it snowed!

Konbanwa~~

I didnt sleep well but I put that down to the wind outside
my god the amount of damage that wind did
luckily all we had was a broken fence panel
I got up for school half in a daze i think this morning

The traffic was bad still, due to the closed road somewhere
it was grid locked
so i texted jack to let him know
i looked beside my car and saw one of the english teachers from school
i waved to her and she waved back we pulled faces at each other
behind us was another teacher
all in the same boat
so it once again took an hour to get to school

school was quite busy which i prefer
and i knew i had tuesday and wednesday to prep as i am going home tuesday lunch and coming back wednesday lunch so it doesnt leave a lot of time to prep and i dont want to leave jack with much to do from my side
i looked and i havent had much practicals for the last 2 weeks
the day im gone and theres 3 XD
guess who that falls to....
i broke the news to him gently XD
to be honest he was grouchy all day even when id made him his morning coffee
but a lot was annoying him like a lot of physics equipment breaking and he has to fix it or buy new ones both take ether time or money or both
but it was very much like he'd woken up on the wrong side of the bed today
i tried cheering him up best i could but i felt like i was grating on his patience today ><
i probably wasnt but thats how i felt ><

it was all weathers today
it went from
rain
to sleet
to hail
to snow
sending the kids crazy at school
but it was our first snow for 2020 which was nice in a way
it always snows round my birthday

i left on time and it took me an hour to get home
a sodding hour...
grid locked
this damn road is suppose to be back in action on wednesday
id had enough and i was starving too
so ive spent 2 hours in the car today -____-
i got home and ate loads

i sat with Ozwald 
who mum said enjoyed the snow X3
she had to get him in in the end as it was getting to cold and wet but he wasnt showing signs of wanting to get warm and dry
i went up to the shed for him and noticed all his footprints in the snow X3

i played on Kirby
decided i needed a plush of him
i saw massive plushies of him at the convention in october but jack talked me out of getting one cus he didnt want to face my mum's wrath as she says i have too many and not to buy anymore

after dinner
i found a plushie online cus of course i did X3
a lot cheaper than convention too
so i showed mum she agreed it was cute and i said i was thinking of getting rid of some old ones that no longer look nice as theyre like 15-20 years old
so i ordered kirby and threw out 4 plushies

i did 45mins of yoga to stretch out all the driving
i went to grab a drink and suddenly realised...i hadnt had any of my medication today....
i usually take 10 tablets in the morning and they were still there....
oops
i told mum she was not impressed
i offered to double dose to make up for it
she was not impressed with that ether it would seem
but yeah quite surprised how well ive coped with out them
ive had a cracking head ache since i drove home but i thought it was stress from driving
withdrawal obviously
i do not suffer with headaches usually
i shall make sure to have some meds tonight i guess
maybe  i can live without them

tomorrow is school
i have that damn traffic to contend with in the morning -____- i left early too this morning and it made no sodding difference
im coming home around lunch time as i have my physio appointment to attend

Birthday Weekend over with

Yo!

28 Year Old Jo here~~~~

It has been a good weekend ^^

Friday
I started my day with porridge which made a nice change
I had school 
I was kept busy and I helped Julia by making up 15 litres of hydrochloric acid up
thats a lot of acid~ and I felt so confident doing it too, not compared to when I first started working with acids
I got the cake out and everyone had some during break and lunch
people said I do not look 28 XD
Jack brought me cookies and i ate a few of those, but tried the cake and it did hurt my stomach

I brought Jack home with me and we had biscuits mum made for me
I opened up my gifts and cards which might I say this year were all heavily rabbit themed! X3
it was like everyone had decided this was to be a bunny year :3
mum brought me a massage voucher, a mini cactus, pyjamas, joggers, a bunny plate and bowl
Karen brought me a bunny cake plate
Tara brought me a bunny tea pot and a bunny mug
My brother gave me £20

we went to jack's and I opened my gifts from him
he got me 2 bath bombs to use at his, a geeky tour book of japan as he told me he still wants to go, and some chocolates from the chocolate shop we like going to
then we went out to for Pizza
I had bbq base, sausage, chicken, bacon, sweetcorn and i damn well did eat it all
we got back and some people had already started arriving for theo's night out
i for one could not be doing with that
i was far too tired and my stomach hurt a lot from pizza
so i laid curled up in a ball on jack's bed
he found me and stayed with me all night
we were hoping they would all sod off as they were getting loud and drunk
they didnt leave til like midnight....i was so tired
so i didnt fall asleep till like 1am

got up the next morning and got ready to go sherwood pines
i had told jack we were meeting mia rob and walt there
luckily we all got there at a similar time and we went for an hour's walk in the woods which was nice as we had lovely weather, then we sat in the winter sun having a picnic so i enjoyed myself.
mia brought me a massive selection of teas and a very cute rabbit mug
see rabbits again X3
we left and i went back to my house to see my ozwald and to grab a few bits
we went back to jack's and we went to the shops were i brought my switch!
i got the yellow switch lite i wanted ^^
we came back and made food well jack made food i played on HIS switch on pokemon with harvey and theo which was nice, just sat sandwiched between them on the sofa
after me and jack ate the 4 of us went out for dessert as i didnt get round to cookie dough the night before due to crippling stomach pain 
as we walked down the street from jack's flat
there was people walking around and then a group of men on bicycles came down the road fast, came on the pavement and they looked my age
one clipped the elbow of a guy walking with his wife like 5 metres from us
he said "oi watch it"
the cyclist stopped dead and said "you what?"
and at this point everyone including us stopped dead watching
they pushed at one another til the cyclist took his bike seat off quickly and whacked the guy in the face with it, he went down to the floor, his wife screaming
the cyclist and his gang road into the night, people rang the police
the guy got up with blood down his face
this happened on the corner of a pub, the pub landlord came out and invited the guy and his wife in
we left
it disgusted me
humans are such foul creatures
there was no need for any of that
i was quiet for the walk to the dessert place
jack said "are you alright?" 
i was but i had a lot on my mind
like that could have been any of us, that guy could have died, my brother is on his bike all the time what if he bumped into a gang like that, life is precious and humans are awful
we got to the dessert place and i had cookie dough and custard it was bloody amazing and we went with theo and harvey we all had something different
we all walked back to the flat
i had stomach ache walking back and died when i got to jacks it was very bad
but i knew what would happen

i was in bed for 10:30pm id had enough

woke up this morning at 9:15am late for me and i think i needed the sleep
i was having vivid dreams also
i had a lazy morning
i fell asleep after breakfast and i even had a bath with a bath bomb
had lunch with jack then left
came home to my girls trotting in and out the kitchen whilst i did my food for the week
then i sat with my Ozwald
fell asleep for 2 hours
think im just shattered from doing so much over the birthday weekend
but it has been really good i have enjoyed it and im grateful for everything everyone did for me
it felt good to celebrate it as i think after everything i go through i deserve to be happy and live it up how i want to sometimes
so its been a good birthday ^^

its 8:40pm i have my physio exercises to do 
Oz to see
nails to paint
then bed

school tomorrow
5 days to go before a week off!!

Tomorrow Jo is 28!

Evening

My god I have been sooooo tired

Work has been alright
i have just really really struggled this week
i get like this towards the end of term
i need that week off to simply recover
but just got another 6 working days til I have a week off to recharge

so yesterday I stayed at jack's
we got back and had a brew then walked round the city for a walk for me really
just cus i needed air and a stretch after my day
i picked up new gloves to drive in and very cute bat hair clips
all came to £5 as they were heavily reduced

we went back to his and we made food
then sat and talked with theo
i got ready for bed and i went to bed whilst jack watching love island
theo asked if jack could watch it with him
like ether of them need my permission XD
jack wasnt bothered but i told him to go watch it with theo
i slept pretty well too that night

school was alright just tiring
i left school
laid on sofa with Oz
then went yoga
i could not be arsed in the slightest but i knew i would enjoy it and feel better for it
and i did, karen went easy on us
i cracked so much in that session
i got home made some breakfast biscuits and made dinner

had a shower 
unpacked my stuff from jack's
doing my diary and its already 9:15pm
bed want bed
but gotta sit with Oz yet

It's 'green day' tomorrow at school
meaning everyone staff and students have to wear and item of green
at first i thought "not arsed" but then it hit me a couple of hours ago
'i could have a non-uniform day on my birthday'
so thats what im gonna do! im gonna wear a green t-shirt not my work polo shirt and instead of black trousers im gonna wear grey leggings
sure it will annoy jack so it will make me happy X3

tomorrow Jo turns 28!!!
my god im old
when do the wrinkles start?
what have i achieved in my 27th year?
Jack that was probably my biggest change in my life
dont feel like ive got very far really XD
wonder what goodies 28 will bring X3

so tomorrow
i go school
i come home with jack
we have cake mum is making, and eating it with Oz of course
then i go into the city centre with jack and i hopefully buy a Switch lite and we go for pizza
then i come back to his and relax then go out for cookie dough if i have the room
die
and go to sleep XD

saturday
i am meeting mia rob and walt at sherwood pines
were going walkies and having a picnic
im so glad im able to do something for my birthday this year
weather looks good for it :D

introducing foods - cheese and seeing tara

Evening~~

I slept pretty well but then I was pretty well dosed up  ><
I got up for school it was a chilly morning I have to say even tho it was above freezing

School was longggg
my god it was long
1 practical and that was first lesson
so i felt i had like nothing much going off
i attempted to update a technician guide but found it much to dull to sit and do
but every job i went to go and do i just wasnt in the mood to do somehow
everything was boring
until i turned round and asked a biology teacher if i could redo her photosynthesis display which had partly fallen down and before she could get to repair it, it got damaged by water
she jumped at the chance of me redoing her display for her
so that was that i went to art and robbed a load of acrylic
and started painting a sunflower, as you do
but its coming together really well
everyone who walked by it whilst i painted for over an hour in the science prep room was amazed by it and envied my skill
but i find it so easy as im not trying massively hard as i dont have the time or resources 
its nice that i can do something different to everyone around me tho
makes me feel i have a use, a place

as i had gotten into work 20mins early
i left 20 mins early
i was meeting tara after school so i wanted all the time i could get
i got in, got changed and sat down for 10 mins then left to meet tara

we met in the pub between our houses
and both had salted caramel hot chocolate which was nice
we sat and chatted for 2 hours
she cant believe me and jack have almost been going out a year and she hasnt met him yet
so we said we would try an go out for dinner the 4 of us next month

came home and got everything ready for school and ready to stay over at jack's tomorrow
so much sorting
did physio exercises also
ordered a switch game as i have decided to buy a switch
gonna get a yellow switch lite on friday or saturday

now gonna get Oz then go to bed
done in
eaten so many bad things today having so many bad thoughts about how fat i am
so tomorrow i shall eat better
just struggled for energy today and been bloody starving all sodding day
i also tried cheese today
gave me bad stomach pains....
but i was so hoping for pizza on friday
probably still eat it

school tomorrow then jacks
please god dont let school be boring again tomorrow
if not i will just paint all day XD

Cute little battie

Evening

I couldn't sleep that well 
and had strange dreams also
kinda glad when the alarm did go off
not that I wanted to start my monday

i waited in my car for jack as i had a load of biscuits in the boot amongst other things that needed taking up to science and there was no way i was carrying all that!
I did my hair differently today and he commented straight away
and it turned out i got quite a few comments actually
one of the first things jack said to me was "did you have a lot of free time this morning?"
i said "no its really easy to do"
but yeah maybe i should do it more often it was just plates and curls

my day was busy
busy busy
i had 4 practicals to attend too that needed chemicals and other crap
which made washing up too >.>
i rang doctors for a blood test and the soonest they could get me is wednesday....
as in NEXT wednesday
jesus, good job im not dying
it made jack worry honestly the amount he was worrying about me not getting seen to this instant was unreal, i said "you need to chill out, you worry too much"
he said "i just want you to be ok, right now we dont know whats up with you and you dont worry enough"
ok i will admit i am a bit concerned about why im passing out and have high blood pressure
whats more is that i actually woke up with my throat aching
which is a new one
but also where the thyroid is located
it doesnt feel like a sore throat more like a tightness or pressure

it was still morning and jack turned to me and said
"i have something for you"
i thought it was gonna be food to be honest 
i was not expecting this little guy!

look how cute he is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i LOVE bats
my 3 favourite animals in life are rabbits wolves and bats
and its so small and cute X3 i love it
i have hung it under my manga shelves seeing as i already have one bat hanging upside from my manga shelves
but yeah i loved him
jack picked him up when he went derbyshire yesterday

i got through my day
a few times jack told me to sit down
as he said "you burn through all your energy at the start of the week"
i think i was buzzing tho from the sheer amount of sugar id had
it was a biology teacher's bday at the weekend and she brought in some seriously good chocolate biscuits my god they were good
i came home and mum had baked so i robbed biscuits from her too X3

i sat with Oz and a brew
i talked to mum about maybe buying a switch lite
as i never tune off and do nothing
the only times during the day i tune off
are at night when i sit with Oz for 30+mins and when I go to bed and read for half hour
its not a lot
the rest of the day im always on the go
even watching youtube videos my brain is still going
i need to chill out
i can afford one its whether or not i will play on it
but i looked last night and theres a kirby game i wouldnt mind playing actually
so i will see
could get one at the weekend

i rested a bit then went for a walk
i made myself sardines on toast for dinner
my god it was good its been such a long time since i had that meal
i really enjoyed it

might do some drawing tonight if i have time

tomorrow is school
then i might be seeing tara after school 

just another sunday

Konbanwa

I got up at 8:15am
my joints cracked so much it was gross
went to see my Ozwald

I spent my morning making food basically
cooked the turkey
made soup
made biscuits
helped mum with tonights dinner
then i paid for my car insurance 
did 25mins of yoga and 25 mins of dancing
then went for a shower
by time i had got out it was 1pm
i had achieved a fair bit with my morning ^^

i had bread for lunch which i didnt really enjoy
i thought i had really missed bread but when it came to eating it
it was a bit like meh really
but i am grateful it didnt give me stomach ache that is one good thing

i started making mum's ipod pouch she wanted making
but i ended up running out of energy
went to sleep for an hour but even so i felt so done in
i laid there for another hour
my body felt so exhausted
i tried not to get annoyed with this
but in the end i got up and ate a load of food cus i wondered if i was hungry
and after that i was able to continue on
made mum's ipod pouch she liked it very much

then tidied up really and had food
that was my day
i have got to do my physio exercises yet
and also paint my nails
but im not doing anything amazing on them
too tired and they will probably get wrecked at work anyway

tomorrow is work
ugh monday
monday is my busiest day too -___-
my birthday on friday tho XD

Introducing foods - bread

Konbanwa

I slept well last night
i took my blood pressure twice yesterday and twice it was in the red high zone...
i woke up at 7:30am and did my blood pressure in bed
it was still high...this is very strange as mine has always been stupidly low
i went to let Ozwald out
I bathed the pigs this morning, yesterday they had their claws clipped today was bath time so theyre all fresh and lovely. not that they appreciated it
truffle tried to make a break for freedom but slipped on the plug hole and landed in the water, so she looked like a drowned rat. luckily i picked up and the water wasnt deep so she wasnt coughing or anything she looked shocked and just let us continue after that XD
I tried to do a bit of yoga this morning but my body was just so damn tired
i got showered and did a bit of make up and went out to have my hair cut
cus my god it needed doing

from there i went to jack's
we went food shopping for biscuits
brought £20 worth of cheap biscuits as my god the science staff get through a lot of biscuits
then we brought food for lunch after we checked a few cafes and realised there still isnt anything i can eat out yet, need to introduce more foods before i can eat out. im too limited at the moment

i thought about getting my ears pierced but i didnt feel up to it
so we went to jacks and warmed up soup and i had bread with mine
had bread today! first time in like 5 weeks
it was nice but i wasnt like blown away by it
milk has been a life saver so far
but i seemed to be ok with the bread so far

after we ate i just felt so tired and drained
jack asked what i wanted to do and i said "sleep"
he said no reason why you cant 
i said "well i did want to spend time with you today"
he said "i am happy to sleep with you"
so we cuddled and slept for over an hour
when i woke up we just laid and talked
he asked if i wanted to go out but i just didnt want to 
i just felt exhausted
so he said "shall i bring the pick and mix into bed with us?"
so i laid there whilst he grabbed the pot from the fridge
and we laid there eating chocolates and sweets in bed
it was really simple and really nice
i enjoyed it actually and he did
he said "actually go jo to relax today"
true very true

i went home and got into my pyjamas and had my dinner
and a small piece of bread
then had stomach pains
i hope its not the bread

i have got to have a blood test
if my thyroid isnt being medicated properly it can cause high blood pressure
but if i have a blood test and it reveals my thyroid is fine and medicated just right
then it means something else is up...something that causes high blood pressure and fainting
i am a little worried
and i have told mum and jack
jack said to get booked in ASAP and dont worry about work
i said "Ill probably faint and im not sure when i'll be able to get into work afterwards"
he said "sod work focus on yourself you need to get looked at"
i didnt want to worry him but i figured he'd need to know
i will ring up for an appointment on monday

tomorrow
i have:
soup to make
biscuits to make
turkey stakes to cook
an ipod fabric case to make for mum
art to do
exercise to do
maybe mia to see
full on day!
jack will be in derbyshire hiking with scouts for like 5 hours straight
enjoy
he will be tired on monday no doubt

thats all anyway