painting begins and stupid fire alarms

 Evening

Didn't sleep great, sharing a single bed sucks. Just waking up all the time cus there is no space. This morning when I woke up at 5:15am my back felt so painful i couldnt wait to get up, I got up at 5:45am my back killed, it was like twisted. It hurt yesterday but today is worse, like another night not sleeping in the right position has just killed it. Hurts from my right shoulder blade, down my right ribs, lower spine. So I tried to help it with hot bags this morning -___-

when I ate breakfast with jack I told him about my back and told him one of us is sleeping on the sofa tonight. He volunteered. But I told him I felt bad making him sleep on the sofa but he insisted. Turns out he is wallpapering tonight, determined to get the job done with his mum so I said that works out well as he doesnt need to worry about getting back late and disturbing me if he stays downstairs tonight, so i am gonna put all his bedding and pyjamas in the living room for him for when he gets in.

So school

I had a practical first thing - a big one

and I decided out of the kindness of my heart that I would totally set the practical up, everything was trayed up into group work. So 10 trays full of all the equipment they would need + on the sides extra equipment such as water baths. It was for Luke and he was very happy with the way I had done it for him and his class ^^ head of science passed the room and I called him to look and I said "look at this! its like a work of art, im well happy with it" he praised me ^^ during me setting all this up, jack found me, he was on the phone to mum as I had left my mobile at home today - woops - he passed the phone to me. It was mum saying that dad's friend who is painting thinks the colours i have chosen look a bit too strong for the room, do I want to proceed? well it was a bit hard not to proceed as I cant go fetch any other colour and to be honest anything would look better than the grubby walls that it was, heck bright pink and lime green would be an improvement! so i told her to to him to just go for it.

2nd period i would have the same practical in the same room - excellent

well it would be excellent if it wasnt for the fact the fire alarm went off....

some nob-head was vaping in the toilets!!

we were stood outside, in the cold, then in sleeted, fire men came, half hour later we were allowed back into the building >.> i was hurting. I had been stood half hour in the cold which is probably the worst thing i can do to myself.

so it took me an hour of recovery, jack found me and made me a hot chocolate and warmed my hot bag up for me, what id do without him ^^ i took double pain killers, something i have never done at school before but i was desperate to feel better. My practical had gone tits up and will need to be repeated on friday T^T

after I felt better I got up and went to remove my practical from the room, upon coming down with the trolly of stuff in the lift i felt suddenly very dizzy and faint. to my luck, a chair was outside the lift, i saw it and sat on it. A TA found me and asked if i was ok, got me some water and a mini chocolate. Then Jack found me - course he did - and took me back to the prep room. honestly, bet he doesnt want to take his eyes off me. 

So I felt crap really but stuck it out and got home

upon going home i found dad was home >.>

him and mum had been round the bungalow and were able to watch the transformation as dad's friend painted. so dad couldnt wait to tell me what he had been doing. all i wanted was a quiet after school brew but i had dad talking about the house. and sometimes i just dont want to talk about the house. im very grateful for all they are doing but sometimes i need a break

I went for a walk with mum and jack had a shower whilst i was gone, we had dinner then my brother kindly drove jack over to the bungalow to paper, i came on my laptop to look at stuff for the house. i know what curtain rods i want i just need to order them and then i have ordered the light fittings for the side walls but no the ceiling in the living room. slowly getting there.

I tell you what i am being in my bed before 9pm tonight I CAN NOT WAIT

is it sad i cant wait for an early bed alone? i told jack that. he didnt look pleased but i told him i have to make the most of it before i have to sleep next to him for the rest of my life XD

tomorrow is school

got a few practicals too >< just hope i can get through the day

Oh and I havent personally seen the paint jobs but mum took photos and i think it looks ok, she said ti does look alright actually and dad even liked it! my god! my parents always hate my colour choices! so i am keen to see it in person!

made sugar mess

 Evening

I woke up a fair bit in the night, so was a bit tired this morning 

we got to school and many of science staff asked us about our bungalow and they had even been talking amongst themselves about it too, as some came up to us and was like "heard about your bungalow!" they were happy for us ^^

I made mess today, making up 5L of sugar solutions, I used the hot plate to heat the water to make is dissolve quicker and i spilt the sugar onto the hot plate then the solution split too, so i had this liquid and sugar crystals burning onto essentially a hot hob! it smelt nice at first, kinda like caramel then turned to burnt smell XD I spilt solution where i was working too, honestly i couldnt havent made more mess if i had tried! I put it down to tiredness

I did other stuff and got the day done but i was bloody done i tell you!

got home and was ready for a brew and pain killers

found out mum and dad had been at the bungalow today ^^ helping out which i appreciated very much

after dinner i took jack over to the bungalow as his mum and step dad were coming over to help wallpaper, i was going to measure stuff cus you know - i have more stuff to buy! and as i spent 5-10mins looking for the tape measure i was using i gave in and rang home. dad had pocketed the tape measure -_____- i was peeved but im only a 1min drive away so its not all bad. i went home, grabbed it, came back and measured up. jack's parents turned up and i stayed for a few mins talking to them then went home to order. and been here ever since. i have more bits to order but dont want to order before i have confirmed a few things with jack so i will show him tomorrow as i imagine he will get back late. no rush anyway.

it will come together i am sure

we got stuff in the post today such as bedroom curtains and curtain pole and cutlery organiser so i can wash my cutlery now and take that over.

mum says she will just keep popping over when she has time, shes so good to me

tomorrow just another school day then anytime left goes to house i suppose :/

slept on the sofa

 Evening

I was so done last night

Jack didnt get home til 10:15pm

He needed to shower, so as soon as he came home I sent him to shower, baring in mind everyone was thinking of going to bed and he had the shower on. I was stressed with everything, I was at my limit and had enough. He came out the shower and joined me in bed but was very fidgety due to him doing a physical and mental activity of hanging wallpaper half hour previous, so he was fidgeting, my dad was snoring, my brother was playing his ipad in his room.

my limit was met

i grabbed my stuff and took it downstairs.

left it on the sofa and went for a wee, i came out the toilet and found jack in the living room

i was like "what you doing here?"

jack "i came to see if you were ok"

"yes I am fine I just need to be alone, im sleeping on the sofa"

"thats not fair on you tho, you will ache, I will sleep on the sofa"

"no jack just go away I am sleeping here"

and he left. I felt a bit awful but I just needed to be alone, i was in the quiet and had more space on the sofa than on my bed with jack

I woke up to the sound of the printer my dad turned on at 6:50am --_______--

I went to see mum at 7am and told her i slept downstairs and I did sleep but had a stiff back

I went to see jack and he wondered if i was cross at him, i wasnt and gave him cuddles. we got up and had breakfast

signed into the online meeting in our pyjamas and when that had finished we went to the bank so i could transfer jack money. then we went to pick up yet more paint. came back to the bungalow to find chris had just pulled up to have a look round the house and gave his opinion on stuff which was nice of him. and as luck would have it our bed was delievered whilst chris was there so he was able to help jack shove it into the spare room until we are ready for it

I took jack home and we had some lunch, i took him back over to the bungalow with the microwave as i thought i could take some stuff over slowly. stuff that wont get in the way whilst decorating and cleaning kinda thing. his mum came over and helped him lay more wallpaper and he came home at 6pm for dinner, then went over with dad to do some odd jobs then home again for the evening

his mum is coming over again at 6;30pm tomorrow to help with wallpaper so it will be another late night no doubt which i am not happy about due to having school in the morning but i cant turn the help away. just gotta get through it.

i have just slept and took it easy today, and done some display work really

tomorrow is school

i hope i sleep and i can get through a boring day at school >< 

Already fed up of the house

 Evening

I didnt sleep great, I woke up to dad snoring, then jack snoring, then my arm was hyper extending off the bed, I got cold as I lost my blanket. And yeah it just wasnt a good night to be honest

We woke up at 7:30am as my dad wanted to go to the tip at 8:30am as jack's mum was coming at 9am

so I got up with him - reluctantly - but i knew he would want to eat breakfast with me rather than eating alone. So then him and dad went and took more garden waste to the tip. and then went straight to the bungalow. I stayed home as my collection order would be ready between 10-11am at B&Q 

so i pleased myself and did some dancing and yoga as i was very stiff from not doing anything yesterday but it was an effort

mum came with me to collect which I am very happy about as I picked up paint from B&M as well which was cheaper than B&Q as B&Q didnt have my paint in stock. but it was all soo heavy to carry

I got to the bungalow after dropping mum off home, I txted mia who came round bringing me stuff and bringing me the hoover which i asked her this morning if i could collect from her but she brought it all round with rob and the dogs, had a look round the bungalow and then went and took the dogs a walk. she loved the bungalow, feel like everyone loves it but me!

after making jack and his mum a brew and measuring up a few more things i came home as I felt very much at my limit to be honest of what i could handle. i was sick of having to do things and fetch things and think of things. I made lunch and dad took it over to jack and did another tip run with him whilst his mum went home to his sisters for a bit. i went to bed.

mum woke me wanting to do a walk

so i was happy in a warm bed and got thrusted outside in the cold

upon walking down the side pathway of the bungalow we looked up and saw that dad jack and dad's friend bran was in the bungalow, dad waved for us to come in so we walked round. and basically thrust on me that bran has a week off (hes a painter and decorator) and wants to help, what colours do i want the living room, hall and kitchen? just like that i am suppose to know! so i went inside the bungalow with jack and he looked as clueless as ever when it came to this sort of thing. so i made the decisions and ran it by jack but he would be fine with anything. told bran and my dad and then went for a walk with mum like we were doing. we talked about the house - could of guessed we'd talk about that!

i got home and just wanted to be left alone to be honest

i had had enough T^T just everyone leave me alone!

so instead i sat with Oz on the sofa and looked at yet more stuff i have to order! yet more money! thats another £100 gone just like that, and tomorrow I need to buy paint T^T so more money

i couldnt order paint online again tonight so i will go down to B&M and see if they have any paint

dad came home with jack and i made him sit, i made him a cup of tea with brandy in it

i made us beans on toast for dinner as he was meeting him mum round the bungalow at 6pm for wallpaper laying

he later phoned me "i dont have a pencil"

i could cry

he works so slow and is so disorganised im always picking up the pieces

but i guess he is busy and has a lot to think about 

he just is so slow doing anything.

so mum drove me over to the bungalow, pencil in hand, as i looked like death

delivered pencil and came away

its 9pm and he isnt home yet, hes got to shower all the paint and dust off himself yet!

I sat doing some school work at my desk to chill out to for an hour and means i have an hour's less work to do tomorrow, it chilled me out painting baby yoda 

tomorrow we are working from home for the first time ever on an insec day!

so we are gonna do that and do other bits like the bank, and let chris come see the bungalow as he said he would help and there is a lot he can help with to be honest.

got A LOT to do tomorrow, from bank, work, carpet shop, B&M for paint

i want to cry

its all too much 

i dont want the house anymore

just take it away

first 24 of the house

 Konbanwa~

We both slept well

but got up as I knew we had a lot to crack on with

so by 9am my dad had fired the chain saw up and got one his friends to help him

we went over about 9:30am, i didnt even get out my car I just dropped jack off XD

I had an easy morning as I was quite dead to be honest but I went to the corner shop with mum to get bread for lunch and helped but lunch together for the 3 guys

jack hadnt done an awful lot by lunch time due to him being on the phone to his mum then his nan....

But I made him sit and eat lunch and i made them all a hot drink 

just as jack was finishing his coffee his mum and step dad arrived, they wanted the grand tour then my brother turned up who also wanted the grand tour so i did that then he soon sloped off whereas jacks parents stayed and helped clean. jack and his mum took the kitchen and the other 3 men were outside decimating the garden. we have nothing left as sadly the trees were rotten and bushes were dead. so yeah it looks like a grave yard. but needed to be done. its now a blank canvas for mum

i left after 90mins as i could feel the cold seeping in my joints and my stomach knotting up 

so i went home, hoping i didnt look like a lazy, ungrateful selfish brat

i went online after i had measured things up at the bungalow and spent £140 on stuff for the bedroom and a few things for the house we needed

then i went and got warm in my bed

Jack came home and showered and we ordered pizza 

then we looked at stuff to decorate with on B&Q website. we managed to order everything apart from paint. like no paint in stock. its a bit worrying. so im hoping there might be something in store tomorrow i can pick up maybe, if not then i guess we will have to paint at a later state. but at least we have the wallpaper and stuff for now, spent a further £70 online there tho -______-

so i will go down and pick it all up tomorrow at some point in the morning

my dad and jack are going to the tip at 9am to get rid of all the garden waste 

and his mum is coming over to clean for a few hours in the morning as well

so another day to the bungalow, another day i cant really help out

im shattered and just had enough already whereas i should be excited and getting involved but once again my illess likes to make its self known and likes to ruin my life.

the kitchen isnt even fully cleaned yet. everything is taking sooooooooo long

Jack and Jo in da Bungalow

 Evening

I slept well and so did jack actually, probably the brandy in his tea last night XD

This morning i did 25mins of dancing til I was hot and sweaty then went for a shower, then me and jack started to watch some of the videos we are gonna watch on monday just to keep us busy and to save time really, it was really boring and we only watched the first health and safety video as the solicitors rang jack at 10:30am and said we can go get the keys!

so I shouted mum from the top of the stairs and told her to get her stuff together as we were off to get keys and to also get a shed load of cleaning products, mum cleans all the time she loves it and knows what works best and what to get so we took her with us and she drove us to the estate agents and we got the keys and they have an awful key chain on XD then we went wilkos and spent £97 on cleaning products! 0.0 how is that possible!? my mum was loving it. We also got a kitchen bin with all that too as we need one.

we got home at 11:50am and had tea cakes and a brew and biscuit then we drove all the cleaning stuff over to the bungalow

I felt sick if i am honest but mum said it was excitement

I went and put the key in the door and opened the door and made jack carry me over the threshold XD he only just managed it, it was very inelegant but i expect no less from him

we looked round the bungalow, refreshing ourselves with it and assessing it really

the people who owned it and had left us wine, a card, lawn mower, garden equipment, microwave, washer, fridge, sofa, garden ornaments, a bit of cleaning equipment and a note 

it was very lovely of them and i think they appreciate we were first time young buyers so we dont have anything

upon looking around i was feeling quite overwhelmed as i just literally didnt know where to start. everything has like a layer of grim on it like nothing has been cleaned for a very long time. like everything. window frames, light switches, surfaces, tiles, taps, everything

mum said for me and jack to do the kitchen as she wanted to do the bathroom

so i started on the fridge which was grim to be honest i had to take all the shelves out and disinfect everything and wiped down the whole outside too. jack started on the cooker, he thought the glass cover on the top was frosted glass...no it was just layers of grime. yeah its all very unloved and gross

we had all the windows and doors open to air the place as the air is stale

i was getting very cold

and to be honest it all got to me and i cried and jack held me. i was tired, in pain and just done.

mum saw and straight away was like "taking you home"

but i felt like i was giving in, i wasnt able to keep up and only managed to clean a small fridge

she said "it is not worth making yourself sick, things will get done when they get done. every little thing helps so what you have done has helped. we will just do a bit each time"

so she left jack there and drove me home were i got wrapped up, dosed up with pain killers and went to bed. i felt useless and didnt want think or feel

jack later woke me up and i was glad he was home and he was smiling but the smile soon vanished when he realised how dead i was. my body was weak and shaking. and i looked like death.

yeah not good

he told me his mum is coming on saturday and i cried as i worried that i might be able to help, its frustrating and if i can manage to even clean a house how will i be able to even live without the help of my parents!? if i can not help tomorrow and end up going home to rest, what will others think? will the think i am lazy or disinterested or ungrateful?

yeah i wasnt happy

i should be happy

i have a house, something i never thought would happen

but im just overwhelmed by it all

but i am also sure that we will do this

jack is supporting me all the way

my dad and brother maybe will come tomorrow, dad is rearing to go XD hes even taken the day off work something he NEVER does.

i hope tomorrow goes well for us

so yeah we are officially home owners

jack has been sorting out all the bills bless him

i cut his hair for him tonight so he looks tidy for when his mum sees him tomorrow, cant let her think im not looking after her baby boy XD

i am looking forward to decorating tho, i will take photos but today was just full on and i didnt get my chance.

I'll be a home owner tomorrow

 Evening~~~~

I didn't sleep well last night, a certain someone who will remain unnamed was snoring >.>

but he was tired yesterday so I didnt wake him and just tried to sleep but the noise of it kept waking me up! I woke up at 4am and was pretty much awake from then on. By 5:40am i was up, i'd had enough of waiting for the alarm to go off and I had stomach ache too.

two mornings in a row Ive had upset stomach T^T

Today at work I feel it was painfully slow

just time went slow and I was so tired and exhausted so it felt like it took 10x more effort just to move my body around the school

I got everything done tho and did some extra bits I have wanted to do but just wanted to go home the day was such a slog but we got nice comments upon leaving  like "good luck tomorrow" 

We got home and had a brew with Oz and mum, I was gonna dance but dad came home early! urgh what were the chances of that happening >.> I was well annoyed so I decided to go a walk and jack kindly came with me :)

we got back and jack started looking at house insurance and other housey bill crap stuff and had a shower and then worked on my drawing for the first time all god damn week!

so this time tomorrow I will be a house owner

bit hard to fully appreciate or comprehend 

and is incredibly daunting 

jack is much more excited about it all

i am just overwhelmed and wonder what the hell i have got myself in for

but we have had loads of support and people saying they will help

so we shall see what the next chapter will be~

so tired -_______________-