is it all most done yet?

 Evening

So last night me and jack went over to the bungalow for almost 2 hours and returned just before 9pm, we had applied the first coat to the bedroom. I was so shattered

showered and sat with Oz

I tried to sleep but jack soon went to sleep and was heavy breathing, my dad was snoring in the other room and my brother was on his ipad but sounded as if they were all next to me.

I tried to get comfy and felt my back twisting so decided to get up as my back is only just getting better really so i didnt want to twist it again.

i slept downstairs but couldnt get comfy to be honest and so my sleep quality wasnt great but at least I didnt get a twisted back

I got up at 7:45am and got my breakfast all sorted to eat outside when Jack came downstairs he hugged me and apologised as he felt awful knowing i had slept downstairs and offered to sleep downstairs tonight. I said it was fine and just didnt want a twisted back. I still ate outside in the garden it was chilly but i felt i needed the air. Oz was well happy about me being outside, he came running and kept showing off in front of me X3

I cleaned him out and he came to investigate what I was doing.

By 9:20am we were round the bungalow painting, applying the second coat. Which about did me in and then dad came round and did some jobs and we had finished he went B&Q with jack for some new locks for the house, I had come home and crawled to bed. Whilst I had been in bed Jack and dad had been fitting other things round the house such as new lights and things i had ordered online. I thought they were coming home for lunch! so mum took them lunch round, i ate lunch at home then came over to do all the white wood work in the bedroom which truly killed me off. I had had enough T^T

so much has been done to that house its unreal.

whilst i was painting in the bedroom, jack was outside the door in the hall putting up the new lamp shades which were paper lanterns. I chose one bright pink one bright red. Thinking they would add a tinge of colour to the plain light grey walls. nooooo. it made the place look like a brothel i mean we found it funny. but i has got to change it looks awful. the colour and lighting was much much stronger than i thought it would be but we liked the concept. So since then I have ordered a pale purple and pale pink. when they arrive we will put them up. I chose them cus i they would hide the hideous old wire holding the lightbulb up and add a touch of colour. they hide the wire perfectly but yeah need a lighter colour!

but dad goes at 100mph just one thing after a sodding nother. had enough. i keep leaving him with jack as i cant cope hes making my heart beat erratically. Jack copes with him better than me but then dad aso treats jack better than he does me so yeah :/ 

i came home and showered at 4:30pm 

done in

so much for "take it easy this weekend Jo" as numerous people have said to me

how can i take it easy when people want things from me all the time!? whether thats doing stuff, fetching stuff, making decisions, talking about whats next all the damn time! Leave me alone!!!

ive been slopping off to be by myself when ever i can i just need quiet time. i dont even want Jack. i just want peace and quiet. and he keeps finding me, keeps giving me affection. i just want alone time.

tomorrow i hope i dont have to do a damn thing for that house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sick of it

think theyre aiming to get jack able to sleep there tomorrow. so i can have my bed back to myself

i have plenty of stuff to order online anyway. so that will eat a lot of my time no doubt

just had enough.

not enjoyed any aspect of moving out so far  

i hope i sleep tonight

i can see myself being on the sofa, despite jack offering to take the sofa i feel bad him doing that.

i must take photos of the house tomorrow!

had the bungalow a week

 Evening

Yesterday I just ran out of everything to give

it was nice to have my bed to myself on wednesday night, I was in bed for 9pm whilst Jack was over wallpapering the bedroom with his mum and step mum, he didnt finish til 10:30pm I didnt even hear him come home I told him to take the sofa so I didnt see him til thursday morning.

School was sooo hard. I had 3 hard practicals and yeah it was just full on really. But I was praised for my hard work. The highlight was head of science bringing in a tray of ringed sprinkled doughnuts *0*

I came home, went to bed, woke up for dinner and said bye to jack who went to paint the ceiling in the bedroom, went to bed, woke up to sit with Oz and stayed up for Jack and we went to bed at 9:30pm I hardly spoke to him. I was so tired, so full of pain killers - mum said my speech was slurred! 

so totally written off day for me, didnt do any exercise, go on my laptop or even use my phone

Didnt want to go school this morning, I was just done with life

I was in a mood all morning just felt tired, in pain and couldnt be bothered with it all

took me 5 hours to start to feel more like myself

i had 2 hard practicals back to back for head of biology and afterwards she actually praised me for my organisation and pracitcals! as I got them right and got them to work ^^

so i felt good that in 1 week I had

head of science praise me

head of biology praise me

a biology teacher tell jack i was doing really well

makes me feel like i can do my job right even if i dont understand the science behind what i am doing

i got home, dosed myself up and sat with Oz and the girls with a brew

and opened up the multiple parcels i received - all house stuff of course

then i have sat for a bit but im about to have dinner then go over to the bungalow to give the bedroom its first coat of paint. i havent seen the living room, kitchen or hall since its been painted so it will be good to see the progress

i cant get over how much has been done to that bungalow in the space of a week as we have had that bungalow exactly 1 week. a lot of hours and efforts has gone into that bungalow.

just tired of it. 

tomorrow probably be painting and putting up stuff in the house

house stuff anyway

but i will have to heal over the weekend otherwise i will be dead for the next week -_____-

we're aiming to get jack in the bungalow on sunday

so i will soon get my bed to myself!

painting begins and stupid fire alarms

 Evening

Didn't sleep great, sharing a single bed sucks. Just waking up all the time cus there is no space. This morning when I woke up at 5:15am my back felt so painful i couldnt wait to get up, I got up at 5:45am my back killed, it was like twisted. It hurt yesterday but today is worse, like another night not sleeping in the right position has just killed it. Hurts from my right shoulder blade, down my right ribs, lower spine. So I tried to help it with hot bags this morning -___-

when I ate breakfast with jack I told him about my back and told him one of us is sleeping on the sofa tonight. He volunteered. But I told him I felt bad making him sleep on the sofa but he insisted. Turns out he is wallpapering tonight, determined to get the job done with his mum so I said that works out well as he doesnt need to worry about getting back late and disturbing me if he stays downstairs tonight, so i am gonna put all his bedding and pyjamas in the living room for him for when he gets in.

So school

I had a practical first thing - a big one

and I decided out of the kindness of my heart that I would totally set the practical up, everything was trayed up into group work. So 10 trays full of all the equipment they would need + on the sides extra equipment such as water baths. It was for Luke and he was very happy with the way I had done it for him and his class ^^ head of science passed the room and I called him to look and I said "look at this! its like a work of art, im well happy with it" he praised me ^^ during me setting all this up, jack found me, he was on the phone to mum as I had left my mobile at home today - woops - he passed the phone to me. It was mum saying that dad's friend who is painting thinks the colours i have chosen look a bit too strong for the room, do I want to proceed? well it was a bit hard not to proceed as I cant go fetch any other colour and to be honest anything would look better than the grubby walls that it was, heck bright pink and lime green would be an improvement! so i told her to to him to just go for it.

2nd period i would have the same practical in the same room - excellent

well it would be excellent if it wasnt for the fact the fire alarm went off....

some nob-head was vaping in the toilets!!

we were stood outside, in the cold, then in sleeted, fire men came, half hour later we were allowed back into the building >.> i was hurting. I had been stood half hour in the cold which is probably the worst thing i can do to myself.

so it took me an hour of recovery, jack found me and made me a hot chocolate and warmed my hot bag up for me, what id do without him ^^ i took double pain killers, something i have never done at school before but i was desperate to feel better. My practical had gone tits up and will need to be repeated on friday T^T

after I felt better I got up and went to remove my practical from the room, upon coming down with the trolly of stuff in the lift i felt suddenly very dizzy and faint. to my luck, a chair was outside the lift, i saw it and sat on it. A TA found me and asked if i was ok, got me some water and a mini chocolate. Then Jack found me - course he did - and took me back to the prep room. honestly, bet he doesnt want to take his eyes off me. 

So I felt crap really but stuck it out and got home

upon going home i found dad was home >.>

him and mum had been round the bungalow and were able to watch the transformation as dad's friend painted. so dad couldnt wait to tell me what he had been doing. all i wanted was a quiet after school brew but i had dad talking about the house. and sometimes i just dont want to talk about the house. im very grateful for all they are doing but sometimes i need a break

I went for a walk with mum and jack had a shower whilst i was gone, we had dinner then my brother kindly drove jack over to the bungalow to paper, i came on my laptop to look at stuff for the house. i know what curtain rods i want i just need to order them and then i have ordered the light fittings for the side walls but no the ceiling in the living room. slowly getting there.

I tell you what i am being in my bed before 9pm tonight I CAN NOT WAIT

is it sad i cant wait for an early bed alone? i told jack that. he didnt look pleased but i told him i have to make the most of it before i have to sleep next to him for the rest of my life XD

tomorrow is school

got a few practicals too >< just hope i can get through the day

Oh and I havent personally seen the paint jobs but mum took photos and i think it looks ok, she said ti does look alright actually and dad even liked it! my god! my parents always hate my colour choices! so i am keen to see it in person!

made sugar mess

 Evening

I woke up a fair bit in the night, so was a bit tired this morning 

we got to school and many of science staff asked us about our bungalow and they had even been talking amongst themselves about it too, as some came up to us and was like "heard about your bungalow!" they were happy for us ^^

I made mess today, making up 5L of sugar solutions, I used the hot plate to heat the water to make is dissolve quicker and i spilt the sugar onto the hot plate then the solution split too, so i had this liquid and sugar crystals burning onto essentially a hot hob! it smelt nice at first, kinda like caramel then turned to burnt smell XD I spilt solution where i was working too, honestly i couldnt havent made more mess if i had tried! I put it down to tiredness

I did other stuff and got the day done but i was bloody done i tell you!

got home and was ready for a brew and pain killers

found out mum and dad had been at the bungalow today ^^ helping out which i appreciated very much

after dinner i took jack over to the bungalow as his mum and step dad were coming over to help wallpaper, i was going to measure stuff cus you know - i have more stuff to buy! and as i spent 5-10mins looking for the tape measure i was using i gave in and rang home. dad had pocketed the tape measure -_____- i was peeved but im only a 1min drive away so its not all bad. i went home, grabbed it, came back and measured up. jack's parents turned up and i stayed for a few mins talking to them then went home to order. and been here ever since. i have more bits to order but dont want to order before i have confirmed a few things with jack so i will show him tomorrow as i imagine he will get back late. no rush anyway.

it will come together i am sure

we got stuff in the post today such as bedroom curtains and curtain pole and cutlery organiser so i can wash my cutlery now and take that over.

mum says she will just keep popping over when she has time, shes so good to me

tomorrow just another school day then anytime left goes to house i suppose :/

slept on the sofa

 Evening

I was so done last night

Jack didnt get home til 10:15pm

He needed to shower, so as soon as he came home I sent him to shower, baring in mind everyone was thinking of going to bed and he had the shower on. I was stressed with everything, I was at my limit and had enough. He came out the shower and joined me in bed but was very fidgety due to him doing a physical and mental activity of hanging wallpaper half hour previous, so he was fidgeting, my dad was snoring, my brother was playing his ipad in his room.

my limit was met

i grabbed my stuff and took it downstairs.

left it on the sofa and went for a wee, i came out the toilet and found jack in the living room

i was like "what you doing here?"

jack "i came to see if you were ok"

"yes I am fine I just need to be alone, im sleeping on the sofa"

"thats not fair on you tho, you will ache, I will sleep on the sofa"

"no jack just go away I am sleeping here"

and he left. I felt a bit awful but I just needed to be alone, i was in the quiet and had more space on the sofa than on my bed with jack

I woke up to the sound of the printer my dad turned on at 6:50am --_______--

I went to see mum at 7am and told her i slept downstairs and I did sleep but had a stiff back

I went to see jack and he wondered if i was cross at him, i wasnt and gave him cuddles. we got up and had breakfast

signed into the online meeting in our pyjamas and when that had finished we went to the bank so i could transfer jack money. then we went to pick up yet more paint. came back to the bungalow to find chris had just pulled up to have a look round the house and gave his opinion on stuff which was nice of him. and as luck would have it our bed was delievered whilst chris was there so he was able to help jack shove it into the spare room until we are ready for it

I took jack home and we had some lunch, i took him back over to the bungalow with the microwave as i thought i could take some stuff over slowly. stuff that wont get in the way whilst decorating and cleaning kinda thing. his mum came over and helped him lay more wallpaper and he came home at 6pm for dinner, then went over with dad to do some odd jobs then home again for the evening

his mum is coming over again at 6;30pm tomorrow to help with wallpaper so it will be another late night no doubt which i am not happy about due to having school in the morning but i cant turn the help away. just gotta get through it.

i have just slept and took it easy today, and done some display work really

tomorrow is school

i hope i sleep and i can get through a boring day at school >< 

Already fed up of the house

 Evening

I didnt sleep great, I woke up to dad snoring, then jack snoring, then my arm was hyper extending off the bed, I got cold as I lost my blanket. And yeah it just wasnt a good night to be honest

We woke up at 7:30am as my dad wanted to go to the tip at 8:30am as jack's mum was coming at 9am

so I got up with him - reluctantly - but i knew he would want to eat breakfast with me rather than eating alone. So then him and dad went and took more garden waste to the tip. and then went straight to the bungalow. I stayed home as my collection order would be ready between 10-11am at B&Q 

so i pleased myself and did some dancing and yoga as i was very stiff from not doing anything yesterday but it was an effort

mum came with me to collect which I am very happy about as I picked up paint from B&M as well which was cheaper than B&Q as B&Q didnt have my paint in stock. but it was all soo heavy to carry

I got to the bungalow after dropping mum off home, I txted mia who came round bringing me stuff and bringing me the hoover which i asked her this morning if i could collect from her but she brought it all round with rob and the dogs, had a look round the bungalow and then went and took the dogs a walk. she loved the bungalow, feel like everyone loves it but me!

after making jack and his mum a brew and measuring up a few more things i came home as I felt very much at my limit to be honest of what i could handle. i was sick of having to do things and fetch things and think of things. I made lunch and dad took it over to jack and did another tip run with him whilst his mum went home to his sisters for a bit. i went to bed.

mum woke me wanting to do a walk

so i was happy in a warm bed and got thrusted outside in the cold

upon walking down the side pathway of the bungalow we looked up and saw that dad jack and dad's friend bran was in the bungalow, dad waved for us to come in so we walked round. and basically thrust on me that bran has a week off (hes a painter and decorator) and wants to help, what colours do i want the living room, hall and kitchen? just like that i am suppose to know! so i went inside the bungalow with jack and he looked as clueless as ever when it came to this sort of thing. so i made the decisions and ran it by jack but he would be fine with anything. told bran and my dad and then went for a walk with mum like we were doing. we talked about the house - could of guessed we'd talk about that!

i got home and just wanted to be left alone to be honest

i had had enough T^T just everyone leave me alone!

so instead i sat with Oz on the sofa and looked at yet more stuff i have to order! yet more money! thats another £100 gone just like that, and tomorrow I need to buy paint T^T so more money

i couldnt order paint online again tonight so i will go down to B&M and see if they have any paint

dad came home with jack and i made him sit, i made him a cup of tea with brandy in it

i made us beans on toast for dinner as he was meeting him mum round the bungalow at 6pm for wallpaper laying

he later phoned me "i dont have a pencil"

i could cry

he works so slow and is so disorganised im always picking up the pieces

but i guess he is busy and has a lot to think about 

he just is so slow doing anything.

so mum drove me over to the bungalow, pencil in hand, as i looked like death

delivered pencil and came away

its 9pm and he isnt home yet, hes got to shower all the paint and dust off himself yet!

I sat doing some school work at my desk to chill out to for an hour and means i have an hour's less work to do tomorrow, it chilled me out painting baby yoda 

tomorrow we are working from home for the first time ever on an insec day!

so we are gonna do that and do other bits like the bank, and let chris come see the bungalow as he said he would help and there is a lot he can help with to be honest.

got A LOT to do tomorrow, from bank, work, carpet shop, B&M for paint

i want to cry

its all too much 

i dont want the house anymore

just take it away

first 24 of the house

 Konbanwa~

We both slept well

but got up as I knew we had a lot to crack on with

so by 9am my dad had fired the chain saw up and got one his friends to help him

we went over about 9:30am, i didnt even get out my car I just dropped jack off XD

I had an easy morning as I was quite dead to be honest but I went to the corner shop with mum to get bread for lunch and helped but lunch together for the 3 guys

jack hadnt done an awful lot by lunch time due to him being on the phone to his mum then his nan....

But I made him sit and eat lunch and i made them all a hot drink 

just as jack was finishing his coffee his mum and step dad arrived, they wanted the grand tour then my brother turned up who also wanted the grand tour so i did that then he soon sloped off whereas jacks parents stayed and helped clean. jack and his mum took the kitchen and the other 3 men were outside decimating the garden. we have nothing left as sadly the trees were rotten and bushes were dead. so yeah it looks like a grave yard. but needed to be done. its now a blank canvas for mum

i left after 90mins as i could feel the cold seeping in my joints and my stomach knotting up 

so i went home, hoping i didnt look like a lazy, ungrateful selfish brat

i went online after i had measured things up at the bungalow and spent £140 on stuff for the bedroom and a few things for the house we needed

then i went and got warm in my bed

Jack came home and showered and we ordered pizza 

then we looked at stuff to decorate with on B&Q website. we managed to order everything apart from paint. like no paint in stock. its a bit worrying. so im hoping there might be something in store tomorrow i can pick up maybe, if not then i guess we will have to paint at a later state. but at least we have the wallpaper and stuff for now, spent a further £70 online there tho -______-

so i will go down and pick it all up tomorrow at some point in the morning

my dad and jack are going to the tip at 9am to get rid of all the garden waste 

and his mum is coming over to clean for a few hours in the morning as well

so another day to the bungalow, another day i cant really help out

im shattered and just had enough already whereas i should be excited and getting involved but once again my illess likes to make its self known and likes to ruin my life.

the kitchen isnt even fully cleaned yet. everything is taking sooooooooo long