jo aint bothered about phones
ive ordered a screen protector and case from ebay as i want it protected
i didnt get on with anything i wanted to do tonight
as its bonfire night and a lot of fireworks have kicked off
ive had no choice but to have bunny in my room as he wasnt happy
and he can only stay on the sofa so long
so yeah hes been hopping around enjoying himself but he needs monitoring
i dont mind tho as long as he is happy
tomorrow is work again
fetching stupid maggots
ugh
Evening~~
Yesterday Jack came over to see me
it motivated me actually as my god i was rough in the morning
but i did some yoga a lil dancing before he came over
we went for a walk which was nice
then picked up some food from pets at home for ozwald
i came home and my parents had come back
and i dont know but i just felt i had to get away
the night before they'd had an argument and my parents rarely argue
i was alone with them as my brother was at a halloween party
so i had to sit quietly whilst that went off
bottom line is, my dad is an awful venomous person
listening to the way he spoke to my mum was awful
and it made me upset
upset for her but also felt upset with thoughts
thoughts such as "what if jack ever spoke to me like that?"
yeah i wasnt good, i couldnt sleep and when i did it was full of nightmares
i tend to have nightmares when im stressed
so im not surprised i was rough when i got up at 8:40am
i asked jack if i could break out and make a run for it over to his house
he said it was fine, even if it was his gaming night
so i got my stuff and left ASAP
i felt bad for Oz as id only seen him once but i needed out
and i felt sick with anxiety for a few hours
simply cus i knew it was school the next day
i got to his and met the new plushie!!!!!
he chose the mini pumpkin :3
its very sweet and i will show a picture
ive named her Luna
we watched 5/6 of digimon
my god its a dark series
wonder how it will end :3
then we made dinner we made a pasta dinner
then it was about time for him to start gaming with his team
so that left me to just sit by myself working on my wolf
it was nice to just do that
i came downstairs to jack when id finished for the night at 9:30pm
he was gaming still and would be til 10pm
i got ready for bed
i was drugged up and warm, i wasnt going anywhere
he said he knows when im asleep as i twitch so he decided to finish at 10:30pm
watching him play my god it looks complicated but also boring
but he says he couldnt spend hours working on a piece of art
its good i think we have such different hobbies as it gives us space
and theres no competition with it
it was nice to have him to wake up to on the first day back
as i didnt feel too bad having him there
he made it bearable actually and he said the same about me
work was alright i managed
i felt a bit weak and wobbly at times but i kept trying to change what task i was doing
like what the specialist said
we came across a few mouldy things that were so grim
i didnt mess up
tomorrow will be full on tho and i hope i get it right
i have a lot of chemicals to make up and stuff to get right
i rested when i got in cus it was all i could do
then i finished my wolf!! its done!!! im gonna take it into school tomorrow
to show art teachers and to maybe scan it and get the JPEG
think im pleased with it
it challenegd me to new technique anyway
tonight i might do some stretches and then my nails
im so god damn tired tho
and its the first day back...
first day back of a 7 week term then i think its christmas....
Evening
I sat last night doing more of my wolf picture
it is coming along well actually
the more i do the better it looks
its just very time consuming
This morning I cleaned Oz out
he was around thinking he was helping XD
i did some yoga and did some dancing
then I sat choosing fabrics for the baby blanket
and began to cut and sew
and thats what I did for a while
in the afternoon i went to the shops
i did the food shop for school
and i brought the base for the baby blanket
then i came home
saw my girls
did a bit more cutting out
there is a lot of fireworks tonight
its getting closer to bonfire night i guess
i hate it as it scares animals
so im gonna see ozwald now for a bit
then i will continue with the wolf
tomorrow probably just work a bit more on craft projects
its my last day of freedom anyway!
here is new lip tint i brought to try
i quite like it actually as its red but has tiny blue glitter in it
Evening~~~
Last night I went over to jack's
after I had been yoga and sat with my lad
We set up the pumpkins in the living room
so they were all lit up and we turned off the lights
and watched Sleepy Hollow
jack hadnt seen before and I hadnt seen it years
i cuddled flump whilst watching it
it was a nice halloweeny night
the film didnt finish til 11:30pm
so then we got ready for bed
but upon going to bed
my god the students outside
jack lives near a university
and jesus christ the noise last night
we just laid there til like 1am
cus you could not sleep with that going off
safe to say i did not sleep great
it was no shock the time we woke it was gone 10am...
i felt a bit rough this morning and a bit achy
we had breakfast and lazed round
i couldnt be bothered to shower and jack was meeting his sister at 1pm
so id have lunch when i got in
i was invited to join but i kinda wanted to opt out and give him time with his family
i got home
showered and ate and saw ozwald
then i read in bed a bit until mum dragged me out for a walk
i couldnt be bothered but then i knew i had to do some form of exercise
i got in and i cant say i did a lot really
just felt tired physically and mentally
so i caught up online what id missed over the last few days
after dinner
i started working on a slower dance
as the specialist said i need slow movements
so i thought id start with a slow dance but still think its a bit quick for it to be ideal
but i started with mano erina's haru no arashi
about learned it all in 10 mins XD
think i will do some more of my wolf tonight
tomorrow not sure what is happening yet
i know im seeing jack over the weekend at some point
but we havent got anything in mind yet
here is a wall display i finished yesterday at school
Evening~~
Yesterday I had a doctors appt in the morning
I got my pain killers on repeat prescription but sadly
due to the system being down for 4 days last week
my X-ray results we're done :/
I got back and showered and then I went to see karen with mum
it was really lovely to see her
shes got hair growing back! she looked so well
she said I looked well also
we sat and chatted for 2 hours
we met her new dog - Hector hes very cute
but as normal for puppies he gets up to no good
it looks tiring looking after puppies
from there me and mum went to a cafe
i had cheese and beans on toast it was so good
then i shared a piece of cake with mum ^^
i didnt do much in the afternoon
went over to jack's and saw him for an hour and then i walked to life drawing
i got there and looked round the room instantly spotting the model
a man....
course it was
Nigel said there hasnt been a male model yet but when i turn up its a guy
Nigel wasnt at the session - maybe he knew XD
ether way this model did slightly make me feel sick
he was bold, over weight, covered it tacky tattoos, and piercings
he 'area' was pierced twice.....
now i knew men can get the 'tip' pierced but i had no idea you can go through it horizontally with a bar. it looked painful and grotesque if im honest
of course he matched it by having his nipples pierced
he was like 60 and looked like this....
and i had to draw him for 90mins
to be honest i enjoyed myself
it was bloody freezing due to the heating not working
but time went quick and i feel id go again
kinda when i feel like it
yeah i was a good experience
i got out on time and jack was waiting for me
we walked to Wagamama's laughing the whole time about my experience XD
i had Pad Thai it was good
we saw loads of halloween people
females dressed in what would consider tarty themed underwear
and some males in pants and painted their skin red to look like devils
you could tell they were all freezing
idiots
we got back and theo was there
and as he's not there tonight we decided to carve our pumpkins together
so we put a halloween playlist on and carved away
so here's mine
Jack's
Theo's
group pic!
and of course Flump got in on the action
then we headed for bed
i slept pretty well but woke up cold but soon robbed heat from jack
this morning i got up
and it was halloween
i got ready and jack came with me to my appointment at the pain clinic
i ended up seeing a hyper mobility specialist who i saw as a physiotherapist many years ago when my illnesses first started, she could not believe the progress i had made
and she taught me so much about my hypermobility
it was really worth going
also its good for jack to learn about me and my weirdness XD
from there we went to work for 3 hours
i got what i wanted to get done
then i came home
rested for a bit and went to yoga later
we came in and had pumpkin soup!
i washed myself with pumpkin body wash afterwards
now im gonna sit with oz then im going to jack's
we're gonna watch sleepy hollow and have the candles in the pumpkins going
then sleep
unsure what im doing tomorrow yet
but thats been a nice little halloween thing to do over the last few days
Konbanwa~~
I woke up at midnight feeling so sick
its always the 2nd lot of pain killers that get to me
but being woke up by it is not great
so i had to get up, had cereal and hot chocolate
then soon fell to sleep and got up at 8am
i sat with the babies, watching molly take food from
their mouths...just no stopping that big pig she just lives for food
i wish truffle would eat more, theres nothing on her but she'd rather
explore than sit and eat
tillie is filling out a bit now :3
i did half hour of dancing but didnt feel my heart was in it really
i still got hot and stuff but i dont feel i put 100% into my movements
also i was very stiff this morning so it affected my dancing
i went for a much needed shower
then i started doing mia's blanket
i sewed it together and cut the access off outside as it makes a mess
and Oz is there sniffing all the pieces that fall to the floor X3
i decided as it was so nice out that id put the pigs outside
and i ended up sitting outside for a whole hour with them!
just sat watching them, watched Oz join in with them which was nice
hes a bit weary of the babies i think cus theyre so fast XD
truffle likes following him but she's yet to win him over
i think he's licked tillie's ear
i finished mia's blanket
which does look good im sure she and her dog will like it X3
i went to bed for an hour as i felt mentally drained for some reason
then i went for a walk with mum
it was cold but nice to spend time with her
then i started doing something i should have done a long time ago...
clear out of fabric
i have accumulated A LOT of fabric
i didnt quite realise just how bad the situation was actually ^^;
ive thrown out a dustbin bin bag full -_____-
its going to charity as i know they sell remnants
i have so much room now its a lot neater
and i know where stuff is
i then moved onto a few draws in my room that have been untidy for a while and struggled to shut a time or two, threw crap out and they shut now and are tidy
so yeah it wasnt too bad it took a couple of hours but it needed to be done
i gain fabric as presents, pieces that didnt get all used from projects, and stuff given to me
what i have thrown out is materials i dont work with anymore
no point in keeping them as i havent used them for years anyway
i know what i like to work with these days
tomorrow~
i have the doctors at 8:40am to discuss my Xray and my medication
then at 11am me and mum are seeing karen and her new puppy! i can not wait
ive seen pictures and he looks so damn cute but she says hes a bit naughty
so we will wait and see
then i plan to clean my room
later on i will see jack, i will go to his and drop off my stuff then walk to a place in the city centre to do some life drawing! Nigel goes and recommended it to me. its only £5 from 6-7:30pm so i will go there then go to jack's and watch digimon with him and stay over
i offered for him to join my in life drawing but this is how the conversation went
"you're welcome to join me"
"I do not want to draw some old guy's dong"
"actually it will probably be a woman otherwise i wouldnt be going"
"Let me rephrase that, i do not want to draw some old woman's saggy tits"
"thanks jack youre really making me want to go" XD
his is right tho, ive done life drawing before and the models are never 'pretty'
i think thursday im going into work with him
here is an under eye concealer i brought to try
and im quite impressed actually
really evens out the tone and helps rid those dark spots
Evening
I couldnt sleep last night
i felt so sick -___- so i got up for a hot chocolate
then I did fall asleep
its nice not being kept up aching tho
i got up at 8am
sat with the babies and watched the run around the hall whilst eating my breakfast on the floor with them i can tell when theyre hungry tho as they come sniffing you and circle you XD
by 9:10am i was dancing
i did 40 mins i was well hot! but it was good
after showering i worked on mia's blanket
then i sat with mum
went to sleep for an hour i know i shouldnt but i did
this afternoon i put my girls out!
mum had researched online that they are in fact fine to eat grass pretty much from day 1
so yeah why hesitate as they love it outside
so i filmed them and took photos
Oz thought it was great to jump in the run with them -___-
he was mustling in on everything it made me laugh
so he got his photo taken as well
i gave them 45 mins outside so they didnt eat too much grass first time
but they enjoyed it and followed one another, molly kept checking on them
so did oz XD
i went for a walk which was chilly but nice
its gonna be 0c tonight!!!
i worked a bit more on mia's quilt and i know tomorrow it will be finished!
then i brought a few bits online, practically finished my christmas shopping and even got a good dent in birthday presents for those who have birthdays at the start of 2020
might work more on my painting tonight as i havent done any in days
it gets too late and i run out of time ><
tomorrow i am going to finish mia's blanket and do anything else i feel like doing
my neighbours cat watching us whilst we were out with the pigs
